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Shifting

I can see the shift happening all around me; even in those that who are not “spiritual” or are diligent in self-reflection. I am sure I have had this before, it is such a powerful time right now. The full moon brought massive release and new beginnings; it also opened the lion’s gate portal which has only amplified things for us.

When I did my full moon ritual several days ago, I made my husband part take, which I often leave optional for him. This moon, however, I didn’t give him the option; he wrote down everything he wanted to get rid of and we started the ritual. The full moon ritual is always a cleansing time for me but this moon was much more intense than times before, stripping every unwanted, unneeded part of me away so that only the raw truth could shine through. I must say, it was a bit overwhelming; it lead me to look into the deepest, darkest parts of myself. Which has been rather cleansing and has given me a sense of renewal. What the full moon, the lion’s gate, and the universe has given me is a blank slate; something I was told months ago in a tarot card reading. I had felt the blank slate in small bits, here and there, seeing it in my mediations and dreams but now, I feel all of it. I can sense it, feel it and practically touch it. Along with it I see a huge transformation on the horizon for all of us; we will not leave this month the same as we entered it. That I know for sure.

As for my husband, I see him evolving and growing in ways that I always knew he could but never took the time too. The full moon has helped him on a level I don’t think he anticipated. I see all his anger and worry being washed away but with it a sensitive state has settled in its place. I have told him to look deeper into that, as there is a reason why that has come to surface. I know that I am not the most sensitive person when it comes to feelings of others. I tell people how I feel, spew it all out and I feel better and am done with it. It is the true nature of a Sagittarius. I do not take the feelings of others into account, it is really only about me. So his sensitivity has been a deal of work for both of us, and perhaps that is why it has settled in. We both need to work on it together.

A lot of old stuff is being trudged up from our past so that it can be removed, I have noticed most people struggling with this, fighting it every bit of the way. Either not understanding what is happening, brushing it off, or most commonly pushing it down hoping that it will go away somehow. This is the time of self-reflection, the time of releasing old traumas, and moving away from patterns of being that no longer serve us. The time is now, the time is here for growth, expansion, and evolving. We cannot stay the same any longer, the universe and our great mother demands more of us; and they always get their way.

Perspective

As I was writing in my journal this morning, I was guided to pick a single card from my fairy deck. This card would represent where I, and the world are currently at in this process of spiritual ascension….

6 of Autumn

The autumn season replaces coins in traditional tarot, and is the element of earth.

Meaning:
The good you do come back to you
Replaying debts
Balance in giving and receiving
Providing what is truly needed
Unexpected inflow of money

I must say this truly is the perfect card for the current time, at least for me.

I have always said life is about perspective. But perspective means nothing if it doesn’t change, grow and evolve.

As this time has been impactful for all us, for me, it has been a time a deep gratitude and kindness. Kindness to others, but mostly to myself. In this time of transformation alot of my darkness has surrounded me; to make me stronger and grow more than I thought I could. This darkness pushes me, driving me to the best soul I can be. This is where i found my gratitude; having these out of body experiences have allowed me to see beyond my eyes. It allows me too see just how truly incredible the human body is; by simply thinking of moving your hand…it moves. Incredible.

I have gained a entirely new, beautiful, grateful perspective of life; body, mind, and soul. And just how beautiful it is when they all align in a state of peace, comfort and love.

xo

Find your identity

I see on social media everywhere how people act  when they are in relationship with someone, that person becomes their world. They seem to lose their identity in the other person, when I see this I often wonder why people let this happen. This is why it becomes so difficult to leave negative relationships; you start to think “Who am I without them?” and we are often left with the answer being “Nothing.” But why!? It doesn’t have to be this way, and what does it accomplish for us? Putting everything in another person’s hands, more often than not, nothing good can come from it.

Relationships are supposed to enhance our lives, not become them. We are meant to have our own lives with our own goals and accomplishments; to be independent in the things we do. So then when we come together we can enrich each other’s lives. To be happy with yourself and in your life, can only bring more happiness into the relationship you share with another. We are meant to have our hobbies, passions, and jobs. We are meant to spend time apart so that we can appreciate the time spend together. We’re meant to expand our partner’s view of the world by allowing them to step into our world; by doing things that we wouldn’t ordinarily do.

I love my husband, he is one of the most important people in my life, but if I had to spend every moment with him I would go crazy! I need time away from him, to do the things that I love. I need time for myself, by myself. I feel that, that is one of the most important parts of a healthy relationship. I could be all wrong but this is what has worked so well for me. My whole point is don’t lose yourself when you’re in a relationship, all you truly have is yourself, own t and love it.

Another way out…

I think I may have went over this topic before but I feel the need to speak out about it once again…..

Depression is a cruel, ugly monster. It starts out small, and seemingly meaningless ways but eventually grows bigger and digs its roots deeper over time. Leaving is feeling that we are alone, that there is no way out, and we will feel like that forever. I am here to tell you that depression is a liar!!

You are NOT alone, I know that it may seem this way but I can guarantee you that someone you know is dealing with the same things that you are, they just don’t talk about it. We see all the filters on Instagram and Social media as a whole, we are so good at adding a “happy” filter that it only leave us more drained and more depressed. We are not robots, we have emotions for a reason. We need truth, realness and authenticity; we need to feel that we are not alone. Talk to someone you trust about the ways your feeling, you may be surprised to know they are going through the same or similar things that you are.

There is always a way out, you have to find it. Fight those negative voices in your head; they have never served you well in the first place. Replace them with positive thoughts, ones that make you smile or laugh. Laughter is the best medicine, it can make you feel happy even when you’re not. Forever is a long time, don’t let a passing storm of depression take up space in your beautiful blue sky. Don’t give into it, fight it!

Look within yourself, see what is missing. Love yourself, give yourself the love and kindness you easily give to others, you are just as deserving as they are of love and happiness. Forgive yourself for the past, and stop worrying about the future. Be in the present, this is the only time you will ever be this old. This is the only time you can make memories, the only time you can feel alive!

Please know that suicide is not the answer, I know that it may feel like it but it isn’t. You have so many lives left to touch, and to touch yours. Talk to someone about the ways your feeling, reach out. We all live in a world were social media rules all, we wait for nothing and judge everything and everyone; and have no patience.  This is a society of lies and falsities.  It may seem like the end of the world when your peers do not accept you, or when you don’t fit in.

There were many times I didn’t have any friends at all, I would go to school and come home. It was a bummer that I wasn’t experiencing the same things as all the other kids in school but I also didn’t want to fit in if it meant I had to fake everything about myself. High school is not the best time of your life, it is only the beginning of it. I will be 30 this year, and the best times of my life have only begun. So please, don’t feel that life won’t get better because it will! Remember when someone calls you names or whatever, it says more about them than you.

You are beautiful, you are strong, and you are light. Love who you are, the good and the bad. Love all of you, that is where your power lies and once you’ve found that you will be a unstoppable force to reckoned with.

 

Xoxo

 

p.s.- Sorry to my absence I have wonderful news I want to share with all of you! Due to all the love we have spread through my blog and Instagram I have decided to open a boutique filled with things that bring me joy and love. Spreading of love, and positive vibes for everyone. The shop will be opening soon, if anyone would like to join I will leave a link below. ❤

https://www.facebook.com/groups/1085232378279355/

Feel like the day

I feel a lot like the day today. Which may sounds weird, or further validate that I control the weather. Either way I am feeling just like this….I am a brilliant blue sky, hidden by passing bursts of fear, worry and sadness. There are moments when the light breaks through, and my is it wonderful. Then the clouds come around again. Its not chaotic, but rather still and very much in the moment. Present and alive. I dont worry of the clouds that mask my light, I know like everything else these clouds will too pass. Allowing me to beam at full capacity once again.

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Awoke to a New

This morning I awoke feeling different in some way, like somehow overnight I was transformed into something new. I awoke not remembering my dreams; which is rather unusual for me. I knew that I slept hard because I don’t remember waking at all throughout the night, I didn’t even hear my husband wake up to leave for work.

As I lay there in bed, its like I am opening my eyes and seeing everything for the first time. Even though I have seen my room about a million times, something about the way I was seeing felt different, and new. I lay there quiet, and still. Not one thought in my mind, I only existed in the present moment. I feel at peace, light and free which was quite blissful.

There is a part of my mind that wants to get loud, who enjoys the chaos of worrying, and being fearful of everything but then there is the majority of myself that says “Okay, I am still here. Let’s take a deep breathe so we remember we are alive and that is simply brilliant.” All the worry and fear washes away with each breathe. Then I start to remember my dream, seemingly out of nowhere.

In my mind I start to see a painting with a stunning gold frame around it. As the painting gets closer and closer, I can see that it is my dream. There I was floating in mid- air, almost as if I was sleeping. There is a dark cloud coming toward me, it intends on stealing my light. Once the cloud of darkness gets close enough, it surrounds me. It reaches out to touch me, and just as it does a boom of this brilliant white light shoots out of me. Transforming the cloud of darkness into light. Erasing any ounce of darkness that once dwelled with in it.

Needless to say, I am experiencing a growth of some sort at the moment. With so many events happening in August I know it will definitely bring about many things, one of which I feel to be a HUGE shift toward the light. With the new moon (last night) in Leo, and this being the birthday of Leo’s everywhere there is much going on. I am thrilled to see what changelings and what rewards this upcoming month has in store for all of us.

I will leave you with this quote that popped in my head

“The light is where I celebrate, the darkness is where I find myself…”

 

Think about it

 

xoxo

Journey of truth

I read an article yesterday posted by a dear friend, and it got thinking about light workers; even more so than I already had. One of the biggest misconceptions about the road to enlightenment or spirituality is that it’s easy. That it is all about light and love and nothing else. This couldn’t be further from the truth. Take it from someone who has been on her journey for several years now, this choice is not easy in anyway. When you decide to strip yourself of everything you were taught or has ever happened to you, it comes and slaps you in the face; it won’t go away until you let it go. The road to enlightenment isn’t easy, if it was there would be a lot more enlightened people.

This journey, like most of value, is painful, frustrating, ugly, dark and everything in between. Venturing onto the road of enlightenment is truly venturing into the deepest, darkest parts of yourself. This is how transformation accrues; the butterfly isn’t made in the light. The caterpillar first must spend months in the darkness to find her beauty before showing it to the world.  We, humans, are no different. Light is the place of rest, gratefulness, harmony, and love. All of which cannot be appreciated without the lessons of the dark.

As with everything, there will always be people who proclaim to be light workers or enlightened but those that are light workers don’t go around bragging or even saying that they are. Everyone knows their truths, we also know the difference between lies and truths. There will ALWAYS be people who crave attention, and will say anything to get it. I, myself, believe that is very possible that I am a light worker but that isn’t a term that I really use. I simply say I work with the light, the light lives within me, it allows me to use what has been given to me. This is not something that I go around screaming from the roof tops; this is sacred to me. It is a deep part of who I am, and anyone who knows me see that. The right people know, and the others don’t matter.

I often hear “don’t feed that negativity” but negativity is natural. Yes, I do believe that you shouldn’t feed negative energy, such as seeing animals being cruelly treated or go around with negative self-talk in your mind, or complain non-stop about everything. But the point is, it is all a part of life and in being someone aligned with the light you will always experience highs and lows; it’s like a never ending cycle really.  We need to vent, and let out all the negativity. Getting it out of our bodies in a positive way is what’s important. Harboring feelings of negativity and pushing them down, or feeling wrong for having them can be far more damaging than anything else.

What people must realize is the spiritual journey is about unbecoming everything you were conditioned to be. This is why it’s challenging, and downright suck sometimes but once you do the work, the other side of that is a brilliant feeling of euphoria, peace and love. That I can guarantee.