With darkness comes light

August has arrived, how is everyone feeling?? It got a little rough (& dark) there for a little while, didn’t it? Feels good to be rebooting back into myself again. How was this transformational period for everyone? A lot of stuff came up didn’t it; talk about rebirth!

The full moon & lunar eclipse (along with planets going retrograde, solar storms & everything else) left me exhausted and drained, in a way I haven’t experienced for quite some time. I saw (& am still seeing) synchronicities around me. In the way of animals (mostly birds, as I am in bird medicine currently), numbers, & things just aligning perfectly. I was having a huge issue with stagnant energy in my sacral (stomach). Then here comes moon goddess and says “I’ll help you with that!” I even had dreams of a boyfriend I had when I was 18. Spirit, universe and the moon all wanted to be sure that I got the message (they know it takes me awhile sometimes), and I totally did. Actually it was more like this total epiphany, & awakening unlocking everything for me. Looping themes & boundaries, were two HUGE topics for me.

I began my work with serpent energy, as she symbolizes rebirth, she helped me get energy flowing again. As soon as it started to flow I was a releasing queen. Things were coming up left & right to be let go of, released and detached from. I haven’t been in that victim state of mind in a while but there it was a part of myself still felt that way, so I got rid of all of it. I do not need the past (or baggage) to define me or who I am. Like many things the easiest stuff always goes quickly then you get to the real stuff. When you hit a certain level of depth within yourself & you had no idea that stuff was even there, that’s the challenge. That’s the test from the universe to see if you’re really wanting change as much as you say you do. I believe the universe & spirit to be a no nonsense kind of force, you either are willing to work for it or you’re not.  She is all about action, and putting the work in.

I went to depths I didn’t even know existed within me. I felt it too, my physical body was done. I took naps, which I never do, just because my body needed it. I had a list full of things I wanted to accomplish but none of it got done; it was okay though I needed the rest. It felt like my light body was advancing at such an accelerated speed that my physical body couldn’t keep up. I took the time I needed, that is such an important thing to do. When your body tells you, “Hey, I need a brake” then listen. It is okay to rest momentarily & pick everything up later. I went into my sacred space & spent a lot of time there. I withdrew from society for a little while because I needed too. For me, I cannot be social while still going deep into myself; I’t just doesn’t work for me. I spent a lot of time in nature, it called out to me. There was one day where every time I’d come home I’d be called right back outside again. I needed the love from mother, I needed her support.

And here we are now, its August & there is a magic in the air. I find myself taking the first steps into my new life & my new ways of being. I have set boundaries with myself & stand powerfully in them. I even stood up to my mother & didn’t feel bad about it (which has been a huge looping theme for me). I am in my power, & if I’m being honest, it feels amazing. I have been so proud of myself to tell the world what I will & will not accept. It’s a truly empowering feeling all on its own & once you start, you’ll only want more. I see myself spiraling out of the orbit of my old self, none of that serves me anymore. I have really just come to a place where I am sick of the reruns, the same crap that plays over & over again. I am just over it & am moving forward.  I am ready to receive everything that I have been working hard to manifest.

I am ready to walk into my new life. I am ready for everything I always knew was waiting for me. I am ready to shine, inspire & to create. I am ready for happiness, joy & love. I am ready for it all. I am ready to leave the old me behind & walk with strength, courage & love into a new chapter.

I want you to know that you can change your life, you are the master & creator of your destiny. A happy life always starts with a grateful heart. Everything you’ve ever wanted is out there waiting for you, go get it!

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

We are all connected

I know it isn’t often that I share from my journal but this, this is just too perfect not to share…..

“….There are so many times I see my spirit wolf, Sheba. In my dreams she shows me the freedom I once had, when I too was a wolf. It is in her that I learned the power of the dark. How, if you let it, it can totally transform every ounce of your being. It is in the darkness where you find your strength, courage, wisdom, growth and truth. This is nothing to fear, but to be embraced. We cannot have darkness without light, for the darkness is where we find our light; it’s where we find ourselves.

This reminds me of the shadow self because the shadow is too associated with darkness. We put all the bits of ourselves that we deem unacceptable, and push them down and ignore them until they ultimately take on a life of their own. We must align with our darkness and use it is a source of power rather than a source of weakness.

I have found the realist, truest parts of myself that where hidden in the dark. It wasn’t until I found these buried treasures that I began to love myself; to reach a state of love that I didn’t even know existed. I cannot be half of anything, it is all or nothing. I am no longer willing to be half of myself to make someone else comfortable, I am who I am for better or worse. Take me as I am or leave me as I am, either way I am still me and I am still happy.

I know that everyone is not going to like me, or like the things I say. I know that I will always be “too much” for some people, and that is okay, but for those that I do connect with, they only enrich my life, and surround me with more love. I know that I am a deep woman, and that most men and even some woman are intimidated by this, and that is okay too. I live my life for myself, and no one else. I have always put my needs above everything else, to some this may seem selfish, but I call it self-care. If I am not happy, I cannot make another happy.  There are even days when I am more wolf than woman. Times when I want to howl at the moon, and run free in the woods. Other times, I am perfectly happy being the strong, beautiful, powerful, sexy woman that I am.

My point is we are all connected, we are all one. The love, kindness and compassion you give to another will spread and grow. Find yourself, all of yourself. Love that person, because you deserve the love you so freely give to others. Once you become a beacon of light and love, you will want nothing more but to help another. We all have times where we stray too far from our path, we all need picked up from time to time.

 

Be someone’s beacon of hope, of love, and of compassion.

Spread love and kindness everywhere you go,

& it will ALWAYS find it way back to you.

Put love into everything you do,

& you will never be unhappy.

 

Because love can move mountains

Love can heal even the deepest of wounds.

 

Love makes everything possible

And without it we have nothing.”

 

xo

 

Feel like the day

I feel a lot like the day today. Which may sounds weird, or further validate that I control the weather. Either way I am feeling just like this….I am a brilliant blue sky, hidden by passing bursts of fear, worry and sadness. There are moments when the light breaks through, and my is it wonderful. Then the clouds come around again. Its not chaotic, but rather still and very much in the moment. Present and alive. I dont worry of the clouds that mask my light, I know like everything else these clouds will too pass. Allowing me to beam at full capacity once again.

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