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Take time to be still

Today I drove out to visit with my grandmother. This is something that I do as often as I can; as her energy can still be felt at her resting place. Some of you may think that it is “strange” to hang out in a graveyard for an hour or more at a time but for me it is recharging.

My grandmother has always been a driving force in my life, even when she was alive. She taught me many things about life and what kind of human you should be. Just because she has transitioned into her true form doesn’t mean it all just disappears.

Visiting her is my way of saying “Thank You”, it’s my way of reconnecting with her. Feeling her loving arms wrap around me, it is a beautiful reminder that the ones we love are never too far away from us. It is my way of slowing down and being present. I love the stillness, feeling the sun on my skin and the cool breeze touching my face, the quiet, I enjoy it all.

It’s so rare that we slow down and enjoy the day, or enjoy the moment as it comes. Moments pass us by so quickly, we have to enjoy them when we can. Visiting grandma is where I am find so much gratitude within myself, where I give back to mother earth. Giving her the love she so freely gives to us.

Enjoying the present is one of the best parts of living. The feeling of calmness cannot be compared to anything, it is peace in its truest form.  Take time for yourself to enjoy the little things in life, they are the best parts of life.

 

xo

Exciting News!!!

I wanted to share some exciting news with all of you!

I have been working on writing a book Open Yourself, Embrace Yourself for 3 years now.  When I started to write I didn’t think it was a book, until I put them all together. It is a beautiful work of art that I am so extremely proud of. I have poured my heart and soul into those pages, and I believe it shows. The art I had created by a friend, even the cover hold so much deep meaning for me.

My book is all about my journey, where I started and where I am now. All the lessons that got me there, and all the things I learned along the way.  I am human just like everyone else, and I want everyone to see that when you make a commitment to yourself amazing things start to happen.

I wish to inspire all of you who have not taken your journey, those who have just begun, and those who have already. This book is a part of me, and I wanted to share my heart with all of you.

Open Yourself, Embrace Yourself is available on Amazon. (Link in Bio)

It is available in paperback & for the kindle

 

I hope all of you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it.

 

xo

 

 

 

Death & Rebirth

Over the past few weeks I have been going through quite a transformation; just as everyone else has. I feel as if I have just awoken from a long nap. I have done a lot of dying lately, turning to ash so that I may be reborn. More myself than ever before, with so much more love to bring to myself and the world. When you transform the way I have chosen, when you build the fire so big you can’t take the heat that is when true beauty is created. You allow yourself to die in a way, there is no past, not that matters anyways. There is only now, and what lies ahead.

In the death and rebirth of myself I have found so many treasures within. The things that always made me different from everyone, the things that always made me stand out, even when I wanted to hide. All of those things shine so brightly within me now.

Anyone can do what I have done. You simply have to be willing. Be willing to do the work. Take the time. Embrace change. Let go. Trust. Relax.

There are so many people gunning for you to be who you were meant to be, you just have to gunning for you too. Don’t ever give up on yourself. It is never too late.

 

xo

 

 

Its time to look within

I feel pulled to write about the happenings that took place in Las Vegas. There are so many views from others but the one I have I haven’t seen said.

I just want to start out by saying that this is something that should have never happened, it is a loss that is felt by so many. My love goes out to the families that were affected by what happened. I will never understand acts of such darkness.

I want to start out by saying I believe that no one should be able to have an automatic weapon, there is simply no need for it.

I have heard many people say there needs to be more gun laws, the truth (at least mine) is that none of that matters, none of that will make any difference what so ever. People will always find a way to get a gun if they really want one.

I believe the real issue here is how unhappy, and unsatisfied Americans are. What we need to do is stop fighting with each other and unite as one. We need to talk more about mental health, to get to the root of the problem and not just throw pills at people. We need to understand that all the money in the world won’t make you happy, if you are not first happy with yourself.

We need to be taught how to love ourselves, and why that is so important.  We need to stop comparing ourselves to the people we see in the media. We need to listen to our intuition more, and everyone else less. We need to find happiness in our lives, we need fulfillment, joy and love.

This is a time when we need to look within. So within, so without. How you feel about yourself, will always be what reflected back to you.

Find out who you are, find out what makes you happy, discover what makes you come alive. Love yourself. Be kind, show compassion. Stop judging yourself, and everyone around you. Be grateful for the things you have, and tell those you love how much they mean to you.

Love is the answer, to every question. Spread love everywhere you go.

xo

Higher Purpose

I am so amazed by the time we are currently in; there is so many wonderful transformations happening in so many people. We are all (most of us at least) are beginning to open like a beautiful flower catching the rays of the sun. Finally ready to show and share our beauty with the world; to stand out from a field of weeds.

Yesterday, I had a light bed session; for those that do not know what a light bed is, it is a 7 different colored lights that coordinate to each charka. Attached to the light is crystals, so when the light comes through the crystals it aligns your charkas. It’s is basically a faster version of reiki, without having someone in the room with you (at least not in the physical).

I asked for a 20 minute as I thought that was all I needed, well Pamela ended up keeping in there for an hour; I guess spirit had other plans for me.  Needless to say, that is why I had all the vision and experiences that I did. Upon first laying down, and getting the light bed situated, I was relaxed and expected nothing.

That is one thing I have learned about energy work, and really life in general. Expect nothing and you can never be disappointed. Expect nothing and you will gain so much more. That was a tough lesson for me to learn, but here we are; and I finally get it! Haha.

Anyways back to the light bed, once everything was in place, and I was alone I instantly left my body. I saw vision of my grandmother, she had so many things to tell me and to show me. For the first few minutes I cried my eyes out, I was pouring my heart out to someone and everything just came out like a tidal wave of emotions. It was a very beautiful, touching moment for me (& I am sure it was just as touching for the other person).

After that was done, I started to focus on the blue flashing light (which is one of the light colors), when I saw a black, human shaped figure walk out of it. Spirit told me that it was chosen. That my purpose here is to help others see the depth in life, that we are connected and that love is the most powerful tool we have. That through my books, my blog and any other endeavors I do this will be successful because people will always be drawn to my light, and to my love. Spirit also told me that it is my time to spread love, in the times of darkness. Humans forget how easily they fall into the trap of darkness, it is so easy to hate someone who has wronged you, or hurt you but love is hard. It is hard to understand why someone has sent you mistreatment. Which is mostly them projecting how they feel about themselves onto you, in my experience acts of hatred, violence and anything negative is a silent cry for help or for love.

Spirit also told me “Money is meaningless, it is the root to our destruction” Which to be honest, I totally agree with. Money is one of the most meaningless things we have in this world. People hold so much value to it which is such nonsense. Judging someone by how much money they make, or how much is in their bank account is a wonderful way to miss out on the beautiful, meaningful parts of life.

Grandma reminded me to be easy on myself, to continue listening to myself and finding the power that comes with it. Love who I am, and do what makes my soul shine. It was a beautiful reminder that actually brought me to tears. Let’s be honest, every time I see or feel grandma I cry. The love I have for her is deeper than words can even express.

While I was out of my body, I felt energy go into my body, it was tingling and cold but so wonderful. This happened twice, as I assume my body needed some sort of healing done to it. Spirit often likes to get us out of the way whenever they can, since we often get in our own way and block what needs healed.

Spirit also showed me a glimpse of my future, which made me cry…again. I am easily moved to tears, especially when something is so beautiful and surrounded by love. I am not going to go into detail with this as it is personal but it was everything I could ever ask for, and everything I have ever wanted. Truly a divine love sent from the universe.

After seeing that spirit told me that everything is working out in divine timing, to hold space for this person as they are going through the same things as I am. (Only they don’t understand it and feel super crazy and confused by it all. Which to be fair, I am too but at least I kinda get it. Haha). To keep working on mending the broken pieces of myself, keep loving myself, keep listening and always be thankful. Everything will come to you sooner than you know, just be patient.

So all in all I was actually given answers, instead of more question. Thanks universe, it isn’t often that this happens, so I will take it. Haha.

I have known that turning 30 will be a huge turning point for me, where I used to hate turning 30, I now embrace it. My 20’s have been a decade of heart break, love, letting go, moving on, finding myself and re finding myself. Everything we go through has a higher purpose, it may not seem like it while we are going through situations but everything we go through is in our best interest.

Life is about finding the good in the bad, seeing the positive side of things makes life a little easier.  Let things flow, fighting them only makes them more difficult. Smile, laugh as often as you can, and never take yourself seriously.

 

xoxo

Transformation has begun

The past few weeks have been pretty crazy for me. The effects of the attunement are starting to settle down; and I am starting to understand the newness that I so strongly feel. It is hard for things to stay the same when so much has changed within you.

I have been slowly but surely getting rid of more and more stuff; getting rid of all the things I don’t love and bring no joy to my life. It only makes sense since I have been purging so much within myself; getting rid of all those things that no longer serve me. I am finally ready to reach my highest potential and all that comes along with it.

This attunement has shown me that I NEED to start trusting myself, every answer to every question is within me. Along with trusting myself, I need to trust in my abilities, whatever they are. They have been starting to show themselves more and more, I often feel as if I am going crazy but I know that it is all just an adjustment period.

I have entered a part of my life where I am finally the most important thing to me. It’s time to give myself all the love, I give so freely to others. This started almost a year ago when I stopped eating meat, something I had always wanted to go but never had the courage to do. And when I started going by Faye, everything began to change, I just didn’t notice it. Going by a name that actually fit me and was fitting to all the spiritual growth I have undergone. Now comes the time where I start taking care of my body even more, and start working out again. After I take a walk, hit the punching bag, or hula hoop it makes me feel so wonderful about myself; and I need more of that. I owe it to myself.

I am weeks away from my book being published and starting an entirely new chapter of my life; one I have waiting years for. I have re-written, added, and taken out parts of my book but it’s finally ready. It is perfect. A wonderful friend of mine completed my cover so I am just waiting for it to arrive in the mail. I am so excited to see where this part of my life takes me, it is quite literally a part of my soul written on paper for the world to read.

What is the point of having experiences if you cannot share them. I am a firm believer of using your experiences to inspire and empower others. Let your vulnerability shine through, people can pick up on the realness you have to offer; they can see the beauty that shines in a heart of truth.

I don’t know where this road where lead me but I do know it will somewhere more beautiful than I could ever imagine.

 

xo

Everything is connected

I was talking to a friend the other day about all the things that are going on. She a connection that I never thought of; one that I find insanely fascinating. The flooding, hurricanes, wildfires, and earthquakes; they are the elemental’s. Earth, Air, Fire, and Water….isn’t that a crazy connection!? So it makes me think, where does spirit come into play? What is mother earth trying to tell us?

There is a message to all that is going on, its just hard to say what it is. All that we can do for now is give love to our great mother and to send love out into the world. We need love most of all now, more than ever.

It is time for humanity to step into love, and into the age of understanding. We are better than we’ve been acting, we are better than all this. We are beings of love, it is the only truth, it is the only answer.

Hold love within yourself, for yourself, so that you can bring that into the world.

 

xoxo

Times of transformation…

On Wednesday I got one of my attunements for my reiki master class. The last time I got a reiki attunement was four years ago, when I finished level two. It took me months to feel anything from it; but this time it totally different.

This time it took a matter of hours to start feel myself being cleansed. It started with my sinuses acting up but that has now subsided. The main issues I have felt today besides being tired is my throat hurting. It hurts to the point that I have all but lost my voice, when it was fine yesterday. Thinking about this actually makes me smile in gratitude. I know that I am adjusting to the new state of being and existing and that this is a needed part of my beautiful transformation. I believe my throat is being cleansed for one of two reasons; either I need this time to be still, to be quiet with my thoughts or  it is to rid myself of the blocks in my communication so that I may easily and accurately express the ways I am feeling.

I have always had a hell of a time saying how I feel, which I have always found rather funny, since writing comes so easily to me. Everything I don’t know how to say just seamlessly pours out of my fingers with ease without thinking twice. Speaking doesn’t do most emotions justice, if something leaves me in complete awe and wonder no words can make you feel that; only energy can make you feel that. When you write you put your energy into it. You leave a little piece of yourself behind in every sentence you write.

Speaking has always been difficult for me as I often trip over my tongue, so to speak, thinking far too fast for my mouth to say how I feel. Often times I am unable to bring myself to say things out loud because than it’s real, and being real can come to a punch in the face at times. I feel everything so passionately and so deeply that every moment touches my soul in a deeply profound way.

The relationships that I have with others are all cherished, my emotions simply run so deeply. That is why this time of reflection is so important for me, this is also why I have felt the need to unplug from the world lately. To get lost in a new experience and see where it takes me; too see what I find.

Life can become so mundane and dull if we allow it to be, often looking beyond the beauty that surrounds us every day. When you see the same things everyday it becomes easy to take them for granted, to lose your appreciation for them. It can become easy to forget why you fell in love in the first place, but only if you allow yourself too.

I often move things around, removing things that no longer make my heart overflow with love. If the things in my home do not add to my happiness or to the love that resides within me, than it has no place in my home or in my heart. This is really true for life in general, if the things and people we surround ourselves with do not aid in our light, and make our hearts overflow with love than they have no purpose in our lives.

It is so simple.

Life is a beautiful work of art, at times it may be abstract and other times it may be realism, either way it is a masterpiece and moves you in some way.

 

xoxo

We are all connected

I know it isn’t often that I share from my journal but this, this is just too perfect not to share…..

“….There are so many times I see my spirit wolf, Sheba. In my dreams she shows me the freedom I once had, when I too was a wolf. It is in her that I learned the power of the dark. How, if you let it, it can totally transform every ounce of your being. It is in the darkness where you find your strength, courage, wisdom, growth and truth. This is nothing to fear, but to be embraced. We cannot have darkness without light, for the darkness is where we find our light; it’s where we find ourselves.

This reminds me of the shadow self because the shadow is too associated with darkness. We put all the bits of ourselves that we deem unacceptable, and push them down and ignore them until they ultimately take on a life of their own. We must align with our darkness and use it is a source of power rather than a source of weakness.

I have found the realist, truest parts of myself that where hidden in the dark. It wasn’t until I found these buried treasures that I began to love myself; to reach a state of love that I didn’t even know existed. I cannot be half of anything, it is all or nothing. I am no longer willing to be half of myself to make someone else comfortable, I am who I am for better or worse. Take me as I am or leave me as I am, either way I am still me and I am still happy.

I know that everyone is not going to like me, or like the things I say. I know that I will always be “too much” for some people, and that is okay, but for those that I do connect with, they only enrich my life, and surround me with more love. I know that I am a deep woman, and that most men and even some woman are intimidated by this, and that is okay too. I live my life for myself, and no one else. I have always put my needs above everything else, to some this may seem selfish, but I call it self-care. If I am not happy, I cannot make another happy.  There are even days when I am more wolf than woman. Times when I want to howl at the moon, and run free in the woods. Other times, I am perfectly happy being the strong, beautiful, powerful, sexy woman that I am.

My point is we are all connected, we are all one. The love, kindness and compassion you give to another will spread and grow. Find yourself, all of yourself. Love that person, because you deserve the love you so freely give to others. Once you become a beacon of light and love, you will want nothing more but to help another. We all have times where we stray too far from our path, we all need picked up from time to time.

 

Be someone’s beacon of hope, of love, and of compassion.

Spread love and kindness everywhere you go,

& it will ALWAYS find it way back to you.

Put love into everything you do,

& you will never be unhappy.

 

Because love can move mountains

Love can heal even the deepest of wounds.

 

Love makes everything possible

And without it we have nothing.”

 

xo

 

Let Love In

We can blame others for our actions and mistakes but at the end of the day, they are choices that we made. We are only responsible for ourselves, we are the only ones to place “blame” on.

I, myself, have never understood the whole regret thing, either regretting things you have done or haven’t done. It is such a big part of our society to regret that choices you have made, and to this I say why regret it? In that moment it is exactly what you wanted, you felt that was the best choice so you went for it. Most regrets come from nights of drinking too much alcohol, and waking up in a haze. This too seems to be a rite of passage in our society, which I have never understood. Alcohol does more harm than good, and is so easy to become addicted too. Using it as a crutch to not deal with your emotions or as a way to cope with life. We all go through darkness in our lives and it is all in the choices we make in where that darkness takes us. It can either makes us stronger, or it can destroy us; it is simply up to us.

The regrets of people on their death bed breaks my heart, wishing they had been more open to love, telling those they love how much they mean to them. Living a life of happiness for themselves, instead living a life for others. Why are we so afraid of what others will think of us that we can life our entire lives miserable with the grand illusion of happiness? I don’t get it, I never have. Be happy, live the life you want for yourself and no one else. Let the world inspire you, be kind to one another and let love lead the way. Be open to love and new experiences.  Don’t allow yourself to be molded by the guidelines of life set by society. Those guidelines lead to misery and unfulfillment.

Most of us can fake it, but for how long? There will come a day when you see your life has been a lie, and then what? It is never too late to change your life, and find love and happiness within yourself. The world needs more rule brakes, more kindness and more love. Take the time to look within yourself, mend the broken pieces and find love. It will take you so many wonderful places in this life; places you never knew exist. Love transforms, love enriches and love is infectious.

It all beginnings and ends with us, do the self-work first and it will show itself in every aspect of your life.

 

xo