Journal Talk

An excerpt from my journal:

We are meant to live simply within the trees and confines of nature. I don’t know why we cannot be a modern civilization and still live amongst the stars, wild and free.  Keeping all the trees and water natural, as they were intended to be; keeping all the beauty our great mother has given us and shown us. Why can’t we keep building small and the roads of grass or moss? Keeping communities small and orderly, we would have no need for cars or trucks. Everything that we needed would be there for us in our community; with everyone having a job working hard to survive and for happiness. This is my dream for myself, and all of us. Braking down the big cities that confine us, that feed the darkness and remembering what it is to live simply, and slowly. No being ruled by a clock, stress, worry, fear or money.

No one person is meant to hold power over all of us, and no person is meant to hold all the money of the world for himself. The time is upon us, the time of darkness is quickly approaching us. It will be the time of extreme violence to all who oppose the darkness. This must happen, it will be the last bit of darkness on this earth that needs to be cleared so that we can find peace on earth. The lightworkers on earth will be ready and waiting to rebuild when the time is right. We must live in darkness to find our way to the light. We must let the darkness transform us, and change us so that we can find the light. For all things need their time in the dark, it is where transformation happens.

Humanity will find its way, it is only a matter of time. Until then we can all do our part of self-care and love. So within, so without. Once we understand we create the world around us, everything will change.

For me all I can do is give energy to the things I love and am passionate about. I see the future I want for myself and I will not stop until it becomes my reality.

Xo

Namaste

Names aren’t simply names

Lately I have noticed how much I dislike my first name, Amanda. I have never really liked my name but it has only been recently where it has bothered me in a way; so much so that I wanted to explore this further.

I have never really given my name another thought that is what I was given so that’s what it is. I have out grown so much in my life and in myself that maybe this is just another extension of that. Amanda just doesn’t seem to fit anymore; this could be due in part to my parents calling me by my middle name, Faye. Amanda is a little girl who is afraid of everything and everyone. A little girl who is filled with heart break, pain, and loss. A girl who is self-destructive, and doesn’t even try to get what she wants because she believes that she deserves nothing. I have out grown all of these old ways of thinking and these ways of merely existing. Faye on the other hand, is a beckon of light and of undying hope. She is a messenger of love, leaving behind her a trail of love everywhere she goes. Faye is not afraid of the unknown but is rather excited by it; for the unknown is where all possibilities lye. She knows that she is worthy of all the love and happiness that the world can offer. Faye is simply a fairy on her way to earning her wings.

I have shed the skin that no longer fits, so why not change my name along with it.

 

Have a wonderful day everyone xoxo