Higher Purpose

I am so amazed by the time we are currently in; there is so many wonderful transformations happening in so many people. We are all (most of us at least) are beginning to open like a beautiful flower catching the rays of the sun. Finally ready to show and share our beauty with the world; to stand out from a field of weeds.

Yesterday, I had a light bed session; for those that do not know what a light bed is, it is a 7 different colored lights that coordinate to each charka. Attached to the light is crystals, so when the light comes through the crystals it aligns your charkas. It’s is basically a faster version of reiki, without having someone in the room with you (at least not in the physical).

I asked for a 20 minute as I thought that was all I needed, well Pamela ended up keeping in there for an hour; I guess spirit had other plans for me.  Needless to say, that is why I had all the vision and experiences that I did. Upon first laying down, and getting the light bed situated, I was relaxed and expected nothing.

That is one thing I have learned about energy work, and really life in general. Expect nothing and you can never be disappointed. Expect nothing and you will gain so much more. That was a tough lesson for me to learn, but here we are; and I finally get it! Haha.

Anyways back to the light bed, once everything was in place, and I was alone I instantly left my body. I saw vision of my grandmother, she had so many things to tell me and to show me. For the first few minutes I cried my eyes out, I was pouring my heart out to someone and everything just came out like a tidal wave of emotions. It was a very beautiful, touching moment for me (& I am sure it was just as touching for the other person).

After that was done, I started to focus on the blue flashing light (which is one of the light colors), when I saw a black, human shaped figure walk out of it. Spirit told me that it was chosen. That my purpose here is to help others see the depth in life, that we are connected and that love is the most powerful tool we have. That through my books, my blog and any other endeavors I do this will be successful because people will always be drawn to my light, and to my love. Spirit also told me that it is my time to spread love, in the times of darkness. Humans forget how easily they fall into the trap of darkness, it is so easy to hate someone who has wronged you, or hurt you but love is hard. It is hard to understand why someone has sent you mistreatment. Which is mostly them projecting how they feel about themselves onto you, in my experience acts of hatred, violence and anything negative is a silent cry for help or for love.

Spirit also told me “Money is meaningless, it is the root to our destruction” Which to be honest, I totally agree with. Money is one of the most meaningless things we have in this world. People hold so much value to it which is such nonsense. Judging someone by how much money they make, or how much is in their bank account is a wonderful way to miss out on the beautiful, meaningful parts of life.

Grandma reminded me to be easy on myself, to continue listening to myself and finding the power that comes with it. Love who I am, and do what makes my soul shine. It was a beautiful reminder that actually brought me to tears. Let’s be honest, every time I see or feel grandma I cry. The love I have for her is deeper than words can even express.

While I was out of my body, I felt energy go into my body, it was tingling and cold but so wonderful. This happened twice, as I assume my body needed some sort of healing done to it. Spirit often likes to get us out of the way whenever they can, since we often get in our own way and block what needs healed.

Spirit also showed me a glimpse of my future, which made me cry…again. I am easily moved to tears, especially when something is so beautiful and surrounded by love. I am not going to go into detail with this as it is personal but it was everything I could ever ask for, and everything I have ever wanted. Truly a divine love sent from the universe.

After seeing that spirit told me that everything is working out in divine timing, to hold space for this person as they are going through the same things as I am. (Only they don’t understand it and feel super crazy and confused by it all. Which to be fair, I am too but at least I kinda get it. Haha). To keep working on mending the broken pieces of myself, keep loving myself, keep listening and always be thankful. Everything will come to you sooner than you know, just be patient.

So all in all I was actually given answers, instead of more question. Thanks universe, it isn’t often that this happens, so I will take it. Haha.

I have known that turning 30 will be a huge turning point for me, where I used to hate turning 30, I now embrace it. My 20’s have been a decade of heart break, love, letting go, moving on, finding myself and re finding myself. Everything we go through has a higher purpose, it may not seem like it while we are going through situations but everything we go through is in our best interest.

Life is about finding the good in the bad, seeing the positive side of things makes life a little easier.  Let things flow, fighting them only makes them more difficult. Smile, laugh as often as you can, and never take yourself seriously.

 

xoxo

Times of transformation…

On Wednesday I got one of my attunements for my reiki master class. The last time I got a reiki attunement was four years ago, when I finished level two. It took me months to feel anything from it; but this time it totally different.

This time it took a matter of hours to start feel myself being cleansed. It started with my sinuses acting up but that has now subsided. The main issues I have felt today besides being tired is my throat hurting. It hurts to the point that I have all but lost my voice, when it was fine yesterday. Thinking about this actually makes me smile in gratitude. I know that I am adjusting to the new state of being and existing and that this is a needed part of my beautiful transformation. I believe my throat is being cleansed for one of two reasons; either I need this time to be still, to be quiet with my thoughts or  it is to rid myself of the blocks in my communication so that I may easily and accurately express the ways I am feeling.

I have always had a hell of a time saying how I feel, which I have always found rather funny, since writing comes so easily to me. Everything I don’t know how to say just seamlessly pours out of my fingers with ease without thinking twice. Speaking doesn’t do most emotions justice, if something leaves me in complete awe and wonder no words can make you feel that; only energy can make you feel that. When you write you put your energy into it. You leave a little piece of yourself behind in every sentence you write.

Speaking has always been difficult for me as I often trip over my tongue, so to speak, thinking far too fast for my mouth to say how I feel. Often times I am unable to bring myself to say things out loud because than it’s real, and being real can come to a punch in the face at times. I feel everything so passionately and so deeply that every moment touches my soul in a deeply profound way.

The relationships that I have with others are all cherished, my emotions simply run so deeply. That is why this time of reflection is so important for me, this is also why I have felt the need to unplug from the world lately. To get lost in a new experience and see where it takes me; too see what I find.

Life can become so mundane and dull if we allow it to be, often looking beyond the beauty that surrounds us every day. When you see the same things everyday it becomes easy to take them for granted, to lose your appreciation for them. It can become easy to forget why you fell in love in the first place, but only if you allow yourself too.

I often move things around, removing things that no longer make my heart overflow with love. If the things in my home do not add to my happiness or to the love that resides within me, than it has no place in my home or in my heart. This is really true for life in general, if the things and people we surround ourselves with do not aid in our light, and make our hearts overflow with love than they have no purpose in our lives.

It is so simple.

Life is a beautiful work of art, at times it may be abstract and other times it may be realism, either way it is a masterpiece and moves you in some way.

 

xoxo

Letter to myself

I was looking through old photos last night, and in doing this I can across and old photo of myself. I must have been 18 in the photo. In looking at this photo, I smiled and began to think of how much I have changed in those 11 years.

So I write to my 18 year old self, I see how sad you are. I see how confused and lost you are, but I am here to tell you everything will be okay. I know you simply urn for unconditional love, and to be accepted. Little do you know all which you crave is inside of you. This is a lesson that will take you many years to fully understand; you cannot find love in another until you have found it in yourself. You can try to love yourself through another but it will never give you the satisfaction you crave, or need. You will think that things can’t get any worse, but they will. When you have reached the bottom there is nowhere to go but up, you cannot live in light without first living in the dark. Remember that, it will comfort you.  You will never lose hope in love; you know that the love you desire is just a moment away. This is something I have always loved so much about you, your undying hope. Just remember everything you have ever wanted is at your fingertips, you just have to be willing to do the work to reach it.

To my future self, I am looking forward to all the beautiful things you have in store for me. I am on this course of life, which every day I learn and feel something new. Every day is a new experience, a new way of seeing the world, and myself. I feel so light and free, liberated from the old skin I’ve worn for so long. I will remember when you reach the top there is nowhere to go but down, so I will stay humble and enjoy every second of bliss that is given to me.  I will cherish the dark times for all the lessons they give me. There are many things I wish to achieve with you but most of all, and probably the most importantly I wish to achieve a legacy of love behind me.  Love is what lives within me; it encompasses my soul, and transcends light throughout my being.

Everything you go through is meant to happen the way is has, everything is a lesson and a growth process. Enjoy all that is given to you, take nothing for granted and be free. Fill every moment with love, laughter and always remember to smile.

Always be grateful

If I have learned anything in my life and spiritual journey, it is to always be grateful. It is such an easy concept yet, so many aren’t grateful. Often times we play the victim of life, and complain about all the awful things that have happened.

I know I used to be this way, I would complain about everything. I would say it was everyone else’s fault for what was happening to me. I would do all of these things yet, I would rather sit in misery than take the effort to change anything. Then one day I was complaining about everything, when I actually started to annoying myself. Then it hit me, no wonder I have a negative life. I have done nothing but put negativity out into the world, of course it is going to come back to me. It was crazy how in that moment everything became so clear to me. How everyone saw me and how I was treating myself. That is when I took the effort to change.

I had become so used to complaining it became a second nature, and it was hard to brake. It has been quite some time since then and I complain very rarely now. When I do, I think to myself, well that was stupid. Why am I complaining? Am I trying to convince myself of something? I just stop and put everything back into perspective. There is always someone worse off than me, and me complaining about something petty is ridiculous.

There is always a reason to be grateful, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Even in darkness light can be found, you simply look for it. The way I see it everything that happens to us for a reason. It molds us into the people we are today. We can either go through life playing the victim or we can be proud of who we are. The choice is ours alone.