Times of transformation…

On Wednesday I got one of my attunements for my reiki master class. The last time I got a reiki attunement was four years ago, when I finished level two. It took me months to feel anything from it; but this time it totally different.

This time it took a matter of hours to start feel myself being cleansed. It started with my sinuses acting up but that has now subsided. The main issues I have felt today besides being tired is my throat hurting. It hurts to the point that I have all but lost my voice, when it was fine yesterday. Thinking about this actually makes me smile in gratitude. I know that I am adjusting to the new state of being and existing and that this is a needed part of my beautiful transformation. I believe my throat is being cleansed for one of two reasons; either I need this time to be still, to be quiet with my thoughts or  it is to rid myself of the blocks in my communication so that I may easily and accurately express the ways I am feeling.

I have always had a hell of a time saying how I feel, which I have always found rather funny, since writing comes so easily to me. Everything I don’t know how to say just seamlessly pours out of my fingers with ease without thinking twice. Speaking doesn’t do most emotions justice, if something leaves me in complete awe and wonder no words can make you feel that; only energy can make you feel that. When you write you put your energy into it. You leave a little piece of yourself behind in every sentence you write.

Speaking has always been difficult for me as I often trip over my tongue, so to speak, thinking far too fast for my mouth to say how I feel. Often times I am unable to bring myself to say things out loud because than it’s real, and being real can come to a punch in the face at times. I feel everything so passionately and so deeply that every moment touches my soul in a deeply profound way.

The relationships that I have with others are all cherished, my emotions simply run so deeply. That is why this time of reflection is so important for me, this is also why I have felt the need to unplug from the world lately. To get lost in a new experience and see where it takes me; too see what I find.

Life can become so mundane and dull if we allow it to be, often looking beyond the beauty that surrounds us every day. When you see the same things everyday it becomes easy to take them for granted, to lose your appreciation for them. It can become easy to forget why you fell in love in the first place, but only if you allow yourself too.

I often move things around, removing things that no longer make my heart overflow with love. If the things in my home do not add to my happiness or to the love that resides within me, than it has no place in my home or in my heart. This is really true for life in general, if the things and people we surround ourselves with do not aid in our light, and make our hearts overflow with love than they have no purpose in our lives.

It is so simple.

Life is a beautiful work of art, at times it may be abstract and other times it may be realism, either way it is a masterpiece and moves you in some way.

 

xoxo

Perspective

As I was writing in my journal this morning, I was guided to pick a single card from my fairy deck. This card would represent where I, and the world are currently at in this process of spiritual ascension….

6 of Autumn

The autumn season replaces coins in traditional tarot, and is the element of earth.

Meaning:
The good you do come back to you
Replaying debts
Balance in giving and receiving
Providing what is truly needed
Unexpected inflow of money

I must say this truly is the perfect card for the current time, at least for me.

I have always said life is about perspective. But perspective means nothing if it doesn’t change, grow and evolve.

As this time has been impactful for all us, for me, it has been a time a deep gratitude and kindness. Kindness to others, but mostly to myself. In this time of transformation alot of my darkness has surrounded me; to make me stronger and grow more than I thought I could. This darkness pushes me, driving me to the best soul I can be. This is where i found my gratitude; having these out of body experiences have allowed me to see beyond my eyes. It allows me too see just how truly incredible the human body is; by simply thinking of moving your hand…it moves. Incredible.

I have gained a entirely new, beautiful, grateful perspective of life; body, mind, and soul. And just how beautiful it is when they all align in a state of peace, comfort and love.

xo

Feel like the day

I feel a lot like the day today. Which may sounds weird, or further validate that I control the weather. Either way I am feeling just like this….I am a brilliant blue sky, hidden by passing bursts of fear, worry and sadness. There are moments when the light breaks through, and my is it wonderful. Then the clouds come around again. Its not chaotic, but rather still and very much in the moment. Present and alive. I dont worry of the clouds that mask my light, I know like everything else these clouds will too pass. Allowing me to beam at full capacity once again.

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Connect within

I have been so unlike myself in so many ways. Becoming everything I am, and discarding everything I am not. With that comes a huge transition, one of which I wasn’t prepared for.

I cry so often now, not because I’m sad but because everything is so beautiful. I am easily moved to tears by even the simplest of things. Gentle, and soft is who I’ve been lately. I am still rough around the edges but, for now at least, they seem to be unimportant.

There have been moments, often just as I wake up, where I think of how lucky all of us are to be alive. All the wonderful things we are capable of; all the beauty that lives within us. This human experience is something so different from any other. As I see through my eyes, I wonder how others see the world and what filters they still have attached to their eyes. I see the world differently than most, I know. Seeing all the beauty that is surrounds us, the butterfly sitting in the sun warming his wings, the caterpillar crossing the road, the birds singing, the baby deer prancing across the field but how do others see? Do they focus on the negative side of life, or the positive? What moves them to tears? What sadness do they carry with them? These are all things I think about in my time alone.  It is just absolutely incredible to me how we even exist in the first place, what a magical experience indeed.

I find myself wondering how I got here, to this beautiful place and how lucky I am to be surrounded with love. Love that I’ve carved into my life and into my soul. The closer I become my true self, the stronger I feel the connected I am to all things. I have never had so much confidence or self-love; now wondering why I ever treated myself so harshly to begin with.

A lot of things have changed, myself included. I am never the same person from day to day; my transformation is proof of that. I have learned so much in life but what I see more clearly than ever is love is the true magic of the universe. It can brake all barriers, it can defeat hate and it fills us with more bliss then we knew existed. Love multiples, it is contagious once ignited and what a beautiful sight to see indeed.

xoxo

Free Writing

I have come to find that everything is not as it seems. People often are wolfs in sheep’s clothing. They pretend to be exactly opposite of how they are. Why it is that humans do this? A dog would not act a certain way only to bite your hand off. He will act as if he wants to bite your hand off. I have a lot of beautiful connections in my life but none like the one I share with my dog. He is always happy to see me, always greets me with a smile and some wet kisses. He always acts like each time I come home is the first time he has seen me. He happy simply with the food and love I give him, he doesn’t ask for anything more. He gives me his love, unconditionally. He hides nothing from me, he is simply happy that we are together. Why can’t people act more like this? Life isn’t about being cool, it isn’t about what color your skin is, or what religion you are. It’s about love, and the connections we share with people.  It’s about being kind and showing compassion. It’s about helping one another, despite our differences. It’s about all that most have seen to lost. I see it in larger cities, where everyone only cares for themselves, and will pass a stranger in need without thinking twice. They don’t say “thank you” to the waiter and they throw a fit when things aren’t perfect. They are in a rush to get nowhere, and they are ALWAYS on their phone. Money rules the world, and there by nothing else matters.

It is sad to me, a girl from the country, that people find it okay to live like this. I was raised to always say “Thank you” when given something, no matter who it’s from. To always be kind over being rude, somethings you cannot control. Sharing a smile with a stranger could brighten their whole day, and to always treat others how you would want to be treated. Life doesn’t work the way that you want it to, according to your rules. Life isn’t fair and sometimes it plan sucks. Working hard is the only way you can ever get the things you want in life, they will not be handed to you. Love is free, it cannot be bought no matter how hard you try. Life is simple, yet we make it so changeling.

I will always prefer my home in the country, to city life. I need wide open spaces, I need room to breathe, to feel the energy of the trees, to see the beautiful sights and smells of the flowers, to see deer running through the woods, to hear the songs of the birds and the meditative sounds of the streams. I need it all, it’s who I am. That is my peace on earth, my sanctuary.

I truly believe if people got away from the buildings that humans have created and lived among nature that they would find all that they were looking for. That violence and crime rates would go down, that overall life would improve. When you live in a false world you’ve created nothing good can come from it; the concrete we use to build with holds and gives off a void of energy. It is not alive, so it is an energy void, which then comes back to us. But if you live among the trees, among the plants, they you will be given the gift of positive energy. You will be enlightened and enriched with the love of our great mother. She knows what her children need, it is her children who refuse to listen.

At a standstill

We are only two days into the new month and already there is much beauty to be found. The birds are singing their songs, the flowers are blooming, there is a cool breeze blowing and the sun is shining. I feel light and free, expect for one thing…..

Today as I awaken from the night of rest I find myself feeling as if I have come to the end of the road. I have not lost my faith in the universe, or the positive energies that surround me; I simply feel I am at the end of the road I’ve created for myself. When I look down at my feet I see a blacktop road with grass and flowers growing all around it. When I look behind me I see the forest from which I came, and all that I have fought through to get here. I see all the lessons, and growth that I have done while in the forest, and my time there is complete (at least for now.) When I look in front of me I see a wide open filed, with tall grass and wild flowers blowing in a gentle breeze. I am not at a cross roads, I am at a standstill.

I am at a new beginning, this chapter has come to a close and this is where a new starts. When I look out into the open field of opportunity, I see so many paths I could take, but which is right for me, I am undecided. For now, I just rest, I feel the breeze touch my face so gentle, I smell the lovely scents of the flowers, I take a moment to see how far I have come, and what still needs to be done.

It is at the moment, when I feel lost. That my since of purpose has been lost to me and I know must regain what I once saw and felt so clearly. I must reinvent myself, or shed the skin that binds me. I have out grown so much in this life but what I have really changed in the physical world, I hang out with the same people, I do the same things, and I see the same things in my home every day. So with all the growth I have done, I have not changed my surroundings, maybe this is what the new chapter will bring.

For now, I am amazed at how far I have come and who I have become. There is always work to be done, but for now I am grateful for all the lessons the forest has taught me. Without which I wouldn’t be the woman I am today. Tomorrow is another day, and another step forward. I am excited to see what this next chapter holds for me.

 

Namaste.

xoxo

We all have bad days

It’s funny how one day you are feeling wonderful and vibrant and the next it seems like an endless sea of darkness has come for you. On Easter Sunday I felt wonderful, my husband, Norman and I all decided we would go for a morning hike in one of my favorite forests. It’s an old forest, with ferns everywhere and mossy trees stumps; it is such a magical place.  We walked to the lake, and up the mountains; my husband said we must of walked 8 miles. It was wonderful to just be out surrounded by the trees, and be outside. So needless to say I was feeling free, light and optimistic about life in general. We had Easter dinner with my parents outside, which was a very enjoyable.

The next day I wake up and I feel the total opposite of everything I was feeling just hours earlier. I was judging myself harshly, I felt pessimistic and dark. I no long felt the universe was aiding me in achieving my dreams, even though I did not believe that to be true. I know that we are spiritual beings and that we are all meant to have down days, it was just strange that it seemingly came out of nowhere. Then I was told that the schumann resonance had peaked to its highest ever recorded state on Sunday, so I thought that was aiding in my feelings. I saw 12:12, smiled and thanked the universe for the gentle reminder that everything comes in time, and when we need it.

Then yesterday, the internet was out. So for us that means no computer, phone or tv (since we do not have cable.) It was a beautiful day so I figured I would go outside and get the work in the gardens done; it needed to be done and I had been putting it off. So I went to Lowes and go some flowers to add to the gardens, came home and went to town. I put on some music, brought normie outside, and played in the dirt. I spent just about all day outside, the gardens where in worse shape than I thought. By the end of the day I felt accomplished and wonderful again. It is crazy how easily sucked into the internet, it has an endless sea of knowledge yet so many of us know so little. So it’s nice to be disconnected for a day, I truly think I needed it.

I love how the universe works everything out, it was the only way to get me outside and do what needed to be done. I need some me time in the sun, I needed to ground, and needed to relax. The funny part is after all that was done and I got my shower the internet began to work again. It still cracks me up!!  Anyways, my point is things happen for a reason especially when we ignore what we are being told. The universe and our guides will make a point for us to get the message; you can only ignore things for so long.

Most people think just because you are positive or enlightened in any way that means you never have a bad day. It’s quite the opposite actually, you may have more bad days than ever before because you are dealing with, and moving on from all the crud you have kept hidden or locked away. The only way to find enlightenment is to first deal with everything inside you; the only difference is when you’re a spiritual or positive person you trust it, let it flow and let it go. You know you are strong enough to get through anything and that this too is just a test of your strength and your faith. Nothing happens by accident, everything has a purpose. Feel the sadness, understand it, and let it go. I have and I can tell you I feel better than ever. I am simply making room for light to live within me.

 

Have a blessed day everyone! Spread love & kindness everywhere you go!

xoxo

April Full Moon

How is everyone feeling since the full moon last night? Did everyone feel the energy she gave off? How did she affect you?

For weeks pervious to the full moon I was feeling foggy, sluggish, exhausted and every bone in my body ached. I was having these bursts of anger coming seemingly out of nowhere; and over the littlest of things. I am not an angry person normally so this was very strange for me. I am usually the person that everyone goes to when they need lifted up, or just need to vent their sorrows. I am seemingly a beacon of light in cloud of darkness; this is why I am protective of my energy. And for the past few weeks I have not been that for everyone, I have been disconnected; wanted to be left alone in my own little world of haze while I undergo this transformation.

I am sure many of you know but for those that do not there are four planets in retrograde along with the full moon; it has been a dozy of a time for me and many others. I saw the effects of these magical energies even in those who are not spiritually minded. It was pretty wild to see, I understood what was happening and why I was feeling this way but for someone who doesn’t have a clue that had to of been an even rougher ride than what I experienced. I saw people getting angry for no reason, being very touchy ready to explode at any time, and just an overall short fuse. People were frustrated but didn’t know why; feeling like a cold was coming on but one never came. I smile as the observer watching all this happen around me, knowing that everything is working itself out the way it needs to.

Yesterday, the day of the full moon I had woken up with the sudden burst of energy; which was more energy than I had had in weeks. The weather could have also played a part in this since it was our first 80 degrees day this spring but it went deeper than that. Everything I had felt over the past weeks was gone, like it was never there at all. I was seeing clearer than before, filled with energy that didn’t seem to dissipate, the anger that had was once filled me was gone. I was happier, lighter and freer than ever before; I knew the first huge step in my transform was complete. I spent the day cleaning the house with the windows and doors open, to let all the fresh air in. When the evening came I prepared my full moon affirmations and all the things I wanted to release; my husband joined me for my ritual which was a nice treat. We light our white candle burned our sage and completed our ritual, as the paper burned I could feel all the energy being released and all the energy the moon had to offer me in its place. I took some deep breathes after it was completed and the candle had been put out, and it felt wonderful.

I told my husband before bed to not be surprised if he felt different in the morning or continue to release throughout the day today. In the middle of the night around 2 am I woke up hotter than hell. I was sweating bullets, had thrown all my covers off and was just lying there tossing and turning. I was unable to get comfortable or cool down, so I got the feeling something was going on beyond my control. About 25 minutes later I cooled off and fell back asleep, so I believe I had a massive release and that was my body way of letting it all go (which is what I asked for.) Funny how those things tend to work out, hence the saying “be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I haven’t talked to my husband yet so I am curious how the moons magic has affected him, if at all.

Today I feel better than ever, I have a sense or “feeling” of knowing that positive things are on their way. That everything I have worked so hard for is now ready to give me the fruits of my labor. The best is yet to come indeed, and it’s closer than ever.

Have a spectacular day everyone! Spread some love & some kindness to yourself & to others.

xoxo

Messages from above

Over the past few days, something has been recurring that I only began to notice yesterday.  When I was driving home from the store yesterday, I saw a red tail hawk fly seemingly out of the nowhere and fly right in front of my car.  I saw him clearly, and was taken aback by the beauty he offered me. I then got the urge to look at the clock and it read 12:12. I smiled as I understood that there was a message that I was being told.

I then looked back, and noticed that for the past week I have seen red tail hawks everywhere, always followed by seeing 12:12 or a number pattern of some sort. I knew that this did not happen by coincidence; as I do not believe in coincidences. Everything that has happened was meant to happen; the universe is simply working itself out. I told myself when I got home I had to look up the meaning of a hawk spirit animal, as well as the meaning of 1212. I had looked up the meaning of it before but I couldn’t remember what the meaning was.

As soon as I got in the door, I looked up the meaning of 1212 which is, symbolizes your spiritual growth and awakening, manifestation of your dreams, and awareness of your infinite being. You should continue to remain positive frame of mind and steer your thoughts in the direction of your dominant ambition. As soon as I read this, I remembered reading it before. It all became clear with a sentence or two; I am on my way to my life mission. Helping everyone see how beautiful they are, for them to feel it, to radiate it and embrace it. Embracing themselves for everything they are, and everything they are not. Inspire others to let go, to be free and find their own truth.

I then looked up the meaning of the hawk, once again I was understanding the message I was being sent. Hawk is often a messenger from Angels, Devas and the Divine. He signals a time in your life when you need to focus on what’s ahead and prepare for a leadership role. Your global vision is a potent helpmate in this. Just as the Hawk, you are ready to fly higher than ever before.

It is not unusual for Hawk to inspire a time when you begin working heavily with new divination methods. Effectively you’re learning to trust your own inner guidance and Higher Self. Do not simply brush off gut instincts as being happenstance. After reading this, I had a huge smile of my face and started to laugh. I just love how we are sent messages, if we pay attention they tell us everything we need to know.

Lately, I have been hooping out of the control. I has been on my mind constantly, so much so that I even dream about it. It is something that I love and cherish. It makes my goddess energy come alive, and surrounds my being with the feminine. I haven’t been so committed or passionate about something new in a long time. I know that hopping has found me for a reason not yet known to me but that it will aid me in the future somehow.

We all ask for signs at some point in our lives, we ask for them but are seemingly blind when they are given to us. In order to receive the signs you ask for, you must stay open you must see everything for how it is and not how you wish it to be. Pay attention, be present.

 

Never give up & Never quit fighting

Today is the first day of spring, or the spring equinox. The energy leading up to today has been exhausting to say the least. I have felt myself releasing; to which I wonder how much can really be left…..apparently a lot. I’ve felt my body, mind and soul upgrading to a new state of being and seeing. Sluggish and tried have been a way of life over the past few days, due to this upgrade. I see so many things changing and evolving within myself and within others. This is such an important time on this beautiful planet. Once we change ourselves inside, is when we can change the outside world.

What we have done to the planet, to our great mother is a disturbing reflection of how we all feel about ourselves. It’s all a reflection of how the majority feels on the inside, refusing to see the beauty that lives within us. Refusing to take care and nurture those innocent, sweet parts of ourselves. Never really satisfied or content with anyone or anything; only wanting things to make us happy and then when we have them no longer wanting them. What I don’t understand is why we think this is okay, why don’t people spend time outside anymore? How is destroying the beauty forests progress? (The world doesn’t need more houses, or more shopping malls.) Are we that ego driven to think that anything we create is more beautiful than anything mother could create? These are the kinds of things I think about. Anyways, more to the point….

Once we began to love the person within us, once we began to nurture, and take care of this beauty is when we will began to take care of our environment. If we take care of ourselves, than we will take care of nature. Everything we do is a reflection ourselves, whether we like to acknowledge that or not.  When the majority steps out of the shadows and into their own light and their own power is when we will see major things changing. (Let me tell you its coming….I can feel it. So many things have changed and been released it’s so clear we are about to step into a whole new period of being and existing) The simple truth is we need a revolution of love. A call to action for each and every one of us to love the beauty and light that is within us. We need to step into our own power and strength. Yes, there are parts of ourselves that we all don’t like to see or face but those are the parts that we need to face the most. It is the key that unlocks a whole new world, a world that has been waiting for you for your entire life. It’s the world of freedom. Free from fear, shame, pride, ego and everything you have wanted to cleanse yourself of.

You can do your part to spread love every day. Walk around with a smile on your face, if you aren’t having the best day think of something that makes you happy and watch a smile appear. It is the simplest of things but can make all the difference to someone. Say “Thank You”, show your gratitude to others. Be kind. When a negative thought comes into your mind, quickly change it to something positive. Slow down and take time to feel the warmth on the sun on your skin, to feel how unimportant all that stress, worry and drama is. Remember what is really important, put things in perspective. These are all things that help make the world a little better each day, positivity spreads like wild fire once started. You never know how many lives you can touch or change by doing these simple things; you may even end up changing your life.

 

Have a spectacular Monday everyone!! It’s a new week; there is no better time to change than the present. Never give up and never quit fighting!