A few years ago I got interested in my family history; I wanted to know where I came from. At that time my grandfather was still alive so I asked him everything; I knew he was my link to all the history that would be lost when he was gone. He was happy that someone was taking an interest in our family history since no one had before. My father and I took months, and months digging up every ounce of information we could find. We took trips to graveyards, to libraries, and the archives. It got to a point where we became stuck, we hit a dead end and that is where we stopped. Soon after that my grandfather passed away and completing the family history seemed like something that I could put off.
Well yesterday I went with my parents to visit my great-grandparents resting place; my mom had never been there. Visiting the graveyard has re-sparked my interest in finishing what I had started years ago. So here I am again, looking through census records and death records trying to piece the puzzle together. I’m learning a few things I never noticed before, which is always exciting. I still am at that dead end I was at before but I’m hoping that looking at everything with fresh eyes and a new perspective will help me find the information I have been searching for.
Family is an important part of our lives; they imprint so much on us at such young ages. They are a part of us, all of them, how can we know ourselves if we do not know where we come from.
Yesterday was a great day for me; I completed my first book. I am still waiting on the cover art to come back, and I need author photo but once I get those done I will be ready to publish. I will keep all of you up to date on the progress and when it will be release. I am so proud of this book; I quite literally put my heart and soul into it. It is about my spiritual journey and all things I learned along the way. I have been working on it for about 2 years, so I am thrilled it is finally ready.
I also rediscovered my love of hooping yesterday. I mostly only hooped around my waist so I was looking up some tricks to learn and fell in love all over again. It is meditative for me, something I can get lost in. I can allow my body to move and flow however it wants to. Needless to say my hands are bruised beyond belief this morning; I was working on isolation’s last night. No pain, no gain, right? I am going to try to practice more today, I just don’t know how far I will get since my hands are pretty sore.
Also, dont forget I am now offering tarot card readings. If you would like one simply go to the services section of the website.
I hope all of you have a wonderful day, find something you love & never give up…
It has been days since I have had to just sit and write anything. Most of the week I was feeling so tried, and just exhausted. There has been some updates going on for us, and I was feeling it for sure; my body has been healing and releasing all week. I finally feel like myself again, thank goodness. I am sure without a doubt there will be more updates to come, as this is a pretty intense time right now.
I got to spend some time with a beloved friend this week, which is always fun. We went to her friend’s house and I got to try out a light bed for the first time. A light bed has different lights on it, the color of each charka, and then the lights are placed over you so they hoover over your charkas. The lights are very bright, and colorful. I only did a 20 minute session to start, and that was enough for my first time. It took me a while to just relax and quite my mind, but once I did I got so relaxed. My arms and legs felt so heavy and I just didn’t want to move. It was an amazing feeling to have all of my charkas open at one time. Once my time was up, I was relaxed for hours after word. I just felt so light, and had no worries. I don’t even think I was thinking about anything, which was amazing in its self. Not having any sort of experience while under the light, I thought that I wouldn’t have any experience at all…I was wrong. That night my dreams were loaded with symbolism. They were the kind of dreams that feel so real you wake up and have to take a second to think “did that just happen?” then you know that it was only a dream. The dream was so real in fact that I had to ask one of my physic friends if the guy in it was a subconscious message or if there was a real spiritual connection there. Turns out it was just a subconscious message, which added even more meaning and symbolism to the dream. I am thankful the spirit guides show me all of these things; I know they talk to me all the time but I cannot hear them through all the noise. My next goal will be quieting my mind, so that I can hear. There are many times I feel so scattered, I have to reel myself back in and stay focused. I am going to go back next week for another session; I am excited to see what the spirits have in store for me.
We are never done learning and improving ourselves. There is always work to be done.
sending light & love to all of you.
I’ve started to read Soul Coaching by Denise Linn. After reading the first few pages it has me thinking all kinds of things. So for those of you that are unsure what soul coaching is, it is aligning your inner spiritual life with your outer life. It helps to clear away mental, emotional and physical clutter.
Who are you and who do you want to be? Do they align? For me this answer is yes, however I have not reached my full potential yet. I am getting better every day; I am better than I was yesterday and tomorrow I will be better than I was today. How’s your anger? How about your guilt, regrets? You think that you know yourself so well until someone comes along and as you questions like this. It makes you stop and examine everything. What are your beliefs? The ones that you believe down to your core, the ones you were not taught to be true but the ones you know are true.
What’s your self-esteem like? Is it in line with how you want to treat yourself? Personally, that answer is yes, to a point. I always have room for improvements, of course. We all have improvements that can be made, even if we don’t know they are there. For intense, I would like to rid myself of the little voice in my head that is so hard on myself. Always telling me I can’t do something, or what I do isn’t good enough. I have gotten better at ignoring this voice but sometimes it seeps its way in and gets to me.
The big one for me is fear; it does not align with where I want to be compared to where I am. I fear so many things of which are not important. What is important is that the fear I hold inside of myself holds me back from being the best version of myself. This is what I want to change; I want to release the fear. Fight through it and do whatever it is that I’m afraid of. So that fear can no longer hold me back from being free. I want to be like a butterfly, flying beautifully without a care in the world. Going where ever the breeze takes me, taking some time to sit on a flower and take in the view. I want to be free, to break through all the walls, through all the garbage. So I can come out on the other side, stronger and wiser than ever before. Knowing yourself is the first step to freedom, so let’s get going. There is so much to be done….