With darkness comes light

August has arrived, how is everyone feeling?? It got a little rough (& dark) there for a little while, didn’t it? Feels good to be rebooting back into myself again. How was this transformational period for everyone? A lot of stuff came up didn’t it; talk about rebirth!

The full moon & lunar eclipse (along with planets going retrograde, solar storms & everything else) left me exhausted and drained, in a way I haven’t experienced for quite some time. I saw (& am still seeing) synchronicities around me. In the way of animals (mostly birds, as I am in bird medicine currently), numbers, & things just aligning perfectly. I was having a huge issue with stagnant energy in my sacral (stomach). Then here comes moon goddess and says “I’ll help you with that!” I even had dreams of a boyfriend I had when I was 18. Spirit, universe and the moon all wanted to be sure that I got the message (they know it takes me awhile sometimes), and I totally did. Actually it was more like this total epiphany, & awakening unlocking everything for me. Looping themes & boundaries, were two HUGE topics for me.

I began my work with serpent energy, as she symbolizes rebirth, she helped me get energy flowing again. As soon as it started to flow I was a releasing queen. Things were coming up left & right to be let go of, released and detached from. I haven’t been in that victim state of mind in a while but there it was a part of myself still felt that way, so I got rid of all of it. I do not need the past (or baggage) to define me or who I am. Like many things the easiest stuff always goes quickly then you get to the real stuff. When you hit a certain level of depth within yourself & you had no idea that stuff was even there, that’s the challenge. That’s the test from the universe to see if you’re really wanting change as much as you say you do. I believe the universe & spirit to be a no nonsense kind of force, you either are willing to work for it or you’re not.  She is all about action, and putting the work in.

I went to depths I didn’t even know existed within me. I felt it too, my physical body was done. I took naps, which I never do, just because my body needed it. I had a list full of things I wanted to accomplish but none of it got done; it was okay though I needed the rest. It felt like my light body was advancing at such an accelerated speed that my physical body couldn’t keep up. I took the time I needed, that is such an important thing to do. When your body tells you, “Hey, I need a brake” then listen. It is okay to rest momentarily & pick everything up later. I went into my sacred space & spent a lot of time there. I withdrew from society for a little while because I needed too. For me, I cannot be social while still going deep into myself; I’t just doesn’t work for me. I spent a lot of time in nature, it called out to me. There was one day where every time I’d come home I’d be called right back outside again. I needed the love from mother, I needed her support.

And here we are now, its August & there is a magic in the air. I find myself taking the first steps into my new life & my new ways of being. I have set boundaries with myself & stand powerfully in them. I even stood up to my mother & didn’t feel bad about it (which has been a huge looping theme for me). I am in my power, & if I’m being honest, it feels amazing. I have been so proud of myself to tell the world what I will & will not accept. It’s a truly empowering feeling all on its own & once you start, you’ll only want more. I see myself spiraling out of the orbit of my old self, none of that serves me anymore. I have really just come to a place where I am sick of the reruns, the same crap that plays over & over again. I am just over it & am moving forward.  I am ready to receive everything that I have been working hard to manifest.

I am ready to walk into my new life. I am ready for everything I always knew was waiting for me. I am ready to shine, inspire & to create. I am ready for happiness, joy & love. I am ready for it all. I am ready to leave the old me behind & walk with strength, courage & love into a new chapter.

I want you to know that you can change your life, you are the master & creator of your destiny. A happy life always starts with a grateful heart. Everything you’ve ever wanted is out there waiting for you, go get it!

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Life like dreams that stick with you

Okay darlings, I had a dream last night that I want to share. It was so vivid and real that it was like I was awake and it was really happening. I don’t know why I had this dream, as mine normally always have a meaning behind them. I don’t know if I shared a life with this person or what. But please tell me your take on this dream….

I was with the ghost adventure guys somewhere. We all laughing in the car but it was raining really hard and you couldn’t really see anything. So we pulled over for the rain to slow down. While we were waiting we decided to use thermal on this staircase up a hill just to see what we would get, if anything. So zak puts the thermal on and see a guy walking in shorts, just as he see it Billy yells out there is a guy is shorts up there. It sees is, it starts to run down the stairs. We think its a real person since we see it clear as day. Zak sees this thing run down the stairs, straight at him and when it reaches him its turns to a dark cloud and disappears. We all are shook up by what just happened. We get back in the car and I sit next to Billy. I look into his eyes, which are like a light brown color, and bam! I have feels for him, simply by looking into his eyes I see everything I have ever needed. Soon after that I start acting strange; I tell everyone that smoke is starting to affect me. I start crying, like ugly crying uncontrollably. I say “that bitch killed me, I can’t believe she did it” and everyone is looking at me with fear and excitement. They kept saying her eyes, they’ve changed. I saw a lot of red hot anger. I finally am able to get control over my body and kick the spirit out. I start saying “I am the light you have no power over me. Light radiates from every ounce of my being. I am light and love, i surround myself with it now.” I then am wearing a white slik dress, I am completely surrounded by white light. It’s coming from everywhere, especially my hands. I look over at Billy who is being affected by something negative and I can tell wants to harm me. I lay my hands on his hand and tell the spirit to leave this man; he has no room for negativity in his body. And he instantly said he feels better than he ever has. We finally get to the hotel, check in and there was a mix up with the rooms and we now have to share rooms. So as we walk up Billy asks if he can share a room with me. I say “Sure as long you don’t judge me for farting in my sleep, or anywhere in the room” we laugh and he says he wont. So we go into our room to find there is only one king bed. I told him that I didn’t mind sharing it’s a huge bed. So I got dressed for dinner and out of the clothes id been wearing since we got there. He gave me this look, and I knew that he’d seen the same thing in me that id seen in him. His eyes sparkled and he smiled and said “you are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever had the pleasure of sharing a room with” I laughed and said “I think that’s a complaint so I’m running with it, thank you” as I smiled. We went to dinner with everyone had some drinks and came back to the room. I tell him this is where the no judgement part comes in. I get in my pjs which is really a huge t-shirt and get in bed. I was watching tv and he got in bed and looked over at me. He turned off the tv and asked me to tell him about me. So I did….I told him about my late husband who had died a year earlier in a car accident. How much I loved him and always will but that I need to find love again for me. There are still so many things I want out of life. He asked if I wanted to cuddle and i told him before i fell asleep we could. He told me about himself, how he was divorced and never had the chance to have kids. Somewhere we began to kiss, which was a hardcore make out session. I took my glasses off and he said “You have the most beautiful eyes; I could look into them forever.” We cuddled and I told him “thank you” he sounded confused and said “for what?” I said “for everything. For making me feel so conformable with a car full of strangers; For being sweet and kid to me. I miss the tenderness of a man. So thank you for everything you are” he gave me a kiss on the check and said “You deserve it you’re one of a kind” he cuddle and I am trying to get comfortable so I shift my butt around. He says “If you keep doing that I will have something to poke you with” I laugh and say “oh god, I’m sorry” I get comfortable and fall asleep feeling the same way I feel when I cuddle with Mike. A bunch of stuff happened that I can’t remember so fast forward, our investigation is over and Billy asks me to come back to Las Vegas with him before I return home, i told him I would but only for a couple days as I need to return to Normie. We get to his house and remember being mesmerized by the beauty of it. We spend four days together, and we both had fallen in love with each other. He asks me to stay with him; I told him that I had to return home to PA. He said “it’s across the country, I will miss you. I don’t think I can live without you” I told him I’d miss him too but I don’t live here so we’ll have to make trips and visit each other. That’s when he says “move in with me, live here. I have plenty of room.” I am hesitant, but eventually I do move out there and live with him. One day I try calling him and cannot get ahold of him. I cant find him anywhere. He finally pops up at one of his friends’ houses and I ask him to please come home I have some important news. He comes home and I tell him I’m pregnant with twins. A boy and a girl. He smiles and seems so happy. He later asks me to marry him and I said ” are you asking me because you love me or is it because we are having children?” He says “Its because of both. I love you and would of asked you eventually but since we’re having children why wait!?” I smile tell him to get off his knee and stand up. I tell him “I love you so much. I never thought Id find this love for someone again. But I don’t want to rush it because of kids. I will marry you, I do accept but I want you to know there is no rush. Love is the one thing you don’t rush” he asked “so yes then?” I smiled and nodded yes. We were both so happy and he said “see what i mean your one of a kind” We both smile. I have the twins and I even saw their names. It was a crazy dream. Then towards the end people are after me because the kids aren’t human. (WHICH could be the xfiles interfering)

The crazy thing I have never noticed Billy from the show before. I HAD never dreamt of him or any of that before. Mike being dead is one of my fears so that’s probably why that was in there but the rest I had to google.  I went to a trusted website for dream interruption for twins, this is what I found dreaming of fraternal twins may reflect problems with making a choice between two similar, yet different feeling options. Which makes sense to me since the things I do are for the love I have for them but I also need to make money to live. I wondered if I shared a past life with Billy, since it felt so real but that doesn’t necessarily mean that. It is just what my mind does; inserts random people into my dreams. This is not the first time it has happened and I am sure it will not be the last.

I also told my spiritual group about this dream since it felt so life like and someone said this which stood out to me “You were with a group of active people who share a passion for what they do. It is wonderful to be in a group like that.” Which resonates deeply with me, since I crave to find a group of people that I vibe with that enjoys the same things as I do; so for me this dream makes sense in some ways, and in other ways I still have no idea. It is just funny, I don’t remember my dreams for weeks and this is the one that I remember. Isn’t life so funny the way it works!!?

I will enjoy the dream I had and see the things that stand out the most and take that as the main purpose of the dream while everything else is just an added bonus.

Have a beautiful day everyone! xoxo