Love

I recently came across an article that talked about having three loves in a lifetime. I had never thought of love in that way, we all love but I never thought of how different each love is for us. I know that I loved many times in my life but looking at it now, I’ve loved in very different ways. There haven’t been many times in my life that I can say I was truly and completely in love. Often times the lines of love and lust got blurred. In my experience I have found that lust can never last the test of time, the foundation it is built upon is fragile and weak. It is only meant to be a short story in our lives, however I will admit that there have times when I knew it wasn’t right but stayed in it anyways, mistaking it for love, only seeing what I wanted to see was always my greatest weakness. So many of us want to be loved so badly by another, to receive what we have always desired yet we look for it in the wrong people. We are told that love is all about fireworks and butterflies but is it? I have had these feelings before and they haven’t stood the test of time.

This is how my first love began and ended. The story of my first love was one of unfulfillment, pain and struggle. He was my knight in shining armor, the one who scooped me up and rescued me from a life that I hated. It was the whole fairy tale image, it looked good on the outside but being in it was nothing like the fairy tales I had read as a child. It’s the love I stayed in because it mattered more to me that we looked happy than actually being happy. I didn’t love myself enough to say this is not what love is because I didn’t know what love was, I only had an idea of what it should be. I was young and naive, I thought that time was something that mattered in love and that with time would only bring  more love. Even if had never existed in the first place.

Then there was my second love, the one I wanted to be right. The one I wanted it to work with so badly that I forced it for as long as I could. It’s the one that had exceptional highs and the lowest of lows. I fought so hard for this love, it’s the one I didn’t want to let go of. It’s the love I felt deeper than the one before it, the one I felt a connection with, the one I thought would last a lifetime. At first this love felt perfect, I was all in from the beginning but somewhere along the way our paths begin to separate. This love allowed me the time to find myself, who I was and what I wanted. This love had given me the soul growth I needed, and it’s because of this I could see how love would change me. Perhaps that is why I held on for so long even though this love had fallen short of my expectations.

This is the love that I believe most of us stay in because we think it couldn’t be any better than this, or maybe we get hooked on the excitement of the high and attached to the pain of the low, knowing the roller-coaster ride will continue on a never ending loop. We become comfortable on this ride, knowing what is ahead. There is no unknown in this love, and for some of us that is okay. I am not one of them. I crave the unknown, I long for excitement in love, and I desire a love so strong that nothing can break it. A love so profound that it grows deeper with each breath I take, with every kiss and with each look into my lovers eyes. This is what I have found in my third love.

It’s a love that has broken every preconceived notion I had about love.  It came in unexpectedly, seemingly out of nowhere, with a man I never saw coming. This love has captured my soul in such a deep and profound way that I find myself amazed everyday by it. I am forever changed by the love I feel and the love I am given. It has allowed me to see myself in such a way of raw truth and honesty that I desire to be the highest, best version of myself.  There is no stormy weather, it’s a place of peacefulness, calmness and authenticity that I never thought love could be. I am accepted exactly as I am in all of my imperfections and with all of my broken pieces. I know see that I had to find out what I thought was love in order to find what love is.

This is the love I wish all of us find in our lifetime. We all deserve this kind of love and it is possible for each of us to attain it. When we make the hard choices for the right reasons, we are always rewarded. Even if the path looks dark, is unknown and you are completely lost, keep moving forward that is how life changing events are created. When we lean on our faith, when we use it as a tool of hope and inspiration we will always be shown the way, we just have to listen. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been with someone, love doesn’t care about time. There is no achievement award for love, especially for those that have stayed in a partnership that died long ago. Love shows up when it’s ready for you, it comes in when you least expect it and in a person you think it could never work with. Allow love, allow your faith to lead the way; when we do this anything is possible.

 

Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

I am everywhere

 

I start this day as a new slate, a new beginning
I am not my past, nor am I my present
I am more than skin & bone
I am sunkissed skin on a warm day, warm & inviting
I am a walk on a crisp autumn day, breathtakingly beautiful
I am the stars you gaze upon, claming your soul & making you feel at home
I am everywhere, I am everything
For I am love

We all become our parents

I’m sure everyone has heard “You grow up to be like your parents”. Most of us say, I will never be like that but then we grow up and we actually do become them. We may notice it in little things that we do, or how we do things. For instance, my mother has always cleaned her sink. As a child and even as a teenager I thought that was so weird, why would you be worried if your sink is clean or not? Now that I own a home, I too clean the sink. I did it a few times without even taking notice but one day I stopped dead in my tracks and thought, oh my I’ve become my mother. I was shocked but then started to laugh, I had always thought this was so weird but here I am doing and enjoying it; thinking to myself this sink has to be spotless.

Now that I have done a week of soul coaching it has brought to my attention some issues that I do that I wasn’t even aware of. This made me think, there are so many things are parents do that we obverse, and view as okay behavior. Even if we learn later that this behavior is not acceptable, we still (more than likely) will repeat it. While doing my lesson for yesterday one of these truths came forward and for the first time I noticed something about myself that I had never seen before. As most of you know I am married, my husband loves me very deeply and I him. I know that he wont leave me, so because I know this there are often times I am mean to him because I know I can be. I know that this is no way to treat someone that you love, and that loves you but for some reason I do it anyways. The reason, I was shown this behavior as a child, I picked it up and thought it was okay and have being doing it ever since. I always thought my actions were beyond this but here I am, seeing the truth. It sucks to know that I am hurting someone I love for nothing. So, I took the steps to change it. Since I am now aware of this, I can be more proactive when I get upset to say  to myself “Why am I doing this? Is there a reason behind it? Do I mean it?” I told this to my husband, apologized for being mean and told him to tell me when I’m being mean because often times I don’t know when I am.

We pick up good and bad habits form our parents; we watch everything they do and for the most part what to grow up to be like them. So as you grow and learn be sure you are aware of the person you have become. Make sure that it is your trustiest form of yourself and not the reflection of things you’ve been taught. Brake the pattern, take the steps to rid yourself of the things that do not serve your highest potential.

Gemstone Bracelet

I was recently in search of a gemstone bracelet that was fashionable but also used the stones I love. I have had gemstone bracelets before but the stones were square and would jab my wrist when I would write. So I looked around at what gemstone bracelets were out on the market. I came across Third Eye Gemstones. I looked at their website and started to read about the company. With every bracelet bought they donate money for 30 days of clean drinking water to someone in need. So I thought “If nothing else at least I will help someone in need.” I browsed for a while at all their selection of bracelets. I finally choose the karma cleanse bracelet. This one has Black Agate, Howlite, and Snowflake Obsidian. I got my bracelet in a large size since I don’t like them tight around my wrist. I have had this bracelet for a month or so now, and I still love it as much as I did when I first got it. I love the fact that its high quality, fashion and you help another in the process.

 

If anyone of you are looking for a gemstone bracelet I highly suggest you go to thirdeyegemstone.com and check out their selection.

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Live simply, Simply live

Why do many of us live no life at all? We grow up, go to work at a job (most) of us hate, get married and have kids. We work our lives away for things we are told we should have or that we “need” and then we die. What kind of life is that!?

 

Working is a important part of life, we need to make money to have anything in this world. However, so many of us have a job for the paycheck. We are not passionate about what we spend so much of our time doing, and for some working at a job you hate can really be soul sucking. Sucking away every little bit of yourself, until you are sick or absolutely measurable. I am one of these people. I worked at a job for three years that was only supposed to be a temp job. I hated the work, it was physical in the summer which killed my physical body. It was mindless and boring but it was easy, and a paycheck. I enjoyed the hours, and that it was part time so I got comfortable and stayed. It was until recently that I decided (with the support of my husband) that enough was enough. I took a huge leap of faith and left my job. I had no idea what I was going to do next to make money but it didn’t matter to me. As soon as I quit I felt a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and started to feel better. I no longer had to go to a job that did nothing for my spirit that did nothing for me as a person. I focused on recovering from the damage that had been done to my physical body, and getting back to a oneness I had once had. That is when I noticed just how draining it can be to go into a place day in and day out that you hate, doing the same things over and over again. Seeing the same faces of people that you for the most part can’t stand or have no respect for. I have found my focus, and is this blog. My passion for writing has been life long, and my life’s mission is to help others. So why not help help others with my words. I am still blown away that my words inspire others, and help them. I am humbled and in awe by this. I have been through a lot of things in my life and I just hope to help another not make the same mistakes as I did or to simply  know that they are not alone, ever.

 

So my message to all of you, live the life you want for yourself. Spent money on experiences not stuff. The memories you make on new experiences will be more fulfilling than any material item could ever be. Travel, see the world. Let the cultures of others open your eyes and your perspectives. Spend time with the ones you love, and the ones that inspire you. Be kind, be gentle, and above all love yourself. Radiate love through you, so you can spread that to others. Anything that doesn’t bring you joy or happiness doesn’t belong in your life.

 

Just remember to live simply, and to simply live.