Freedom

Today is all about Freedom. It’s a theme that keeps coming up for me, as I’m sure many of you are experiencing the same theme in your life. With all the shifts and events happening in the universe that affect us here on earth, it is hard to stay the same. More and more we are being pushed to emerge from our shells, and step out of our comfort zone. Many of us are very resistant to the process of the universe; thus making it so much harder on ourselves. The time has come, things….we are changing. As we wake up from our sleep state, as we begin to feel energy, to look for deeper meanings, and the answers to who we are within; we can find freedom. A sense of liberation, that makes us feel alive and free; but with this comes responsibility.

The responsibility to take ownership of everything we bring (manifest) into our life and everything we say and do. There is no more victim state, there is only you….there is new ways of thinking and being. Taking yourself out of the moment to reflect before you act, to think to yourself “Okay, now why did this happen? What am I being shown or taught?” With being awakened, you become a beacon of light and of love. You begin the journey you were meant to take; the journey you choose for yourself before you came here. The journey of unlearning everything you were taught that doesn’t resonate with you, of becoming everything you were meant to be. To become a beautiful masterpiece.

It’s along this journey that freedom finds you. Freedom from a job that doesn’t fulfill you, from friends (and maybe even family) that are toxic to your wellbeing, from everything that does not fill you with beautiful light and love. And over time you will find freedom to step outside of your comfort zone, and try something you never thought you would. That is where I am at in my journey, taking my next steps (or leveling up) in my faith and belief in the universe, and myself. I must say, being outside of my comfort zone has been very nerve wreaking and scary for me but I keep reminding myself to be fearless. There is nothing here to fear, it is only because it is unknown that I am fearful and that will surely pass as I learn how to navigate this new terrain.

We all have to start somewhere, and work our way through it. Learning and growing as we go. Experiencing the world with different eyes from one day to the next. So much can happen in a day, that we never leave it the same way we entered it. Even if the changes are so small we don’t notice them, each day affects us and in some way changes us; but what most don’t see is that we have the freedom to make our day the best day or the worst day. We can choose if the actions of others will affect us or not, we choose every part of our life. That is why freedom, is so powerful gift; a gift that is mostly taken for granted.

Free yourself from yourself, get out of your way and see what happens. Think before you act off of muscle memory. Not everything needs to be defended, and not everything is worth getting upset over. Save your energy for things that matter, save your energy to spread love. It’s what we all crave, but rarely receive.

 

Blessings.

Xo Faye

Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

Connect within

I have been so unlike myself in so many ways. Becoming everything I am, and discarding everything I am not. With that comes a huge transition, one of which I wasn’t prepared for.

I cry so often now, not because I’m sad but because everything is so beautiful. I am easily moved to tears by even the simplest of things. Gentle, and soft is who I’ve been lately. I am still rough around the edges but, for now at least, they seem to be unimportant.

There have been moments, often just as I wake up, where I think of how lucky all of us are to be alive. All the wonderful things we are capable of; all the beauty that lives within us. This human experience is something so different from any other. As I see through my eyes, I wonder how others see the world and what filters they still have attached to their eyes. I see the world differently than most, I know. Seeing all the beauty that is surrounds us, the butterfly sitting in the sun warming his wings, the caterpillar crossing the road, the birds singing, the baby deer prancing across the field but how do others see? Do they focus on the negative side of life, or the positive? What moves them to tears? What sadness do they carry with them? These are all things I think about in my time alone.  It is just absolutely incredible to me how we even exist in the first place, what a magical experience indeed.

I find myself wondering how I got here, to this beautiful place and how lucky I am to be surrounded with love. Love that I’ve carved into my life and into my soul. The closer I become my true self, the stronger I feel the connected I am to all things. I have never had so much confidence or self-love; now wondering why I ever treated myself so harshly to begin with.

A lot of things have changed, myself included. I am never the same person from day to day; my transformation is proof of that. I have learned so much in life but what I see more clearly than ever is love is the true magic of the universe. It can brake all barriers, it can defeat hate and it fills us with more bliss then we knew existed. Love multiples, it is contagious once ignited and what a beautiful sight to see indeed.

xoxo

Take on depression

What is depression, really!? Why are so many affected by it; there is a reason why it’s the top leading illness in the world but why?

By ignoring our soul’s purpose, we are killing our spirits. By staying in places that aren’t meant for us or with people who bring us no joy, we are killing our spirits. We aren’t always meant to be where we want to be and it can be difficult to let go; but its’ killing us.

By living a lie, and being a fake version of ourselves, we are killing our spirits. When you live a life that isn’t true to you, you can never find true happiness. You may find little blips of happiness here and there but it never stays and it never lasts long. The blips are simply there to show you how your life could be, if you could see that you hold the key to your happiness.

Instead we rely on alcohol, drugs and passions of the flesh to take us out of our misery. Hoping for just a moment the pain will stop, forgetting all your worries and letting it all melt away. All the while not seeing that we then depend of the things that bring us relief because it is the only way we know how to cope. Walking around like zombies hopped up on drugs that do more harm than good. Depression is simply a soul sickness. Once you address that cause of the sickness it will all go away, just like that.

You have to find yourself, live the life that you want to live. Come out of the closet, quit that job you hate, clear out your friends list, over haul your life. Clear out the clutter, the noise, and the negativity energy that has been keeping you down. This is YOUR life take control of it. Stop listening to that voice in your head, it is a liar! Every time a negative thought comes to mind, quickly switch to a positive one. It won’t be easy, but don’t give up!

Love yourself, find a place within you that you can find comfort and a home. Forgive yourself for the things you have and haven’t done, it’s time to move forward. Don’t be so hard on yourself, you’re a work in progress. Once you start to love who you are, everyone will notice it. People beaming the same energy as you will be attracted to you and you to them. What you seek is always seeking you. So why not seek out that loving positive energy.

So within, so without. How you feel about yourself will always become your reality. Everyone you meet has something to teach you, we are all here to learn from each other. Our friends, and lovers are all a reflection of ourselves; they act like mirrors. If you don’t like what you see, then you can always change it. You are only a prisoner to this live if you choose to be. Brake free, you hold the key!

Find your passions, find your purpose. Having a life of meaning and purpose is the easiest way to find happiness. Nurture your soul and spirit, show yourself love and kindness; and watch your life transform before your eyes. Just allow yourself to be in the present, get out of the past it holds you back and get out of the future, it hasn’t happened yet.

Depression is only a state of being, it is only permeant if you allow it to be. You are much more worthy and beautiful then you even realize. Anything is possible when you believe. Take action to change; put in the work, and you will find your way.

 

xoxo

Names aren’t simply names

Lately I have noticed how much I dislike my first name, Amanda. I have never really liked my name but it has only been recently where it has bothered me in a way; so much so that I wanted to explore this further.

I have never really given my name another thought that is what I was given so that’s what it is. I have out grown so much in my life and in myself that maybe this is just another extension of that. Amanda just doesn’t seem to fit anymore; this could be due in part to my parents calling me by my middle name, Faye. Amanda is a little girl who is afraid of everything and everyone. A little girl who is filled with heart break, pain, and loss. A girl who is self-destructive, and doesn’t even try to get what she wants because she believes that she deserves nothing. I have out grown all of these old ways of thinking and these ways of merely existing. Faye on the other hand, is a beckon of light and of undying hope. She is a messenger of love, leaving behind her a trail of love everywhere she goes. Faye is not afraid of the unknown but is rather excited by it; for the unknown is where all possibilities lye. She knows that she is worthy of all the love and happiness that the world can offer. Faye is simply a fairy on her way to earning her wings.

I have shed the skin that no longer fits, so why not change my name along with it.

 

Have a wonderful day everyone xoxo

 

 

Freely Give

I woke this morning thinking about Love and how it has made my life so valuable. How me giving love so freely has aided me, and how receiving love has only lead me to all the growth I have accomplished.

My love of hooping for instance, has shown me how beautiful I am. It has help me to build my confidence, and patience. From it, I have begun to trust myself more and more. I have never felt so good about myself, or had a healthy positive feeling about myself. It has helped me smile when I just want to cry, release from the stress of the day but most importantly of all it has helped me connect with myself. When the hoop wraps around me, I feel a surge of feminine energy that lives within me. It helps me release any and all false parts of myself and allows me to be the beautiful, fierce, goddess that I am. Hooping simply makes me come alive, more alive than I have ever been. It’s a love that I share with the hula hoop, it’s a desire to find myself, and it’s a practice that takes courage and devotion, its love in its true form. The love we carry for ourselves shapes and molds our entire lives, so if you find something (positive) that makes you feel free than never let go of it.

The love I have given to friends, family and lovers most of which have walked out of my life has changed me in the best ways. It has shown me that my love for them was never dependent upon theirs; I still hold love for them in my heart. Hoping that they find everything they are looking for in life. I no longer try to stop others when they want to leave my life, I simply let them. If our time together has come to an end than that’s how it’s meant to be. It simply means I’ve learned all that I needed to from them or they have learned all they were meant to from me. All relationships are not meant to last forever, I understand that now. I will always wear my heart on my sleeve because that is where it was always been. I will not stop giving my love freely because I do not get it in return or because others do not understand it. I love for me, and no one else. I give love freely because everyone deserves to be loved. Do to others as you’d want them to do to you. That is how I have always lived my life, and I always will. I expect nothing from you in return, my love is free. Everyone is different and I cannot expect from them as I would do, I can only control my actions and reactions.

Love is the best give you can give anyone but first you must find it for yourself. People may be hard to love, love them anyways they are the ones who need it the most. Some of us lock our hearts away, or build walls around them, love them anyway they are simply afraid. We all defend ourselves whatever way works best for us, love is the answer to every question and to every sorrow. Love is all we need and all we crave. Simply open your heart and give love to another and watch how it brightens their day. Watch how contagious love is, and how it spreads like wild fire when given the chance. We are all born with love in our hearts, it never leaves us. We simply push it down out of fear, but what happens if you let it rise. If you let love engulf every ounce of your being, wouldn’t life be so much more enjoyable.

Love is all there is, it is all that matters. It’s a universal language that everything understands and that everything is born from.

 

XOXO

Judgments unnecessary

In my quest of finding my authentic self I have come to see the importance of not judging others. You hear it all your life but yet we still find time to judge. We make fun of and laugh at people at their expense. We all just want to be accepted so why do we do still do this?  In my experience I would make fun of others when I was bored, or because they were different than me. Often times the things I didn’t understand were the things I made fun of. Not knowing that I was lonely and sad and was reflecting that onto others. This is also why none of my teenage relationships worked out. You cannot be a negative person and expect a positive outcome that just is not the way life works. You get what you give, this is a lesson I have had learn the hard way, many, many times. It was not until I started to question my own motivates that my life began to transform. When I begin to judge another I take a step back and say “Wait. What is it about them that reflects me and causes me to judge them?” There are reasons why we judge the people that we judge; may it be jealously, envy, or hate. Whatever the reason, there is something inside of you that you’re reflecting onto them. There have been times when my husband judges a homeless person and tells me they should get a job if they are asking for change in parking lots. I told him “you don’t know their story, so it is not your place to judge.”  Its thinking like this that will transform your world. Try it out the next time you go to judge someone; you may be surprised what you find.

I have heard people say “that’s where you accept them for who they are and love them anyway”, this does not work for me. If I do not like the way someone treats others, or just the energy they bring to the table then I will not be around them for very long. I will not accept or love them anyways. When people are rude and nasty to others, I don’t believe that is who they truly are. It’s simply what they were taught and how they have had to be; I believe there is still good inside of them. Now that doesn’t mean I will stick around to bring out this good, I am simply saying it’s there.

There are few people that I feel deeply connected too but when I find one of these people it is easy to get lost in the connection. I have really only found a three or four people that I vibe with on such a deep soul level. One is my best friend, she is a gypsy in every way and I love her so much. The amount of freedom she has is something that I respect very highly. My reiki master is another that I vibe with; every time we are together we always get chills. I am not sure what links us in such a deep way but I know that something does.  My sister is one of these connections as well. I have just found this connection with her, which I have talked about before. Another is a new person that I have just felt this connection with, which has thrown me off guard. I have not hung out with them long enough to see why this connection is there but I know there is some reason. I am someone who looks for depth in my friendships; I don’t want to know what’s up. I want to know how your feeling deep within yourself, what your view of life are, what are the things you believe in the inner most core of your soul. This kind of depth is hard to find in our society. Every person that comes into our lives has a lesson to teach us, I am a true believer of this.

Open your heart, show empathy to others, keep a positive mind and watch your life transform before your eyes. The only people we can control is ourselves, so be the best version of yourself that you can be.