New Experiences

In keeping with my theme this year of new experiences outside of my comfort zone, with some friends, and my husband, we went to the rage and shot shotguns. It was my first experience ever firing a weapon, not to mention shoot clay’s.

We got on the bus that drives you down into the woods where you start, and on the ride down I was getting nervous. I was unsure if I would enjoy my time. I did know that I would either love it or hate it; that there would be no in between. We got out to the first set up, I watched everyone go before me, and then it was my turn. My friend showed me how to load it, cock it, aim, and use it.  He gave me my shells; I got up to the post and begin to load it.  I was sure to put the shotgun in the correct place, aim as best as I could, and shoot. Upon me finishing my round, I wasn’t taken by surprise by the force it has, or the kick back it has. I felt comfortable, and in control.

Even though the clays were bright orange, often times it was hard to me to see them. That was the hardest part of my first day; I tried to aim as best as I could. As went through more and more different set ups, I began to enjoy it more and more. Throughout the day, I got more comfortable with the shotgun, and starting getting used to aiming for clays. At the end of the day, I ended up hitting 2 clays, which I am pretty excited about. I thought it was a decent number for my first time. On the bus ride back to the car everyone talked about how well they had done, and how much fun it was.  I will tell you by the end of the day, and even now I loved doing it. It was so much fun, and something I wouldn’t normally do. It was nice to enjoy time outdoors, with friends, learning something new.

This is why it is so important to get out of your comfort zone, and live a little. It’s the only way you find new parts of yourself that you never knew were there before; it is how you grow and how you find out what you like and what you don’t. Living is the reason we are alive, so don’t sit around wasting it. Be present in the moment, put your cell phone away and live in each moment; it’s the only way to enjoy each moment


Be Selfish

I am home today, we left Philadelphia yesterday. Which I am glad that we did, police were out in full force due to Trump’s visit today.  The trip away was so good for me; it has been a long time since I took a trip without my husband. It was wonderful to spend time with a dear friend and explore the city. It feels wonderful to be home and spend time with my dog. He is my main man; he is the holder of my secrets, the love of my life, and my best friend. He hasn’t left my side since I’ve been home, which makes me feel so loved.

On this trip away I have realized how important it is to be selfish from time to time. We must do what makes us happy, and be around people that make us happy. People that inspire us to be better, to live outside our comfort zone and people that align with us. Taking care of yourself and your needs should come before anyone else’s. I say this as someone who has always put everyone else before herself; always putting myself last left me empty, and drained. For the first time in my life I love myself enough to say “It’s my turn”, to take care of myself and do the things that make me feel so alive. I want this year, and more years to come to be all about traveling, and writing. I may not be able to change the world, but I can change the people in my world.

Have a wonderful day everyone, go live & stay beautiful.

Pescatarian lifestyle

Around Christmas time I decided that I would do something for myself. Something that I have always wanted to do but never did out of fear of what others would say. I decided that I would enjoy the pescatarian lifestyle; which simply means that I would only eat fish and seafood. I haven’t had any meat since Christmas day, and I have felt so much better as a result. I have felt lighter, free, and just at peace. I feel as if my energy is now my own; when I would eat meat I would feel everything that animal went through and it messed with my energy. Now that just doesn’t happen, and it feels amazing. Most of all, I feel proud of myself to finally get out of my own way. To do something I have always wanted to do, and stick with it.

When I first told my husband the plans I had for myself, he freaked out a little bit. I told him “I am doing this for me and me only. I am not going to make you stop eating meat or judge you because you do. This is something that I need to do for me. It’s that simple.” He then smiled and understood, he said “I will support you fully in anything that you do. Dinners will be a little more challenging but we will work around that.” I thanked him for understanding; I did not need his support but it was very comforting knowing that I had it.

Since then I have told many other people about my lifestyle change, and to my surprise people get really angry or make a big deal about it. It isn’t a big deal that people don’t enough vegetables but since I’ve stopped eating me it’s the end of the world. When they act like this all I see is fear; fear of not understanding and fear of change. I feel a sense of sadness for these people; they are missing out on so much of life. Don’t let fear stop you, don’t like other people stop you. Do what you need to do for YOU, screw everyone else. People don’t want you to change because they are afraid of changing themselves; their fear is not yours so don’t own it. This year I will not let fear get in my way, I will forge my own path; I will change and be happy. I have told countless people “You do not need to like it, you don’t even have to understand it but you will respect it. If you don’t respect me and my choices, than I will leave.” This statement alone has thrown off many people, I guess me standing up for myself takes them by surprise.

Over the past year, I have seen a change in most of my views that I was taught to believe growing up. This happening has made me reset how I see the world, the people in it, everything. Since this happened I have not stood as strongly as I should when talking to others about what I believe to be true; my beliefs never stray I just am not as vocal about them. I am a lover not a fighter, I do not like to debate or argue so I often let people talk at me until they are finished. Well that will change this year, people will hear what I have to say about things. More than ever I feel that fear being purged from within me. It has no place in my life; it only shows me that I am on the right path.

2017 is the year of new beginnings and change and that is exactly what will happen. This is the year I will work to make all my dreams come true, I will have everything I need and will gain so much. There is a new person I am headed to becoming, one filled with more love and understanding. A strong warrior goddess who lets passion and love drive her. I have never been so excited to embody her.

Tuesday Adventures

Since all the holiday activities have come to a close; my husband and I decided to take a road trip with some friends. It was a wonderful day full of firsts for me.

We took about a two hour drive to Yuengling brewery, which happens to be one of my favorite go to beers and America’s oldest brewery. When we got there you could tell it was an old town; you could almost in vision horse and buggy’s driving on the streets and woman in hoop dresses. The town is built on the side of a mountain; the streets are narrow and tight. When we got to Yuengling, we walked around the gift shop and signed up for the tour. They had a small museum in the back of the way they used to brew beer and old photos, it was very interesting. The gift shop and museum was in the old ice cream parlor across the street from the actually brewery.

The tour began in the basement of the brewery; it smelled damp and musty like any typical basement. She talked about history of the brewery, and how they used to keg beer. Then we walked into the lager caves, which were incredible. I cannot believe people dug these tunnels out by hand, I can see why it took they 10 years. We went to all parts of the brewery which was awesome to see; the tour was about an hour long. She covered so much information I just wish that she had told us more about prohibition. They started to make ice cream while prohibition was law, but I heard some people saying that the ice cream was only a front and they continued to brew beer in secret, I don’t know if there is any fact to that or not. At the end of the tour we had some samples, and walked around the gift shop some more.

While we were up that way, we decided to visit Centralia. It is a ghost town since a mine fire started in the 1962. The town only has about 7 people remain in the town, and all of the other houses and building have been torn down and removed. There are no signs saying you are there, it is a town that doesn’t exist, and even the zip code has been taken away. Driving through what used to be neighborhoods was kind of creepy. You saw stop sings, what remained of sidewalks, and a few chain link yard fences but that’s it. Everything else was gone, if you didn’t know it used to be a town, they would drive through it will no thought. Nature has pretty much taken over everything, expect the roads (but even they are not in the best condition).

There is an old part of the highway that had been closed off due to the mine fire, this is now called graffiti highway. It is about a mile stretch of highway that is covered in graffiti, and as you go down the highway toward the end of it, you will notice the ground beginning to crack. The fire had changed the landscape of the road, which is why they closed it off. I guess they got sick of repairing it. It was fun to ride on an abandoned highway, and just see all the things people paint there.

After spending sometime there, we left and drove around. Since this place was new to all of us we just wanted to drive around. We ended up finding an off roading trail; so my husband and I hopped into our friend’s jeep and took off. It was muddy since it had rained that morning, so we had a lot of fun playing in the mud and driving up the mountain. The trails began to get to narrow for our liking so we decided to come back down the mountain. There were people on four wheelers flying around, having a good time. We returned to our car, and decided we needed to get some food. So we ended the day with beer and pizza.

I had never been off roading before and it was so fun. I can totally see why people do it; I just would never want to drive. I am perfectly happy being a passenger. I have never really been one for adventure but I find it so attractive now. Perhaps that is part of my growth and development, to push myself. To break free of the safety box I have created, to simply live. I still feel so alive today; I am ready to break down more walls. 2017 is going to be a huge year full of love, change and new beginnings. I just can’t wait to see what the new year brings, I am so excited. There are so many things I want to achieve in the new year, but that is a blog for another day.

Find your adventure, explore new places and have fun. Spend time with people you vibe with, that make you feel alive and forget the rest. Be happy, be free and remember to smile. I send my love to all of you. xo

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