It’s crazy how one moment can change everything; make everything you felt or had crumble away in an instant. The pieces that you’re left with are the same hollow shell you used to be. The person you thought you had grown out of and healed from but she still resides within you. You are now here once again, stuck in this strange place of sadness, unrest and confusion; with no idea of which way to go.
Life is a funny thing, you think you have worked through those parts of yourself and yet they still return to be worked on and healed once more. I never thought that I would feel this way again, honestly I didn’t. I guess some traumas we have never really go heal fully; especially that trauma we have repeated in so many of our lives. The universe has a funny way of working, bringing up things within us so that we can cleanse ourselves from it; moving higher in our vibration only to be brought back down in another time, in some other way. I may not be to blame to for this state that I am in, but I am responsible for the work I now must do. I know that this has happened for a reason, and that it is now time for me to go deeper within myself and find what it is that I need to heal from. I am trying to be the same, to act as if nothing has happened but I am not one for make believe. I can only act the way I feel, and say the way I feel. I will not let this sadness, this strange grief get me down. I will stay strong in the love I have for myself, I will work through this and be a better, stronger version on myself than ever before.
The lesson I have to share with all of you is that no matter what happens in our lives, we are responsible for how we feel. WE have control over what affect us and what doesn’t. Others may help bring out parts of us that we didn’t know existed and that is their purpose. They are teachers, here to show us how to better ourselves. Feel the pain, let is pour into your soul. Release it and heal. These are how we evolve into deeper understanding of ourselves.
Planet yourselves in darkness so you can go into the light
I’m sure everyone has heard “You grow up to be like your parents”. Most of us say, I will never be like that but then we grow up and we actually do become them. We may notice it in little things that we do, or how we do things. For instance, my mother has always cleaned her sink. As a child and even as a teenager I thought that was so weird, why would you be worried if your sink is clean or not? Now that I own a home, I too clean the sink. I did it a few times without even taking notice but one day I stopped dead in my tracks and thought, oh my I’ve become my mother. I was shocked but then started to laugh, I had always thought this was so weird but here I am doing and enjoying it; thinking to myself this sink has to be spotless.
Now that I have done a week of soul coaching it has brought to my attention some issues that I do that I wasn’t even aware of. This made me think, there are so many things are parents do that we obverse, and view as okay behavior. Even if we learn later that this behavior is not acceptable, we still (more than likely) will repeat it. While doing my lesson for yesterday one of these truths came forward and for the first time I noticed something about myself that I had never seen before. As most of you know I am married, my husband loves me very deeply and I him. I know that he wont leave me, so because I know this there are often times I am mean to him because I know I can be. I know that this is no way to treat someone that you love, and that loves you but for some reason I do it anyways. The reason, I was shown this behavior as a child, I picked it up and thought it was okay and have being doing it ever since. I always thought my actions were beyond this but here I am, seeing the truth. It sucks to know that I am hurting someone I love for nothing. So, I took the steps to change it. Since I am now aware of this, I can be more proactive when I get upset to say to myself “Why am I doing this? Is there a reason behind it? Do I mean it?” I told this to my husband, apologized for being mean and told him to tell me when I’m being mean because often times I don’t know when I am.
We pick up good and bad habits form our parents; we watch everything they do and for the most part what to grow up to be like them. So as you grow and learn be sure you are aware of the person you have become. Make sure that it is your trustiest form of yourself and not the reflection of things you’ve been taught. Brake the pattern, take the steps to rid yourself of the things that do not serve your highest potential.
I was recently in search of a gemstone bracelet that was fashionable but also used the stones I love. I have had gemstone bracelets before but the stones were square and would jab my wrist when I would write. So I looked around at what gemstone bracelets were out on the market. I came across Third Eye Gemstones. I looked at their website and started to read about the company. With every bracelet bought they donate money for 30 days of clean drinking water to someone in need. So I thought “If nothing else at least I will help someone in need.” I browsed for a while at all their selection of bracelets. I finally choose the karma cleanse bracelet. This one has Black Agate, Howlite, and Snowflake Obsidian. I got my bracelet in a large size since I don’t like them tight around my wrist. I have had this bracelet for a month or so now, and I still love it as much as I did when I first got it. I love the fact that its high quality, fashion and you help another in the process.
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Why do many of us live no life at all? We grow up, go to work at a job (most) of us hate, get married and have kids. We work our lives away for things we are told we should have or that we “need” and then we die. What kind of life is that!?
Working is a important part of life, we need to make money to have anything in this world. However, so many of us have a job for the paycheck. We are not passionate about what we spend so much of our time doing, and for some working at a job you hate can really be soul sucking. Sucking away every little bit of yourself, until you are sick or absolutely measurable. I am one of these people. I worked at a job for three years that was only supposed to be a temp job. I hated the work, it was physical in the summer which killed my physical body. It was mindless and boring but it was easy, and a paycheck. I enjoyed the hours, and that it was part time so I got comfortable and stayed. It was until recently that I decided (with the support of my husband) that enough was enough. I took a huge leap of faith and left my job. I had no idea what I was going to do next to make money but it didn’t matter to me. As soon as I quit I felt a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and started to feel better. I no longer had to go to a job that did nothing for my spirit that did nothing for me as a person. I focused on recovering from the damage that had been done to my physical body, and getting back to a oneness I had once had. That is when I noticed just how draining it can be to go into a place day in and day out that you hate, doing the same things over and over again. Seeing the same faces of people that you for the most part can’t stand or have no respect for. I have found my focus, and is this blog. My passion for writing has been life long, and my life’s mission is to help others. So why not help help others with my words. I am still blown away that my words inspire others, and help them. I am humbled and in awe by this. I have been through a lot of things in my life and I just hope to help another not make the same mistakes as I did or to simply know that they are not alone, ever.
So my message to all of you, live the life you want for yourself. Spent money on experiences not stuff. The memories you make on new experiences will be more fulfilling than any material item could ever be. Travel, see the world. Let the cultures of others open your eyes and your perspectives. Spend time with the ones you love, and the ones that inspire you. Be kind, be gentle, and above all love yourself. Radiate love through you, so you can spread that to others. Anything that doesn’t bring you joy or happiness doesn’t belong in your life.
Just remember to live simply, and to simply live.
Why are we so hard on ourselves? We should love ourselves, without any harsh judgments. What others say about us is none of our concern. People are always going to talk, they are going to rate you, and judge you. Don’t let this harsh world harden your beautiful heart. Wear your heart on your sleeve, be sensitive, and be soft. These show that you are real, you are human. The world needs more of this realness, desperately.
Others that bring you down, are unhappy with themselves and their lives more than you will ever know. Happy people lend a helping hand to those in need. They lift them up from their sadness and show them love. Whatever we give out into the world is like an echo, it will always spread to the next person. Vibrating its energy into everything that surrounds it. Life is like a boomerang, what you give out will always find its way back to you; and sometimes it will even hit you in the face.
There is enough bad stuff in the world, so leave an echo, an imprint of love and compassion. The world needs truth seekers, lovers, and authenticity. Let go of the baggage that is holding you back, and be free.
Going through this soul coaching has been a rough ride already. I am at day 3 and man oh man. This book asks questions I never asked myself before,let alone thought of. It has made me think about things on such a deeper level; to face truths I was to unwilling to see. It has brought things to the surface that I didnt even know were there. I feel different today than I normally do. I feel sad as if I had been yelled at for days repeatedly over and over. As if it is on some sort of loop in my mind. Replaying over and over until I get the message. I feel like a child, weak, alone and afarid. Hiding in the corner, trying to aviod being seen. There is no happiness, no joy, only sadness. Whatever lifetime this is from it was a tragic one. They beat me down with thier words, they use them like knifes; slicing away every bit of myself love. They have done such a good job programming me; I don’t know why I believe thier lies. A release is on the way, I can feel it. As this may not be so pleasant right now the result will be worth it. You must clear out the darkness so the light can find its way in…