April Full Moon

How is everyone feeling since the full moon last night? Did everyone feel the energy she gave off? How did she affect you?

For weeks pervious to the full moon I was feeling foggy, sluggish, exhausted and every bone in my body ached. I was having these bursts of anger coming seemingly out of nowhere; and over the littlest of things. I am not an angry person normally so this was very strange for me. I am usually the person that everyone goes to when they need lifted up, or just need to vent their sorrows. I am seemingly a beacon of light in cloud of darkness; this is why I am protective of my energy. And for the past few weeks I have not been that for everyone, I have been disconnected; wanted to be left alone in my own little world of haze while I undergo this transformation.

I am sure many of you know but for those that do not there are four planets in retrograde along with the full moon; it has been a dozy of a time for me and many others. I saw the effects of these magical energies even in those who are not spiritually minded. It was pretty wild to see, I understood what was happening and why I was feeling this way but for someone who doesn’t have a clue that had to of been an even rougher ride than what I experienced. I saw people getting angry for no reason, being very touchy ready to explode at any time, and just an overall short fuse. People were frustrated but didn’t know why; feeling like a cold was coming on but one never came. I smile as the observer watching all this happen around me, knowing that everything is working itself out the way it needs to.

Yesterday, the day of the full moon I had woken up with the sudden burst of energy; which was more energy than I had had in weeks. The weather could have also played a part in this since it was our first 80 degrees day this spring but it went deeper than that. Everything I had felt over the past weeks was gone, like it was never there at all. I was seeing clearer than before, filled with energy that didn’t seem to dissipate, the anger that had was once filled me was gone. I was happier, lighter and freer than ever before; I knew the first huge step in my transform was complete. I spent the day cleaning the house with the windows and doors open, to let all the fresh air in. When the evening came I prepared my full moon affirmations and all the things I wanted to release; my husband joined me for my ritual which was a nice treat. We light our white candle burned our sage and completed our ritual, as the paper burned I could feel all the energy being released and all the energy the moon had to offer me in its place. I took some deep breathes after it was completed and the candle had been put out, and it felt wonderful.

I told my husband before bed to not be surprised if he felt different in the morning or continue to release throughout the day today. In the middle of the night around 2 am I woke up hotter than hell. I was sweating bullets, had thrown all my covers off and was just lying there tossing and turning. I was unable to get comfortable or cool down, so I got the feeling something was going on beyond my control. About 25 minutes later I cooled off and fell back asleep, so I believe I had a massive release and that was my body way of letting it all go (which is what I asked for.) Funny how those things tend to work out, hence the saying “be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I haven’t talked to my husband yet so I am curious how the moons magic has affected him, if at all.

Today I feel better than ever, I have a sense or “feeling” of knowing that positive things are on their way. That everything I have worked so hard for is now ready to give me the fruits of my labor. The best is yet to come indeed, and it’s closer than ever.

Have a spectacular day everyone! Spread some love & some kindness to yourself & to others.


Messages from above

Over the past few days, something has been recurring that I only began to notice yesterday.  When I was driving home from the store yesterday, I saw a red tail hawk fly seemingly out of the nowhere and fly right in front of my car.  I saw him clearly, and was taken aback by the beauty he offered me. I then got the urge to look at the clock and it read 12:12. I smiled as I understood that there was a message that I was being told.

I then looked back, and noticed that for the past week I have seen red tail hawks everywhere, always followed by seeing 12:12 or a number pattern of some sort. I knew that this did not happen by coincidence; as I do not believe in coincidences. Everything that has happened was meant to happen; the universe is simply working itself out. I told myself when I got home I had to look up the meaning of a hawk spirit animal, as well as the meaning of 1212. I had looked up the meaning of it before but I couldn’t remember what the meaning was.

As soon as I got in the door, I looked up the meaning of 1212 which is, symbolizes your spiritual growth and awakening, manifestation of your dreams, and awareness of your infinite being. You should continue to remain positive frame of mind and steer your thoughts in the direction of your dominant ambition. As soon as I read this, I remembered reading it before. It all became clear with a sentence or two; I am on my way to my life mission. Helping everyone see how beautiful they are, for them to feel it, to radiate it and embrace it. Embracing themselves for everything they are, and everything they are not. Inspire others to let go, to be free and find their own truth.

I then looked up the meaning of the hawk, once again I was understanding the message I was being sent. Hawk is often a messenger from Angels, Devas and the Divine. He signals a time in your life when you need to focus on what’s ahead and prepare for a leadership role. Your global vision is a potent helpmate in this. Just as the Hawk, you are ready to fly higher than ever before.

It is not unusual for Hawk to inspire a time when you begin working heavily with new divination methods. Effectively you’re learning to trust your own inner guidance and Higher Self. Do not simply brush off gut instincts as being happenstance. After reading this, I had a huge smile of my face and started to laugh. I just love how we are sent messages, if we pay attention they tell us everything we need to know.

Lately, I have been hooping out of the control. I has been on my mind constantly, so much so that I even dream about it. It is something that I love and cherish. It makes my goddess energy come alive, and surrounds my being with the feminine. I haven’t been so committed or passionate about something new in a long time. I know that hopping has found me for a reason not yet known to me but that it will aid me in the future somehow.

We all ask for signs at some point in our lives, we ask for them but are seemingly blind when they are given to us. In order to receive the signs you ask for, you must stay open you must see everything for how it is and not how you wish it to be. Pay attention, be present.


My absence

Over the past week I have been battling a illness, my sinus have been giving me a hard time. The weather has decided it is no long winter, and that spring should be here. So along with spring comes my allergies to pollen. Anyways, this isn’t what the blog is about today so let’s get it to it.

On Sunday, before I got sick my husband, dog and I went to the state forest to get away for a few hours. The thing I love the most about the forest besides all the tress is when my phone says no service. It’s a kind of liberating feeling to just be for a few hours, with no distractions.

We were walking on a trial right off the road, when we stumbled along an old P.O.W. Camp that had once been there. So we started to walk around the camp. It was fascinating to see all the buildings they had built, the aqueducts they had built to supply water to the camp, and overall just how large the camp was. The first side of the camp we encountered was not “bad” or giving off any negative energies that I could feel. It’s hard to say what these buildings were since only the foundations remain. As we kept walking I felt compelled to walk a certain direction, so I follow it and let it guide me. We ended up in a part of the camp that I did not like at all. As we were walking, I told my husband that I felt different, I felt anxiety and a heavy sadness. He then told me that I was in a building, which I hadn’t noticed. I kept waking, down this trail where there seemed to be nothing, but I knew something was at the end of it. As I walked down this trail, I began to feel like a officer in the military. I had on a green coat, it was long, down to my mid calf, I had a green hat with golden metals or some sort of engraving on the front. I had brown boots, tall brown boots. I had brown hair, and a brown mustache, I had brown gloves in my hand. As I walked I looked down at the ground, I knew what had to be done but I felt remorse and guilt for it. Then I came to the end of the path, there was the remains of a building. I hated this building, I believe some very horrific things happened in this place. It was a prime location for it, a mile away from any of the other buildings in the camp. Surrounded by nothing, no one to hear your screams. I quickly left this location, and walked back down the path as I did so this time, I felt as if two men were carrying me, one under each of my arms. I felt like I was bloody, beaten and almost on the edge of death. I quickly release what was not mine, and told the spirits they could not come home with they. That they must remain where they are meant to be.

As we walked away further and further from this location, we came to the entrance of the camp, were to the right a building used to be. I walked into the building, it felt like an administrative building, where people would be admitted into the camp. Behind where the building used to be was a ton oak trees, one of these trees called out to me so I walked over to it. I touched the tree, said “hello” and asked to exchange energy with him. I say him because oak trees are more masculine to me than other trees. He gave me his energy, and it began to ground me. I lost track of him, getting lost in how amazing this energy felt. I came back to reality and thanked the tree for what he had given me, and removed my hand. I felt high, and grounded; I could feel the bottoms of my feet connected deeply within our great mother. It was amazing to be that in a place riddled with darkness, that there would be a tree that was beautiful and light; that was never affected by this darkness. I have made a tree friend, and I will be visiting him again.

If you have never made a tree friend, I would suggest you try sometime. Trees hold much wisdom and knowledge. Humans could learn a lot from trees, they stand strong and firm where they are, they show us death is beautiful, and how important it is to have roots.

Next time I go, I will try to remember to bring my camera so I can take pictures for everyone to see.

Feeling the full moon

Over the past week or so, I have felt so out of sorts. I feel like a have a cold coming on; I am physically tired, just drained, completely. At night I get so hot that I wake up, throw the covers off and just lay there; then eventually I get cold and have to throw the covers back on. This has been my struggle since the full moon.

From the people I have talked to that have been experiencing the same thing, have said that is it our human bodies upgrading and releasing old ways of being. This makes total sense to me since I have been actively working to rid myself of old patterns and ways of being that no long resonate with me. Basically anything that does not align with my highest potential of being, I want to get rid of. I have been more aware and more awake than ever before. My body just has to get used to this new way of being, and the higher vibration that comes with it. Now more than ever staying grounded is so important. Walks in nature are my favorite way to achieve this, but I also use stones and mediation to help me.

I have changed so much already, and I’m looking forward to more growth and evolving. The growth within me resonates to all my other relationships. Seeing them differently, taking a different approach to things, and helping others see what they need to change within themselves. Everything is different now, and I embrace it; I would never want things to go back to how they used to be. I love this new me too much.

Stay strong in this time, take the time to rest and recharge. Be aware of the things that are coming up, thank them, and look deeper into them. Why are they coming up? What triggered this, and why? What is in with you that you need to see? This is how growth happens, it can be painful but it is all a part of the experience. The benefits you receive from doing the work, far exceed any amount of pain.



P.s- I have updated my website; I am now offering tarot readings for anyone who is interested.

What a week

It has been days since I have had to just sit and write anything. Most of the week I was feeling so tried, and just exhausted. There has been some updates going on for us, and I was feeling it for sure; my body has been healing and releasing all week.  I finally feel like myself again, thank goodness. I am sure without a doubt there will be more updates to come, as this is a pretty intense time right now.

I got to spend some time with a beloved friend this week, which is always fun. We went to her friend’s house and I got to try out a light bed for the first time. A light bed has different lights on it, the color of each charka, and then the lights are placed over you so they hoover over your charkas. The lights are very bright, and colorful. I only did a 20 minute session to start, and that was enough for my first time. It took me a while to just relax and quite my mind, but once I did I got so relaxed. My arms and legs felt so heavy and I just didn’t want to move. It was an amazing feeling to have all of my charkas open at one time. Once my time was up, I was relaxed for hours after word. I just felt so light, and had no worries. I don’t even think I was thinking about anything, which was amazing in its self. Not having any sort of experience while under the light, I thought that I wouldn’t have any experience at all…I was wrong. That night my dreams were loaded with symbolism. They were the kind of dreams that feel so real you wake up and have to take a second to think “did that just happen?” then you know that it was only a dream. The dream was so real in fact that I had to ask one of my physic friends if the guy in it was a subconscious message or if there was a real spiritual connection there. Turns out it was just a subconscious message, which added even more meaning and symbolism to the dream. I am thankful the spirit guides show me all of these things; I know they talk to me all the time but I cannot hear them through all the noise. My next goal will be quieting my mind, so that I can hear. There are many times I feel so scattered, I have to reel myself back in and stay focused. I am going to go back next week for another session; I am excited to see what the spirits have in store for me.


We are never done learning and improving ourselves. There is always work to be done.

 sending light & love to all of you.


Release & Live

We only can control what we do, say and feel. The need to control everything must be let go of, release any and all things you cannot control. Feel a weight lifted off your shoulders, be free from it. Take a deep breath and just release.

The power of release is transforming and magical; only aligning ourselves with the things that we resonate with, pure beauty. We only are affected by what we allow to affect us; we do not have to accept all things that are given to us. There are often times I get a headache, and I started to say “This is not mine, I do not accept it.” I say this over and over again and just like magic the headache fades away. We have to be aware of what is our own and what isn’t, think of how much baggage you’re carrying around for someone else. It is so tiring and draining, and it simply weighs you down. You don’t need it; let the baggage of the past go. It’s over, complete and cannot be changed. It is what it is and that is what it shall be. The reasonability of your life is yours and yours alone.

You can make your dreams come true, you can sit around complaining. You can travel and live your life, or you can be a job that you hate. Life is simple; we are the ones that complicate things.

This is your life, go live it.

Magical Year

We are 5 days into the New Year and so far things are wonderful. Since giving up meat I have felt so free and light; not to mention how proud I am of myself to do something I have always wanted to do. Every day is a new day and a new adventure. I am not one to make New Year resolutions, for me they always fail; and I don’t see the point of waiting until a new year to change your life, there is no better time than the present.

With every breathe I take I become free from all the fears that have always held me back. I feel more like myself than I ever have; each day I am a better version of myself. It’s like I have stripped away all the parts of false parts of myself; now only my true self shines through; she is more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. The fire inside of me has come alive stronger than ever before. I know see clearly, it’s up to me to make my dreams come true. I am the master and creator of my destiny; making my dreams come true is exactly what I indeed to do. I have already started on this path in sharing my thoughts with all of you; writing is my passion. There is a purpose for that, and I see this more than ever. I am here to help inspire, change and give hope to the world. I have been given this gift and I won’t waste it; I want all of you to the find a place of peace and love within yourselves.

I see and feel myself changing every day, lighter and freer than the previous day. The warrior goddess inside of me has been awakened and with each release I feel her getting stronger. I am beginning to trust my instincts and intuition.  I refuse to let anyone dampen my spirit or bring me down; this is the year I kick fear in the face. I am ready to jump into life and live. To finally get rid of the fears that hold me back from feeling alive. New experiences and new people will be the theme for this year. Doing what makes ME happy, forgetting what others say or think. Everything that I do will be for ME and I refuse to apologize for it. I will let new experiences shape me, knowledge change me, smile often and love always.

Here’s to a Magical Year!

Spend sometime on myself

Today I have set aside to have some me time. All the family activities do not start until the weekend, I have finished shopping and decorating; so it is time is right. I knew that I wanted to have a release to end the year out right. I wanted to go deeper into myself than I have ever gone before; and with mercury in retrograde this is the perfect time for it.

Over the past week or so, I have kept myself so busy so I wouldn’t have to deal with anything, I wasn’t ready; but now I am. So I started out my day like I normally do, drinking some hot herbal tea, making a nice breakfast for myself, and walking the dog. I love to walk, even though it is winter now and the temperatures aren’t ideal, I still like to burn off some extra energy. I said my thank you’s to the universe and the elements as I do every day, I then took a deep breathe in and exhaled. There is something about the cold, fresh air coming into your body that just makes you feel good, at least for me.

When we came inside, I gave the dog his treat and came upstairs to my room. A friend had told me to try TAT for releasing, I had never heard of this practice before so I went to YouTube to see what videos I could find. It turns out it’s a very easy exercise that doesn’t take up much time. I thought everything that I wanted to release, and everything I wasn’t aware of that I wanted to release. I took some deep breathes in and out and just let it sail away. I did the exercise twice for about 2 minutes each, and I feel so much lighter. I find it crazy that the simplest things can make all the difference.

I then did a past life regression, it had been a week or so since my last one and I felt compelled to do so, so I did. I started off the way I normally do, asking for protection and wrapping myself in light. I began to go into mediation, when I finally came to my book it opened and I watched as another life unfolded in front of me…..

This time I was a woman with long brown hair with a brown thin headband, I was wearing fingerless gloves made from leather. My corset top was also made of leather, as was my skirt. My skirt at one point had fabrics attached to it which were now ripped off. I had tall leather boots, and a holster made of leather around my thigh that held two small knifes. I also was carrying a large sward holster around my waist with a rather large, heavy sword in it. I was carrying a small brown book in my hands; it had a leather cord wrapped around it to keep the book closed. When I brought the book closer to me, something fell out of it. It was a torn map, old brownish paper; it was a map to Avalon. I was traveling home, there were many people and beings that did not want me to return to my home. I fought my way through the battles, and carried on with my travels. That was it; I started to come out of the meditative state and woke. I believe this was my very first life, or one of my first lives.

As I was writing this down in my journal, I had a aha moment. She is the warrior spirit within, the one that never stops fighting for what she believes in. I am on my way to finding my true home, there will be people and distractions along the way but to keep fighting and looking forward. Never give up on yourself or your beliefs. Everything you need or want is inside of you.

On the road to happiness there will be many obstacles and road blocks, keep moving forward. The only person that can hold you back is yourself.

Roller coaster of emotions

Last Friday at a local crystal shop they were giving away free 10 minutes readings, so I thought I’d try it out. I have only gotten readings from beloved friends before so I was curious to see what a total stranger would say or see.

Last week was rough for me in the fact that it was a roller coaster of emotions. The constant up and down of life was in full swing. When Thursday came around I felt fantastic, I was the embodiment of joy and love. I was vibrating at my highest, and it felt amazing. Friday, was different though, I still felt as if I was vibrating on a higher level, just different from the previous day. Like something was coming to the surface to be healed. Looking back now, it all makes perfect sense and I was just aligning myself for a break down so I could break through.

I decided to get a free reading; I mean what could it hurt, right? I waited and waited for my turn in line, when it finally came I got nervous. I know from experience what you want to hear and what spirit tells you are often very different. I sit down with her and she asks if there is anything that I want to ask or if I want to do an overall reading. I tell her just an overall reading would be good, since I didn’t want to give too much away. I am always cautious with a new reader; you never know who is true and who isn’t. She began to tell me things about my marriage, and about myself. That I cannot be friends with certain people because there is too much there to just be friends. That I am on the right path, and about to have a huge spiritual awakening; to keep moving forward. To be sure of the choices I make and if I find myself not liking the path I have chosen I can always back up and try another path. She said there was a baby in my aura, and to work things out before that happens.

Now for me, this was a lot in just 10 minutes, she basically mind fucked me. (for lack of a better word) She made me feel like I was powerless and the world was seamlessly spinning out of control around me. I cried, the entire way home and just felt more confused and lost that I have in a very long time. When I got home I talked to friends about what had happened, and how I felt about the whole thing. Some friends were very helpful to me, others I felt judged me. Over the course the evening, I came to this conclusion.

I am sick and tired of everyone telling me what I should or shouldn’t do. I am the master of my own destiny; I am the driver and creator. I decide what is best for me and what isn’t. Others will judge me for the way I feel and the things I do, I will love them anyway. They come from a place of closed mindedness, or not understanding. I do not blame them, I will not condemn them, I will only love them. I can be with friends with whomever I choose, I simply must take caution when there is a past life connection. Future tellers can only tell you so much, the future changes every day with every choice we make; just because they see something there doesn’t mean it is going to happen. I will feel the way I feel about people and that is how it is mean to be. Just because I am married doesn’t mean it is wrong of me to hold love for another. Just because I hold love in my heart for others doesn’t mean it is romantic in nature and doesn’t mean I love my husband less. Love is what we are all made of; it is what we desire more than anything else in this world. So when I find it, I always cherish it. Most importantly of all, the answers I seek I cannot find in anyone else, they are within me. I must take the time to look within myself to see what it is that I truly need and want. Everyone else is simply a guide.

Looking back at this whole experience, I am so grateful that this happened. I needed to crash and burn so I could rebuild myself with a stronger understanding of self. I will always believe that everything happens for a reason, and this is just one more example of that.


My dreams last night were vivid and intense, but not only that it has just came to my realization that it is the first dream I have remember in weeks; making this dream even more insightful than I had originally thought.

I had this dream I was driving my car, it was a road that I can’t recall ever being on before. To my left was a farmer’s field, to my right was a small dirt lane to pull off but after that was a cliff. I was driving up a rather steep hill, in a state on peace and comfort. I noticed up ahead that there was a gasoline truck, speeding into the dirt pull off lane to my right. I slowed down a bit and took caution since I was unsure as to what this gasoline truck was doing. As I get closer I speed up a bit so that I can pass him, I get maybe 100 yards away from him and he puts the truck in reverse. Kicking up massive amounts of dirt into the air, and blocks the road. I slam on my brakes, and turn left hoping I will go into the farmer’s field for safety. I truly thought that this truck was going to ram into the side of my car. Instead of me going into the farmers field my car just keeps going in circles, until I slow down and stopped completely. As my car is doing this, the gasoline truck circle’s around me. The truck than suddenly hits the gas and speeds up the hill only to run off of the cliff. I move my car over to the dirt pull off lane and just sit there for a second. I thank the universe, angels, and my spirit guides for keeping my safe. People run from their cars to check on the driver of the truck, and come running down to see if I am okay. I tell them my story of what happened, and I wake up; heart racing, totally freaked out but okay.

Upon my waking the dream made little sense to me, I could only think of how odd a dream this was. I haven’t dreamt of me driving before, at least not that I can recall. To dream of a gasoline truck no less, is ever stranger still. So I posted my dream in the spiritual group I help admin to get an outside perceptive of what I meanings I could be overlooking.  One of the people in the group commented that it could be something as simple as me not allowing outside energies to affect me. Thinking in the way that the gasoline truck delivers its gas to the gas stations where we fill our cars with fuel, or food. It’s the same as going to the grocery store; they control what food is available for you to buy, to fuel your body. So in essence, I am not letting the outside world control my energy; I am my own person. I think for myself, I do not give up easily and stay true to what I believe to be true. Which is why the truck gave up and ran off the cliff to someone else, he could not feed me the lies he wanted to spread.

Thinking in this sense, makes everything I have been going through just click. It feels right, and feels true. This dream is so profound to me that it makes me grateful that I am aligned with the divine. That I am on the right path, to more positivity and more abundance; I am in alignment with where I am meant to be.