Message from above

Last night I had someone ask for a reiki session, I had some time so I told them to come over. I have done many reiki sessions before, on many different people but this one I don’t think I’ll ever forget.

Before they even got here, their guides came to me and I knew how important it was that I do this. It was no longer a wanting to help them, it was a need to help them. I prepared the room as I always do, selected crystals for them, and prepared myself. They came over, I began the session and just like that over an hour had went by. I swear, every time I give or receive reiki time seems to melt away and almost not exist at all.

After finishing the session, I knew that I had helped them in every way I could. I knew that the light had won this battle and they now could heal, if they so choose it. As I said I have done many reiki sessions before but this one in particular left me feeling like a true warrior of light. The darkness no longer frightens me but rather makes me smile; I know my power and I know that light will continue to conquer the dark.

The message (& point of this) is spirit wants you to hear is this – Step into your power. It is time. Every answer you seek, is within. Everything you need, is within. Stop looking outward for help and begin to look within. Let go of the wrongs placed upon you, take responsibility for your life. Step into YOUR power. You have a beautiful power source waiting to be used. Forget everyone else, forget what they say, what they do, and how they act. This is YOUR time. Decide who you are, who you want to be. Find your truths, and let them shine. Step into YOUR power and let your light to shine so brightly, don’t be afraid if it’s too bright for others; their options don’t matter. Set boundaries for yourself, and stick to them. It is YOUR time, take care of yourself. Find the love you give to everyone else, for yourself. Find something that you love, and makes you come alive. It is YOUR time to be happy, to explore, and to be at peace. Let go of the past, the door is closed. Don’t look ahead to the future, its unknown. Live in the moment, day by day.  You will get where you want to be if you work hard, stay focused, and follow what you love.

Passion just like fear guides us to where we are meant to go, and who we are meant to be. If something is amazingly terrifying that is a clear sign you are meant to go that direction. Step in YOUR POWER. It is YOUR time to be the fierce force that you are. Don’t back down when it comes to your dreams, and never take “no” for an answer.

Step into your power and let it set you free.





Exciting News!!!

I wanted to share some exciting news with all of you!

I have been working on writing a book Open Yourself, Embrace Yourself for 3 years now.  When I started to write I didn’t think it was a book, until I put them all together. It is a beautiful work of art that I am so extremely proud of. I have poured my heart and soul into those pages, and I believe it shows. The art I had created by a friend, even the cover hold so much deep meaning for me.

My book is all about my journey, where I started and where I am now. All the lessons that got me there, and all the things I learned along the way.  I am human just like everyone else, and I want everyone to see that when you make a commitment to yourself amazing things start to happen.

I wish to inspire all of you who have not taken your journey, those who have just begun, and those who have already. This book is a part of me, and I wanted to share my heart with all of you.

Open Yourself, Embrace Yourself is available on Amazon. (Link in Bio)

It is available in paperback & for the kindle


I hope all of you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it.






Death & Rebirth

Over the past few weeks I have been going through quite a transformation; just as everyone else has. I feel as if I have just awoken from a long nap. I have done a lot of dying lately, turning to ash so that I may be reborn. More myself than ever before, with so much more love to bring to myself and the world. When you transform the way I have chosen, when you build the fire so big you can’t take the heat that is when true beauty is created. You allow yourself to die in a way, there is no past, not that matters anyways. There is only now, and what lies ahead.

In the death and rebirth of myself I have found so many treasures within. The things that always made me different from everyone, the things that always made me stand out, even when I wanted to hide. All of those things shine so brightly within me now.

Anyone can do what I have done. You simply have to be willing. Be willing to do the work. Take the time. Embrace change. Let go. Trust. Relax.

There are so many people gunning for you to be who you were meant to be, you just have to gunning for you too. Don’t ever give up on yourself. It is never too late.





Its time to look within

I feel pulled to write about the happenings that took place in Las Vegas. There are so many views from others but the one I have I haven’t seen said.

I just want to start out by saying that this is something that should have never happened, it is a loss that is felt by so many. My love goes out to the families that were affected by what happened. I will never understand acts of such darkness.

I want to start out by saying I believe that no one should be able to have an automatic weapon, there is simply no need for it.

I have heard many people say there needs to be more gun laws, the truth (at least mine) is that none of that matters, none of that will make any difference what so ever. People will always find a way to get a gun if they really want one.

I believe the real issue here is how unhappy, and unsatisfied Americans are. What we need to do is stop fighting with each other and unite as one. We need to talk more about mental health, to get to the root of the problem and not just throw pills at people. We need to understand that all the money in the world won’t make you happy, if you are not first happy with yourself.

We need to be taught how to love ourselves, and why that is so important.  We need to stop comparing ourselves to the people we see in the media. We need to listen to our intuition more, and everyone else less. We need to find happiness in our lives, we need fulfillment, joy and love.

This is a time when we need to look within. So within, so without. How you feel about yourself, will always be what reflected back to you.

Find out who you are, find out what makes you happy, discover what makes you come alive. Love yourself. Be kind, show compassion. Stop judging yourself, and everyone around you. Be grateful for the things you have, and tell those you love how much they mean to you.

Love is the answer, to every question. Spread love everywhere you go.


We are all connected

I know it isn’t often that I share from my journal but this, this is just too perfect not to share…..

“….There are so many times I see my spirit wolf, Sheba. In my dreams she shows me the freedom I once had, when I too was a wolf. It is in her that I learned the power of the dark. How, if you let it, it can totally transform every ounce of your being. It is in the darkness where you find your strength, courage, wisdom, growth and truth. This is nothing to fear, but to be embraced. We cannot have darkness without light, for the darkness is where we find our light; it’s where we find ourselves.

This reminds me of the shadow self because the shadow is too associated with darkness. We put all the bits of ourselves that we deem unacceptable, and push them down and ignore them until they ultimately take on a life of their own. We must align with our darkness and use it is a source of power rather than a source of weakness.

I have found the realist, truest parts of myself that where hidden in the dark. It wasn’t until I found these buried treasures that I began to love myself; to reach a state of love that I didn’t even know existed. I cannot be half of anything, it is all or nothing. I am no longer willing to be half of myself to make someone else comfortable, I am who I am for better or worse. Take me as I am or leave me as I am, either way I am still me and I am still happy.

I know that everyone is not going to like me, or like the things I say. I know that I will always be “too much” for some people, and that is okay, but for those that I do connect with, they only enrich my life, and surround me with more love. I know that I am a deep woman, and that most men and even some woman are intimidated by this, and that is okay too. I live my life for myself, and no one else. I have always put my needs above everything else, to some this may seem selfish, but I call it self-care. If I am not happy, I cannot make another happy.  There are even days when I am more wolf than woman. Times when I want to howl at the moon, and run free in the woods. Other times, I am perfectly happy being the strong, beautiful, powerful, sexy woman that I am.

My point is we are all connected, we are all one. The love, kindness and compassion you give to another will spread and grow. Find yourself, all of yourself. Love that person, because you deserve the love you so freely give to others. Once you become a beacon of light and love, you will want nothing more but to help another. We all have times where we stray too far from our path, we all need picked up from time to time.


Be someone’s beacon of hope, of love, and of compassion.

Spread love and kindness everywhere you go,

& it will ALWAYS find it way back to you.

Put love into everything you do,

& you will never be unhappy.


Because love can move mountains

Love can heal even the deepest of wounds.


Love makes everything possible

And without it we have nothing.”




Let Love In

We can blame others for our actions and mistakes but at the end of the day, they are choices that we made. We are only responsible for ourselves, we are the only ones to place “blame” on.

I, myself, have never understood the whole regret thing, either regretting things you have done or haven’t done. It is such a big part of our society to regret that choices you have made, and to this I say why regret it? In that moment it is exactly what you wanted, you felt that was the best choice so you went for it. Most regrets come from nights of drinking too much alcohol, and waking up in a haze. This too seems to be a rite of passage in our society, which I have never understood. Alcohol does more harm than good, and is so easy to become addicted too. Using it as a crutch to not deal with your emotions or as a way to cope with life. We all go through darkness in our lives and it is all in the choices we make in where that darkness takes us. It can either makes us stronger, or it can destroy us; it is simply up to us.

The regrets of people on their death bed breaks my heart, wishing they had been more open to love, telling those they love how much they mean to them. Living a life of happiness for themselves, instead living a life for others. Why are we so afraid of what others will think of us that we can life our entire lives miserable with the grand illusion of happiness? I don’t get it, I never have. Be happy, live the life you want for yourself and no one else. Let the world inspire you, be kind to one another and let love lead the way. Be open to love and new experiences.  Don’t allow yourself to be molded by the guidelines of life set by society. Those guidelines lead to misery and unfulfillment.

Most of us can fake it, but for how long? There will come a day when you see your life has been a lie, and then what? It is never too late to change your life, and find love and happiness within yourself. The world needs more rule brakes, more kindness and more love. Take the time to look within yourself, mend the broken pieces and find love. It will take you so many wonderful places in this life; places you never knew exist. Love transforms, love enriches and love is infectious.

It all beginnings and ends with us, do the self-work first and it will show itself in every aspect of your life.




Find your identity

I see on social media everywhere how people act  when they are in relationship with someone, that person becomes their world. They seem to lose their identity in the other person, when I see this I often wonder why people let this happen. This is why it becomes so difficult to leave negative relationships; you start to think “Who am I without them?” and we are often left with the answer being “Nothing.” But why!? It doesn’t have to be this way, and what does it accomplish for us? Putting everything in another person’s hands, more often than not, nothing good can come from it.

Relationships are supposed to enhance our lives, not become them. We are meant to have our own lives with our own goals and accomplishments; to be independent in the things we do. So then when we come together we can enrich each other’s lives. To be happy with yourself and in your life, can only bring more happiness into the relationship you share with another. We are meant to have our hobbies, passions, and jobs. We are meant to spend time apart so that we can appreciate the time spend together. We’re meant to expand our partner’s view of the world by allowing them to step into our world; by doing things that we wouldn’t ordinarily do.

I love my husband, he is one of the most important people in my life, but if I had to spend every moment with him I would go crazy! I need time away from him, to do the things that I love. I need time for myself, by myself. I feel that, that is one of the most important parts of a healthy relationship. I could be all wrong but this is what has worked so well for me. My whole point is don’t lose yourself when you’re in a relationship, all you truly have is yourself, own t and love it.

Feel like the day

I feel a lot like the day today. Which may sounds weird, or further validate that I control the weather. Either way I am feeling just like this….I am a brilliant blue sky, hidden by passing bursts of fear, worry and sadness. There are moments when the light breaks through, and my is it wonderful. Then the clouds come around again. Its not chaotic, but rather still and very much in the moment. Present and alive. I dont worry of the clouds that mask my light, I know like everything else these clouds will too pass. Allowing me to beam at full capacity once again.


Brake free

I have started to see things seemingly for the first time; my eyes closed yet wide open. Perhaps it is my change in perspective or just my appreciation for a simple, quiet life but I have noticed something that is very wrong with us. Now when I say “us” I can only speak for the country I live in, America.

I was on Facebook the other day, adding photos to my blog page. I began to scroll and I came across this post about a television show. I began to read the comments, and it was just a bunch of people crying because the show was cancelled. They weren’t satisfied with reasons it was canceled so they began to bring politics into it. I started to make me think, this is what is wrong with us.

We are taught that everything is right or wrong, black or white, anti vs pro that most only see only one side of things, their side. We’ve been brainwashed without even knowing it has been done to us. So blinded by how we are supposed to feel, act and think that we cannot see what has been done to us. Prisoners to the material possessions we cherish so deeply, because without them we are nothing. Prisoners to a way of thinking that just doesn’t work anymore, so afraid to step out of our comfort zone; that to be honest isn’t that comfortable. Prisoners to the television, being told what to buy, what to wear, how you should look. It is all a lie, it is all an illusion.

We have become so divided and hate driven that we can no longer see what we are becoming. We choose not to see the truth, even though it is right in front of us. Using religion and race as an excuse to spread more hate and violence; you are different from us and we cannot allow that. Only attending church to feel better about all the sins you’re guiltily of. Forgetting that the message of religion is to love one another and to be delighted in our differences, and embrace them.

I am ashamed of how we have allowed ourselves to be controlled, manipulated and divided. I am ashamed of what we’ve become. We are capable of so much more than this. So many are afraid of being an induvial that they would much rather be lost of in the crowd. My hope for us is that we turn off the television, get rid of your cell phones and spend time doing something you love. Sit and read a book, work in the garden, get a cup of coffee and sit in the park, take a hike and be surrounded with trees. Spend time being in the present, with the ones you love. These are the memories that will outlast any material possession you have. As you get older you will see how important these moments are, and how much you begin to cherish them.

Take a break from the world, sit in the quiet, and just be simply as you are. We are not robots who are programmed to be a certain way, or are we? We have the ability to be our own person. You don’t have to follow the crowd until you die, brake free. You can be anything you want to be, and you do can do whatever you want to do. Work hard and stay focused. Failing is how you climb the ladder to success, you cannot be great at something until you’ve failed at it. Never give up on your dreams because anything IS possible. Life is simply a matter of perspective.


Have a blessed day everyone xoxo




Who Inspires You??

Who Inspires You?

This is a question I have been asked recently; it sparked something inside me and made me see just inspiring others are to me. I never noticed how many inspire me each and every day….

My husband is my daily inspiration, he works so hard for us so that I can stay home and pursue my dream of writing and inspiring everyone to simply love. Without him none of this would have happened, he inspires me to grow, to keep working hard, and have faith that everything will work out for the better. His love runs so deeply for me, and that in itself is an inspiration.

My dog, Norman inspires me to take time for myself, he reminds me that rest is important part of life. He inspires me to love the people that surrounding me, to hold no resentments or ill will. Just love them, and always be happy to see them. You never know when they will be gone.

My grandmother inspires me, even though she is not in human form anymore. The things she taught me, have never left. She inspires to be the beautiful goddess that I am. By being exactly who I am, no fake acts, no walls, just me through and through. She inspires me to always say kind words, saying hateful things only make you look bad. She inspires me to dance around like no one is watching, simply because I enjoy the song on the radio. She inspires me to be free, and live in happiness. She inspires me in so many ways, I’m sure I don’t even notice some of them.

The beauty of nature inspires me every day. I get most of my ideas for my writing while sitting on my front porch surrounded my lovely plants and gardens. They inspire me to grow roots, to be firmly planted but to also be free to share my beauty with the world. I simply need to be showed with love to blossom. They inspire me to be positive and share that energy with the world.

My hooping inspiration is Deanne Love. She inspires me to have fun with hooping while I’m learning something new. The love that she has for hooping shines through, and inspires me to pursue my love of hooping. It may be different and others may not understand, that’s okay. It isn’t my problem what others think of me. She inspires me, to never give up, even when I’m not getting the trick. Without her, I wouldn’t be the fierce hooping force I am today.

Most people, even strangers, inspire me. They inspire me to be more myself and radiate love more than ever. They inspire me by showing me who I don’t want to be. They inspire me by teaching me lessons of patience and understanding. The lessons and wisdom they share with me is often in part where my inspiration for writing comes from.

All you beauties inspire me. Keep fighting for what you want out of life. That is beautiful stuff, and you inspire me to never stop fighting, to never stop growing and to never stop loving. You are the true inspiration.

The world is a funny place, everyone you come into contact with affects you, mold you in some way or another. Everyone comes into your life for a reason, nothing happens by mistake or by chance. Be inspired by others, let others lift you up when you are weak and lift others when you are strong. The world is filled with so much beauty, make the most of it. You never know when it will be gone. xoxo

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