With darkness comes light

August has arrived, how is everyone feeling?? It got a little rough (& dark) there for a little while, didn’t it? Feels good to be rebooting back into myself again. How was this transformational period for everyone? A lot of stuff came up didn’t it; talk about rebirth!

The full moon & lunar eclipse (along with planets going retrograde, solar storms & everything else) left me exhausted and drained, in a way I haven’t experienced for quite some time. I saw (& am still seeing) synchronicities around me. In the way of animals (mostly birds, as I am in bird medicine currently), numbers, & things just aligning perfectly. I was having a huge issue with stagnant energy in my sacral (stomach). Then here comes moon goddess and says “I’ll help you with that!” I even had dreams of a boyfriend I had when I was 18. Spirit, universe and the moon all wanted to be sure that I got the message (they know it takes me awhile sometimes), and I totally did. Actually it was more like this total epiphany, & awakening unlocking everything for me. Looping themes & boundaries, were two HUGE topics for me.

I began my work with serpent energy, as she symbolizes rebirth, she helped me get energy flowing again. As soon as it started to flow I was a releasing queen. Things were coming up left & right to be let go of, released and detached from. I haven’t been in that victim state of mind in a while but there it was a part of myself still felt that way, so I got rid of all of it. I do not need the past (or baggage) to define me or who I am. Like many things the easiest stuff always goes quickly then you get to the real stuff. When you hit a certain level of depth within yourself & you had no idea that stuff was even there, that’s the challenge. That’s the test from the universe to see if you’re really wanting change as much as you say you do. I believe the universe & spirit to be a no nonsense kind of force, you either are willing to work for it or you’re not.  She is all about action, and putting the work in.

I went to depths I didn’t even know existed within me. I felt it too, my physical body was done. I took naps, which I never do, just because my body needed it. I had a list full of things I wanted to accomplish but none of it got done; it was okay though I needed the rest. It felt like my light body was advancing at such an accelerated speed that my physical body couldn’t keep up. I took the time I needed, that is such an important thing to do. When your body tells you, “Hey, I need a brake” then listen. It is okay to rest momentarily & pick everything up later. I went into my sacred space & spent a lot of time there. I withdrew from society for a little while because I needed too. For me, I cannot be social while still going deep into myself; I’t just doesn’t work for me. I spent a lot of time in nature, it called out to me. There was one day where every time I’d come home I’d be called right back outside again. I needed the love from mother, I needed her support.

And here we are now, its August & there is a magic in the air. I find myself taking the first steps into my new life & my new ways of being. I have set boundaries with myself & stand powerfully in them. I even stood up to my mother & didn’t feel bad about it (which has been a huge looping theme for me). I am in my power, & if I’m being honest, it feels amazing. I have been so proud of myself to tell the world what I will & will not accept. It’s a truly empowering feeling all on its own & once you start, you’ll only want more. I see myself spiraling out of the orbit of my old self, none of that serves me anymore. I have really just come to a place where I am sick of the reruns, the same crap that plays over & over again. I am just over it & am moving forward.  I am ready to receive everything that I have been working hard to manifest.

I am ready to walk into my new life. I am ready for everything I always knew was waiting for me. I am ready to shine, inspire & to create. I am ready for happiness, joy & love. I am ready for it all. I am ready to leave the old me behind & walk with strength, courage & love into a new chapter.

I want you to know that you can change your life, you are the master & creator of your destiny. A happy life always starts with a grateful heart. Everything you’ve ever wanted is out there waiting for you, go get it!

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Freedom

Today is all about Freedom. It’s a theme that keeps coming up for me, as I’m sure many of you are experiencing the same theme in your life. With all the shifts and events happening in the universe that affect us here on earth, it is hard to stay the same. More and more we are being pushed to emerge from our shells, and step out of our comfort zone. Many of us are very resistant to the process of the universe; thus making it so much harder on ourselves. The time has come, things….we are changing. As we wake up from our sleep state, as we begin to feel energy, to look for deeper meanings, and the answers to who we are within; we can find freedom. A sense of liberation, that makes us feel alive and free; but with this comes responsibility.

The responsibility to take ownership of everything we bring (manifest) into our life and everything we say and do. There is no more victim state, there is only you….there is new ways of thinking and being. Taking yourself out of the moment to reflect before you act, to think to yourself “Okay, now why did this happen? What am I being shown or taught?” With being awakened, you become a beacon of light and of love. You begin the journey you were meant to take; the journey you choose for yourself before you came here. The journey of unlearning everything you were taught that doesn’t resonate with you, of becoming everything you were meant to be. To become a beautiful masterpiece.

It’s along this journey that freedom finds you. Freedom from a job that doesn’t fulfill you, from friends (and maybe even family) that are toxic to your wellbeing, from everything that does not fill you with beautiful light and love. And over time you will find freedom to step outside of your comfort zone, and try something you never thought you would. That is where I am at in my journey, taking my next steps (or leveling up) in my faith and belief in the universe, and myself. I must say, being outside of my comfort zone has been very nerve wreaking and scary for me but I keep reminding myself to be fearless. There is nothing here to fear, it is only because it is unknown that I am fearful and that will surely pass as I learn how to navigate this new terrain.

We all have to start somewhere, and work our way through it. Learning and growing as we go. Experiencing the world with different eyes from one day to the next. So much can happen in a day, that we never leave it the same way we entered it. Even if the changes are so small we don’t notice them, each day affects us and in some way changes us; but what most don’t see is that we have the freedom to make our day the best day or the worst day. We can choose if the actions of others will affect us or not, we choose every part of our life. That is why freedom, is so powerful gift; a gift that is mostly taken for granted.

Free yourself from yourself, get out of your way and see what happens. Think before you act off of muscle memory. Not everything needs to be defended, and not everything is worth getting upset over. Save your energy for things that matter, save your energy to spread love. It’s what we all crave, but rarely receive.

 

Blessings.

Xo Faye

There is no try, there is only action

Over the past few weeks I may have been transforming in so many ways spiritually, emotionally and internally that it’s been hard to keep track of what’s what. The one thing that I have noticed myself doing more and more of is visualizing everything I want to happen in able to bring it closer to me. I have also stopped using “try” and “if” they are words that only hold you back and don’t allow you to attract your full potential.

I have found visualization to be a powerful tool for me, noticing it working in little ways like making all the traffic lights turn green for me as I cruise down Main Street. This may seem so simple, that it is almost silly to think I am doing this, perhaps it is a simple coincidence but perhaps it isn’t. Me seeing all the lights being green in my mind, and then having them all turn green only proves to me that what I am doing is really truly working. The universe will do whatever it can to make you a believer and for me this is mine. I have now begun to visualize almost everything, I can see the future I want for myself that I know one day I will achieve it.

With the end of using “try” and “if” I have only feel my visualizations grow stronger and clearer. I am not trying to do anything, I simply am doing it. I put all that I have into something, so that I can do it. There is no trying, there is only action. There are so many what if’s in life, we think about them so often and even discuss them with others but why?  Looking at life this way is like looking through a glass half full wishing that it was completely full. It doesn’t make any sense and only hold you back. There is no longer if this happens scenario for me, there is only when this happens. Affirming that I believe and know that it will happens only attracts it to me more. Belief is a powerful tool, when used properly it can aid you in making all of your dreams come true.

I wanted to share this with all of you as I know from experience that things get tough and life gets hard. We doubt ourselves, put ourselves down, and even get in our own way but I am here to tell you that you don’t have to. You can do anything as long as you put the work in. Be clear on what you want to do, and how you can achieve it. Stop using “try” and “if” and replace them with “I am” and “when” a positive mindset is the key to happiness and joy. Don’t let the hard times get you down, instead allow them to only make you work harder and strive for success and happiness.

 

 

xoxo

Free Writing

I have come to find that everything is not as it seems. People often are wolfs in sheep’s clothing. They pretend to be exactly opposite of how they are. Why it is that humans do this? A dog would not act a certain way only to bite your hand off. He will act as if he wants to bite your hand off. I have a lot of beautiful connections in my life but none like the one I share with my dog. He is always happy to see me, always greets me with a smile and some wet kisses. He always acts like each time I come home is the first time he has seen me. He happy simply with the food and love I give him, he doesn’t ask for anything more. He gives me his love, unconditionally. He hides nothing from me, he is simply happy that we are together. Why can’t people act more like this? Life isn’t about being cool, it isn’t about what color your skin is, or what religion you are. It’s about love, and the connections we share with people.  It’s about being kind and showing compassion. It’s about helping one another, despite our differences. It’s about all that most have seen to lost. I see it in larger cities, where everyone only cares for themselves, and will pass a stranger in need without thinking twice. They don’t say “thank you” to the waiter and they throw a fit when things aren’t perfect. They are in a rush to get nowhere, and they are ALWAYS on their phone. Money rules the world, and there by nothing else matters.

It is sad to me, a girl from the country, that people find it okay to live like this. I was raised to always say “Thank you” when given something, no matter who it’s from. To always be kind over being rude, somethings you cannot control. Sharing a smile with a stranger could brighten their whole day, and to always treat others how you would want to be treated. Life doesn’t work the way that you want it to, according to your rules. Life isn’t fair and sometimes it plan sucks. Working hard is the only way you can ever get the things you want in life, they will not be handed to you. Love is free, it cannot be bought no matter how hard you try. Life is simple, yet we make it so changeling.

I will always prefer my home in the country, to city life. I need wide open spaces, I need room to breathe, to feel the energy of the trees, to see the beautiful sights and smells of the flowers, to see deer running through the woods, to hear the songs of the birds and the meditative sounds of the streams. I need it all, it’s who I am. That is my peace on earth, my sanctuary.

I truly believe if people got away from the buildings that humans have created and lived among nature that they would find all that they were looking for. That violence and crime rates would go down, that overall life would improve. When you live in a false world you’ve created nothing good can come from it; the concrete we use to build with holds and gives off a void of energy. It is not alive, so it is an energy void, which then comes back to us. But if you live among the trees, among the plants, they you will be given the gift of positive energy. You will be enlightened and enriched with the love of our great mother. She knows what her children need, it is her children who refuse to listen.

New Video is Up!

This video is simple and from the heart, and decided not to talk the whole time.

I hope all of you decide to stop the endless cycle of self hate, and unworthiness.

Its time to shine your beauty upon the world

Let your self shine!

I love all of you, my mission is to uplift you & show you its never to late to change

love is always the answer and it lies within all of us.

Be the beautiful being you were meant to be

Thank you everyone, you have inspired my life

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If you stand for nothing, you’ll fall for anything

If you stand for nothing, you will fall for anything; this is something I have always believe to be true. It isn’t about picking a side on this or that, it’s about believing in something. Believing in it so strongly that you would stand up for it; you would fight for it, even if that means standing alone. To me, I feel most of us have lost the fight in us. We are complacent with how we imagine life to be, doing as we are told and believing it to be true without question; trusting that our doctors have our best intentions at heart. Believing what we see on television whether it be on the news, or in an ad. Believing everything we read on the internet to be true and factual, without doing any further investigating for ourselves.

One huge area I see in this is the whole vaccination debate. You see both sides fight and belittling each other over a stance they both to believe to be true. Rather than finding out all the facts on our own, and making an informed decision, we believe what we hear on the news and read on the internet (from websites that aren’t creditable) to be true.

For me, and I may be alone on this, I feel that we should look into everything that goes into our bodies, including vaccines. It isn’t a matter of anti or pro, republican or democrat, taking a side will not help the problem we’re facing; it only keeps up further from it. We must look beyond the lies of the news outlets, we must look beyond what we believe to be true, and we must look at both sides. If we stay divided than that only distracts us from what is truly going on, it only aids the government or whoever to keep us blinded, to keep us “in line” and if anyone disrupts the system they are made a fool of and are discredited.  If we want the truth we must stand together, we must stop the endless fighting and name calling, we must stop labeling woman “terrible mothers” simply because she disagrees with vaccine. After all we all want the same thing, healthy happy children.

We do so many things simply because we are told to, and I believe it to be out of fear. Fear is if we don’t do the “normal thing” that we be labeled and outcasted; that our children will not get the health providers they deserve, and the education they deserve. That simply from once choice, everything could be taken away from your child. This to me is not right and should not be acceptable; it is all a scare tactic. One that works all too well, which is why it continues; I wonder what we all would do if we were not ruled by fear. All the amazing things that would be done through courageous acts, through following our intuition; just think of all the things we do out of fear on a daily basis.

The funny thing is, most of us are so wrapped us in our day to day that we are blinded to the fear that holds us captive. Stuck in a cage for our entire lives, never really living and never really being happy; not knowing that we hold the key to unlock the cage and set ourselves free. But this too we are afraid of, afraid of everything we could be, afraid of all the change that comes along with it, afraid of failing, afraid of trying and afraid of ourselves. When you live a life a fear, you can never truly be happy. Happiness only comes when you take a leap of faith, and trust that everything will be okay.

 

We all have bad days

It’s funny how one day you are feeling wonderful and vibrant and the next it seems like an endless sea of darkness has come for you. On Easter Sunday I felt wonderful, my husband, Norman and I all decided we would go for a morning hike in one of my favorite forests. It’s an old forest, with ferns everywhere and mossy trees stumps; it is such a magical place.  We walked to the lake, and up the mountains; my husband said we must of walked 8 miles. It was wonderful to just be out surrounded by the trees, and be outside. So needless to say I was feeling free, light and optimistic about life in general. We had Easter dinner with my parents outside, which was a very enjoyable.

The next day I wake up and I feel the total opposite of everything I was feeling just hours earlier. I was judging myself harshly, I felt pessimistic and dark. I no long felt the universe was aiding me in achieving my dreams, even though I did not believe that to be true. I know that we are spiritual beings and that we are all meant to have down days, it was just strange that it seemingly came out of nowhere. Then I was told that the schumann resonance had peaked to its highest ever recorded state on Sunday, so I thought that was aiding in my feelings. I saw 12:12, smiled and thanked the universe for the gentle reminder that everything comes in time, and when we need it.

Then yesterday, the internet was out. So for us that means no computer, phone or tv (since we do not have cable.) It was a beautiful day so I figured I would go outside and get the work in the gardens done; it needed to be done and I had been putting it off. So I went to Lowes and go some flowers to add to the gardens, came home and went to town. I put on some music, brought normie outside, and played in the dirt. I spent just about all day outside, the gardens where in worse shape than I thought. By the end of the day I felt accomplished and wonderful again. It is crazy how easily sucked into the internet, it has an endless sea of knowledge yet so many of us know so little. So it’s nice to be disconnected for a day, I truly think I needed it.

I love how the universe works everything out, it was the only way to get me outside and do what needed to be done. I need some me time in the sun, I needed to ground, and needed to relax. The funny part is after all that was done and I got my shower the internet began to work again. It still cracks me up!!  Anyways, my point is things happen for a reason especially when we ignore what we are being told. The universe and our guides will make a point for us to get the message; you can only ignore things for so long.

Most people think just because you are positive or enlightened in any way that means you never have a bad day. It’s quite the opposite actually, you may have more bad days than ever before because you are dealing with, and moving on from all the crud you have kept hidden or locked away. The only way to find enlightenment is to first deal with everything inside you; the only difference is when you’re a spiritual or positive person you trust it, let it flow and let it go. You know you are strong enough to get through anything and that this too is just a test of your strength and your faith. Nothing happens by accident, everything has a purpose. Feel the sadness, understand it, and let it go. I have and I can tell you I feel better than ever. I am simply making room for light to live within me.

 

Have a blessed day everyone! Spread love & kindness everywhere you go!

xoxo

April Full Moon

How is everyone feeling since the full moon last night? Did everyone feel the energy she gave off? How did she affect you?

For weeks pervious to the full moon I was feeling foggy, sluggish, exhausted and every bone in my body ached. I was having these bursts of anger coming seemingly out of nowhere; and over the littlest of things. I am not an angry person normally so this was very strange for me. I am usually the person that everyone goes to when they need lifted up, or just need to vent their sorrows. I am seemingly a beacon of light in cloud of darkness; this is why I am protective of my energy. And for the past few weeks I have not been that for everyone, I have been disconnected; wanted to be left alone in my own little world of haze while I undergo this transformation.

I am sure many of you know but for those that do not there are four planets in retrograde along with the full moon; it has been a dozy of a time for me and many others. I saw the effects of these magical energies even in those who are not spiritually minded. It was pretty wild to see, I understood what was happening and why I was feeling this way but for someone who doesn’t have a clue that had to of been an even rougher ride than what I experienced. I saw people getting angry for no reason, being very touchy ready to explode at any time, and just an overall short fuse. People were frustrated but didn’t know why; feeling like a cold was coming on but one never came. I smile as the observer watching all this happen around me, knowing that everything is working itself out the way it needs to.

Yesterday, the day of the full moon I had woken up with the sudden burst of energy; which was more energy than I had had in weeks. The weather could have also played a part in this since it was our first 80 degrees day this spring but it went deeper than that. Everything I had felt over the past weeks was gone, like it was never there at all. I was seeing clearer than before, filled with energy that didn’t seem to dissipate, the anger that had was once filled me was gone. I was happier, lighter and freer than ever before; I knew the first huge step in my transform was complete. I spent the day cleaning the house with the windows and doors open, to let all the fresh air in. When the evening came I prepared my full moon affirmations and all the things I wanted to release; my husband joined me for my ritual which was a nice treat. We light our white candle burned our sage and completed our ritual, as the paper burned I could feel all the energy being released and all the energy the moon had to offer me in its place. I took some deep breathes after it was completed and the candle had been put out, and it felt wonderful.

I told my husband before bed to not be surprised if he felt different in the morning or continue to release throughout the day today. In the middle of the night around 2 am I woke up hotter than hell. I was sweating bullets, had thrown all my covers off and was just lying there tossing and turning. I was unable to get comfortable or cool down, so I got the feeling something was going on beyond my control. About 25 minutes later I cooled off and fell back asleep, so I believe I had a massive release and that was my body way of letting it all go (which is what I asked for.) Funny how those things tend to work out, hence the saying “be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I haven’t talked to my husband yet so I am curious how the moons magic has affected him, if at all.

Today I feel better than ever, I have a sense or “feeling” of knowing that positive things are on their way. That everything I have worked so hard for is now ready to give me the fruits of my labor. The best is yet to come indeed, and it’s closer than ever.

Have a spectacular day everyone! Spread some love & some kindness to yourself & to others.

xoxo

New Video, Hooping!

Hey you!

I figured for this weeks video I could stay with the theme of loving yourself and share with you what makes me love myself. Hooping!! In the video I tell you how it helps me in my daily life, and hows me on a personal level. I want  you to share what makes you love yourself!! I love seeing all the different ways people express themselves!

I hope you have a fantastic weekend, and a even better day!

xoxo

p.s- Please feel free to share with anyone and everyone!