Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

Times of transformation…

On Wednesday I got one of my attunements for my reiki master class. The last time I got a reiki attunement was four years ago, when I finished level two. It took me months to feel anything from it; but this time it totally different.

This time it took a matter of hours to start feel myself being cleansed. It started with my sinuses acting up but that has now subsided. The main issues I have felt today besides being tired is my throat hurting. It hurts to the point that I have all but lost my voice, when it was fine yesterday. Thinking about this actually makes me smile in gratitude. I know that I am adjusting to the new state of being and existing and that this is a needed part of my beautiful transformation. I believe my throat is being cleansed for one of two reasons; either I need this time to be still, to be quiet with my thoughts or  it is to rid myself of the blocks in my communication so that I may easily and accurately express the ways I am feeling.

I have always had a hell of a time saying how I feel, which I have always found rather funny, since writing comes so easily to me. Everything I don’t know how to say just seamlessly pours out of my fingers with ease without thinking twice. Speaking doesn’t do most emotions justice, if something leaves me in complete awe and wonder no words can make you feel that; only energy can make you feel that. When you write you put your energy into it. You leave a little piece of yourself behind in every sentence you write.

Speaking has always been difficult for me as I often trip over my tongue, so to speak, thinking far too fast for my mouth to say how I feel. Often times I am unable to bring myself to say things out loud because than it’s real, and being real can come to a punch in the face at times. I feel everything so passionately and so deeply that every moment touches my soul in a deeply profound way.

The relationships that I have with others are all cherished, my emotions simply run so deeply. That is why this time of reflection is so important for me, this is also why I have felt the need to unplug from the world lately. To get lost in a new experience and see where it takes me; too see what I find.

Life can become so mundane and dull if we allow it to be, often looking beyond the beauty that surrounds us every day. When you see the same things everyday it becomes easy to take them for granted, to lose your appreciation for them. It can become easy to forget why you fell in love in the first place, but only if you allow yourself too.

I often move things around, removing things that no longer make my heart overflow with love. If the things in my home do not add to my happiness or to the love that resides within me, than it has no place in my home or in my heart. This is really true for life in general, if the things and people we surround ourselves with do not aid in our light, and make our hearts overflow with love than they have no purpose in our lives.

It is so simple.

Life is a beautiful work of art, at times it may be abstract and other times it may be realism, either way it is a masterpiece and moves you in some way.

 

xoxo

Perspective

As I was writing in my journal this morning, I was guided to pick a single card from my fairy deck. This card would represent where I, and the world are currently at in this process of spiritual ascension….

6 of Autumn

The autumn season replaces coins in traditional tarot, and is the element of earth.

Meaning:
The good you do come back to you
Replaying debts
Balance in giving and receiving
Providing what is truly needed
Unexpected inflow of money

I must say this truly is the perfect card for the current time, at least for me.

I have always said life is about perspective. But perspective means nothing if it doesn’t change, grow and evolve.

As this time has been impactful for all us, for me, it has been a time a deep gratitude and kindness. Kindness to others, but mostly to myself. In this time of transformation alot of my darkness has surrounded me; to make me stronger and grow more than I thought I could. This darkness pushes me, driving me to the best soul I can be. This is where i found my gratitude; having these out of body experiences have allowed me to see beyond my eyes. It allows me too see just how truly incredible the human body is; by simply thinking of moving your hand…it moves. Incredible.

I have gained a entirely new, beautiful, grateful perspective of life; body, mind, and soul. And just how beautiful it is when they all align in a state of peace, comfort and love.

xo

Find your identity

I see on social media everywhere how people act  when they are in relationship with someone, that person becomes their world. They seem to lose their identity in the other person, when I see this I often wonder why people let this happen. This is why it becomes so difficult to leave negative relationships; you start to think “Who am I without them?” and we are often left with the answer being “Nothing.” But why!? It doesn’t have to be this way, and what does it accomplish for us? Putting everything in another person’s hands, more often than not, nothing good can come from it.

Relationships are supposed to enhance our lives, not become them. We are meant to have our own lives with our own goals and accomplishments; to be independent in the things we do. So then when we come together we can enrich each other’s lives. To be happy with yourself and in your life, can only bring more happiness into the relationship you share with another. We are meant to have our hobbies, passions, and jobs. We are meant to spend time apart so that we can appreciate the time spend together. We’re meant to expand our partner’s view of the world by allowing them to step into our world; by doing things that we wouldn’t ordinarily do.

I love my husband, he is one of the most important people in my life, but if I had to spend every moment with him I would go crazy! I need time away from him, to do the things that I love. I need time for myself, by myself. I feel that, that is one of the most important parts of a healthy relationship. I could be all wrong but this is what has worked so well for me. My whole point is don’t lose yourself when you’re in a relationship, all you truly have is yourself, own t and love it.

Another way out…

I think I may have went over this topic before but I feel the need to speak out about it once again…..

Depression is a cruel, ugly monster. It starts out small, and seemingly meaningless ways but eventually grows bigger and digs its roots deeper over time. Leaving is feeling that we are alone, that there is no way out, and we will feel like that forever. I am here to tell you that depression is a liar!!

You are NOT alone, I know that it may seem this way but I can guarantee you that someone you know is dealing with the same things that you are, they just don’t talk about it. We see all the filters on Instagram and Social media as a whole, we are so good at adding a “happy” filter that it only leave us more drained and more depressed. We are not robots, we have emotions for a reason. We need truth, realness and authenticity; we need to feel that we are not alone. Talk to someone you trust about the ways your feeling, you may be surprised to know they are going through the same or similar things that you are.

There is always a way out, you have to find it. Fight those negative voices in your head; they have never served you well in the first place. Replace them with positive thoughts, ones that make you smile or laugh. Laughter is the best medicine, it can make you feel happy even when you’re not. Forever is a long time, don’t let a passing storm of depression take up space in your beautiful blue sky. Don’t give into it, fight it!

Look within yourself, see what is missing. Love yourself, give yourself the love and kindness you easily give to others, you are just as deserving as they are of love and happiness. Forgive yourself for the past, and stop worrying about the future. Be in the present, this is the only time you will ever be this old. This is the only time you can make memories, the only time you can feel alive!

Please know that suicide is not the answer, I know that it may feel like it but it isn’t. You have so many lives left to touch, and to touch yours. Talk to someone about the ways your feeling, reach out. We all live in a world were social media rules all, we wait for nothing and judge everything and everyone; and have no patience.  This is a society of lies and falsities.  It may seem like the end of the world when your peers do not accept you, or when you don’t fit in.

There were many times I didn’t have any friends at all, I would go to school and come home. It was a bummer that I wasn’t experiencing the same things as all the other kids in school but I also didn’t want to fit in if it meant I had to fake everything about myself. High school is not the best time of your life, it is only the beginning of it. I will be 30 this year, and the best times of my life have only begun. So please, don’t feel that life won’t get better because it will! Remember when someone calls you names or whatever, it says more about them than you.

You are beautiful, you are strong, and you are light. Love who you are, the good and the bad. Love all of you, that is where your power lies and once you’ve found that you will be a unstoppable force to reckoned with.

 

Xoxo

 

p.s.- Sorry to my absence I have wonderful news I want to share with all of you! Due to all the love we have spread through my blog and Instagram I have decided to open a boutique filled with things that bring me joy and love. Spreading of love, and positive vibes for everyone. The shop will be opening soon, if anyone would like to join I will leave a link below. ❤

https://www.facebook.com/groups/1085232378279355/

Journey of truth

I read an article yesterday posted by a dear friend, and it got thinking about light workers; even more so than I already had. One of the biggest misconceptions about the road to enlightenment or spirituality is that it’s easy. That it is all about light and love and nothing else. This couldn’t be further from the truth. Take it from someone who has been on her journey for several years now, this choice is not easy in anyway. When you decide to strip yourself of everything you were taught or has ever happened to you, it comes and slaps you in the face; it won’t go away until you let it go. The road to enlightenment isn’t easy, if it was there would be a lot more enlightened people.

This journey, like most of value, is painful, frustrating, ugly, dark and everything in between. Venturing onto the road of enlightenment is truly venturing into the deepest, darkest parts of yourself. This is how transformation accrues; the butterfly isn’t made in the light. The caterpillar first must spend months in the darkness to find her beauty before showing it to the world.  We, humans, are no different. Light is the place of rest, gratefulness, harmony, and love. All of which cannot be appreciated without the lessons of the dark.

As with everything, there will always be people who proclaim to be light workers or enlightened but those that are light workers don’t go around bragging or even saying that they are. Everyone knows their truths, we also know the difference between lies and truths. There will ALWAYS be people who crave attention, and will say anything to get it. I, myself, believe that is very possible that I am a light worker but that isn’t a term that I really use. I simply say I work with the light, the light lives within me, it allows me to use what has been given to me. This is not something that I go around screaming from the roof tops; this is sacred to me. It is a deep part of who I am, and anyone who knows me see that. The right people know, and the others don’t matter.

I often hear “don’t feed that negativity” but negativity is natural. Yes, I do believe that you shouldn’t feed negative energy, such as seeing animals being cruelly treated or go around with negative self-talk in your mind, or complain non-stop about everything. But the point is, it is all a part of life and in being someone aligned with the light you will always experience highs and lows; it’s like a never ending cycle really.  We need to vent, and let out all the negativity. Getting it out of our bodies in a positive way is what’s important. Harboring feelings of negativity and pushing them down, or feeling wrong for having them can be far more damaging than anything else.

What people must realize is the spiritual journey is about unbecoming everything you were conditioned to be. This is why it’s challenging, and downright suck sometimes but once you do the work, the other side of that is a brilliant feeling of euphoria, peace and love. That I can guarantee.

Journal Talk

An excerpt from my journal:

We are meant to live simply within the trees and confines of nature. I don’t know why we cannot be a modern civilization and still live amongst the stars, wild and free.  Keeping all the trees and water natural, as they were intended to be; keeping all the beauty our great mother has given us and shown us. Why can’t we keep building small and the roads of grass or moss? Keeping communities small and orderly, we would have no need for cars or trucks. Everything that we needed would be there for us in our community; with everyone having a job working hard to survive and for happiness. This is my dream for myself, and all of us. Braking down the big cities that confine us, that feed the darkness and remembering what it is to live simply, and slowly. No being ruled by a clock, stress, worry, fear or money.

No one person is meant to hold power over all of us, and no person is meant to hold all the money of the world for himself. The time is upon us, the time of darkness is quickly approaching us. It will be the time of extreme violence to all who oppose the darkness. This must happen, it will be the last bit of darkness on this earth that needs to be cleared so that we can find peace on earth. The lightworkers on earth will be ready and waiting to rebuild when the time is right. We must live in darkness to find our way to the light. We must let the darkness transform us, and change us so that we can find the light. For all things need their time in the dark, it is where transformation happens.

Humanity will find its way, it is only a matter of time. Until then we can all do our part of self-care and love. So within, so without. Once we understand we create the world around us, everything will change.

For me all I can do is give energy to the things I love and am passionate about. I see the future I want for myself and I will not stop until it becomes my reality.

Xo

Namaste

Illusion of life

Death is the illusion that after our body no longer functions that it’s the end for us; the permeate end, never experiencing anything again.  For me this is simply that, an illusion. Something that man has created to push us towards worshiping a god, looking to the sky for answers. When all the answers we seek can be found not in a man living in the heavens, but within ourselves.

To me the thought of heaven being home is simply our souls in the true form, without a body to cage us in. It is not a place where little babies in diapers dance on clouds; it is simply the where our souls exist. The thought of death is something I do not believe, when my body turns weak and burns out my soul will live on. I will return to my blissful, peaceful state of being. I will live again in another body, in another way. My soul does not die, so “death” is only a part of my soul’s evolution.

As most of you know I am not a religious person, when I hear people talking of God I simply switch it out for universe. To me that makes so much more sense than the stories of a man, a demi god really, coming to save all of those who worship him. Man is always looking for a reason to be the best they can be but why can’t we just be decent human beings for none other than for love. Why is it that man needs an excuse or reason to be decent? Is it because they aren’t truly that way but feel compelled or obligated to be decent? Always afraid of being judged by everyone, even by God when the times comes; I feel as if this all seems far too complex for it to be truth.

Whatever you believe the purpose of life is to learn and grow. Learn from all those around you, even those that you do not get along with. We have lessons to learn from all of those around us. To grow the soul through whatever means necessary; we choose to have bodies so that we can experience pain and hurt. The meaning of life is to find love within yourself for yourself and all those around you. To find your calling, and let it transform your life in beautiful ways; to live simply and to simply live.

As I have said before, life is easy it is us that complicate it. Sit back, relax, take in the beauty and just breathe.

 

xoxo

What is “normal”?

I find the term “normal” mundane and boring leaving little chance for happiness and soul exploration. How can anyone find themselves if they are told they have to fit in a mold, no matter what conforming does to them. It’s no wonder so many people are unhappy. “Normal” to me is overrated and I don’t truly understand the meaning of “normal”. I am weird by nature, loving crystals, sage, hula hooping, and energy work. So would that my standard or level of “normal” since it is “normal” to me? For someone who is into fashion, or trends my view of “normal” would be abnormal, and vice versa. So is “normal” based solely on our perspective and options; if that is true than why aren’t we allowed to find our own sense of “normal”?

The concept of “normal” can be found on television, or in magazines, believing everything you read or see to be true. Thus living your life according to what you see and read. Setting your expectation of life to be higher than your reality, leading to life being unfulfilling and unhappy. That sadly has become the truth for many of us. Don’t believe everything you’re told or read. Look beyond the illusion, and look within yourself for the answers.

 Find your truths, your passions and what makes your soul come alive. Form your own level of “normal”; and live in a “normal” that you can be happy in. Don’t let others set it for you, that is a sure fire way to end up unhappy. Break the mold, unconform, be true to you and find your place. It’s okay to brake some rules in life, and this is one of them.

Free Writing

I have come to find that everything is not as it seems. People often are wolfs in sheep’s clothing. They pretend to be exactly opposite of how they are. Why it is that humans do this? A dog would not act a certain way only to bite your hand off. He will act as if he wants to bite your hand off. I have a lot of beautiful connections in my life but none like the one I share with my dog. He is always happy to see me, always greets me with a smile and some wet kisses. He always acts like each time I come home is the first time he has seen me. He happy simply with the food and love I give him, he doesn’t ask for anything more. He gives me his love, unconditionally. He hides nothing from me, he is simply happy that we are together. Why can’t people act more like this? Life isn’t about being cool, it isn’t about what color your skin is, or what religion you are. It’s about love, and the connections we share with people.  It’s about being kind and showing compassion. It’s about helping one another, despite our differences. It’s about all that most have seen to lost. I see it in larger cities, where everyone only cares for themselves, and will pass a stranger in need without thinking twice. They don’t say “thank you” to the waiter and they throw a fit when things aren’t perfect. They are in a rush to get nowhere, and they are ALWAYS on their phone. Money rules the world, and there by nothing else matters.

It is sad to me, a girl from the country, that people find it okay to live like this. I was raised to always say “Thank you” when given something, no matter who it’s from. To always be kind over being rude, somethings you cannot control. Sharing a smile with a stranger could brighten their whole day, and to always treat others how you would want to be treated. Life doesn’t work the way that you want it to, according to your rules. Life isn’t fair and sometimes it plan sucks. Working hard is the only way you can ever get the things you want in life, they will not be handed to you. Love is free, it cannot be bought no matter how hard you try. Life is simple, yet we make it so changeling.

I will always prefer my home in the country, to city life. I need wide open spaces, I need room to breathe, to feel the energy of the trees, to see the beautiful sights and smells of the flowers, to see deer running through the woods, to hear the songs of the birds and the meditative sounds of the streams. I need it all, it’s who I am. That is my peace on earth, my sanctuary.

I truly believe if people got away from the buildings that humans have created and lived among nature that they would find all that they were looking for. That violence and crime rates would go down, that overall life would improve. When you live in a false world you’ve created nothing good can come from it; the concrete we use to build with holds and gives off a void of energy. It is not alive, so it is an energy void, which then comes back to us. But if you live among the trees, among the plants, they you will be given the gift of positive energy. You will be enlightened and enriched with the love of our great mother. She knows what her children need, it is her children who refuse to listen.