Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

Times of transformation…

On Wednesday I got one of my attunements for my reiki master class. The last time I got a reiki attunement was four years ago, when I finished level two. It took me months to feel anything from it; but this time it totally different.

This time it took a matter of hours to start feel myself being cleansed. It started with my sinuses acting up but that has now subsided. The main issues I have felt today besides being tired is my throat hurting. It hurts to the point that I have all but lost my voice, when it was fine yesterday. Thinking about this actually makes me smile in gratitude. I know that I am adjusting to the new state of being and existing and that this is a needed part of my beautiful transformation. I believe my throat is being cleansed for one of two reasons; either I need this time to be still, to be quiet with my thoughts or  it is to rid myself of the blocks in my communication so that I may easily and accurately express the ways I am feeling.

I have always had a hell of a time saying how I feel, which I have always found rather funny, since writing comes so easily to me. Everything I don’t know how to say just seamlessly pours out of my fingers with ease without thinking twice. Speaking doesn’t do most emotions justice, if something leaves me in complete awe and wonder no words can make you feel that; only energy can make you feel that. When you write you put your energy into it. You leave a little piece of yourself behind in every sentence you write.

Speaking has always been difficult for me as I often trip over my tongue, so to speak, thinking far too fast for my mouth to say how I feel. Often times I am unable to bring myself to say things out loud because than it’s real, and being real can come to a punch in the face at times. I feel everything so passionately and so deeply that every moment touches my soul in a deeply profound way.

The relationships that I have with others are all cherished, my emotions simply run so deeply. That is why this time of reflection is so important for me, this is also why I have felt the need to unplug from the world lately. To get lost in a new experience and see where it takes me; too see what I find.

Life can become so mundane and dull if we allow it to be, often looking beyond the beauty that surrounds us every day. When you see the same things everyday it becomes easy to take them for granted, to lose your appreciation for them. It can become easy to forget why you fell in love in the first place, but only if you allow yourself too.

I often move things around, removing things that no longer make my heart overflow with love. If the things in my home do not add to my happiness or to the love that resides within me, than it has no place in my home or in my heart. This is really true for life in general, if the things and people we surround ourselves with do not aid in our light, and make our hearts overflow with love than they have no purpose in our lives.

It is so simple.

Life is a beautiful work of art, at times it may be abstract and other times it may be realism, either way it is a masterpiece and moves you in some way.

 

xoxo

Journey of truth

I read an article yesterday posted by a dear friend, and it got thinking about light workers; even more so than I already had. One of the biggest misconceptions about the road to enlightenment or spirituality is that it’s easy. That it is all about light and love and nothing else. This couldn’t be further from the truth. Take it from someone who has been on her journey for several years now, this choice is not easy in anyway. When you decide to strip yourself of everything you were taught or has ever happened to you, it comes and slaps you in the face; it won’t go away until you let it go. The road to enlightenment isn’t easy, if it was there would be a lot more enlightened people.

This journey, like most of value, is painful, frustrating, ugly, dark and everything in between. Venturing onto the road of enlightenment is truly venturing into the deepest, darkest parts of yourself. This is how transformation accrues; the butterfly isn’t made in the light. The caterpillar first must spend months in the darkness to find her beauty before showing it to the world.  We, humans, are no different. Light is the place of rest, gratefulness, harmony, and love. All of which cannot be appreciated without the lessons of the dark.

As with everything, there will always be people who proclaim to be light workers or enlightened but those that are light workers don’t go around bragging or even saying that they are. Everyone knows their truths, we also know the difference between lies and truths. There will ALWAYS be people who crave attention, and will say anything to get it. I, myself, believe that is very possible that I am a light worker but that isn’t a term that I really use. I simply say I work with the light, the light lives within me, it allows me to use what has been given to me. This is not something that I go around screaming from the roof tops; this is sacred to me. It is a deep part of who I am, and anyone who knows me see that. The right people know, and the others don’t matter.

I often hear “don’t feed that negativity” but negativity is natural. Yes, I do believe that you shouldn’t feed negative energy, such as seeing animals being cruelly treated or go around with negative self-talk in your mind, or complain non-stop about everything. But the point is, it is all a part of life and in being someone aligned with the light you will always experience highs and lows; it’s like a never ending cycle really.  We need to vent, and let out all the negativity. Getting it out of our bodies in a positive way is what’s important. Harboring feelings of negativity and pushing them down, or feeling wrong for having them can be far more damaging than anything else.

What people must realize is the spiritual journey is about unbecoming everything you were conditioned to be. This is why it’s challenging, and downright suck sometimes but once you do the work, the other side of that is a brilliant feeling of euphoria, peace and love. That I can guarantee.

How was your weekend!?

This weekend was packed full of stuff to do, and people to see. On Saturday, my husband and I went to fairy fest. It was our first time going, and I was so excited; so excited in fact that I had a hard time sleeping the night before ( I felt like a little kid waiting for Christmas to come.) It’s a festival where people dress us like fairies, druids or anything really, it in a way reminded me of the renaissance fair. I felt more myself than ever in the outfit I was wearing, I had made a headband just for this occasion which I loved wearing.

It had been raining for days prior to the event so we brought an extra set of shoes to walk in the mud in, I sure am glad we thought ahead. When we got there only four wheel drive vehicles could park in the lot since people were getting stuck. We started walking into the event and all throughout the event there was so much mud it had become unsafe to walk through. They had put straw and some plywood down but they had run out.

As you walked into the event they had a bubble machine throwing out thousands of bubbles, I told my husband “If heaven is a place, it would have bubbles!” He just looked at me shook his head and smiled. Bubbles are magical in large amounts like that, they transform the energy (at least to me anyways.) I saw the lady selling hoops so I made a B line straight to her; I talked to her for a while and picked out a new hoop! I have her card somewhere in my purse; she told me she teaches classes so I am super excited. We walked around and looked at all the shops; most of them were filled with people just trying to get out of the rain. So sadly, I didn’t get to see too much of what they had because of that. I saw my friend there giving readings so we talked to her for a little bit before we left.

As we left the event we noticed that they had stopped letting people in, the field was now not able to have anyone park in it. So people had started to park along the side of the road, and at the bottoms of people’s yards; which resulted in a lot of tickets. They had to cancel the even for Sunday due to the muddy conditions. Which was a shame but I totally understand why they did that.

After we left the festival we had a family cook out at my cousin’s house but I should say I didn’t know how the event would turn out. To my surprise this was one of the nicest get together we have had in a long time. We don’t really see each other much unless someone’s passes away or gets married so it was nice to just talk and visit everyone for no real reason other than us wanting to see each other. We didn’t stay long because we had to let Norm out and it was an hour drive home. It was still very enjoyable.

On Sunday, we volunteered our time to help my friend with her March of Dimes event. It was a decent turn out despite the rainy, windy conditions. The sun did finally show herself toward the end of the event which was a nice treat. It felt good to give back, and help out a friend. I had never volunteered at an event like that before so it was a very pleasant experience. Everything was cleaned up by 3:30 so it wasn’t all day, but by the time 3:30 came around all of us were done for.

So all in all it was a lovely weekend, I got to spend time with all the people I love and cherish. Even if most of my family doesn’t understand me, that’s okay. I still love them regardless.

 

Love Always. XOXO

 

At a standstill

We are only two days into the new month and already there is much beauty to be found. The birds are singing their songs, the flowers are blooming, there is a cool breeze blowing and the sun is shining. I feel light and free, expect for one thing…..

Today as I awaken from the night of rest I find myself feeling as if I have come to the end of the road. I have not lost my faith in the universe, or the positive energies that surround me; I simply feel I am at the end of the road I’ve created for myself. When I look down at my feet I see a blacktop road with grass and flowers growing all around it. When I look behind me I see the forest from which I came, and all that I have fought through to get here. I see all the lessons, and growth that I have done while in the forest, and my time there is complete (at least for now.) When I look in front of me I see a wide open filed, with tall grass and wild flowers blowing in a gentle breeze. I am not at a cross roads, I am at a standstill.

I am at a new beginning, this chapter has come to a close and this is where a new starts. When I look out into the open field of opportunity, I see so many paths I could take, but which is right for me, I am undecided. For now, I just rest, I feel the breeze touch my face so gentle, I smell the lovely scents of the flowers, I take a moment to see how far I have come, and what still needs to be done.

It is at the moment, when I feel lost. That my since of purpose has been lost to me and I know must regain what I once saw and felt so clearly. I must reinvent myself, or shed the skin that binds me. I have out grown so much in this life but what I have really changed in the physical world, I hang out with the same people, I do the same things, and I see the same things in my home every day. So with all the growth I have done, I have not changed my surroundings, maybe this is what the new chapter will bring.

For now, I am amazed at how far I have come and who I have become. There is always work to be done, but for now I am grateful for all the lessons the forest has taught me. Without which I wouldn’t be the woman I am today. Tomorrow is another day, and another step forward. I am excited to see what this next chapter holds for me.

 

Namaste.

xoxo

New Video is Up!

This video is simple and from the heart, and decided not to talk the whole time.

I hope all of you decide to stop the endless cycle of self hate, and unworthiness.

Its time to shine your beauty upon the world

Let your self shine!

I love all of you, my mission is to uplift you & show you its never to late to change

love is always the answer and it lies within all of us.

Be the beautiful being you were meant to be

Thank you everyone, you have inspired my life

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April Full Moon

How is everyone feeling since the full moon last night? Did everyone feel the energy she gave off? How did she affect you?

For weeks pervious to the full moon I was feeling foggy, sluggish, exhausted and every bone in my body ached. I was having these bursts of anger coming seemingly out of nowhere; and over the littlest of things. I am not an angry person normally so this was very strange for me. I am usually the person that everyone goes to when they need lifted up, or just need to vent their sorrows. I am seemingly a beacon of light in cloud of darkness; this is why I am protective of my energy. And for the past few weeks I have not been that for everyone, I have been disconnected; wanted to be left alone in my own little world of haze while I undergo this transformation.

I am sure many of you know but for those that do not there are four planets in retrograde along with the full moon; it has been a dozy of a time for me and many others. I saw the effects of these magical energies even in those who are not spiritually minded. It was pretty wild to see, I understood what was happening and why I was feeling this way but for someone who doesn’t have a clue that had to of been an even rougher ride than what I experienced. I saw people getting angry for no reason, being very touchy ready to explode at any time, and just an overall short fuse. People were frustrated but didn’t know why; feeling like a cold was coming on but one never came. I smile as the observer watching all this happen around me, knowing that everything is working itself out the way it needs to.

Yesterday, the day of the full moon I had woken up with the sudden burst of energy; which was more energy than I had had in weeks. The weather could have also played a part in this since it was our first 80 degrees day this spring but it went deeper than that. Everything I had felt over the past weeks was gone, like it was never there at all. I was seeing clearer than before, filled with energy that didn’t seem to dissipate, the anger that had was once filled me was gone. I was happier, lighter and freer than ever before; I knew the first huge step in my transform was complete. I spent the day cleaning the house with the windows and doors open, to let all the fresh air in. When the evening came I prepared my full moon affirmations and all the things I wanted to release; my husband joined me for my ritual which was a nice treat. We light our white candle burned our sage and completed our ritual, as the paper burned I could feel all the energy being released and all the energy the moon had to offer me in its place. I took some deep breathes after it was completed and the candle had been put out, and it felt wonderful.

I told my husband before bed to not be surprised if he felt different in the morning or continue to release throughout the day today. In the middle of the night around 2 am I woke up hotter than hell. I was sweating bullets, had thrown all my covers off and was just lying there tossing and turning. I was unable to get comfortable or cool down, so I got the feeling something was going on beyond my control. About 25 minutes later I cooled off and fell back asleep, so I believe I had a massive release and that was my body way of letting it all go (which is what I asked for.) Funny how those things tend to work out, hence the saying “be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.” I haven’t talked to my husband yet so I am curious how the moons magic has affected him, if at all.

Today I feel better than ever, I have a sense or “feeling” of knowing that positive things are on their way. That everything I have worked so hard for is now ready to give me the fruits of my labor. The best is yet to come indeed, and it’s closer than ever.

Have a spectacular day everyone! Spread some love & some kindness to yourself & to others.

xoxo

Never give up & Never quit fighting

Today is the first day of spring, or the spring equinox. The energy leading up to today has been exhausting to say the least. I have felt myself releasing; to which I wonder how much can really be left…..apparently a lot. I’ve felt my body, mind and soul upgrading to a new state of being and seeing. Sluggish and tried have been a way of life over the past few days, due to this upgrade. I see so many things changing and evolving within myself and within others. This is such an important time on this beautiful planet. Once we change ourselves inside, is when we can change the outside world.

What we have done to the planet, to our great mother is a disturbing reflection of how we all feel about ourselves. It’s all a reflection of how the majority feels on the inside, refusing to see the beauty that lives within us. Refusing to take care and nurture those innocent, sweet parts of ourselves. Never really satisfied or content with anyone or anything; only wanting things to make us happy and then when we have them no longer wanting them. What I don’t understand is why we think this is okay, why don’t people spend time outside anymore? How is destroying the beauty forests progress? (The world doesn’t need more houses, or more shopping malls.) Are we that ego driven to think that anything we create is more beautiful than anything mother could create? These are the kinds of things I think about. Anyways, more to the point….

Once we began to love the person within us, once we began to nurture, and take care of this beauty is when we will began to take care of our environment. If we take care of ourselves, than we will take care of nature. Everything we do is a reflection ourselves, whether we like to acknowledge that or not.  When the majority steps out of the shadows and into their own light and their own power is when we will see major things changing. (Let me tell you its coming….I can feel it. So many things have changed and been released it’s so clear we are about to step into a whole new period of being and existing) The simple truth is we need a revolution of love. A call to action for each and every one of us to love the beauty and light that is within us. We need to step into our own power and strength. Yes, there are parts of ourselves that we all don’t like to see or face but those are the parts that we need to face the most. It is the key that unlocks a whole new world, a world that has been waiting for you for your entire life. It’s the world of freedom. Free from fear, shame, pride, ego and everything you have wanted to cleanse yourself of.

You can do your part to spread love every day. Walk around with a smile on your face, if you aren’t having the best day think of something that makes you happy and watch a smile appear. It is the simplest of things but can make all the difference to someone. Say “Thank You”, show your gratitude to others. Be kind. When a negative thought comes into your mind, quickly change it to something positive. Slow down and take time to feel the warmth on the sun on your skin, to feel how unimportant all that stress, worry and drama is. Remember what is really important, put things in perspective. These are all things that help make the world a little better each day, positivity spreads like wild fire once started. You never know how many lives you can touch or change by doing these simple things; you may even end up changing your life.

 

Have a spectacular Monday everyone!! It’s a new week; there is no better time to change than the present. Never give up and never quit fighting!

Need feedback form you

Hi Everyone!

I need some feedback from all of you. I have had the idea of starting a YouTube channel to spend more positivity and love.

What are you guys thoughts on this? What type of things would you love to see/watch?

All ideas and feedback welcome, I want to hear from all of you!

Thank you, I couldn’t of gotten this far without all of your support.

Love,

Amanda

 

 

Brake Free from fear

Over the weekend I was talking to my husband about not making back up plans for your back up plans. How you should put everything you have into one thing, funnel everything you have into it. Water it with love and energy and watch it grow. It’s so easy to get scattered, and be all over the place with a million ideas. You must stay focused on one thing at a time, learn the craft, practice, and get better. No one is perfect straight out of the gate; it takes time and a commitment.

Life is all about committing to things; be it a person or something you love. It’s all about getting better, growing and learning. Sometimes having no safety net is the best thing for you; it forces you to put everything you have into making whatever it is. All in, all or nothing, if this doesn’t work then I will figure it out but for now this is all I have. That is how greatness is achieved, that is how you become all that you can be. Pushing yourself beyond what you believe you’re capable of. There was a time I didn’t think I could run for one minute and then over time I ran for ten minutes! I never thought I would be able to do that but I took my time, pushing myself a little each day and I made it there.

Those are the kinds of things we are all capable of, if we only pushed ourselves harder and believed in ourselves 1000%. No doubts, No fear only faith and believing in how capable you truly are. We can do anything we set our minds to; it is only ourselves that hold us back from creating the life we want.

 

Brake FREE, be the CHANGE you wish to see