Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

Excerpt from my journal….

The full moon was last night and it was raining, so I did my full moon ritual in the garage facing east. Releasing with the moon was a highly energetic and beautiful experience.

This morning when I awoke I found myself refreshed, renewed and still. I know that I have a decision to make, I have many actually. I need time to be still, to reflect and to simply be. I have asked for all of this. So it is time to be honest and truth with myself; to listen to my heart and to my soul.

The time of change and re-birth are upon us, and it has been for quite some time. With this season of transformation it brings with it a certain beauty. For myself, I felt the breeze dancing across my face, calling me to invite it in, and I’ve don’t just that. I needed to be cleansed, and in many ways I needed to die; for without death I could have never emerged this beautiful human; whose reflection is looking back at me.

Most fear death because they do not see the beauty that lies within it. That is the way of ego; blinded by fear rather than being liberated by it. I know my transformation has begun, and I have embrace it. I have seen first-hand the beauty that lies within my darkness. This full moon I have asked for many things to be released but the most important is that I have ask to release from subconscious blockages. The things we aren’t even aware of, this is what hinders me the most. Acting in old patterns and ways of being that no longer serve me.

This is my time to love myself, to give myself the love and light that I shine to others. This journey is still in its infancy but it has transformed my views, and my life in such a beautiful way. I understand now that you must be kind and gentle with yourself; forgive yourself when things go wrong (which they will) and celebrate when they go right (which they will). Life is hard enough, we don’t need to make it more difficult by being hard on ourselves.

Social media has lost my interest over the past few days. I work rather hard on staying in this place of stillness and peacefulness and every time I get on social media it is ripped away from me (and rather quickly I might add). So I may be taking a well-earned break from all the non-sense of social media for a while. It may be just another step in my evolution.

Seeing my future, feeling it, living it in my dreams has made this process even more the learning experience. Connecting with other souls that reside in the same light as I, has changed my life. These souls (of which most I have not met in the physical) have taught me and shown me so much about myself and my life; all the things I desire to have all that which I chose not to have. Life is such a precious gift that should be lived, experienced and enjoyed (without mindless distractions).

I have learned so much this year, and there is more to go. I have been awoken to this new sense of awareness and gratitude.  My mind is clear, and my heart is open. I no longer need love from another (but remain open and ready when it does find its way to me), because I have found it for myself. I have been listening and trusting myself more and now watch miracles manifest right in front of my eyes.

This life is too beautiful of a gift to waste even a second of it. Be happy, shine your light. Care about yourself more and others less This is your life take the wheel.

 

The winds of change are blowing, can you feel them!?

xoxo

-Faye

Society tells us how to feel…..

The world we live in tells us how we are supposed to act, and how we are supposed to be; and when we don’t act that way we are harshly judge and criticized.  But why do we put standards and rules on the way we feel? Everyone is different and not everything that happens to us is the worst day or the best day of our lives and that’s okay. We are not perfect, we are human. We are meant to learn, grow and evolve from the emotions that we feel. I know that television and magazines show us how we are supposed to be flawless but that too is a lie.

When we find what others perceive has happiness (even though we don’t feel it/ or even if we do) we are supposed to be happy. I have seen in my own life, as well as the lives of countless others that “the show” / or the projection that we show the world is all that matters. We are told to “fake it” and how unfair is that to ourselves. Think of the growth and learning we are disabling within ourselves when we ignore those beautiful feelings. Yes, even the more undesirable feelings are beautiful. Those are the ones that teach us the most; even if their lessons are often painful and cruel.

When we do find happiness but then it fades away; we are told that we must stick around. That we won’t find anyone that loves you as much as they do. Well that is a complete lie, if you rid your life of those relationships that are no longer serving you then you are only making room for bigger, better things. We are told when someone passes away you should be sad; sometimes a person transitioning isn’t an awful, sad thing.

We’re told that getting divorced is the something that should make us fall into this deep sadness and loneliness; and if you are happy and feel a sense of release and freedom you clearly “never loved them at all”. People are quick to judge rather than take the time to understand; but I have found that some would rather stay in the comfortability of misery than spread their wings and fly. That’s okay that is their choice. We just do not have to project that onto others.

That if you get married more than once you’re told “you don’t understand what marriage is” like you have defiled it in some way; but I prefer to think those that marry more than once are a lover of love. They fall quickly, and deeply in love believing without a doubt that this is right; just because it doesn’t work out doesn’t make them awful people, it makes them human. Things happens, soul contracts end and begin all the time. It is okay. We have to be gentle with ourselves, be kind to ourselves, forgive ourselves but most importantly we have to love ourselves. Since everything begins and ends with us; we cultivate our own reality. We are the captain, and the key holder to whatever torture we put ourselves through. Value others options less, and yours more. Follow your heart, let it guide you and learn from what you experaince.

We all do things for ourselves all time, often without even noticing. We make our own choices, choose to make them out of love and not fear. Stay in a positive mind set as best as you can, it will do more for you than you even know. Life is hard, it’s cruel and sometimes it’s downright lonely but that’s all okay. Remember the only thing permeate in this world, is that nothing is. So enjoy the time in the darkness, it’s where you grow. Enjoy your time in the light, it’s where you shine. Enjoy the love in your life, and all the beauty that surrounds you. Life is meant to be enjoyed, and lived. Be present and don’t care what others say, the only person you have to live with is yourself.

 

Xo

-Faye

Upgrades…

Today I woke up feelings at ease, peaceful and still; like this wave of silence washed over me while I was asleep.  I feel renewed in a way that seems familiar; yet is unknown to me. Perhaps this is what it is like to find bliss on earth, or perhaps I am simply aligning with the path set out for me. Either way this is a feeling that I am truly grateful for; as I know it won’t last forever.

Before I went to sleep last night I asked the universe, angels, spirit guides, basically everyone to help me release from my ways of the past. To move past fears I am unaware of, and anything that is holding me back from aligning with my true self. I know that my prayers have been answered, simply by the way I feel. So thank you everyone for helping me in ways I was unable to help myself. That’s the thing with free will, we have a whole bunch of people waiting to help us if we only asked for it.

I feel all the beautiful things waiting for me, and I am not allowing myself to get in my own way anymore, or to block out all the things I wish to bring into my life. I am open and ready. I will give and I will receive. Balance and patience. Trusting that all will work out, in divine timing the way it is meant too. Gratitude is such a powerful tool that we can use in manifesting our dreams and desires; if only we realized it. Being grateful for the wonderful things and the not so wonderful is such an important part of life; and living a life of love.

Everything happens to us for reasons we don’t yet know. Think about it, if you had not left that broken relationship than you may have never met the person you’re with now. The universe has a plan for all us; and yes, it is not all kittens and rainbows but it isn’t meant to be. We need those tough times, those times of darkness are there to teach us the lessons we must learn. There are no lessons in the time of light, that is only were you arrive to celebrate your victory.

The key to feel whatever you’re feeling is to learn from it and then let it go. You are not the darkness that you are feeling. It is only a stepping stone on the way to enlightenment. Take the time and do the work. Take care of yourself, give yourself the love and attention you so freely give to everyone else.  Life is meant to be enjoyed, loved, and lived. So be present, enjoy what you enjoy with the people who make you feel wonderful. Your body or your heart will never steer you wrong; listen to what your body is telling you.

The full moon is coming up next Saturday, I know I am ready to cut the cords of the past and enter into a new chapter, a new beginning of my life.

Here’s to love, happiness, fulfillment, and peace!

 

Have a beautiful day everyone!

 

Xo

 

Faye

Beautifully Broken

It seems lately it is one thing after another in terms of spiritual awakening, growth, and releasing. The universe has demanded so much from us and our bodies over the past few months. There are so many waking up from a long nap, so much darkness that is coming to the surface to be eradicated by the light.

I don’t watch television much so I am always out of the loop with pop culture and what is going on in the world; but the one thing that has managed to be unavoidable is all the things going on in Hollywood. The mistreatment of woman is truly a larger issue than I guess many recognized. It is so easy to stay blind to the ugliness of the world. To see all of these woman coming forward with their stories of abuse and neglect is beautifully heartbreaking.  It’s brave to see these woman stepping out of the shadows and taking a stand but it is so tragic that any of this had to happen in the first place. As someone who has been through this type of abuse, I applaud every woman who has told her story (anonymously or not it doesn’t matter).  It takes a lot of bravery and courage to stand before others and tell a story they don’t understand, and often don’t believe.

I know and believe that love, compassion and kindness is how we can transform ourselves and the world. We are in a time of great shifts, the time of change is here. We have hated each other long enough and it’s gotten us nowhere. It is time to try something different, to open our hearts to love. We are all different, and that’s okay. We aren’t meant to all be the same, we would learn nothing. Be kind for no reason, show compassion to those who need help, and always send love to every person you meet. Our job is not to judge, our job is to love.

It is only in the ashes of the past that you can forge the way to the future.

 

Have a beautiful day everyone!

Xo

Faye

Take time to be still

Today I drove out to visit with my grandmother. This is something that I do as often as I can; as her energy can still be felt at her resting place. Some of you may think that it is “strange” to hang out in a graveyard for an hour or more at a time but for me it is recharging.

My grandmother has always been a driving force in my life, even when she was alive. She taught me many things about life and what kind of human you should be. Just because she has transitioned into her true form doesn’t mean it all just disappears.

Visiting her is my way of saying “Thank You”, it’s my way of reconnecting with her. Feeling her loving arms wrap around me, it is a beautiful reminder that the ones we love are never too far away from us. It is my way of slowing down and being present. I love the stillness, feeling the sun on my skin and the cool breeze touching my face, the quiet, I enjoy it all.

It’s so rare that we slow down and enjoy the day, or enjoy the moment as it comes. Moments pass us by so quickly, we have to enjoy them when we can. Visiting grandma is where I am find so much gratitude within myself, where I give back to mother earth. Giving her the love she so freely gives to us.

Enjoying the present is one of the best parts of living. The feeling of calmness cannot be compared to anything, it is peace in its truest form.  Take time for yourself to enjoy the little things in life, they are the best parts of life.

 

xo

Exciting News!!!

I wanted to share some exciting news with all of you!

I have been working on writing a book Open Yourself, Embrace Yourself for 3 years now.  When I started to write I didn’t think it was a book, until I put them all together. It is a beautiful work of art that I am so extremely proud of. I have poured my heart and soul into those pages, and I believe it shows. The art I had created by a friend, even the cover hold so much deep meaning for me.

My book is all about my journey, where I started and where I am now. All the lessons that got me there, and all the things I learned along the way.  I am human just like everyone else, and I want everyone to see that when you make a commitment to yourself amazing things start to happen.

I wish to inspire all of you who have not taken your journey, those who have just begun, and those who have already. This book is a part of me, and I wanted to share my heart with all of you.

Open Yourself, Embrace Yourself is available on Amazon. (Link in Bio)

It is available in paperback & for the kindle

 

I hope all of you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it.

 

xo

 

 

 

Death & Rebirth

Over the past few weeks I have been going through quite a transformation; just as everyone else has. I feel as if I have just awoken from a long nap. I have done a lot of dying lately, turning to ash so that I may be reborn. More myself than ever before, with so much more love to bring to myself and the world. When you transform the way I have chosen, when you build the fire so big you can’t take the heat that is when true beauty is created. You allow yourself to die in a way, there is no past, not that matters anyways. There is only now, and what lies ahead.

In the death and rebirth of myself I have found so many treasures within. The things that always made me different from everyone, the things that always made me stand out, even when I wanted to hide. All of those things shine so brightly within me now.

Anyone can do what I have done. You simply have to be willing. Be willing to do the work. Take the time. Embrace change. Let go. Trust. Relax.

There are so many people gunning for you to be who you were meant to be, you just have to gunning for you too. Don’t ever give up on yourself. It is never too late.

 

xo

 

 

Its time to look within

I feel pulled to write about the happenings that took place in Las Vegas. There are so many views from others but the one I have I haven’t seen said.

I just want to start out by saying that this is something that should have never happened, it is a loss that is felt by so many. My love goes out to the families that were affected by what happened. I will never understand acts of such darkness.

I want to start out by saying I believe that no one should be able to have an automatic weapon, there is simply no need for it.

I have heard many people say there needs to be more gun laws, the truth (at least mine) is that none of that matters, none of that will make any difference what so ever. People will always find a way to get a gun if they really want one.

I believe the real issue here is how unhappy, and unsatisfied Americans are. What we need to do is stop fighting with each other and unite as one. We need to talk more about mental health, to get to the root of the problem and not just throw pills at people. We need to understand that all the money in the world won’t make you happy, if you are not first happy with yourself.

We need to be taught how to love ourselves, and why that is so important.  We need to stop comparing ourselves to the people we see in the media. We need to listen to our intuition more, and everyone else less. We need to find happiness in our lives, we need fulfillment, joy and love.

This is a time when we need to look within. So within, so without. How you feel about yourself, will always be what reflected back to you.

Find out who you are, find out what makes you happy, discover what makes you come alive. Love yourself. Be kind, show compassion. Stop judging yourself, and everyone around you. Be grateful for the things you have, and tell those you love how much they mean to you.

Love is the answer, to every question. Spread love everywhere you go.

xo

Higher Purpose

I am so amazed by the time we are currently in; there is so many wonderful transformations happening in so many people. We are all (most of us at least) are beginning to open like a beautiful flower catching the rays of the sun. Finally ready to show and share our beauty with the world; to stand out from a field of weeds.

Yesterday, I had a light bed session; for those that do not know what a light bed is, it is a 7 different colored lights that coordinate to each charka. Attached to the light is crystals, so when the light comes through the crystals it aligns your charkas. It’s is basically a faster version of reiki, without having someone in the room with you (at least not in the physical).

I asked for a 20 minute as I thought that was all I needed, well Pamela ended up keeping in there for an hour; I guess spirit had other plans for me.  Needless to say, that is why I had all the vision and experiences that I did. Upon first laying down, and getting the light bed situated, I was relaxed and expected nothing.

That is one thing I have learned about energy work, and really life in general. Expect nothing and you can never be disappointed. Expect nothing and you will gain so much more. That was a tough lesson for me to learn, but here we are; and I finally get it! Haha.

Anyways back to the light bed, once everything was in place, and I was alone I instantly left my body. I saw vision of my grandmother, she had so many things to tell me and to show me. For the first few minutes I cried my eyes out, I was pouring my heart out to someone and everything just came out like a tidal wave of emotions. It was a very beautiful, touching moment for me (& I am sure it was just as touching for the other person).

After that was done, I started to focus on the blue flashing light (which is one of the light colors), when I saw a black, human shaped figure walk out of it. Spirit told me that it was chosen. That my purpose here is to help others see the depth in life, that we are connected and that love is the most powerful tool we have. That through my books, my blog and any other endeavors I do this will be successful because people will always be drawn to my light, and to my love. Spirit also told me that it is my time to spread love, in the times of darkness. Humans forget how easily they fall into the trap of darkness, it is so easy to hate someone who has wronged you, or hurt you but love is hard. It is hard to understand why someone has sent you mistreatment. Which is mostly them projecting how they feel about themselves onto you, in my experience acts of hatred, violence and anything negative is a silent cry for help or for love.

Spirit also told me “Money is meaningless, it is the root to our destruction” Which to be honest, I totally agree with. Money is one of the most meaningless things we have in this world. People hold so much value to it which is such nonsense. Judging someone by how much money they make, or how much is in their bank account is a wonderful way to miss out on the beautiful, meaningful parts of life.

Grandma reminded me to be easy on myself, to continue listening to myself and finding the power that comes with it. Love who I am, and do what makes my soul shine. It was a beautiful reminder that actually brought me to tears. Let’s be honest, every time I see or feel grandma I cry. The love I have for her is deeper than words can even express.

While I was out of my body, I felt energy go into my body, it was tingling and cold but so wonderful. This happened twice, as I assume my body needed some sort of healing done to it. Spirit often likes to get us out of the way whenever they can, since we often get in our own way and block what needs healed.

Spirit also showed me a glimpse of my future, which made me cry…again. I am easily moved to tears, especially when something is so beautiful and surrounded by love. I am not going to go into detail with this as it is personal but it was everything I could ever ask for, and everything I have ever wanted. Truly a divine love sent from the universe.

After seeing that spirit told me that everything is working out in divine timing, to hold space for this person as they are going through the same things as I am. (Only they don’t understand it and feel super crazy and confused by it all. Which to be fair, I am too but at least I kinda get it. Haha). To keep working on mending the broken pieces of myself, keep loving myself, keep listening and always be thankful. Everything will come to you sooner than you know, just be patient.

So all in all I was actually given answers, instead of more question. Thanks universe, it isn’t often that this happens, so I will take it. Haha.

I have known that turning 30 will be a huge turning point for me, where I used to hate turning 30, I now embrace it. My 20’s have been a decade of heart break, love, letting go, moving on, finding myself and re finding myself. Everything we go through has a higher purpose, it may not seem like it while we are going through situations but everything we go through is in our best interest.

Life is about finding the good in the bad, seeing the positive side of things makes life a little easier.  Let things flow, fighting them only makes them more difficult. Smile, laugh as often as you can, and never take yourself seriously.

 

xoxo