With darkness comes light

August has arrived, how is everyone feeling?? It got a little rough (& dark) there for a little while, didn’t it? Feels good to be rebooting back into myself again. How was this transformational period for everyone? A lot of stuff came up didn’t it; talk about rebirth!

The full moon & lunar eclipse (along with planets going retrograde, solar storms & everything else) left me exhausted and drained, in a way I haven’t experienced for quite some time. I saw (& am still seeing) synchronicities around me. In the way of animals (mostly birds, as I am in bird medicine currently), numbers, & things just aligning perfectly. I was having a huge issue with stagnant energy in my sacral (stomach). Then here comes moon goddess and says “I’ll help you with that!” I even had dreams of a boyfriend I had when I was 18. Spirit, universe and the moon all wanted to be sure that I got the message (they know it takes me awhile sometimes), and I totally did. Actually it was more like this total epiphany, & awakening unlocking everything for me. Looping themes & boundaries, were two HUGE topics for me.

I began my work with serpent energy, as she symbolizes rebirth, she helped me get energy flowing again. As soon as it started to flow I was a releasing queen. Things were coming up left & right to be let go of, released and detached from. I haven’t been in that victim state of mind in a while but there it was a part of myself still felt that way, so I got rid of all of it. I do not need the past (or baggage) to define me or who I am. Like many things the easiest stuff always goes quickly then you get to the real stuff. When you hit a certain level of depth within yourself & you had no idea that stuff was even there, that’s the challenge. That’s the test from the universe to see if you’re really wanting change as much as you say you do. I believe the universe & spirit to be a no nonsense kind of force, you either are willing to work for it or you’re not.  She is all about action, and putting the work in.

I went to depths I didn’t even know existed within me. I felt it too, my physical body was done. I took naps, which I never do, just because my body needed it. I had a list full of things I wanted to accomplish but none of it got done; it was okay though I needed the rest. It felt like my light body was advancing at such an accelerated speed that my physical body couldn’t keep up. I took the time I needed, that is such an important thing to do. When your body tells you, “Hey, I need a brake” then listen. It is okay to rest momentarily & pick everything up later. I went into my sacred space & spent a lot of time there. I withdrew from society for a little while because I needed too. For me, I cannot be social while still going deep into myself; I’t just doesn’t work for me. I spent a lot of time in nature, it called out to me. There was one day where every time I’d come home I’d be called right back outside again. I needed the love from mother, I needed her support.

And here we are now, its August & there is a magic in the air. I find myself taking the first steps into my new life & my new ways of being. I have set boundaries with myself & stand powerfully in them. I even stood up to my mother & didn’t feel bad about it (which has been a huge looping theme for me). I am in my power, & if I’m being honest, it feels amazing. I have been so proud of myself to tell the world what I will & will not accept. It’s a truly empowering feeling all on its own & once you start, you’ll only want more. I see myself spiraling out of the orbit of my old self, none of that serves me anymore. I have really just come to a place where I am sick of the reruns, the same crap that plays over & over again. I am just over it & am moving forward.  I am ready to receive everything that I have been working hard to manifest.

I am ready to walk into my new life. I am ready for everything I always knew was waiting for me. I am ready to shine, inspire & to create. I am ready for happiness, joy & love. I am ready for it all. I am ready to leave the old me behind & walk with strength, courage & love into a new chapter.

I want you to know that you can change your life, you are the master & creator of your destiny. A happy life always starts with a grateful heart. Everything you’ve ever wanted is out there waiting for you, go get it!

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Disconnect to Connect

The theme I keep seeing arising within myself, and the ones close to me is disconnect to connect. Wanting to be more detached from social media, television, and not be so dependent on a cell phone. To reconnect with the things that makes life worth living. Building real face to face relationships with people we care about, making plans and sticking to them, taking the time to visit a loved one for no reason expect to see how they are. To connect to the things we have lost sight of, the things are parents and grandparents were raised on. Principles, morals and values.

Personally my usage of social media has declines dramatically over the past several months. I started to see what it was, and had done to me. I would be in this amazing space, surrounded by all this light and love from the universe and our beautiful mother; I’d get on Facebook and I could feel it all get sucked away almost instantly. Leaving me feeling icky, and just not in the same way I had come in. Facebook can be a great platform for many beings coming together to share, and spread light and love but most of the time (at least by what I see) it is just another way for hatred and negativity to grow stronger. It is draining, and exhausting so I decided to take it out of my life. If it isn’t serving my highest potential, than I don’t need it.

I do still have a Facebook account, (I kept it for the spiritual group that I am apart of) but now I only check it once a month to see whats in my notifications and move on quickly. It has been quite freeing actually, which isn’t what I expected to get out of this. I no longer feel the need to post or share every aspect of my life with the world. My options are mine, and if I believe that sharing them will help make a difference than I will, otherwise I will keep them to myself. The moments I share on vacations and the photos I take should be kept private, they are beautiful moments that should only be shared with those you love; not posting them to see how many “likes” you get. Remember the days when friends or family would have to come over to see the photos of your wedding, vacation or of your new born child. You’d have coffee or a cup of tea and share stories, making it this whole experience; yes, that is what I want to get back too. That is what we should all get back to, actually enjoying the human experience. Step away from idolizing “famous” people and discussing how you think someone’s new look is this or that, it really makes no difference what you think about them; what matters is how you feel about yourself.

There is many things wrong with the way we live, and the way we have become but we cannot focus solely on that. We must focus on the love that is around us and within us. We must focus on the light that radiates throughout the planet; in all the animals, and in all the plants. We must come together for a common cause if we want change. It brings tears to my eyes to watch so many stand up for what they believe is right, such beauty and power in that.

Take the time to evaluate what excels your growth and your light, and what dims it. Don’t be afraid to let go, or to love from a far, you have to do what is best for yourself before you can help anyone else.

 

Bless it be.

Faye

Who Inspires You??

Who Inspires You?

This is a question I have been asked recently; it sparked something inside me and made me see just inspiring others are to me. I never noticed how many inspire me each and every day….

My husband is my daily inspiration, he works so hard for us so that I can stay home and pursue my dream of writing and inspiring everyone to simply love. Without him none of this would have happened, he inspires me to grow, to keep working hard, and have faith that everything will work out for the better. His love runs so deeply for me, and that in itself is an inspiration.

My dog, Norman inspires me to take time for myself, he reminds me that rest is important part of life. He inspires me to love the people that surrounding me, to hold no resentments or ill will. Just love them, and always be happy to see them. You never know when they will be gone.

My grandmother inspires me, even though she is not in human form anymore. The things she taught me, have never left. She inspires to be the beautiful goddess that I am. By being exactly who I am, no fake acts, no walls, just me through and through. She inspires me to always say kind words, saying hateful things only make you look bad. She inspires me to dance around like no one is watching, simply because I enjoy the song on the radio. She inspires me to be free, and live in happiness. She inspires me in so many ways, I’m sure I don’t even notice some of them.

The beauty of nature inspires me every day. I get most of my ideas for my writing while sitting on my front porch surrounded my lovely plants and gardens. They inspire me to grow roots, to be firmly planted but to also be free to share my beauty with the world. I simply need to be showed with love to blossom. They inspire me to be positive and share that energy with the world.

My hooping inspiration is Deanne Love. She inspires me to have fun with hooping while I’m learning something new. The love that she has for hooping shines through, and inspires me to pursue my love of hooping. It may be different and others may not understand, that’s okay. It isn’t my problem what others think of me. She inspires me, to never give up, even when I’m not getting the trick. Without her, I wouldn’t be the fierce hooping force I am today.

Most people, even strangers, inspire me. They inspire me to be more myself and radiate love more than ever. They inspire me by showing me who I don’t want to be. They inspire me by teaching me lessons of patience and understanding. The lessons and wisdom they share with me is often in part where my inspiration for writing comes from.

All you beauties inspire me. Keep fighting for what you want out of life. That is beautiful stuff, and you inspire me to never stop fighting, to never stop growing and to never stop loving. You are the true inspiration.

The world is a funny place, everyone you come into contact with affects you, mold you in some way or another. Everyone comes into your life for a reason, nothing happens by mistake or by chance. Be inspired by others, let others lift you up when you are weak and lift others when you are strong. The world is filled with so much beauty, make the most of it. You never know when it will be gone. xoxo

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New Video is Up!

This video is simple and from the heart, and decided not to talk the whole time.

I hope all of you decide to stop the endless cycle of self hate, and unworthiness.

Its time to shine your beauty upon the world

Let your self shine!

I love all of you, my mission is to uplift you & show you its never to late to change

love is always the answer and it lies within all of us.

Be the beautiful being you were meant to be

Thank you everyone, you have inspired my life

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If you stand for nothing, you’ll fall for anything

If you stand for nothing, you will fall for anything; this is something I have always believe to be true. It isn’t about picking a side on this or that, it’s about believing in something. Believing in it so strongly that you would stand up for it; you would fight for it, even if that means standing alone. To me, I feel most of us have lost the fight in us. We are complacent with how we imagine life to be, doing as we are told and believing it to be true without question; trusting that our doctors have our best intentions at heart. Believing what we see on television whether it be on the news, or in an ad. Believing everything we read on the internet to be true and factual, without doing any further investigating for ourselves.

One huge area I see in this is the whole vaccination debate. You see both sides fight and belittling each other over a stance they both to believe to be true. Rather than finding out all the facts on our own, and making an informed decision, we believe what we hear on the news and read on the internet (from websites that aren’t creditable) to be true.

For me, and I may be alone on this, I feel that we should look into everything that goes into our bodies, including vaccines. It isn’t a matter of anti or pro, republican or democrat, taking a side will not help the problem we’re facing; it only keeps up further from it. We must look beyond the lies of the news outlets, we must look beyond what we believe to be true, and we must look at both sides. If we stay divided than that only distracts us from what is truly going on, it only aids the government or whoever to keep us blinded, to keep us “in line” and if anyone disrupts the system they are made a fool of and are discredited.  If we want the truth we must stand together, we must stop the endless fighting and name calling, we must stop labeling woman “terrible mothers” simply because she disagrees with vaccine. After all we all want the same thing, healthy happy children.

We do so many things simply because we are told to, and I believe it to be out of fear. Fear is if we don’t do the “normal thing” that we be labeled and outcasted; that our children will not get the health providers they deserve, and the education they deserve. That simply from once choice, everything could be taken away from your child. This to me is not right and should not be acceptable; it is all a scare tactic. One that works all too well, which is why it continues; I wonder what we all would do if we were not ruled by fear. All the amazing things that would be done through courageous acts, through following our intuition; just think of all the things we do out of fear on a daily basis.

The funny thing is, most of us are so wrapped us in our day to day that we are blinded to the fear that holds us captive. Stuck in a cage for our entire lives, never really living and never really being happy; not knowing that we hold the key to unlock the cage and set ourselves free. But this too we are afraid of, afraid of everything we could be, afraid of all the change that comes along with it, afraid of failing, afraid of trying and afraid of ourselves. When you live a life a fear, you can never truly be happy. Happiness only comes when you take a leap of faith, and trust that everything will be okay.

 

We all have bad days

It’s funny how one day you are feeling wonderful and vibrant and the next it seems like an endless sea of darkness has come for you. On Easter Sunday I felt wonderful, my husband, Norman and I all decided we would go for a morning hike in one of my favorite forests. It’s an old forest, with ferns everywhere and mossy trees stumps; it is such a magical place.  We walked to the lake, and up the mountains; my husband said we must of walked 8 miles. It was wonderful to just be out surrounded by the trees, and be outside. So needless to say I was feeling free, light and optimistic about life in general. We had Easter dinner with my parents outside, which was a very enjoyable.

The next day I wake up and I feel the total opposite of everything I was feeling just hours earlier. I was judging myself harshly, I felt pessimistic and dark. I no long felt the universe was aiding me in achieving my dreams, even though I did not believe that to be true. I know that we are spiritual beings and that we are all meant to have down days, it was just strange that it seemingly came out of nowhere. Then I was told that the schumann resonance had peaked to its highest ever recorded state on Sunday, so I thought that was aiding in my feelings. I saw 12:12, smiled and thanked the universe for the gentle reminder that everything comes in time, and when we need it.

Then yesterday, the internet was out. So for us that means no computer, phone or tv (since we do not have cable.) It was a beautiful day so I figured I would go outside and get the work in the gardens done; it needed to be done and I had been putting it off. So I went to Lowes and go some flowers to add to the gardens, came home and went to town. I put on some music, brought normie outside, and played in the dirt. I spent just about all day outside, the gardens where in worse shape than I thought. By the end of the day I felt accomplished and wonderful again. It is crazy how easily sucked into the internet, it has an endless sea of knowledge yet so many of us know so little. So it’s nice to be disconnected for a day, I truly think I needed it.

I love how the universe works everything out, it was the only way to get me outside and do what needed to be done. I need some me time in the sun, I needed to ground, and needed to relax. The funny part is after all that was done and I got my shower the internet began to work again. It still cracks me up!!  Anyways, my point is things happen for a reason especially when we ignore what we are being told. The universe and our guides will make a point for us to get the message; you can only ignore things for so long.

Most people think just because you are positive or enlightened in any way that means you never have a bad day. It’s quite the opposite actually, you may have more bad days than ever before because you are dealing with, and moving on from all the crud you have kept hidden or locked away. The only way to find enlightenment is to first deal with everything inside you; the only difference is when you’re a spiritual or positive person you trust it, let it flow and let it go. You know you are strong enough to get through anything and that this too is just a test of your strength and your faith. Nothing happens by accident, everything has a purpose. Feel the sadness, understand it, and let it go. I have and I can tell you I feel better than ever. I am simply making room for light to live within me.

 

Have a blessed day everyone! Spread love & kindness everywhere you go!

xoxo

April Full Moon

How is everyone feeling since the full moon last night? Did everyone feel the energy she gave off? How did she affect you?

For weeks pervious to the full moon I was feeling foggy, sluggish, exhausted and every bone in my body ached. I was having these bursts of anger coming seemingly out of nowhere; and over the littlest of things. I am not an angry person normally so this was very strange for me. I am usually the person that everyone goes to when they need lifted up, or just need to vent their sorrows. I am seemingly a beacon of light in cloud of darkness; this is why I am protective of my energy. And for the past few weeks I have not been that for everyone, I have been disconnected; wanted to be left alone in my own little world of haze while I undergo this transformation.

I am sure many of you know but for those that do not there are four planets in retrograde along with the full moon; it has been a dozy of a time for me and many others. I saw the effects of these magical energies even in those who are not spiritually minded. It was pretty wild to see, I understood what was happening and why I was feeling this way but for someone who doesn’t have a clue that had to of been an even rougher ride than what I experienced. I saw people getting angry for no reason, being very touchy ready to explode at any time, and just an overall short fuse. People were frustrated but didn’t know why; feeling like a cold was coming on but one never came. I smile as the observer watching all this happen around me, knowing that everything is working itself out the way it needs to.

Yesterday, the day of the full moon I had woken up with the sudden burst of energy; which was more energy than I had had in weeks. The weather could have also played a part in this since it was our first 80 degrees day this spring but it went deeper than that. Everything I had felt over the past weeks was gone, like it was never there at all. I was seeing clearer than before, filled with energy that didn’t seem to dissipate, the anger that had was once filled me was gone. I was happier, lighter and freer than ever before; I knew the first huge step in my transform was complete. I spent the day cleaning the house with the windows and doors open, to let all the fresh air in. When the evening came I prepared my full moon affirmations and all the things I wanted to release; my husband joined me for my ritual which was a nice treat. We light our white candle burned our sage and completed our ritual, as the paper burned I could feel all the energy being released and all the energy the moon had to offer me in its place. I took some deep breathes after it was completed and the candle had been put out, and it felt wonderful.

I told my husband before bed to not be surprised if he felt different in the morning or continue to release throughout the day today. In the middle of the night around 2 am I woke up hotter than hell. I was sweating bullets, had thrown all my covers off and was just lying there tossing and turning. I was unable to get comfortable or cool down, so I got the feeling something was going on beyond my control. About 25 minutes later I cooled off and fell back asleep, so I believe I had a massive release and that was my body way of letting it all go (which is what I asked for.) Funny how those things tend to work out, hence the saying “be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I haven’t talked to my husband yet so I am curious how the moons magic has affected him, if at all.

Today I feel better than ever, I have a sense or “feeling” of knowing that positive things are on their way. That everything I have worked so hard for is now ready to give me the fruits of my labor. The best is yet to come indeed, and it’s closer than ever.

Have a spectacular day everyone! Spread some love & some kindness to yourself & to others.

xoxo

Life like dreams that stick with you

Okay darlings, I had a dream last night that I want to share. It was so vivid and real that it was like I was awake and it was really happening. I don’t know why I had this dream, as mine normally always have a meaning behind them. I don’t know if I shared a life with this person or what. But please tell me your take on this dream….

I was with the ghost adventure guys somewhere. We all laughing in the car but it was raining really hard and you couldn’t really see anything. So we pulled over for the rain to slow down. While we were waiting we decided to use thermal on this staircase up a hill just to see what we would get, if anything. So zak puts the thermal on and see a guy walking in shorts, just as he see it Billy yells out there is a guy is shorts up there. It sees is, it starts to run down the stairs. We think its a real person since we see it clear as day. Zak sees this thing run down the stairs, straight at him and when it reaches him its turns to a dark cloud and disappears. We all are shook up by what just happened. We get back in the car and I sit next to Billy. I look into his eyes, which are like a light brown color, and bam! I have feels for him, simply by looking into his eyes I see everything I have ever needed. Soon after that I start acting strange; I tell everyone that smoke is starting to affect me. I start crying, like ugly crying uncontrollably. I say “that bitch killed me, I can’t believe she did it” and everyone is looking at me with fear and excitement. They kept saying her eyes, they’ve changed. I saw a lot of red hot anger. I finally am able to get control over my body and kick the spirit out. I start saying “I am the light you have no power over me. Light radiates from every ounce of my being. I am light and love, i surround myself with it now.” I then am wearing a white slik dress, I am completely surrounded by white light. It’s coming from everywhere, especially my hands. I look over at Billy who is being affected by something negative and I can tell wants to harm me. I lay my hands on his hand and tell the spirit to leave this man; he has no room for negativity in his body. And he instantly said he feels better than he ever has. We finally get to the hotel, check in and there was a mix up with the rooms and we now have to share rooms. So as we walk up Billy asks if he can share a room with me. I say “Sure as long you don’t judge me for farting in my sleep, or anywhere in the room” we laugh and he says he wont. So we go into our room to find there is only one king bed. I told him that I didn’t mind sharing it’s a huge bed. So I got dressed for dinner and out of the clothes id been wearing since we got there. He gave me this look, and I knew that he’d seen the same thing in me that id seen in him. His eyes sparkled and he smiled and said “you are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever had the pleasure of sharing a room with” I laughed and said “I think that’s a complaint so I’m running with it, thank you” as I smiled. We went to dinner with everyone had some drinks and came back to the room. I tell him this is where the no judgement part comes in. I get in my pjs which is really a huge t-shirt and get in bed. I was watching tv and he got in bed and looked over at me. He turned off the tv and asked me to tell him about me. So I did….I told him about my late husband who had died a year earlier in a car accident. How much I loved him and always will but that I need to find love again for me. There are still so many things I want out of life. He asked if I wanted to cuddle and i told him before i fell asleep we could. He told me about himself, how he was divorced and never had the chance to have kids. Somewhere we began to kiss, which was a hardcore make out session. I took my glasses off and he said “You have the most beautiful eyes; I could look into them forever.” We cuddled and I told him “thank you” he sounded confused and said “for what?” I said “for everything. For making me feel so conformable with a car full of strangers; For being sweet and kid to me. I miss the tenderness of a man. So thank you for everything you are” he gave me a kiss on the check and said “You deserve it you’re one of a kind” he cuddle and I am trying to get comfortable so I shift my butt around. He says “If you keep doing that I will have something to poke you with” I laugh and say “oh god, I’m sorry” I get comfortable and fall asleep feeling the same way I feel when I cuddle with Mike. A bunch of stuff happened that I can’t remember so fast forward, our investigation is over and Billy asks me to come back to Las Vegas with him before I return home, i told him I would but only for a couple days as I need to return to Normie. We get to his house and remember being mesmerized by the beauty of it. We spend four days together, and we both had fallen in love with each other. He asks me to stay with him; I told him that I had to return home to PA. He said “it’s across the country, I will miss you. I don’t think I can live without you” I told him I’d miss him too but I don’t live here so we’ll have to make trips and visit each other. That’s when he says “move in with me, live here. I have plenty of room.” I am hesitant, but eventually I do move out there and live with him. One day I try calling him and cannot get ahold of him. I cant find him anywhere. He finally pops up at one of his friends’ houses and I ask him to please come home I have some important news. He comes home and I tell him I’m pregnant with twins. A boy and a girl. He smiles and seems so happy. He later asks me to marry him and I said ” are you asking me because you love me or is it because we are having children?” He says “Its because of both. I love you and would of asked you eventually but since we’re having children why wait!?” I smile tell him to get off his knee and stand up. I tell him “I love you so much. I never thought Id find this love for someone again. But I don’t want to rush it because of kids. I will marry you, I do accept but I want you to know there is no rush. Love is the one thing you don’t rush” he asked “so yes then?” I smiled and nodded yes. We were both so happy and he said “see what i mean your one of a kind” We both smile. I have the twins and I even saw their names. It was a crazy dream. Then towards the end people are after me because the kids aren’t human. (WHICH could be the xfiles interfering)

The crazy thing I have never noticed Billy from the show before. I HAD never dreamt of him or any of that before. Mike being dead is one of my fears so that’s probably why that was in there but the rest I had to google.  I went to a trusted website for dream interruption for twins, this is what I found dreaming of fraternal twins may reflect problems with making a choice between two similar, yet different feeling options. Which makes sense to me since the things I do are for the love I have for them but I also need to make money to live. I wondered if I shared a past life with Billy, since it felt so real but that doesn’t necessarily mean that. It is just what my mind does; inserts random people into my dreams. This is not the first time it has happened and I am sure it will not be the last.

I also told my spiritual group about this dream since it felt so life like and someone said this which stood out to me “You were with a group of active people who share a passion for what they do. It is wonderful to be in a group like that.” Which resonates deeply with me, since I crave to find a group of people that I vibe with that enjoys the same things as I do; so for me this dream makes sense in some ways, and in other ways I still have no idea. It is just funny, I don’t remember my dreams for weeks and this is the one that I remember. Isn’t life so funny the way it works!!?

I will enjoy the dream I had and see the things that stand out the most and take that as the main purpose of the dream while everything else is just an added bonus.

Have a beautiful day everyone! xoxo

Love yourself

This is the first of many videos I hope to bring to you. I want to spread light and love to all of you and understand how powerful YouTube can be to achieve this. My goal is to bring you videos weekly, to keep you inspired and growing. I love all of you, without your support none of this could be possible. xoxo