New Year, Improved Me

2018 has already brought so many walls crumbling down, I know this will be a beautiful year of manifestation and making dreams come to life.

To celebrate the New Year I took a much needed trip with my sister to Las Vegas. It was my first time visiting there, and I was amazed by the beauty of the city. The dancing fountains were so beautiful that I may have cried a little, but what really got me was the architecture of the buildings. If only people built more things that they loved, putting their heart and soul into them, think of all the beauty we could create. I kept thinking how amazing humans are; building a city in the middle of the desert is incredible.

Even though I was amazed by the city and what man had created, I felt drawn to the mountains. Toward the end of our trip our room had a mountain view, and it was the best view if you ask me. I would wake up in the morning and soak in the beauty. Listening for the wisdom they had to share. Watching the sun come up and highlight the mountains was absolutely breath taking. Even though humans create some really beautiful things, nature’s beauty is next level. The next time I visit Las Vegas, I will be doing some hiking trials and getting in touch with the mountains.

While away on my trip my sister and I shared lots of laughter, made many memories and got to know each other a little better. While away I also was able to gain some perspective that I needed. Often times I need to take myself away from the daily routine of life in order to see what I want, where I am, and what I am doing. I now know what it is what I want out of life, what my goals are, and am going to work hard to make them a reality.

I also had the opportunity to face some fears while I was there. Both my sister & I are afraid of heights, so we decided to do the high roller. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. It was hard to stand up at first, but once I worked past the fear it was beautiful to see the city all lite up at night. You could even see one of the dancing fountains shows, which only looked more beautiful from that height. I wouldn’t say I conquered my fear of heights but I definitely got more comfortable. I wanted to zip line but I wasn’t able to do that this trip. When I return to Las Vegas I am hoping they have the zip line over the strip done, because I will be doing that.

The other fear I conquered was my fear of birds (this is a fear I carry from a past life, and have carried with me for a long time.) Facing this fear happened organically actually, my sister and I had went to The Flamingo for breakfast and decided to walk around the garden there. I got rather excited over all the duckies, fish, and flamingos. As we were walking around I saw people taking pictures with parrots. I looked at my sister, and told her I was going to do it. I gave her my stuff, and told her to record me because no one would believe me. The lady started to put these birds on me, and I was super nervous but once I worked passed my nervousness, I started to relax a little. I actually liked the white parrot the most, he kept looking at me so I would talk to him. haha. I actually enjoyed this experience more than I thought I would. It really made me see how foolish fears are, and how one bad experience can cause a lifetime of fear, holding you back from your full potential.

I am so proud of myself, and all that I have shown myself that I can do. I overcame so much this trip, all of which seem small and meaningless now but held me back for so long. This is the year of quick manifestation, expansion, growth, self-love and making dreams come true. I am recharged, refreshed and ready to get to work.

When working toward creating a life you want, remember….there is no “if” it happens, there is only “when” it happens. I am working my ass off now, so when my dreams becomes reality I will be ready. Life is about your frame of mind, if you tell yourself you will, believe it & work hard to achieve it, then it will come to you.  The universe will give to you what you put out, everything come full circle so be kind, spread love & work hard.

Never give up on your dreams, they are within your reach.

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Message from above

Last night I had someone ask for a reiki session, I had some time so I told them to come over. I have done many reiki sessions before, on many different people but this one I don’t think I’ll ever forget.

Before they even got here, their guides came to me and I knew how important it was that I do this. It was no longer a wanting to help them, it was a need to help them. I prepared the room as I always do, selected crystals for them, and prepared myself. They came over, I began the session and just like that over an hour had went by. I swear, every time I give or receive reiki time seems to melt away and almost not exist at all.

After finishing the session, I knew that I had helped them in every way I could. I knew that the light had won this battle and they now could heal, if they so choose it. As I said I have done many reiki sessions before but this one in particular left me feeling like a true warrior of light. The darkness no longer frightens me but rather makes me smile; I know my power and I know that light will continue to conquer the dark.

The message (& point of this) is spirit wants you to hear is this – Step into your power. It is time. Every answer you seek, is within. Everything you need, is within. Stop looking outward for help and begin to look within. Let go of the wrongs placed upon you, take responsibility for your life. Step into YOUR power. You have a beautiful power source waiting to be used. Forget everyone else, forget what they say, what they do, and how they act. This is YOUR time. Decide who you are, who you want to be. Find your truths, and let them shine. Step into YOUR power and let your light to shine so brightly, don’t be afraid if it’s too bright for others; their options don’t matter. Set boundaries for yourself, and stick to them. It is YOUR time, take care of yourself. Find the love you give to everyone else, for yourself. Find something that you love, and makes you come alive. It is YOUR time to be happy, to explore, and to be at peace. Let go of the past, the door is closed. Don’t look ahead to the future, its unknown. Live in the moment, day by day.  You will get where you want to be if you work hard, stay focused, and follow what you love.

Passion just like fear guides us to where we are meant to go, and who we are meant to be. If something is amazingly terrifying that is a clear sign you are meant to go that direction. Step in YOUR POWER. It is YOUR time to be the fierce force that you are. Don’t back down when it comes to your dreams, and never take “no” for an answer.

Step into your power and let it set you free.

 

Namaste.

XO,

Faye

If I wasnt so afarid

I wanted to share some things that I would do if I wasn’t so afraid. Writing stuff like down is often therapeutic for me. It is a way to see the things I’m afraid of in a different way; and even encourages myself to want to overcome them. Fears hold us back from experiencing the world around, these are some of mine.

I love the beauty of the butterfly but I am fearful when they fly. I know they are harmless and will do no harm to me, yet I am still afraid. I have had the opportunity a couple of times were a butterfly has tried to land on me. I swat it away before even realizing that I am doing it and it flies away. If I wasn’t so afraid I would hold a butterfly. I’d be captivated in the beauty I was able to hold.

If I wasn’t so afraid I’d travel alone. I would get away from all the people I know and love. The kind of response I would imagine to find on a journey such as this reminds me of the movie Eat. Pray. Love. She went to a city where she knew no one and found herself. I think this would be an amazing experience; since we often relay of others to define ourselves.

The one things I want to do most of all is zip line. I have always stopped myself from doing this because of my fear of heights. When my husband and I went on vacation I wanted to do this but I told myself it cost too much so I didn’t. I always find some sort of excuse to not zip line.  One of these days I will take the plunge and just do it.

We all have things that hold us back, come to terms with what they are. Once you know them, you can move past them. I used to be afraid to fly. I don’t enjoy flying but I am no longer afraid of it. You just have to push through the fear. I will do my best to take my words of advice and I hope that all of you do as well. Living a life in fear is a life wasted.

Set goals

I am not one to go to the gym for hours, or eat plain chicken just to maintain a certain look or fitness level. I am someone who loves food, there is nothing like eating your favorite meal. While I’m not over weight, I want to improve my strength and endurance. Since I got married last year, I have gained back most of the weight I had lost to fit into my dress.

When I went dress shopping for a wedding dress I found one in a size 16 which was a little small. I loved the dress so much that I made a vow to myself to lose the weight and fit into that dress. The woman that worked at the dress shop told me that just about everyone says that but most don’t lose the weight, they actually gain some. So to everyone’s surprise even my own, I lost 40 pounds and actually had to get the dress taken in quite a few times. I was so proud with myself, I had followed through with my plan and exceeded my goal.

Over the past year the weight has creeped back. I haven’t gained it all back but I am determined to lose it and get back down to my wedding weight.  I feel like weight is such a sensitive topic, there are so many expectations for woman to look a certain way. Which I don’t vibe with, as long as you are happy and comfortable in your skin then that is all that matters.

I’ve never cared for the gym setting, no matter what gym I join I feel like everyone is judging you. At one gym in particular I have actually witnessed this. This concept makes no sense to me, a gym is a place where transformations take place. It should be a judgement free zone, you should help others who are just beginning their fitness journey. Not belittle them and make them never want to come back again. We all start somewhere, lend a helpful and encouraging hand.

So today I went to a fitness class, I was hesitant at first but went anyways. It was a 30/30 class, 30 minutes of cardio and 30 of mat time. Going in I didn’t know what to expect, I take walks with my dog, go for hikes and ride bikes occasionally but other than that I am not active. The first part was showing up, and the rest I pushed through. There was a time half way through the class were I thought I was going to be sick, or pass out. I kept going, only my mind can hold me back. My body is capable of a lot more than I even know. By the end of the class I was completely soaked in sweat, I wanted to cry and just lay there but I did it. I finished the hardest work out of my life and I didn’t die. I have been completely exhausted since then but I’m so proud of myself that it doesn’t even matter.

When you set out to change your life, push yourself to the limits. See how far you end up going, I’m sure you will surprise even yourself. Don’t listen to the voice in your head that says you can’t, you can do anything you put your mind to. I am proof of that. Set a goal, and exceed it. Give yourself a reason to be proud of yourself.

Cage your heart

We all go looking for love; I mean that is what we all want  but aren’t always open to the possibilities of love. After getting our hearts broken over and over again; we tend to cage off our hearts. Locking them away forever, only allowing ourselves to see what remains.

When I was 18 I got a tattoo on my back of a blue and purple heart that had been stitched together. I got this to show the world, this is what my heart looks like yet I still love. Even though my heart has been broken, and stomped on it still beats. I will attach the remaining pieces with needle and thread, hoping someday someone will see the beauty that still remains.

I had caged off my heart at this point in my life. I had it caged off so well in fact, that not even I could see it. Love would come my way, and I would just push it away. Or I would see love were it never existed. Confusing love for lust. I made a lot of mistakes in my younger years, the biggest one being not putting effort into relationships when they came my way. I loved love, but only the idea of love. I didn’t want to put work into something that would fail. One of my friends at the time told me, “It will only fail if you have that mindset going in. You have to put your all into it, that is how you get the most of out of it. And if it does fail at least you will have gotten something out of it. No time is ever wasted, unless you do nothing” That really stuck with me at time, so I did some soul searching and this is what i found. Don’t let the pain of a broken heart make you jaded; instead learn from it, grow from it. Don’t let the pain define you, you define the pain. Keep your heart free of walls and cages. One day you will want them gone and it will be harder to remove them than you ever thought.

When you find the one you’ve been searching for show them how you feel. Don’t hold back, love freely without boundaries. Take risks, wear your heart on your sleeve. Just never give up on love because love will never give up on you.

I am everywhere

 

I start this day as a new slate, a new beginning
I am not my past, nor am I my present
I am more than skin & bone
I am sunkissed skin on a warm day, warm & inviting
I am a walk on a crisp autumn day, breathtakingly beautiful
I am the stars you gaze upon, claming your soul & making you feel at home
I am everywhere, I am everything
For I am love

We all become our parents

I’m sure everyone has heard “You grow up to be like your parents”. Most of us say, I will never be like that but then we grow up and we actually do become them. We may notice it in little things that we do, or how we do things. For instance, my mother has always cleaned her sink. As a child and even as a teenager I thought that was so weird, why would you be worried if your sink is clean or not? Now that I own a home, I too clean the sink. I did it a few times without even taking notice but one day I stopped dead in my tracks and thought, oh my I’ve become my mother. I was shocked but then started to laugh, I had always thought this was so weird but here I am doing and enjoying it; thinking to myself this sink has to be spotless.

Now that I have done a week of soul coaching it has brought to my attention some issues that I do that I wasn’t even aware of. This made me think, there are so many things are parents do that we obverse, and view as okay behavior. Even if we learn later that this behavior is not acceptable, we still (more than likely) will repeat it. While doing my lesson for yesterday one of these truths came forward and for the first time I noticed something about myself that I had never seen before. As most of you know I am married, my husband loves me very deeply and I him. I know that he wont leave me, so because I know this there are often times I am mean to him because I know I can be. I know that this is no way to treat someone that you love, and that loves you but for some reason I do it anyways. The reason, I was shown this behavior as a child, I picked it up and thought it was okay and have being doing it ever since. I always thought my actions were beyond this but here I am, seeing the truth. It sucks to know that I am hurting someone I love for nothing. So, I took the steps to change it. Since I am now aware of this, I can be more proactive when I get upset to say  to myself “Why am I doing this? Is there a reason behind it? Do I mean it?” I told this to my husband, apologized for being mean and told him to tell me when I’m being mean because often times I don’t know when I am.

We pick up good and bad habits form our parents; we watch everything they do and for the most part what to grow up to be like them. So as you grow and learn be sure you are aware of the person you have become. Make sure that it is your trustiest form of yourself and not the reflection of things you’ve been taught. Brake the pattern, take the steps to rid yourself of the things that do not serve your highest potential.

Gemstone Bracelet

I was recently in search of a gemstone bracelet that was fashionable but also used the stones I love. I have had gemstone bracelets before but the stones were square and would jab my wrist when I would write. So I looked around at what gemstone bracelets were out on the market. I came across Third Eye Gemstones. I looked at their website and started to read about the company. With every bracelet bought they donate money for 30 days of clean drinking water to someone in need. So I thought “If nothing else at least I will help someone in need.” I browsed for a while at all their selection of bracelets. I finally choose the karma cleanse bracelet. This one has Black Agate, Howlite, and Snowflake Obsidian. I got my bracelet in a large size since I don’t like them tight around my wrist. I have had this bracelet for a month or so now, and I still love it as much as I did when I first got it. I love the fact that its high quality, fashion and you help another in the process.

 

If anyone of you are looking for a gemstone bracelet I highly suggest you go to thirdeyegemstone.com and check out their selection.

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Live simply, Simply live

Why do many of us live no life at all? We grow up, go to work at a job (most) of us hate, get married and have kids. We work our lives away for things we are told we should have or that we “need” and then we die. What kind of life is that!?

 

Working is a important part of life, we need to make money to have anything in this world. However, so many of us have a job for the paycheck. We are not passionate about what we spend so much of our time doing, and for some working at a job you hate can really be soul sucking. Sucking away every little bit of yourself, until you are sick or absolutely measurable. I am one of these people. I worked at a job for three years that was only supposed to be a temp job. I hated the work, it was physical in the summer which killed my physical body. It was mindless and boring but it was easy, and a paycheck. I enjoyed the hours, and that it was part time so I got comfortable and stayed. It was until recently that I decided (with the support of my husband) that enough was enough. I took a huge leap of faith and left my job. I had no idea what I was going to do next to make money but it didn’t matter to me. As soon as I quit I felt a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and started to feel better. I no longer had to go to a job that did nothing for my spirit that did nothing for me as a person. I focused on recovering from the damage that had been done to my physical body, and getting back to a oneness I had once had. That is when I noticed just how draining it can be to go into a place day in and day out that you hate, doing the same things over and over again. Seeing the same faces of people that you for the most part can’t stand or have no respect for. I have found my focus, and is this blog. My passion for writing has been life long, and my life’s mission is to help others. So why not help help others with my words. I am still blown away that my words inspire others, and help them. I am humbled and in awe by this. I have been through a lot of things in my life and I just hope to help another not make the same mistakes as I did or to simply  know that they are not alone, ever.

 

So my message to all of you, live the life you want for yourself. Spent money on experiences not stuff. The memories you make on new experiences will be more fulfilling than any material item could ever be. Travel, see the world. Let the cultures of others open your eyes and your perspectives. Spend time with the ones you love, and the ones that inspire you. Be kind, be gentle, and above all love yourself. Radiate love through you, so you can spread that to others. Anything that doesn’t bring you joy or happiness doesn’t belong in your life.

 

Just remember to live simply, and to simply live.

Let your light shine

Why are we so hard on ourselves? We should love ourselves, without any harsh judgments. What others say about us is none of our concern. People are always going to talk, they are going to rate you, and judge you. Don’t let this harsh world harden your beautiful heart. Wear your heart on your sleeve, be sensitive, and be soft. These show that you are real, you are human. The world needs more of this realness, desperately.
Others that bring you down, are unhappy with themselves and their lives more than you will ever know. Happy people lend a helping hand to those in need. They lift them up from their sadness and show them love. Whatever we give out into the world is like an echo, it will always spread to the next person. Vibrating its energy into everything that surrounds it. Life is like a boomerang, what you give out will always find its way back to you; and sometimes it will even hit you in the face.
There is enough bad stuff in the world, so leave an echo, an imprint of love and compassion. The world needs truth seekers, lovers, and authenticity. Let go of the baggage that is holding you back, and be free.