Empower

Last night I had a beautiful conversation with some woman. Let me first give you a little back story; I am a part of a motor sport club. Last night we had our meeting, and the woman (the few of us that are a part of it) all met outside and began to talk after the meeting was over.

We were talking about ways to get more woman involved in motor sports; often when people think of racing it is a predominantly male sport. We want to change that. We were talking about how woman should empower other woman; and by how teaching and empowering one other we could go into a race that is mostly males, and feel comfortable and confident. We also need the men’s support, the ones that are our allies, that ones that empower us instead of judging us.

I whole heartedly believe that anything a man can do a woman can do. It is time for woman to step into their power. To see and feel all the power they hold within themselves; to stand up for what they believe in (even if it isn’t the popular option). All the patriarchal bs needs to end. Woman are goddesses, each and everyone one of us. It is time for us to harness the powers we yield and heal a world in such despite need of love. We need to stop lashing out at one another and come together.

We can do this, we are doing this. Woman are beautiful gifts to this world, and it is time they are treated as such. As a woman who has stepped into her power, I would love nothing more than for all my sisters to stand side by side and support, empower, and inspire one other.

 

Namaste.

Xo Faye

Reconnect

Before the full moon I have been feeling a shift beginning to take place. I believe I am not alone in this feeling; everything is starting to change for the better. We are entering into a time of great beauty and instant manifestation. Now that the full moon has passed, and I am still feeling the effects of her energy; I know that everything I have been feeling and even experiencing first hand is spot on.

It is time to manifest our dreams and make our deepest desires come true. There has never been a more perfect time to fulfill and enrich our lives. I know that I have been called back to my two longest love affairs; photography and writing. I had taken a break from both for many reason but mostly for the fact that I had so much going on within myself that I did not feel inspired or creative in anyway.

 photo IMG_1901_zpsis2vlfny.jpg

There are times in each of our lives where we just need time. Time to sort through our feelings, our hearts desires, and all the chaos in between. Had I not allowed myself this time, everything I wrote and every picture I took would be empty of passion, have dark undertones, and be lack luster to say the least. Now that I have taken my time to heal and let go of so much, I am back better and more alive than ever.

I know that I have said before that you should spend time in your darkness, and learn from what you find there. For me, that has never been more true. It isn’t that I was in a “bad” place, it’s more of I was in between who I used to be, and who I am now. I talked to a beloved friend who gave me an entirely new perspective on everything, which really made me dive deep within. There I unlocked the door to my past, viewing it now in a way that I hadn’t before. Writing has always been therapeutic for me, and this time was no different. I wrote many letters, too many people, then when I was finished I burned them. Fire has always been transformative too me, and the best way to release into the universe.

 photo IMG_1891_zpsajcrzsq6.jpg

Once again I see the world with open eyes; taking in all the beauty and wonder that is daily life. I live my life in awe, amazed by what love can build and by what love can do. Even the simplest things can move me to tears with its raw beauty. Take nothing for granted & love every minute of this wild ride called life.

All I can think of is the flower. It doesn’t not bloom for you, or for me. And it cannot be rushed to bloom. It will wait until the time is right. And when it does bloom, it blooms for itself. It has spent its time in the darkness, so that it may now become everything it was meant to be. A beautiful work of art.

Many Blessings,

Xo Faye

 

P.S. – The photos shown are a few that I took a few nights ago around sunset. It truly filled my heart with love to look through that camera lens again.

 

Weekend Fun

The past few days have been a whorl wind of activity for me. Over the past weekend my husband and I had east coast rally x nationals; which my father and mother-in law joined us for. Sunday was the full moon, and yesterday was my husband’s 30th birthday. So needless to say, I have been catching up on everything from sleep to laundry.

Rally X was fun as always, I enjoy taking the photos for the event. As it is a way for me to share the experience with my husband and I just have a blast. I love watching each driver’s different approach to the course, and how different each car is. Everyone, for the most part, is nice and pleasant to talk to. I do love meeting new people, especially those different from who I’d normally meet. Every time my husband goes up to race I send him all the positive energy, and reiki I can, I like to think it helps even if it doesn’t. haha.

People were getting to me so much over the course of this trip and instead of running my mouth, like I normally would, I decided to take a different approach. I got quite, and went inside my head. Taking some deep breathes, thinking “This is happening for a reason, there is a lesson to learn here. What is the lesson?” Most of the time the answer I came up with was Patience. Not to take the negative energy given to me, and make it my own, only to spew more negativity. Instead, I did not accept the negativity given to me, and took the high road. Releasing what is not mine, so that I could be at peace.

On the way home Sunday, I noticed all that this trip has shown and taught me. I noticed how far I have come in my own growth and expansion. The old me would have complained about everything, being muddy, dirty, hot, and tired. Basically everything and anything that could be complained about, I would have complained about it. This time that was the role of my mother-in law. She showed me just how annoying I used to be, how needy I was and how I had the insistent need to control every aspect of everything. Rather than complain, I said “I need to eat soon” or “I could use a break from the sun.” It sends the message of what I need without annoying and draining everyone.

I noticed that complaining over every little thing is so draining, and kills the overall vibe. Sometimes we try so hard to be part of something, that we over try and overdo it. Which makes everyone not want to around you, and creates more distance. This is how it was for most of us; we all have our own routines and go our own ways that we do not need to told what to do. Even though she made things difficult, we still managed to have a lot of fun and meet new people. It just makes me so thankful and grateful that I am no longer that way. I am now able to relax, and go with the flow.

The full moon was much needed for me, we got home just in time for me to do my full moon ritual. Since I had missed the past two, I was in desperate need of this moon. When I dumped sage into my pot, I must have dumped a lot in, as it didn’t take long for the garage to completely fill with smoke. As I cleansed myself, I felt everything lift off of me. You never know the weight you carry until it’s gone, that’s for sure.  As the sage engulfed my entire being I felt a tingling on my back, right above my heart charka.  I asked some friends about this and was told it was the Higher Heart Charka. Since then I have been reading as much as I can about this charka, as it is a new charka to humanity. It is completely fascinating to me.

Since the full moon, and everything that has happened over the weekend, I am more thankful than ever for how far I have come, and all the changes I have made along the way.

We always have the potential to be better, it is up to use to choose to be.

Do what you love

Yesterday was a great day for me; I completed my first book. I am still waiting on the cover art to come back, and I need author photo but once I get those done I will be ready to publish. I will keep all of you up to date on the progress and when it will be release. I am so proud of this book; I quite literally put my heart and soul into it. It is about my spiritual journey and all things I learned along the way. I have been working on it for about 2 years, so I am thrilled it is finally ready.

I also rediscovered my love of hooping yesterday. I mostly only hooped around my waist so I was looking up some tricks to learn and fell in love all over again. It is meditative for me, something I can get lost in. I can allow my body to move and flow however it wants to. Needless to say my hands are bruised beyond belief this morning; I was working on isolation’s last night. No pain, no gain, right? I am going to try to practice more today, I just don’t know how far I will get since my hands are pretty sore.

Also, dont forget I am now offering tarot card readings. If you would like one simply go to the services section of the website.

I hope all of you have a wonderful day, find something you love & never give up…

City Adventures

Yesterday I arrived in Philly; one of my friends had a work trip so I came along to get away from the day to day. We went to Eastern State Penitentiary. The campus is enormous, far bigger than I thought it would be.  Upon entering, it felt like you were in another time; the city of the outside world disappeared. You now were in a city of darkness, hopelessness and despair surrounded you. As we walked around the cell blocks it felt as if you were being followed or stared at. You could tell that the prison was still very much alive, and most poisoners had never left. Some of the cell blocks were so negative, there were a few times I had to go outside to get away from it. I felt such sadness there, I don’t know if that was coming from the energy around me, or if that was me feeling so sad for them. I was hoping to the infirmary and some other areas of the prison, but they were blocked off. I could not image having to live out the rest of my life there. My first words entering the prison was “If I had to live here, I would kill myself” to me it was like hell.  Some areas of the prison were worse than others, but overall it is undeniable that it is haunted at least to me it is.

After we left the prison, we headed over to see the stairs that were used in Rocky. So we took a picture with the rocky statue, and went up the stairs. I need to work on my cardio, by the time I got to the top I was winded.  There were some people there who were running up the stairs sideways, I give them mad props. When we got to the top of the stairs both of our phones died, which meant we couldn’t use uber. Lucky for us there was a cab that just pulled up, so we went back to hotel to charge up. Later in the evening we went out got some dinner, and had so much fun. We met so many new people, and just talked. It was lovely.

My friend has been working all day, so I have been writing like a crazy woman. It feels so good to be away from all the things that normally distract me. I can go deeper within myself, and see how I truly feel about everything. So far I am enjoying my stay in philly, once I got adjusted to the all the energy here, it’s pretty nice. I has been raining for days though, and is still raining. So I am hoping it stops this evening so we can go out and explore a little more.

 

 

Release & Live

We only can control what we do, say and feel. The need to control everything must be let go of, release any and all things you cannot control. Feel a weight lifted off your shoulders, be free from it. Take a deep breath and just release.

The power of release is transforming and magical; only aligning ourselves with the things that we resonate with, pure beauty. We only are affected by what we allow to affect us; we do not have to accept all things that are given to us. There are often times I get a headache, and I started to say “This is not mine, I do not accept it.” I say this over and over again and just like magic the headache fades away. We have to be aware of what is our own and what isn’t, think of how much baggage you’re carrying around for someone else. It is so tiring and draining, and it simply weighs you down. You don’t need it; let the baggage of the past go. It’s over, complete and cannot be changed. It is what it is and that is what it shall be. The reasonability of your life is yours and yours alone.

You can make your dreams come true, you can sit around complaining. You can travel and live your life, or you can be a job that you hate. Life is simple; we are the ones that complicate things.

This is your life, go live it.

You’re alive, Go Live

I don’t want to remembered as a wife, daughter, or mother. I am so much more than any of these things, they do not define my spirit, or who I am.

They, like all labels aren’t easily removed once placed on someone. They are a part of society that is false and scared of differences. For the most part labels are put onto others out of fear, or the simple fact that everyone has a category they belong in. This way of thinking is the reason why so many people are sad, depressed and even suicidal. Most of us, myself included do not fit into any one box. So we are grown to think that this is wrong of us, that we are ugly or wrong for not fitting in. It took me many years to understand that not fitting in was a blessing, look around at all the unauthentic people walking around. I now take pride in being an outcast, hippie, misfit, gypsy whatever you want to call me. It simply means I can love the things I love without being sorry for it. I can be myself, and be loved for it. Take pride in yourself, you are a beautiful goddess. You have so much beauty to bring to the world, I wish that you would see it.

Don’t think so little of yourself, this gives others permission to do the same; and you are worth so much more than that. You are amazing, magically radiant; you’re worthy and capable. You can do ANYTHING you set your mind to. Stop telling yourself you can’t believe that you can, and you will. Tell yourself everyday how beautiful and wonderful you are, fake a smile if you have to. Do this everyday, and you wont be faking it anymore. Fake it until you make it, or in the case fake it until you believe it. You are a goddess, made of stardust, you are everything you’ve ever needed. You are alive for a reason, go live your life!

I want to be remembered for everything I have done, all the love I shown the world, for the funny moments, for my smile, and for the light that follows me where ever I go. I want to be remembered as someone who saw all the suffering in the world and made a difference. Someone who made the world a little brighter, warmer and gave everyone a reason to smile.

Magical Year

We are 5 days into the New Year and so far things are wonderful. Since giving up meat I have felt so free and light; not to mention how proud I am of myself to do something I have always wanted to do. Every day is a new day and a new adventure. I am not one to make New Year resolutions, for me they always fail; and I don’t see the point of waiting until a new year to change your life, there is no better time than the present.

With every breathe I take I become free from all the fears that have always held me back. I feel more like myself than I ever have; each day I am a better version of myself. It’s like I have stripped away all the parts of false parts of myself; now only my true self shines through; she is more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. The fire inside of me has come alive stronger than ever before. I know see clearly, it’s up to me to make my dreams come true. I am the master and creator of my destiny; making my dreams come true is exactly what I indeed to do. I have already started on this path in sharing my thoughts with all of you; writing is my passion. There is a purpose for that, and I see this more than ever. I am here to help inspire, change and give hope to the world. I have been given this gift and I won’t waste it; I want all of you to the find a place of peace and love within yourselves.

I see and feel myself changing every day, lighter and freer than the previous day. The warrior goddess inside of me has been awakened and with each release I feel her getting stronger. I am beginning to trust my instincts and intuition.  I refuse to let anyone dampen my spirit or bring me down; this is the year I kick fear in the face. I am ready to jump into life and live. To finally get rid of the fears that hold me back from feeling alive. New experiences and new people will be the theme for this year. Doing what makes ME happy, forgetting what others say or think. Everything that I do will be for ME and I refuse to apologize for it. I will let new experiences shape me, knowledge change me, smile often and love always.

Here’s to a Magical Year!

Reality of Life

Sometimes you just gotta say fuck it!! Love the people you love, even if that means loving them from afar. Do what makes YOU happy. Be with people that make you feel alive. Your master, and creator of your own destiny. Go live your life the way you want. No apologies, only truths and love.

Your amazing, beautiful, filled with light and love. Dont let anyone take that away from you, or feel less than you are.

Spend sometime on myself

Today I have set aside to have some me time. All the family activities do not start until the weekend, I have finished shopping and decorating; so it is time is right. I knew that I wanted to have a release to end the year out right. I wanted to go deeper into myself than I have ever gone before; and with mercury in retrograde this is the perfect time for it.

Over the past week or so, I have kept myself so busy so I wouldn’t have to deal with anything, I wasn’t ready; but now I am. So I started out my day like I normally do, drinking some hot herbal tea, making a nice breakfast for myself, and walking the dog. I love to walk, even though it is winter now and the temperatures aren’t ideal, I still like to burn off some extra energy. I said my thank you’s to the universe and the elements as I do every day, I then took a deep breathe in and exhaled. There is something about the cold, fresh air coming into your body that just makes you feel good, at least for me.

When we came inside, I gave the dog his treat and came upstairs to my room. A friend had told me to try TAT for releasing, I had never heard of this practice before so I went to YouTube to see what videos I could find. It turns out it’s a very easy exercise that doesn’t take up much time. I thought everything that I wanted to release, and everything I wasn’t aware of that I wanted to release. I took some deep breathes in and out and just let it sail away. I did the exercise twice for about 2 minutes each, and I feel so much lighter. I find it crazy that the simplest things can make all the difference.

I then did a past life regression, it had been a week or so since my last one and I felt compelled to do so, so I did. I started off the way I normally do, asking for protection and wrapping myself in light. I began to go into mediation, when I finally came to my book it opened and I watched as another life unfolded in front of me…..

This time I was a woman with long brown hair with a brown thin headband, I was wearing fingerless gloves made from leather. My corset top was also made of leather, as was my skirt. My skirt at one point had fabrics attached to it which were now ripped off. I had tall leather boots, and a holster made of leather around my thigh that held two small knifes. I also was carrying a large sward holster around my waist with a rather large, heavy sword in it. I was carrying a small brown book in my hands; it had a leather cord wrapped around it to keep the book closed. When I brought the book closer to me, something fell out of it. It was a torn map, old brownish paper; it was a map to Avalon. I was traveling home, there were many people and beings that did not want me to return to my home. I fought my way through the battles, and carried on with my travels. That was it; I started to come out of the meditative state and woke. I believe this was my very first life, or one of my first lives.

As I was writing this down in my journal, I had a aha moment. She is the warrior spirit within, the one that never stops fighting for what she believes in. I am on my way to finding my true home, there will be people and distractions along the way but to keep fighting and looking forward. Never give up on yourself or your beliefs. Everything you need or want is inside of you.

On the road to happiness there will be many obstacles and road blocks, keep moving forward. The only person that can hold you back is yourself.