With darkness comes light

August has arrived, how is everyone feeling?? It got a little rough (& dark) there for a little while, didn’t it? Feels good to be rebooting back into myself again. How was this transformational period for everyone? A lot of stuff came up didn’t it; talk about rebirth!

The full moon & lunar eclipse (along with planets going retrograde, solar storms & everything else) left me exhausted and drained, in a way I haven’t experienced for quite some time. I saw (& am still seeing) synchronicities around me. In the way of animals (mostly birds, as I am in bird medicine currently), numbers, & things just aligning perfectly. I was having a huge issue with stagnant energy in my sacral (stomach). Then here comes moon goddess and says “I’ll help you with that!” I even had dreams of a boyfriend I had when I was 18. Spirit, universe and the moon all wanted to be sure that I got the message (they know it takes me awhile sometimes), and I totally did. Actually it was more like this total epiphany, & awakening unlocking everything for me. Looping themes & boundaries, were two HUGE topics for me.

I began my work with serpent energy, as she symbolizes rebirth, she helped me get energy flowing again. As soon as it started to flow I was a releasing queen. Things were coming up left & right to be let go of, released and detached from. I haven’t been in that victim state of mind in a while but there it was a part of myself still felt that way, so I got rid of all of it. I do not need the past (or baggage) to define me or who I am. Like many things the easiest stuff always goes quickly then you get to the real stuff. When you hit a certain level of depth within yourself & you had no idea that stuff was even there, that’s the challenge. That’s the test from the universe to see if you’re really wanting change as much as you say you do. I believe the universe & spirit to be a no nonsense kind of force, you either are willing to work for it or you’re not.  She is all about action, and putting the work in.

I went to depths I didn’t even know existed within me. I felt it too, my physical body was done. I took naps, which I never do, just because my body needed it. I had a list full of things I wanted to accomplish but none of it got done; it was okay though I needed the rest. It felt like my light body was advancing at such an accelerated speed that my physical body couldn’t keep up. I took the time I needed, that is such an important thing to do. When your body tells you, “Hey, I need a brake” then listen. It is okay to rest momentarily & pick everything up later. I went into my sacred space & spent a lot of time there. I withdrew from society for a little while because I needed too. For me, I cannot be social while still going deep into myself; I’t just doesn’t work for me. I spent a lot of time in nature, it called out to me. There was one day where every time I’d come home I’d be called right back outside again. I needed the love from mother, I needed her support.

And here we are now, its August & there is a magic in the air. I find myself taking the first steps into my new life & my new ways of being. I have set boundaries with myself & stand powerfully in them. I even stood up to my mother & didn’t feel bad about it (which has been a huge looping theme for me). I am in my power, & if I’m being honest, it feels amazing. I have been so proud of myself to tell the world what I will & will not accept. It’s a truly empowering feeling all on its own & once you start, you’ll only want more. I see myself spiraling out of the orbit of my old self, none of that serves me anymore. I have really just come to a place where I am sick of the reruns, the same crap that plays over & over again. I am just over it & am moving forward.  I am ready to receive everything that I have been working hard to manifest.

I am ready to walk into my new life. I am ready for everything I always knew was waiting for me. I am ready to shine, inspire & to create. I am ready for happiness, joy & love. I am ready for it all. I am ready to leave the old me behind & walk with strength, courage & love into a new chapter.

I want you to know that you can change your life, you are the master & creator of your destiny. A happy life always starts with a grateful heart. Everything you’ve ever wanted is out there waiting for you, go get it!

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Disconnect to Connect

The theme I keep seeing arising within myself, and the ones close to me is disconnect to connect. Wanting to be more detached from social media, television, and not be so dependent on a cell phone. To reconnect with the things that makes life worth living. Building real face to face relationships with people we care about, making plans and sticking to them, taking the time to visit a loved one for no reason expect to see how they are. To connect to the things we have lost sight of, the things are parents and grandparents were raised on. Principles, morals and values.

Personally my usage of social media has declines dramatically over the past several months. I started to see what it was, and had done to me. I would be in this amazing space, surrounded by all this light and love from the universe and our beautiful mother; I’d get on Facebook and I could feel it all get sucked away almost instantly. Leaving me feeling icky, and just not in the same way I had come in. Facebook can be a great platform for many beings coming together to share, and spread light and love but most of the time (at least by what I see) it is just another way for hatred and negativity to grow stronger. It is draining, and exhausting so I decided to take it out of my life. If it isn’t serving my highest potential, than I don’t need it.

I do still have a Facebook account, (I kept it for the spiritual group that I am apart of) but now I only check it once a month to see whats in my notifications and move on quickly. It has been quite freeing actually, which isn’t what I expected to get out of this. I no longer feel the need to post or share every aspect of my life with the world. My options are mine, and if I believe that sharing them will help make a difference than I will, otherwise I will keep them to myself. The moments I share on vacations and the photos I take should be kept private, they are beautiful moments that should only be shared with those you love; not posting them to see how many “likes” you get. Remember the days when friends or family would have to come over to see the photos of your wedding, vacation or of your new born child. You’d have coffee or a cup of tea and share stories, making it this whole experience; yes, that is what I want to get back too. That is what we should all get back to, actually enjoying the human experience. Step away from idolizing “famous” people and discussing how you think someone’s new look is this or that, it really makes no difference what you think about them; what matters is how you feel about yourself.

There is many things wrong with the way we live, and the way we have become but we cannot focus solely on that. We must focus on the love that is around us and within us. We must focus on the light that radiates throughout the planet; in all the animals, and in all the plants. We must come together for a common cause if we want change. It brings tears to my eyes to watch so many stand up for what they believe is right, such beauty and power in that.

Take the time to evaluate what excels your growth and your light, and what dims it. Don’t be afraid to let go, or to love from a far, you have to do what is best for yourself before you can help anyone else.

 

Bless it be.

Faye

Freely Give

I woke this morning thinking about Love and how it has made my life so valuable. How me giving love so freely has aided me, and how receiving love has only lead me to all the growth I have accomplished.

My love of hooping for instance, has shown me how beautiful I am. It has help me to build my confidence, and patience. From it, I have begun to trust myself more and more. I have never felt so good about myself, or had a healthy positive feeling about myself. It has helped me smile when I just want to cry, release from the stress of the day but most importantly of all it has helped me connect with myself. When the hoop wraps around me, I feel a surge of feminine energy that lives within me. It helps me release any and all false parts of myself and allows me to be the beautiful, fierce, goddess that I am. Hooping simply makes me come alive, more alive than I have ever been. It’s a love that I share with the hula hoop, it’s a desire to find myself, and it’s a practice that takes courage and devotion, its love in its true form. The love we carry for ourselves shapes and molds our entire lives, so if you find something (positive) that makes you feel free than never let go of it.

The love I have given to friends, family and lovers most of which have walked out of my life has changed me in the best ways. It has shown me that my love for them was never dependent upon theirs; I still hold love for them in my heart. Hoping that they find everything they are looking for in life. I no longer try to stop others when they want to leave my life, I simply let them. If our time together has come to an end than that’s how it’s meant to be. It simply means I’ve learned all that I needed to from them or they have learned all they were meant to from me. All relationships are not meant to last forever, I understand that now. I will always wear my heart on my sleeve because that is where it was always been. I will not stop giving my love freely because I do not get it in return or because others do not understand it. I love for me, and no one else. I give love freely because everyone deserves to be loved. Do to others as you’d want them to do to you. That is how I have always lived my life, and I always will. I expect nothing from you in return, my love is free. Everyone is different and I cannot expect from them as I would do, I can only control my actions and reactions.

Love is the best give you can give anyone but first you must find it for yourself. People may be hard to love, love them anyways they are the ones who need it the most. Some of us lock our hearts away, or build walls around them, love them anyway they are simply afraid. We all defend ourselves whatever way works best for us, love is the answer to every question and to every sorrow. Love is all we need and all we crave. Simply open your heart and give love to another and watch how it brightens their day. Watch how contagious love is, and how it spreads like wild fire when given the chance. We are all born with love in our hearts, it never leaves us. We simply push it down out of fear, but what happens if you let it rise. If you let love engulf every ounce of your being, wouldn’t life be so much more enjoyable.

Love is all there is, it is all that matters. It’s a universal language that everything understands and that everything is born from.

 

XOXO

How was your weekend!?

This weekend was packed full of stuff to do, and people to see. On Saturday, my husband and I went to fairy fest. It was our first time going, and I was so excited; so excited in fact that I had a hard time sleeping the night before ( I felt like a little kid waiting for Christmas to come.) It’s a festival where people dress us like fairies, druids or anything really, it in a way reminded me of the renaissance fair. I felt more myself than ever in the outfit I was wearing, I had made a headband just for this occasion which I loved wearing.

It had been raining for days prior to the event so we brought an extra set of shoes to walk in the mud in, I sure am glad we thought ahead. When we got there only four wheel drive vehicles could park in the lot since people were getting stuck. We started walking into the event and all throughout the event there was so much mud it had become unsafe to walk through. They had put straw and some plywood down but they had run out.

As you walked into the event they had a bubble machine throwing out thousands of bubbles, I told my husband “If heaven is a place, it would have bubbles!” He just looked at me shook his head and smiled. Bubbles are magical in large amounts like that, they transform the energy (at least to me anyways.) I saw the lady selling hoops so I made a B line straight to her; I talked to her for a while and picked out a new hoop! I have her card somewhere in my purse; she told me she teaches classes so I am super excited. We walked around and looked at all the shops; most of them were filled with people just trying to get out of the rain. So sadly, I didn’t get to see too much of what they had because of that. I saw my friend there giving readings so we talked to her for a little bit before we left.

As we left the event we noticed that they had stopped letting people in, the field was now not able to have anyone park in it. So people had started to park along the side of the road, and at the bottoms of people’s yards; which resulted in a lot of tickets. They had to cancel the even for Sunday due to the muddy conditions. Which was a shame but I totally understand why they did that.

After we left the festival we had a family cook out at my cousin’s house but I should say I didn’t know how the event would turn out. To my surprise this was one of the nicest get together we have had in a long time. We don’t really see each other much unless someone’s passes away or gets married so it was nice to just talk and visit everyone for no real reason other than us wanting to see each other. We didn’t stay long because we had to let Norm out and it was an hour drive home. It was still very enjoyable.

On Sunday, we volunteered our time to help my friend with her March of Dimes event. It was a decent turn out despite the rainy, windy conditions. The sun did finally show herself toward the end of the event which was a nice treat. It felt good to give back, and help out a friend. I had never volunteered at an event like that before so it was a very pleasant experience. Everything was cleaned up by 3:30 so it wasn’t all day, but by the time 3:30 came around all of us were done for.

So all in all it was a lovely weekend, I got to spend time with all the people I love and cherish. Even if most of my family doesn’t understand me, that’s okay. I still love them regardless.

 

Love Always. XOXO

 

New Video is Up!

This video is simple and from the heart, and decided not to talk the whole time.

I hope all of you decide to stop the endless cycle of self hate, and unworthiness.

Its time to shine your beauty upon the world

Let your self shine!

I love all of you, my mission is to uplift you & show you its never to late to change

love is always the answer and it lies within all of us.

Be the beautiful being you were meant to be

Thank you everyone, you have inspired my life

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New Experiences

In keeping with my theme this year of new experiences outside of my comfort zone, with some friends, and my husband, we went to the rage and shot shotguns. It was my first experience ever firing a weapon, not to mention shoot clay’s.

We got on the bus that drives you down into the woods where you start, and on the ride down I was getting nervous. I was unsure if I would enjoy my time. I did know that I would either love it or hate it; that there would be no in between. We got out to the first set up, I watched everyone go before me, and then it was my turn. My friend showed me how to load it, cock it, aim, and use it.  He gave me my shells; I got up to the post and begin to load it.  I was sure to put the shotgun in the correct place, aim as best as I could, and shoot. Upon me finishing my round, I wasn’t taken by surprise by the force it has, or the kick back it has. I felt comfortable, and in control.

Even though the clays were bright orange, often times it was hard to me to see them. That was the hardest part of my first day; I tried to aim as best as I could. As went through more and more different set ups, I began to enjoy it more and more. Throughout the day, I got more comfortable with the shotgun, and starting getting used to aiming for clays. At the end of the day, I ended up hitting 2 clays, which I am pretty excited about. I thought it was a decent number for my first time. On the bus ride back to the car everyone talked about how well they had done, and how much fun it was.  I will tell you by the end of the day, and even now I loved doing it. It was so much fun, and something I wouldn’t normally do. It was nice to enjoy time outdoors, with friends, learning something new.

This is why it is so important to get out of your comfort zone, and live a little. It’s the only way you find new parts of yourself that you never knew were there before; it is how you grow and how you find out what you like and what you don’t. Living is the reason we are alive, so don’t sit around wasting it. Be present in the moment, put your cell phone away and live in each moment; it’s the only way to enjoy each moment

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Be Selfish

I am home today, we left Philadelphia yesterday. Which I am glad that we did, police were out in full force due to Trump’s visit today.  The trip away was so good for me; it has been a long time since I took a trip without my husband. It was wonderful to spend time with a dear friend and explore the city. It feels wonderful to be home and spend time with my dog. He is my main man; he is the holder of my secrets, the love of my life, and my best friend. He hasn’t left my side since I’ve been home, which makes me feel so loved.

On this trip away I have realized how important it is to be selfish from time to time. We must do what makes us happy, and be around people that make us happy. People that inspire us to be better, to live outside our comfort zone and people that align with us. Taking care of yourself and your needs should come before anyone else’s. I say this as someone who has always put everyone else before herself; always putting myself last left me empty, and drained. For the first time in my life I love myself enough to say “It’s my turn”, to take care of myself and do the things that make me feel so alive. I want this year, and more years to come to be all about traveling, and writing. I may not be able to change the world, but I can change the people in my world.

Have a wonderful day everyone, go live & stay beautiful.

Release & Live

We only can control what we do, say and feel. The need to control everything must be let go of, release any and all things you cannot control. Feel a weight lifted off your shoulders, be free from it. Take a deep breath and just release.

The power of release is transforming and magical; only aligning ourselves with the things that we resonate with, pure beauty. We only are affected by what we allow to affect us; we do not have to accept all things that are given to us. There are often times I get a headache, and I started to say “This is not mine, I do not accept it.” I say this over and over again and just like magic the headache fades away. We have to be aware of what is our own and what isn’t, think of how much baggage you’re carrying around for someone else. It is so tiring and draining, and it simply weighs you down. You don’t need it; let the baggage of the past go. It’s over, complete and cannot be changed. It is what it is and that is what it shall be. The reasonability of your life is yours and yours alone.

You can make your dreams come true, you can sit around complaining. You can travel and live your life, or you can be a job that you hate. Life is simple; we are the ones that complicate things.

This is your life, go live it.

You’re alive, Go Live

I don’t want to remembered as a wife, daughter, or mother. I am so much more than any of these things, they do not define my spirit, or who I am.

They, like all labels aren’t easily removed once placed on someone. They are a part of society that is false and scared of differences. For the most part labels are put onto others out of fear, or the simple fact that everyone has a category they belong in. This way of thinking is the reason why so many people are sad, depressed and even suicidal. Most of us, myself included do not fit into any one box. So we are grown to think that this is wrong of us, that we are ugly or wrong for not fitting in. It took me many years to understand that not fitting in was a blessing, look around at all the unauthentic people walking around. I now take pride in being an outcast, hippie, misfit, gypsy whatever you want to call me. It simply means I can love the things I love without being sorry for it. I can be myself, and be loved for it. Take pride in yourself, you are a beautiful goddess. You have so much beauty to bring to the world, I wish that you would see it.

Don’t think so little of yourself, this gives others permission to do the same; and you are worth so much more than that. You are amazing, magically radiant; you’re worthy and capable. You can do ANYTHING you set your mind to. Stop telling yourself you can’t believe that you can, and you will. Tell yourself everyday how beautiful and wonderful you are, fake a smile if you have to. Do this everyday, and you wont be faking it anymore. Fake it until you make it, or in the case fake it until you believe it. You are a goddess, made of stardust, you are everything you’ve ever needed. You are alive for a reason, go live your life!

I want to be remembered for everything I have done, all the love I shown the world, for the funny moments, for my smile, and for the light that follows me where ever I go. I want to be remembered as someone who saw all the suffering in the world and made a difference. Someone who made the world a little brighter, warmer and gave everyone a reason to smile.