Empower

Last night I had a beautiful conversation with some woman. Let me first give you a little back story; I am a part of a motor sport club. Last night we had our meeting, and the woman (the few of us that are a part of it) all met outside and began to talk after the meeting was over.

We were talking about ways to get more woman involved in motor sports; often when people think of racing it is a predominantly male sport. We want to change that. We were talking about how woman should empower other woman; and by how teaching and empowering one other we could go into a race that is mostly males, and feel comfortable and confident. We also need the men’s support, the ones that are our allies, that ones that empower us instead of judging us.

I whole heartedly believe that anything a man can do a woman can do. It is time for woman to step into their power. To see and feel all the power they hold within themselves; to stand up for what they believe in (even if it isn’t the popular option). All the patriarchal bs needs to end. Woman are goddesses, each and everyone one of us. It is time for us to harness the powers we yield and heal a world in such despite need of love. We need to stop lashing out at one another and come together.

We can do this, we are doing this. Woman are beautiful gifts to this world, and it is time they are treated as such. As a woman who has stepped into her power, I would love nothing more than for all my sisters to stand side by side and support, empower, and inspire one other.

 

Namaste.

Xo Faye

Whats the difference? Selfless, Selfish & Putting yourself first.

Most people believe that putting yourself first is being selfish but is it? We all know that being selfless can be just as unhealthy as being selfish, but where is the line? What does it all mean, and where does each end and begin? This is what spirit has told me, and what I have come to understand….

Most of us are so busy taking care of others, our homes, running errands, and working crazy hours that we are often left forgotten. Then there are some who put their desires above all else, with no regard for anyone else. They are only happy, or act when it serves them. Do you see the problem with both of these things? Everyone you encounter leaves being unfulfilled. The energy exchange doesn’t benefit either party.

When you give, give, give without first giving to yourself, your left empty and depleted. How can you give to another if you first do not give to yourself? How can you give anything, when you have nothing left to give? A similar thing can be said for someone who always takes and never gives. Only looking out for yourself, can lead to sadness and unhappiness…even depression. As most of the time you end up alone.

The world is filled with people who give, receive, and those that do both. Those that are selfless give too much, and receive nothing. Those who are selfish, take too much, and do not give. Then there are those who put themselves first, and both give and receive. Do you see the difference?

Someone who has put themselves first, knows that it is important to both give and receive. They know that by taking a few minutes each day for time for themselves, they refill themselves and in return can give more to others. They know that it is important to make yourself happy and put your needs first but still respect the feelings of others. They have found a balance of taking only what they can give back.

I believe that being self-aware is a huge part of putting yourself first. Knowing your boundaries, and sticking to them. Knowing what you will and will not tolerate. Self-care is the best gift we can give ourselves, nobody else is going to take care of you the way you can.

You are your greatest love. Be your own soulmate. Know who you are, and what you want. Step into your power. Find balance & harmony. Heal. Let go & move forward.

Learn to both give and receive, and watch things begin to transform. You are a choice away from a new way of being & living.

Is it time to change, the choice is yours….

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

Beautifully Broken

It seems lately it is one thing after another in terms of spiritual awakening, growth, and releasing. The universe has demanded so much from us and our bodies over the past few months. There are so many waking up from a long nap, so much darkness that is coming to the surface to be eradicated by the light.

I don’t watch television much so I am always out of the loop with pop culture and what is going on in the world; but the one thing that has managed to be unavoidable is all the things going on in Hollywood. The mistreatment of woman is truly a larger issue than I guess many recognized. It is so easy to stay blind to the ugliness of the world. To see all of these woman coming forward with their stories of abuse and neglect is beautifully heartbreaking.  It’s brave to see these woman stepping out of the shadows and taking a stand but it is so tragic that any of this had to happen in the first place. As someone who has been through this type of abuse, I applaud every woman who has told her story (anonymously or not it doesn’t matter).  It takes a lot of bravery and courage to stand before others and tell a story they don’t understand, and often don’t believe.

I know and believe that love, compassion and kindness is how we can transform ourselves and the world. We are in a time of great shifts, the time of change is here. We have hated each other long enough and it’s gotten us nowhere. It is time to try something different, to open our hearts to love. We are all different, and that’s okay. We aren’t meant to all be the same, we would learn nothing. Be kind for no reason, show compassion to those who need help, and always send love to every person you meet. Our job is not to judge, our job is to love.

It is only in the ashes of the past that you can forge the way to the future.

 

Have a beautiful day everyone!

Xo

Faye

Take on depression

What is depression, really!? Why are so many affected by it; there is a reason why it’s the top leading illness in the world but why?

By ignoring our soul’s purpose, we are killing our spirits. By staying in places that aren’t meant for us or with people who bring us no joy, we are killing our spirits. We aren’t always meant to be where we want to be and it can be difficult to let go; but its’ killing us.

By living a lie, and being a fake version of ourselves, we are killing our spirits. When you live a life that isn’t true to you, you can never find true happiness. You may find little blips of happiness here and there but it never stays and it never lasts long. The blips are simply there to show you how your life could be, if you could see that you hold the key to your happiness.

Instead we rely on alcohol, drugs and passions of the flesh to take us out of our misery. Hoping for just a moment the pain will stop, forgetting all your worries and letting it all melt away. All the while not seeing that we then depend of the things that bring us relief because it is the only way we know how to cope. Walking around like zombies hopped up on drugs that do more harm than good. Depression is simply a soul sickness. Once you address that cause of the sickness it will all go away, just like that.

You have to find yourself, live the life that you want to live. Come out of the closet, quit that job you hate, clear out your friends list, over haul your life. Clear out the clutter, the noise, and the negativity energy that has been keeping you down. This is YOUR life take control of it. Stop listening to that voice in your head, it is a liar! Every time a negative thought comes to mind, quickly switch to a positive one. It won’t be easy, but don’t give up!

Love yourself, find a place within you that you can find comfort and a home. Forgive yourself for the things you have and haven’t done, it’s time to move forward. Don’t be so hard on yourself, you’re a work in progress. Once you start to love who you are, everyone will notice it. People beaming the same energy as you will be attracted to you and you to them. What you seek is always seeking you. So why not seek out that loving positive energy.

So within, so without. How you feel about yourself will always become your reality. Everyone you meet has something to teach you, we are all here to learn from each other. Our friends, and lovers are all a reflection of ourselves; they act like mirrors. If you don’t like what you see, then you can always change it. You are only a prisoner to this live if you choose to be. Brake free, you hold the key!

Find your passions, find your purpose. Having a life of meaning and purpose is the easiest way to find happiness. Nurture your soul and spirit, show yourself love and kindness; and watch your life transform before your eyes. Just allow yourself to be in the present, get out of the past it holds you back and get out of the future, it hasn’t happened yet.

Depression is only a state of being, it is only permeant if you allow it to be. You are much more worthy and beautiful then you even realize. Anything is possible when you believe. Take action to change; put in the work, and you will find your way.

 

xoxo

Step out of fear

For most of my life I have been afraid. I have been afraid of what people would think of me, and my truths. I’ve been afraid that I wouldn’t fit in; that my strengths make others feel weak. I have lived in fear so long, afraid of this and that.  Today is the day I step out of the shadows, I step into my own. Today is the day I throw caution to the wind, and live my life fearlessly.

It’s all or nothing, if someone doesn’t see me as I am than it is their eyes that cannot see clearly, not mine. I am a fairy goddess nurturing the things I care for. I am a free spirit flowing with the wind and wherever it takes me. Fear is no longer an option, it is only a restraint. I have stepped into my being and into my strength for the first time in my life.

I am here, I am present, and I am unafraid.

Never give up & Never quit fighting

Today is the first day of spring, or the spring equinox. The energy leading up to today has been exhausting to say the least. I have felt myself releasing; to which I wonder how much can really be left…..apparently a lot. I’ve felt my body, mind and soul upgrading to a new state of being and seeing. Sluggish and tried have been a way of life over the past few days, due to this upgrade. I see so many things changing and evolving within myself and within others. This is such an important time on this beautiful planet. Once we change ourselves inside, is when we can change the outside world.

What we have done to the planet, to our great mother is a disturbing reflection of how we all feel about ourselves. It’s all a reflection of how the majority feels on the inside, refusing to see the beauty that lives within us. Refusing to take care and nurture those innocent, sweet parts of ourselves. Never really satisfied or content with anyone or anything; only wanting things to make us happy and then when we have them no longer wanting them. What I don’t understand is why we think this is okay, why don’t people spend time outside anymore? How is destroying the beauty forests progress? (The world doesn’t need more houses, or more shopping malls.) Are we that ego driven to think that anything we create is more beautiful than anything mother could create? These are the kinds of things I think about. Anyways, more to the point….

Once we began to love the person within us, once we began to nurture, and take care of this beauty is when we will began to take care of our environment. If we take care of ourselves, than we will take care of nature. Everything we do is a reflection ourselves, whether we like to acknowledge that or not.  When the majority steps out of the shadows and into their own light and their own power is when we will see major things changing. (Let me tell you its coming….I can feel it. So many things have changed and been released it’s so clear we are about to step into a whole new period of being and existing) The simple truth is we need a revolution of love. A call to action for each and every one of us to love the beauty and light that is within us. We need to step into our own power and strength. Yes, there are parts of ourselves that we all don’t like to see or face but those are the parts that we need to face the most. It is the key that unlocks a whole new world, a world that has been waiting for you for your entire life. It’s the world of freedom. Free from fear, shame, pride, ego and everything you have wanted to cleanse yourself of.

You can do your part to spread love every day. Walk around with a smile on your face, if you aren’t having the best day think of something that makes you happy and watch a smile appear. It is the simplest of things but can make all the difference to someone. Say “Thank You”, show your gratitude to others. Be kind. When a negative thought comes into your mind, quickly change it to something positive. Slow down and take time to feel the warmth on the sun on your skin, to feel how unimportant all that stress, worry and drama is. Remember what is really important, put things in perspective. These are all things that help make the world a little better each day, positivity spreads like wild fire once started. You never know how many lives you can touch or change by doing these simple things; you may even end up changing your life.

 

Have a spectacular Monday everyone!! It’s a new week; there is no better time to change than the present. Never give up and never quit fighting!

Path to healing

Over the past few days I have become increasingly aware of the next step I need to take in my spiritual journey. I knew I wanted to rid myself of old thinking patterns that no longer work for me. Old belief systems that are old and worn out, and that I no longer believe to be true. Basically, getting rid of everything that no longer resonates with me. I need to find myself again, and re align with my highest potential. I knew that in knowing all of this I was on the right path, I just didn’t know how to accomplish the task. So I took to the spiritual group I am in, they are like family to me. I knew that they would understand and give me guidance and advice. Many people commented with their advice but out of all of them, only one resonated with me. She wrote, “You may need to forgive your parents as a child. I am going through the same thing, and that is what I have begun to do.” It’s like a lightbulb went off, that is exactly what I needed to do; I just knew it. I read a couple articles on this topic, and as I read it became clearer and clearer that my inner child was screaming out to me for help.

I went on YouTube to see if they had any meditation videos on this topic, and sure enough they did. I got comfortable, and begun to relax for a few minutes. Once I got settled, I started the video, took some deep breathes and relaxed further. As the mediation progressed I came to this place were all my memories of my childhood, that are linked to her pain, are all stored. I could see all these little clouds of memories, I could hear the echoes of them all around me. Until one of them stood out the most, I don’t know why this one stood out the most. Perhaps because it the newest wound, or it’s the most vivid in my mind. Whatever the reason, I entered this memory. Everything was as I remembered it expect for one part. Instead of me being an adult, I was a child. This is how I see myself when I mediate, when I dream, and when I go to my happy place. I am always a little blonde haired girl, with a white cotton dress, and no shoes. It was at this point that I realized, this is how I still see myself. I still see myself as this little girl that is broken, hurt, and sad. A little girl who just wants to be enough, accepted, and loved. So many people tell me they love me but very few actually show it. As someone who runs off emotions, I want to feel your love, anyone can say it but not everyone can make you feel it.

So here I am in this memory, with myself, I take her hand and tell her “You don’t need to be sad anymore, I am here to protect you and keep you safe. The people that inflected pain upon you shows more about them than you. There is nothing wrong with you, and you no longer need to feel that there is.” I asked her what she needs to do to heal, “I need to forgive everyone that has hurt me. You have forgiven them but I haven’t. I need to, it is time” she replied. I then tell her “You had no control over the situation, there is nothing that you could’ve done.” With a tear running down her cheek, she smiles and says “I know.” “We have control our life now, we choose what happens to us. Which is why we must forgive our parents, we cannot allow them to have control over us any longer.” She then whispers something to me, which I do not remember. I then come out of the mediation and fall right asleep.

Upon waking, I still feel some lingering sadness, which I will feel as deeply as I know how to. I may even have a beautiful release of tears. This pain was created by tears so it only seems fitting that I release it the same way.

Remember we are never really done growing and evolving, we all have traumas and pain we carry with us. Be gentle to one another, spread love, be kind, and smile. There is much beauty to be found in all of us

Be Selfish

I am home today, we left Philadelphia yesterday. Which I am glad that we did, police were out in full force due to Trump’s visit today.  The trip away was so good for me; it has been a long time since I took a trip without my husband. It was wonderful to spend time with a dear friend and explore the city. It feels wonderful to be home and spend time with my dog. He is my main man; he is the holder of my secrets, the love of my life, and my best friend. He hasn’t left my side since I’ve been home, which makes me feel so loved.

On this trip away I have realized how important it is to be selfish from time to time. We must do what makes us happy, and be around people that make us happy. People that inspire us to be better, to live outside our comfort zone and people that align with us. Taking care of yourself and your needs should come before anyone else’s. I say this as someone who has always put everyone else before herself; always putting myself last left me empty, and drained. For the first time in my life I love myself enough to say “It’s my turn”, to take care of myself and do the things that make me feel so alive. I want this year, and more years to come to be all about traveling, and writing. I may not be able to change the world, but I can change the people in my world.

Have a wonderful day everyone, go live & stay beautiful.

What a week

It has been days since I have had to just sit and write anything. Most of the week I was feeling so tried, and just exhausted. There has been some updates going on for us, and I was feeling it for sure; my body has been healing and releasing all week.  I finally feel like myself again, thank goodness. I am sure without a doubt there will be more updates to come, as this is a pretty intense time right now.

I got to spend some time with a beloved friend this week, which is always fun. We went to her friend’s house and I got to try out a light bed for the first time. A light bed has different lights on it, the color of each charka, and then the lights are placed over you so they hoover over your charkas. The lights are very bright, and colorful. I only did a 20 minute session to start, and that was enough for my first time. It took me a while to just relax and quite my mind, but once I did I got so relaxed. My arms and legs felt so heavy and I just didn’t want to move. It was an amazing feeling to have all of my charkas open at one time. Once my time was up, I was relaxed for hours after word. I just felt so light, and had no worries. I don’t even think I was thinking about anything, which was amazing in its self. Not having any sort of experience while under the light, I thought that I wouldn’t have any experience at all…I was wrong. That night my dreams were loaded with symbolism. They were the kind of dreams that feel so real you wake up and have to take a second to think “did that just happen?” then you know that it was only a dream. The dream was so real in fact that I had to ask one of my physic friends if the guy in it was a subconscious message or if there was a real spiritual connection there. Turns out it was just a subconscious message, which added even more meaning and symbolism to the dream. I am thankful the spirit guides show me all of these things; I know they talk to me all the time but I cannot hear them through all the noise. My next goal will be quieting my mind, so that I can hear. There are many times I feel so scattered, I have to reel myself back in and stay focused. I am going to go back next week for another session; I am excited to see what the spirits have in store for me.

 

We are never done learning and improving ourselves. There is always work to be done.

 sending light & love to all of you.

xo