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Honor The Call

I haven’t written in a while because I really (If Im being honest) haven’t felt the need to; but today is different. Today I feel I have the call, so I must answer.

Over the past few months my emotions have been a roller coaster ride, as so much of the collective is rising to be transmuted. Last month was the month of grieving for me, did you feel it too? It’s not that I was depressed, and no one had passed away but it was something that I just needed to do. I have lost so much in my life, even though I have gained so much from those losses, it seemed I have never grieved them. Understanding this came as a surprise to me, I always celebrated the lessons I had learned from each experience but how could I of been so blind to not fully feel what got me there.

It’s quite incredible when you take time to reflect on how far you’ve come. Taking some time for myself, I felt everything fully & completely; I allowed my tears to flow freely. I felt grief from things I thought I had let go of, years ago. It is always such a beautiful experience when you simple are, and this was no exception.

Currently, I have been feeling heavy sadness in the collective, and in my soul family. We all have a little piece that is ours, though some take on a little more to lighten the load for another. We are all working together to transmute this sadness, so that more light and love can make it way to all of us. By doing your work, you not only helping yourself but you help those connected to you. This is currently where I’m at, doing my work so that more love makes its way in (that is what life is all about after all). We all have a place to fill, and work to do & by listening when spirit calls you’re doing so much for the world, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Any act of healing and letting go, no matter how small makes an impact.

We are the children of our great mother. As we heal ourselves, we heal her. As we connect to her, we connect to ourselves. As we feel her love, we know we can never be without. As we honor her, we honor ourselves. Mother gives us all that we need, but what do we give her in return?

That is what I was leave you with, a thought provoking question.

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

 

Whats the difference? Selfless, Selfish & Putting yourself first.

Most people believe that putting yourself first is being selfish but is it? We all know that being selfless can be just as unhealthy as being selfish, but where is the line? What does it all mean, and where does each end and begin? This is what spirit has told me, and what I have come to understand….

Most of us are so busy taking care of others, our homes, running errands, and working crazy hours that we are often left forgotten. Then there are some who put their desires above all else, with no regard for anyone else. They are only happy, or act when it serves them. Do you see the problem with both of these things? Everyone you encounter leaves being unfulfilled. The energy exchange doesn’t benefit either party.

When you give, give, give without first giving to yourself, your left empty and depleted. How can you give to another if you first do not give to yourself? How can you give anything, when you have nothing left to give? A similar thing can be said for someone who always takes and never gives. Only looking out for yourself, can lead to sadness and unhappiness…even depression. As most of the time you end up alone.

The world is filled with people who give, receive, and those that do both. Those that are selfless give too much, and receive nothing. Those who are selfish, take too much, and do not give. Then there are those who put themselves first, and both give and receive. Do you see the difference?

Someone who has put themselves first, knows that it is important to both give and receive. They know that by taking a few minutes each day for time for themselves, they refill themselves and in return can give more to others. They know that it is important to make yourself happy and put your needs first but still respect the feelings of others. They have found a balance of taking only what they can give back.

I believe that being self-aware is a huge part of putting yourself first. Knowing your boundaries, and sticking to them. Knowing what you will and will not tolerate. Self-care is the best gift we can give ourselves, nobody else is going to take care of you the way you can.

You are your greatest love. Be your own soulmate. Know who you are, and what you want. Step into your power. Find balance & harmony. Heal. Let go & move forward.

Learn to both give and receive, and watch things begin to transform. You are a choice away from a new way of being & living.

Is it time to change, the choice is yours….

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Disconnect to Connect

The theme I keep seeing arising within myself, and the ones close to me is disconnect to connect. Wanting to be more detached from social media, television, and not be so dependent on a cell phone. To reconnect with the things that makes life worth living. Building real face to face relationships with people we care about, making plans and sticking to them, taking the time to visit a loved one for no reason expect to see how they are. To connect to the things we have lost sight of, the things are parents and grandparents were raised on. Principles, morals and values.

Personally my usage of social media has declines dramatically over the past several months. I started to see what it was, and had done to me. I would be in this amazing space, surrounded by all this light and love from the universe and our beautiful mother; I’d get on Facebook and I could feel it all get sucked away almost instantly. Leaving me feeling icky, and just not in the same way I had come in. Facebook can be a great platform for many beings coming together to share, and spread light and love but most of the time (at least by what I see) it is just another way for hatred and negativity to grow stronger. It is draining, and exhausting so I decided to take it out of my life. If it isn’t serving my highest potential, than I don’t need it.

I do still have a Facebook account, (I kept it for the spiritual group that I am apart of) but now I only check it once a month to see whats in my notifications and move on quickly. It has been quite freeing actually, which isn’t what I expected to get out of this. I no longer feel the need to post or share every aspect of my life with the world. My options are mine, and if I believe that sharing them will help make a difference than I will, otherwise I will keep them to myself. The moments I share on vacations and the photos I take should be kept private, they are beautiful moments that should only be shared with those you love; not posting them to see how many “likes” you get. Remember the days when friends or family would have to come over to see the photos of your wedding, vacation or of your new born child. You’d have coffee or a cup of tea and share stories, making it this whole experience; yes, that is what I want to get back too. That is what we should all get back to, actually enjoying the human experience. Step away from idolizing “famous” people and discussing how you think someone’s new look is this or that, it really makes no difference what you think about them; what matters is how you feel about yourself.

There is many things wrong with the way we live, and the way we have become but we cannot focus solely on that. We must focus on the love that is around us and within us. We must focus on the light that radiates throughout the planet; in all the animals, and in all the plants. We must come together for a common cause if we want change. It brings tears to my eyes to watch so many stand up for what they believe is right, such beauty and power in that.

Take the time to evaluate what excels your growth and your light, and what dims it. Don’t be afraid to let go, or to love from a far, you have to do what is best for yourself before you can help anyone else.

 

Bless it be.

Faye

Freedom

Today is all about Freedom. It’s a theme that keeps coming up for me, as I’m sure many of you are experiencing the same theme in your life. With all the shifts and events happening in the universe that affect us here on earth, it is hard to stay the same. More and more we are being pushed to emerge from our shells, and step out of our comfort zone. Many of us are very resistant to the process of the universe; thus making it so much harder on ourselves. The time has come, things….we are changing. As we wake up from our sleep state, as we begin to feel energy, to look for deeper meanings, and the answers to who we are within; we can find freedom. A sense of liberation, that makes us feel alive and free; but with this comes responsibility.

The responsibility to take ownership of everything we bring (manifest) into our life and everything we say and do. There is no more victim state, there is only you….there is new ways of thinking and being. Taking yourself out of the moment to reflect before you act, to think to yourself “Okay, now why did this happen? What am I being shown or taught?” With being awakened, you become a beacon of light and of love. You begin the journey you were meant to take; the journey you choose for yourself before you came here. The journey of unlearning everything you were taught that doesn’t resonate with you, of becoming everything you were meant to be. To become a beautiful masterpiece.

It’s along this journey that freedom finds you. Freedom from a job that doesn’t fulfill you, from friends (and maybe even family) that are toxic to your wellbeing, from everything that does not fill you with beautiful light and love. And over time you will find freedom to step outside of your comfort zone, and try something you never thought you would. That is where I am at in my journey, taking my next steps (or leveling up) in my faith and belief in the universe, and myself. I must say, being outside of my comfort zone has been very nerve wreaking and scary for me but I keep reminding myself to be fearless. There is nothing here to fear, it is only because it is unknown that I am fearful and that will surely pass as I learn how to navigate this new terrain.

We all have to start somewhere, and work our way through it. Learning and growing as we go. Experiencing the world with different eyes from one day to the next. So much can happen in a day, that we never leave it the same way we entered it. Even if the changes are so small we don’t notice them, each day affects us and in some way changes us; but what most don’t see is that we have the freedom to make our day the best day or the worst day. We can choose if the actions of others will affect us or not, we choose every part of our life. That is why freedom, is so powerful gift; a gift that is mostly taken for granted.

Free yourself from yourself, get out of your way and see what happens. Think before you act off of muscle memory. Not everything needs to be defended, and not everything is worth getting upset over. Save your energy for things that matter, save your energy to spread love. It’s what we all crave, but rarely receive.

 

Blessings.

Xo Faye

Reconnect

Before the full moon I have been feeling a shift beginning to take place. I believe I am not alone in this feeling; everything is starting to change for the better. We are entering into a time of great beauty and instant manifestation. Now that the full moon has passed, and I am still feeling the effects of her energy; I know that everything I have been feeling and even experiencing first hand is spot on.

It is time to manifest our dreams and make our deepest desires come true. There has never been a more perfect time to fulfill and enrich our lives. I know that I have been called back to my two longest love affairs; photography and writing. I had taken a break from both for many reason but mostly for the fact that I had so much going on within myself that I did not feel inspired or creative in anyway.

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There are times in each of our lives where we just need time. Time to sort through our feelings, our hearts desires, and all the chaos in between. Had I not allowed myself this time, everything I wrote and every picture I took would be empty of passion, have dark undertones, and be lack luster to say the least. Now that I have taken my time to heal and let go of so much, I am back better and more alive than ever.

I know that I have said before that you should spend time in your darkness, and learn from what you find there. For me, that has never been more true. It isn’t that I was in a “bad” place, it’s more of I was in between who I used to be, and who I am now. I talked to a beloved friend who gave me an entirely new perspective on everything, which really made me dive deep within. There I unlocked the door to my past, viewing it now in a way that I hadn’t before. Writing has always been therapeutic for me, and this time was no different. I wrote many letters, too many people, then when I was finished I burned them. Fire has always been transformative too me, and the best way to release into the universe.

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Once again I see the world with open eyes; taking in all the beauty and wonder that is daily life. I live my life in awe, amazed by what love can build and by what love can do. Even the simplest things can move me to tears with its raw beauty. Take nothing for granted & love every minute of this wild ride called life.

All I can think of is the flower. It doesn’t not bloom for you, or for me. And it cannot be rushed to bloom. It will wait until the time is right. And when it does bloom, it blooms for itself. It has spent its time in the darkness, so that it may now become everything it was meant to be. A beautiful work of art.

Many Blessings,

Xo Faye

 

P.S. – The photos shown are a few that I took a few nights ago around sunset. It truly filled my heart with love to look through that camera lens again.

 

New Year, Improved Me

2018 has already brought so many walls crumbling down, I know this will be a beautiful year of manifestation and making dreams come to life.

To celebrate the New Year I took a much needed trip with my sister to Las Vegas. It was my first time visiting there, and I was amazed by the beauty of the city. The dancing fountains were so beautiful that I may have cried a little, but what really got me was the architecture of the buildings. If only people built more things that they loved, putting their heart and soul into them, think of all the beauty we could create. I kept thinking how amazing humans are; building a city in the middle of the desert is incredible.

Even though I was amazed by the city and what man had created, I felt drawn to the mountains. Toward the end of our trip our room had a mountain view, and it was the best view if you ask me. I would wake up in the morning and soak in the beauty. Listening for the wisdom they had to share. Watching the sun come up and highlight the mountains was absolutely breath taking. Even though humans create some really beautiful things, nature’s beauty is next level. The next time I visit Las Vegas, I will be doing some hiking trials and getting in touch with the mountains.

While away on my trip my sister and I shared lots of laughter, made many memories and got to know each other a little better. While away I also was able to gain some perspective that I needed. Often times I need to take myself away from the daily routine of life in order to see what I want, where I am, and what I am doing. I now know what it is what I want out of life, what my goals are, and am going to work hard to make them a reality.

I also had the opportunity to face some fears while I was there. Both my sister & I are afraid of heights, so we decided to do the high roller. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. It was hard to stand up at first, but once I worked past the fear it was beautiful to see the city all lite up at night. You could even see one of the dancing fountains shows, which only looked more beautiful from that height. I wouldn’t say I conquered my fear of heights but I definitely got more comfortable. I wanted to zip line but I wasn’t able to do that this trip. When I return to Las Vegas I am hoping they have the zip line over the strip done, because I will be doing that.

The other fear I conquered was my fear of birds (this is a fear I carry from a past life, and have carried with me for a long time.) Facing this fear happened organically actually, my sister and I had went to The Flamingo for breakfast and decided to walk around the garden there. I got rather excited over all the duckies, fish, and flamingos. As we were walking around I saw people taking pictures with parrots. I looked at my sister, and told her I was going to do it. I gave her my stuff, and told her to record me because no one would believe me. The lady started to put these birds on me, and I was super nervous but once I worked passed my nervousness, I started to relax a little. I actually liked the white parrot the most, he kept looking at me so I would talk to him. haha. I actually enjoyed this experience more than I thought I would. It really made me see how foolish fears are, and how one bad experience can cause a lifetime of fear, holding you back from your full potential.

I am so proud of myself, and all that I have shown myself that I can do. I overcame so much this trip, all of which seem small and meaningless now but held me back for so long. This is the year of quick manifestation, expansion, growth, self-love and making dreams come true. I am recharged, refreshed and ready to get to work.

When working toward creating a life you want, remember….there is no “if” it happens, there is only “when” it happens. I am working my ass off now, so when my dreams becomes reality I will be ready. Life is about your frame of mind, if you tell yourself you will, believe it & work hard to achieve it, then it will come to you.  The universe will give to you what you put out, everything come full circle so be kind, spread love & work hard.

Never give up on your dreams, they are within your reach.

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Female Inspiration

Why are woman portrayed as Weak and Powerless?

Why are women taught that one day a man will come into your life and save you from yourself?

The way I see it is women are a force to be reckoned with we are healers, lovers powerhouses, beauty, givers of life and so much more. We are only weak when we do not step into our power. We are only powerless when we tear down others instead of spreading beautiful love that we carry within us. We do not need a man to fulfill us or to save us. We are capable of saving ourselves because we carry our own sword.

Remember a king needs a queen but a queen does NOT need a king

 

Blessings,

XO Faye

 

 

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Message from above

Last night I had someone ask for a reiki session, I had some time so I told them to come over. I have done many reiki sessions before, on many different people but this one I don’t think I’ll ever forget.

Before they even got here, their guides came to me and I knew how important it was that I do this. It was no longer a wanting to help them, it was a need to help them. I prepared the room as I always do, selected crystals for them, and prepared myself. They came over, I began the session and just like that over an hour had went by. I swear, every time I give or receive reiki time seems to melt away and almost not exist at all.

After finishing the session, I knew that I had helped them in every way I could. I knew that the light had won this battle and they now could heal, if they so choose it. As I said I have done many reiki sessions before but this one in particular left me feeling like a true warrior of light. The darkness no longer frightens me but rather makes me smile; I know my power and I know that light will continue to conquer the dark.

The message (& point of this) is spirit wants you to hear is this – Step into your power. It is time. Every answer you seek, is within. Everything you need, is within. Stop looking outward for help and begin to look within. Let go of the wrongs placed upon you, take responsibility for your life. Step into YOUR power. You have a beautiful power source waiting to be used. Forget everyone else, forget what they say, what they do, and how they act. This is YOUR time. Decide who you are, who you want to be. Find your truths, and let them shine. Step into YOUR power and let your light to shine so brightly, don’t be afraid if it’s too bright for others; their options don’t matter. Set boundaries for yourself, and stick to them. It is YOUR time, take care of yourself. Find the love you give to everyone else, for yourself. Find something that you love, and makes you come alive. It is YOUR time to be happy, to explore, and to be at peace. Let go of the past, the door is closed. Don’t look ahead to the future, its unknown. Live in the moment, day by day.  You will get where you want to be if you work hard, stay focused, and follow what you love.

Passion just like fear guides us to where we are meant to go, and who we are meant to be. If something is amazingly terrifying that is a clear sign you are meant to go that direction. Step in YOUR POWER. It is YOUR time to be the fierce force that you are. Don’t back down when it comes to your dreams, and never take “no” for an answer.

Step into your power and let it set you free.

 

Namaste.

XO,

Faye

Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

Excerpt from my journal….

The full moon was last night and it was raining, so I did my full moon ritual in the garage facing east. Releasing with the moon was a highly energetic and beautiful experience.

This morning when I awoke I found myself refreshed, renewed and still. I know that I have a decision to make, I have many actually. I need time to be still, to reflect and to simply be. I have asked for all of this. So it is time to be honest and truth with myself; to listen to my heart and to my soul.

The time of change and re-birth are upon us, and it has been for quite some time. With this season of transformation it brings with it a certain beauty. For myself, I felt the breeze dancing across my face, calling me to invite it in, and I’ve don’t just that. I needed to be cleansed, and in many ways I needed to die; for without death I could have never emerged this beautiful human; whose reflection is looking back at me.

Most fear death because they do not see the beauty that lies within it. That is the way of ego; blinded by fear rather than being liberated by it. I know my transformation has begun, and I have embrace it. I have seen first-hand the beauty that lies within my darkness. This full moon I have asked for many things to be released but the most important is that I have ask to release from subconscious blockages. The things we aren’t even aware of, this is what hinders me the most. Acting in old patterns and ways of being that no longer serve me.

This is my time to love myself, to give myself the love and light that I shine to others. This journey is still in its infancy but it has transformed my views, and my life in such a beautiful way. I understand now that you must be kind and gentle with yourself; forgive yourself when things go wrong (which they will) and celebrate when they go right (which they will). Life is hard enough, we don’t need to make it more difficult by being hard on ourselves.

Social media has lost my interest over the past few days. I work rather hard on staying in this place of stillness and peacefulness and every time I get on social media it is ripped away from me (and rather quickly I might add). So I may be taking a well-earned break from all the non-sense of social media for a while. It may be just another step in my evolution.

Seeing my future, feeling it, living it in my dreams has made this process even more the learning experience. Connecting with other souls that reside in the same light as I, has changed my life. These souls (of which most I have not met in the physical) have taught me and shown me so much about myself and my life; all the things I desire to have all that which I chose not to have. Life is such a precious gift that should be lived, experienced and enjoyed (without mindless distractions).

I have learned so much this year, and there is more to go. I have been awoken to this new sense of awareness and gratitude.  My mind is clear, and my heart is open. I no longer need love from another (but remain open and ready when it does find its way to me), because I have found it for myself. I have been listening and trusting myself more and now watch miracles manifest right in front of my eyes.

This life is too beautiful of a gift to waste even a second of it. Be happy, shine your light. Care about yourself more and others less This is your life take the wheel.

 

The winds of change are blowing, can you feel them!?

xoxo

-Faye