Moon Transformation

The new moon is quickly approaching once again, so I like to take this time to reflect on the previous moon cycle.

The past moon cycle brought intense energies, and huge transformations. Since the past full moon I have felt like a snake in mid shed; eyes milky white, completely vulnerable and unable to see. Feeling the pull from many different directions at once, and my head filled with confusion and utter chaos. I had done my full moon ritual, and had felt with full intensity the power of the moon in her full power. Her power was so transformative that it left me reeling for several days; I had even lost my voice for three days.

I knew that everything I had asked for was being manifested, I just needed to clear myself of out dated clutter and obstacles within. I truly believe that losing my voice was exactly what I needed. It allowed me to go inward, to quiet the noise that was beginning to get so loud. Even though it was only three days, it was all I needed. It’s amazing how quickly we can manifest now. It’s so beautiful. Typically, it would take me a few weeks or months to clear but now it’s almost as quick as a snap of a finger.

Now I am left feeling renewed, and recharged. Head clear, and I know what it is I am meant to do. I am simply awaiting signs from the universe to know when to start; a spiritual green light. I am at ease, gentle, and more awake than ever. I understand the power of being in the present, and I am thankful for the moments that are given. I have complete faith in the universe, and great spirit. The universe has heard what I wish to manifest. The universe has seen the work I’ve put into them and is working behind the scenes to make them a reality. The universe wants you to have what you want, after all. That’s why it’s so important to keep your thoughts positive.

Looking back at the past moon cycle and all that I have finally let go of, makes me look forward to the new moon that is upon us and all that the universe, great spirit and our great mother has in store for me…and all of us!! So much beauty lies ahead….just wait and see.

How did the past moon cycle help you on your journey!?

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Honor The Call

I haven’t written in a while because I really (If Im being honest) haven’t felt the need to; but today is different. Today I feel I have the call, so I must answer.

Over the past few months my emotions have been a roller coaster ride, as so much of the collective is rising to be transmuted. Last month was the month of grieving for me, did you feel it too? It’s not that I was depressed, and no one had passed away but it was something that I just needed to do. I have lost so much in my life, even though I have gained so much from those losses, it seemed I have never grieved them. Understanding this came as a surprise to me, I always celebrated the lessons I had learned from each experience but how could I of been so blind to not fully feel what got me there.

It’s quite incredible when you take time to reflect on how far you’ve come. Taking some time for myself, I felt everything fully & completely; I allowed my tears to flow freely. I felt grief from things I thought I had let go of, years ago. It is always such a beautiful experience when you simple are, and this was no exception.

Currently, I have been feeling heavy sadness in the collective, and in my soul family. We all have a little piece that is ours, though some take on a little more to lighten the load for another. We are all working together to transmute this sadness, so that more light and love can make it way to all of us. By doing your work, you not only helping yourself but you help those connected to you. This is currently where I’m at, doing my work so that more love makes its way in (that is what life is all about after all). We all have a place to fill, and work to do & by listening when spirit calls you’re doing so much for the world, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Any act of healing and letting go, no matter how small makes an impact.

We are the children of our great mother. As we heal ourselves, we heal her. As we connect to her, we connect to ourselves. As we feel her love, we know we can never be without. As we honor her, we honor ourselves. Mother gives us all that we need, but what do we give her in return?

That is what I was leave you with, a thought provoking question.

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

 

Disconnect to Connect

The theme I keep seeing arising within myself, and the ones close to me is disconnect to connect. Wanting to be more detached from social media, television, and not be so dependent on a cell phone. To reconnect with the things that makes life worth living. Building real face to face relationships with people we care about, making plans and sticking to them, taking the time to visit a loved one for no reason expect to see how they are. To connect to the things we have lost sight of, the things are parents and grandparents were raised on. Principles, morals and values.

Personally my usage of social media has declines dramatically over the past several months. I started to see what it was, and had done to me. I would be in this amazing space, surrounded by all this light and love from the universe and our beautiful mother; I’d get on Facebook and I could feel it all get sucked away almost instantly. Leaving me feeling icky, and just not in the same way I had come in. Facebook can be a great platform for many beings coming together to share, and spread light and love but most of the time (at least by what I see) it is just another way for hatred and negativity to grow stronger. It is draining, and exhausting so I decided to take it out of my life. If it isn’t serving my highest potential, than I don’t need it.

I do still have a Facebook account, (I kept it for the spiritual group that I am apart of) but now I only check it once a month to see whats in my notifications and move on quickly. It has been quite freeing actually, which isn’t what I expected to get out of this. I no longer feel the need to post or share every aspect of my life with the world. My options are mine, and if I believe that sharing them will help make a difference than I will, otherwise I will keep them to myself. The moments I share on vacations and the photos I take should be kept private, they are beautiful moments that should only be shared with those you love; not posting them to see how many “likes” you get. Remember the days when friends or family would have to come over to see the photos of your wedding, vacation or of your new born child. You’d have coffee or a cup of tea and share stories, making it this whole experience; yes, that is what I want to get back too. That is what we should all get back to, actually enjoying the human experience. Step away from idolizing “famous” people and discussing how you think someone’s new look is this or that, it really makes no difference what you think about them; what matters is how you feel about yourself.

There is many things wrong with the way we live, and the way we have become but we cannot focus solely on that. We must focus on the love that is around us and within us. We must focus on the light that radiates throughout the planet; in all the animals, and in all the plants. We must come together for a common cause if we want change. It brings tears to my eyes to watch so many stand up for what they believe is right, such beauty and power in that.

Take the time to evaluate what excels your growth and your light, and what dims it. Don’t be afraid to let go, or to love from a far, you have to do what is best for yourself before you can help anyone else.

 

Bless it be.

Faye

New Year, Improved Me

2018 has already brought so many walls crumbling down, I know this will be a beautiful year of manifestation and making dreams come to life.

To celebrate the New Year I took a much needed trip with my sister to Las Vegas. It was my first time visiting there, and I was amazed by the beauty of the city. The dancing fountains were so beautiful that I may have cried a little, but what really got me was the architecture of the buildings. If only people built more things that they loved, putting their heart and soul into them, think of all the beauty we could create. I kept thinking how amazing humans are; building a city in the middle of the desert is incredible.

Even though I was amazed by the city and what man had created, I felt drawn to the mountains. Toward the end of our trip our room had a mountain view, and it was the best view if you ask me. I would wake up in the morning and soak in the beauty. Listening for the wisdom they had to share. Watching the sun come up and highlight the mountains was absolutely breath taking. Even though humans create some really beautiful things, nature’s beauty is next level. The next time I visit Las Vegas, I will be doing some hiking trials and getting in touch with the mountains.

While away on my trip my sister and I shared lots of laughter, made many memories and got to know each other a little better. While away I also was able to gain some perspective that I needed. Often times I need to take myself away from the daily routine of life in order to see what I want, where I am, and what I am doing. I now know what it is what I want out of life, what my goals are, and am going to work hard to make them a reality.

I also had the opportunity to face some fears while I was there. Both my sister & I are afraid of heights, so we decided to do the high roller. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. It was hard to stand up at first, but once I worked past the fear it was beautiful to see the city all lite up at night. You could even see one of the dancing fountains shows, which only looked more beautiful from that height. I wouldn’t say I conquered my fear of heights but I definitely got more comfortable. I wanted to zip line but I wasn’t able to do that this trip. When I return to Las Vegas I am hoping they have the zip line over the strip done, because I will be doing that.

The other fear I conquered was my fear of birds (this is a fear I carry from a past life, and have carried with me for a long time.) Facing this fear happened organically actually, my sister and I had went to The Flamingo for breakfast and decided to walk around the garden there. I got rather excited over all the duckies, fish, and flamingos. As we were walking around I saw people taking pictures with parrots. I looked at my sister, and told her I was going to do it. I gave her my stuff, and told her to record me because no one would believe me. The lady started to put these birds on me, and I was super nervous but once I worked passed my nervousness, I started to relax a little. I actually liked the white parrot the most, he kept looking at me so I would talk to him. haha. I actually enjoyed this experience more than I thought I would. It really made me see how foolish fears are, and how one bad experience can cause a lifetime of fear, holding you back from your full potential.

I am so proud of myself, and all that I have shown myself that I can do. I overcame so much this trip, all of which seem small and meaningless now but held me back for so long. This is the year of quick manifestation, expansion, growth, self-love and making dreams come true. I am recharged, refreshed and ready to get to work.

When working toward creating a life you want, remember….there is no “if” it happens, there is only “when” it happens. I am working my ass off now, so when my dreams becomes reality I will be ready. Life is about your frame of mind, if you tell yourself you will, believe it & work hard to achieve it, then it will come to you.  The universe will give to you what you put out, everything come full circle so be kind, spread love & work hard.

Never give up on your dreams, they are within your reach.

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Transformation has begun

The past few weeks have been pretty crazy for me. The effects of the attunement are starting to settle down; and I am starting to understand the newness that I so strongly feel. It is hard for things to stay the same when so much has changed within you.

I have been slowly but surely getting rid of more and more stuff; getting rid of all the things I don’t love and bring no joy to my life. It only makes sense since I have been purging so much within myself; getting rid of all those things that no longer serve me. I am finally ready to reach my highest potential and all that comes along with it.

This attunement has shown me that I NEED to start trusting myself, every answer to every question is within me. Along with trusting myself, I need to trust in my abilities, whatever they are. They have been starting to show themselves more and more, I often feel as if I am going crazy but I know that it is all just an adjustment period.

I have entered a part of my life where I am finally the most important thing to me. It’s time to give myself all the love, I give so freely to others. This started almost a year ago when I stopped eating meat, something I had always wanted to go but never had the courage to do. And when I started going by Faye, everything began to change, I just didn’t notice it. Going by a name that actually fit me and was fitting to all the spiritual growth I have undergone. Now comes the time where I start taking care of my body even more, and start working out again. After I take a walk, hit the punching bag, or hula hoop it makes me feel so wonderful about myself; and I need more of that. I owe it to myself.

I am weeks away from my book being published and starting an entirely new chapter of my life; one I have waiting years for. I have re-written, added, and taken out parts of my book but it’s finally ready. It is perfect. A wonderful friend of mine completed my cover so I am just waiting for it to arrive in the mail. I am so excited to see where this part of my life takes me, it is quite literally a part of my soul written on paper for the world to read.

What is the point of having experiences if you cannot share them. I am a firm believer of using your experiences to inspire and empower others. Let your vulnerability shine through, people can pick up on the realness you have to offer; they can see the beauty that shines in a heart of truth.

I don’t know where this road where lead me but I do know it will somewhere more beautiful than I could ever imagine.

 

xo

Another way out…

I think I may have went over this topic before but I feel the need to speak out about it once again…..

Depression is a cruel, ugly monster. It starts out small, and seemingly meaningless ways but eventually grows bigger and digs its roots deeper over time. Leaving is feeling that we are alone, that there is no way out, and we will feel like that forever. I am here to tell you that depression is a liar!!

You are NOT alone, I know that it may seem this way but I can guarantee you that someone you know is dealing with the same things that you are, they just don’t talk about it. We see all the filters on Instagram and Social media as a whole, we are so good at adding a “happy” filter that it only leave us more drained and more depressed. We are not robots, we have emotions for a reason. We need truth, realness and authenticity; we need to feel that we are not alone. Talk to someone you trust about the ways your feeling, you may be surprised to know they are going through the same or similar things that you are.

There is always a way out, you have to find it. Fight those negative voices in your head; they have never served you well in the first place. Replace them with positive thoughts, ones that make you smile or laugh. Laughter is the best medicine, it can make you feel happy even when you’re not. Forever is a long time, don’t let a passing storm of depression take up space in your beautiful blue sky. Don’t give into it, fight it!

Look within yourself, see what is missing. Love yourself, give yourself the love and kindness you easily give to others, you are just as deserving as they are of love and happiness. Forgive yourself for the past, and stop worrying about the future. Be in the present, this is the only time you will ever be this old. This is the only time you can make memories, the only time you can feel alive!

Please know that suicide is not the answer, I know that it may feel like it but it isn’t. You have so many lives left to touch, and to touch yours. Talk to someone about the ways your feeling, reach out. We all live in a world were social media rules all, we wait for nothing and judge everything and everyone; and have no patience.  This is a society of lies and falsities.  It may seem like the end of the world when your peers do not accept you, or when you don’t fit in.

There were many times I didn’t have any friends at all, I would go to school and come home. It was a bummer that I wasn’t experiencing the same things as all the other kids in school but I also didn’t want to fit in if it meant I had to fake everything about myself. High school is not the best time of your life, it is only the beginning of it. I will be 30 this year, and the best times of my life have only begun. So please, don’t feel that life won’t get better because it will! Remember when someone calls you names or whatever, it says more about them than you.

You are beautiful, you are strong, and you are light. Love who you are, the good and the bad. Love all of you, that is where your power lies and once you’ve found that you will be a unstoppable force to reckoned with.

 

Xoxo

 

p.s.- Sorry to my absence I have wonderful news I want to share with all of you! Due to all the love we have spread through my blog and Instagram I have decided to open a boutique filled with things that bring me joy and love. Spreading of love, and positive vibes for everyone. The shop will be opening soon, if anyone would like to join I will leave a link below. ❤

https://www.facebook.com/groups/1085232378279355/

Weekend Fun

The past few days have been a whorl wind of activity for me. Over the past weekend my husband and I had east coast rally x nationals; which my father and mother-in law joined us for. Sunday was the full moon, and yesterday was my husband’s 30th birthday. So needless to say, I have been catching up on everything from sleep to laundry.

Rally X was fun as always, I enjoy taking the photos for the event. As it is a way for me to share the experience with my husband and I just have a blast. I love watching each driver’s different approach to the course, and how different each car is. Everyone, for the most part, is nice and pleasant to talk to. I do love meeting new people, especially those different from who I’d normally meet. Every time my husband goes up to race I send him all the positive energy, and reiki I can, I like to think it helps even if it doesn’t. haha.

People were getting to me so much over the course of this trip and instead of running my mouth, like I normally would, I decided to take a different approach. I got quite, and went inside my head. Taking some deep breathes, thinking “This is happening for a reason, there is a lesson to learn here. What is the lesson?” Most of the time the answer I came up with was Patience. Not to take the negative energy given to me, and make it my own, only to spew more negativity. Instead, I did not accept the negativity given to me, and took the high road. Releasing what is not mine, so that I could be at peace.

On the way home Sunday, I noticed all that this trip has shown and taught me. I noticed how far I have come in my own growth and expansion. The old me would have complained about everything, being muddy, dirty, hot, and tired. Basically everything and anything that could be complained about, I would have complained about it. This time that was the role of my mother-in law. She showed me just how annoying I used to be, how needy I was and how I had the insistent need to control every aspect of everything. Rather than complain, I said “I need to eat soon” or “I could use a break from the sun.” It sends the message of what I need without annoying and draining everyone.

I noticed that complaining over every little thing is so draining, and kills the overall vibe. Sometimes we try so hard to be part of something, that we over try and overdo it. Which makes everyone not want to around you, and creates more distance. This is how it was for most of us; we all have our own routines and go our own ways that we do not need to told what to do. Even though she made things difficult, we still managed to have a lot of fun and meet new people. It just makes me so thankful and grateful that I am no longer that way. I am now able to relax, and go with the flow.

The full moon was much needed for me, we got home just in time for me to do my full moon ritual. Since I had missed the past two, I was in desperate need of this moon. When I dumped sage into my pot, I must have dumped a lot in, as it didn’t take long for the garage to completely fill with smoke. As I cleansed myself, I felt everything lift off of me. You never know the weight you carry until it’s gone, that’s for sure.  As the sage engulfed my entire being I felt a tingling on my back, right above my heart charka.  I asked some friends about this and was told it was the Higher Heart Charka. Since then I have been reading as much as I can about this charka, as it is a new charka to humanity. It is completely fascinating to me.

Since the full moon, and everything that has happened over the weekend, I am more thankful than ever for how far I have come, and all the changes I have made along the way.

We always have the potential to be better, it is up to use to choose to be.

Reason for my absence

It has been a crazy past few days, for those of you who do not follow me on Instagram (@bohemianexplorerblog), I will let you know what has been going on.

Last Friday my husband was injured at work; he is the jack of all trades really. He has electrical experience from his time in the Navy, knowing this his boss sent him out to help someone work an electrical panel. He went to check the voltage, and an arc flash happened. Now I had no idea what that was before all of this, and I still can’t explain it. All I know is that the pictures that came up on goggle were freakin scary, and really showed me how lucky he was to be alive. Everything is a lesson and for me the lesson was to not take him and our love for granted because we truly have something special.

I met him and his boss at the ER, when I saw how his hand was burned I felt so bad; I just wanted him to feel better. The ER didn’t really have much knowledge for burns so they sent him to a burn center. He spent the night there but luckily came home Saturday. He has second degree burns on his hand, and that is it. What a true blessing, it could have been so much worse. My husband has many angels that watch over him and care for him, he is a truly incredibly blessed man. As this is not the first time his angels have stepped in to help and protect him.

Because of his burns his hand is hypersensitive to sunlight and heat, so we decided to go to the movies yesterday. We went to see Wonder Woman, which my husband ended up falling asleep to because of his pain meds but I enjoyed it. It was refreshing to see a beautiful, strong woman on the big screen. It helps redefine the stereotypes that are placed on woman; like a woman can either be beautiful and stupid or smart and ugly but can never be both; but Wonder Woman is beautiful and smart, along with many other things. She shows woman, young and old, that you do not need a man to save you; you are very capable of saving yourself. You can be a goddess, strong, beautiful, independent, and confidant but at the same time you can still be soft, gentle, caring, and loving.

There were many times in the film when Wonder Woman would go into a room filled with men and they’d ask why a woman was in here. Which is how most of society works, men are superior to woman. Woman are still treated less than equal if you simply pay attention. Most men seem to think that woman are not capable of doing things as they are, and wonder woman shows them that she is far more capable than they are. I can see how some people would say something about feminism here, which is a word that I truly dislike. I much rather prefer girl power over feminism. I feel like they are so many taboos or negative thoughts implied with the word. Girl power, for me, sounds so much more empowering and appealing. I would love nothing more than to see woman rise up to their full potential.

“It is what you believe that matters, not what people deserve” that line really stood out to me, it is so spot on. If you believe that love will save the world, then it will. You will put love into everything you do, and everything that are. That is why woman are so magical and powerful, we can be given just about anything and make it better. We can be given a house and make it a home, we can be given sperm and we will make a child, we can be given a broken heart and we can mend it with love. That to me, is why woman are goddesses, we are everything.

Shine your light ladies, become everything you were meant to be. Become the goddess you are. Find her and never let go of her.

 

xoxo

Freely Give

I woke this morning thinking about Love and how it has made my life so valuable. How me giving love so freely has aided me, and how receiving love has only lead me to all the growth I have accomplished.

My love of hooping for instance, has shown me how beautiful I am. It has help me to build my confidence, and patience. From it, I have begun to trust myself more and more. I have never felt so good about myself, or had a healthy positive feeling about myself. It has helped me smile when I just want to cry, release from the stress of the day but most importantly of all it has helped me connect with myself. When the hoop wraps around me, I feel a surge of feminine energy that lives within me. It helps me release any and all false parts of myself and allows me to be the beautiful, fierce, goddess that I am. Hooping simply makes me come alive, more alive than I have ever been. It’s a love that I share with the hula hoop, it’s a desire to find myself, and it’s a practice that takes courage and devotion, its love in its true form. The love we carry for ourselves shapes and molds our entire lives, so if you find something (positive) that makes you feel free than never let go of it.

The love I have given to friends, family and lovers most of which have walked out of my life has changed me in the best ways. It has shown me that my love for them was never dependent upon theirs; I still hold love for them in my heart. Hoping that they find everything they are looking for in life. I no longer try to stop others when they want to leave my life, I simply let them. If our time together has come to an end than that’s how it’s meant to be. It simply means I’ve learned all that I needed to from them or they have learned all they were meant to from me. All relationships are not meant to last forever, I understand that now. I will always wear my heart on my sleeve because that is where it was always been. I will not stop giving my love freely because I do not get it in return or because others do not understand it. I love for me, and no one else. I give love freely because everyone deserves to be loved. Do to others as you’d want them to do to you. That is how I have always lived my life, and I always will. I expect nothing from you in return, my love is free. Everyone is different and I cannot expect from them as I would do, I can only control my actions and reactions.

Love is the best give you can give anyone but first you must find it for yourself. People may be hard to love, love them anyways they are the ones who need it the most. Some of us lock our hearts away, or build walls around them, love them anyway they are simply afraid. We all defend ourselves whatever way works best for us, love is the answer to every question and to every sorrow. Love is all we need and all we crave. Simply open your heart and give love to another and watch how it brightens their day. Watch how contagious love is, and how it spreads like wild fire when given the chance. We are all born with love in our hearts, it never leaves us. We simply push it down out of fear, but what happens if you let it rise. If you let love engulf every ounce of your being, wouldn’t life be so much more enjoyable.

Love is all there is, it is all that matters. It’s a universal language that everything understands and that everything is born from.

 

XOXO

Who Inspires You??

Who Inspires You?

This is a question I have been asked recently; it sparked something inside me and made me see just inspiring others are to me. I never noticed how many inspire me each and every day….

My husband is my daily inspiration, he works so hard for us so that I can stay home and pursue my dream of writing and inspiring everyone to simply love. Without him none of this would have happened, he inspires me to grow, to keep working hard, and have faith that everything will work out for the better. His love runs so deeply for me, and that in itself is an inspiration.

My dog, Norman inspires me to take time for myself, he reminds me that rest is important part of life. He inspires me to love the people that surrounding me, to hold no resentments or ill will. Just love them, and always be happy to see them. You never know when they will be gone.

My grandmother inspires me, even though she is not in human form anymore. The things she taught me, have never left. She inspires to be the beautiful goddess that I am. By being exactly who I am, no fake acts, no walls, just me through and through. She inspires me to always say kind words, saying hateful things only make you look bad. She inspires me to dance around like no one is watching, simply because I enjoy the song on the radio. She inspires me to be free, and live in happiness. She inspires me in so many ways, I’m sure I don’t even notice some of them.

The beauty of nature inspires me every day. I get most of my ideas for my writing while sitting on my front porch surrounded my lovely plants and gardens. They inspire me to grow roots, to be firmly planted but to also be free to share my beauty with the world. I simply need to be showed with love to blossom. They inspire me to be positive and share that energy with the world.

My hooping inspiration is Deanne Love. She inspires me to have fun with hooping while I’m learning something new. The love that she has for hooping shines through, and inspires me to pursue my love of hooping. It may be different and others may not understand, that’s okay. It isn’t my problem what others think of me. She inspires me, to never give up, even when I’m not getting the trick. Without her, I wouldn’t be the fierce hooping force I am today.

Most people, even strangers, inspire me. They inspire me to be more myself and radiate love more than ever. They inspire me by showing me who I don’t want to be. They inspire me by teaching me lessons of patience and understanding. The lessons and wisdom they share with me is often in part where my inspiration for writing comes from.

All you beauties inspire me. Keep fighting for what you want out of life. That is beautiful stuff, and you inspire me to never stop fighting, to never stop growing and to never stop loving. You are the true inspiration.

The world is a funny place, everyone you come into contact with affects you, mold you in some way or another. Everyone comes into your life for a reason, nothing happens by mistake or by chance. Be inspired by others, let others lift you up when you are weak and lift others when you are strong. The world is filled with so much beauty, make the most of it. You never know when it will be gone. xoxo

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