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Speak your truth

How often do you share your truth? I mean really soak in it; basking in the depth of emotions that you feel. When was the last time you spoke your truth? When was the last time you felt heard and understood?

It is my understanding that most women, and men, go completely unheard; unseen by those that mean the most to them. Coasting through life, completely numb to the things they feel, and how deeply those feelings affect them. When you do speak your truth, you feel judged, misunderstood, and ridiculed for feeling the way you do. Why have we allowed this type of emotion numbing behavior to go on, and for so long?

I know, for myself, there have been many times I needed to talk about something just to get it off my chest; to ease the weight that I feel and I have felt completely misunderstood, and like somehow I was looked at different because I felt this way. I understand how important it is that we share how we feel; speak our deepest truths and feeling comfortable doing it. Speaking from your heart, and standing in your truth is such a raw, venerable moment that can yield so many benefits; and yet most of us don’t serve ourselves in this way. Either we don’t allow ourselves to be raw and unfiltered or we don’t think anyone understands. While some people do not understand, there is someone who does because they have gone through the same thing.

I have decided to create a sacred, safe place for this exact purpose. I really believe that it is everyone’s right to speak their truths, and not feel judge by them. I want to create a safe, judgement free, supportive group, set to empower and inspire each and every one of us. I don’t want this to be just for woman either; I would love to have men that are allies to empowered woman a part of this too. I believe that it is important for men to help empower woman, and vice versa. We are all here to help, support and love one another. After all, we are all the same. It is time that we express ourselves freely and without a second thought. Let’s empower one another, support one another and make the world a better place.

I love all of you, and want you to know you always have a place to share and be supported. You are never alone, and never give up.

Blessings,
Xo Faye

P.s.- I have created a sacred space via Facebook. If anyone is interested I will leave a link below…..

https://www.facebook.com/groups/320368721641357/

Rose Colored Glasses

Walking in the battlefield today, I felt so much love. Then I noticed something I never have before, I am always wearing rose colored glasses. I am always so deeply in love. Not with a person, but with life. I am so deeply in love with our great mother, all of her creations, great spirit, father sky, the sun, the moon and the stars.

Simply put, I am in love with this human experience. Isnt that the meaning to life after all? To love deeply, unconditionally, and truly. Without selfish reasons, without attachments and without needing in it return.

As I contiune to grow, learn and release, I only become more and more grateful. Appreciating the process more each day. Everything takes time, especially healing that which binds us. Take the time to heal. Sit alone, and feel what comes up. Then when you’re ready, let it pour out of you.

Love comes to those who find gratitude in the worst of circumstances. Love comes to those who keep moving forward. Love comes to those who take the time they need. Love comes to those who love themselves.

The feelings I feel anyone is capable of feeling but not withouy the work that goes into it. You get what you give, so love deeply, wildly and so freely.

Blessings,
Xo Faye

Moon Transformation

The new moon is quickly approaching once again, so I like to take this time to reflect on the previous moon cycle.

The past moon cycle brought intense energies, and huge transformations. Since the past full moon I have felt like a snake in mid shed; eyes milky white, completely vulnerable and unable to see. Feeling the pull from many different directions at once, and my head filled with confusion and utter chaos. I had done my full moon ritual, and had felt with full intensity the power of the moon in her full power. Her power was so transformative that it left me reeling for several days; I had even lost my voice for three days.

I knew that everything I had asked for was being manifested, I just needed to clear myself of out dated clutter and obstacles within. I truly believe that losing my voice was exactly what I needed. It allowed me to go inward, to quiet the noise that was beginning to get so loud. Even though it was only three days, it was all I needed. It’s amazing how quickly we can manifest now. It’s so beautiful. Typically, it would take me a few weeks or months to clear but now it’s almost as quick as a snap of a finger.

Now I am left feeling renewed, and recharged. Head clear, and I know what it is I am meant to do. I am simply awaiting signs from the universe to know when to start; a spiritual green light. I am at ease, gentle, and more awake than ever. I understand the power of being in the present, and I am thankful for the moments that are given. I have complete faith in the universe, and great spirit. The universe has heard what I wish to manifest. The universe has seen the work I’ve put into them and is working behind the scenes to make them a reality. The universe wants you to have what you want, after all. That’s why it’s so important to keep your thoughts positive.

Looking back at the past moon cycle and all that I have finally let go of, makes me look forward to the new moon that is upon us and all that the universe, great spirit and our great mother has in store for me…and all of us!! So much beauty lies ahead….just wait and see.

How did the past moon cycle help you on your journey!?

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Empower

Last night I had a beautiful conversation with some woman. Let me first give you a little back story; I am a part of a motor sport club. Last night we had our meeting, and the woman (the few of us that are a part of it) all met outside and began to talk after the meeting was over.

We were talking about ways to get more woman involved in motor sports; often when people think of racing it is a predominantly male sport. We want to change that. We were talking about how woman should empower other woman; and by how teaching and empowering one other we could go into a race that is mostly males, and feel comfortable and confident. We also need the men’s support, the ones that are our allies, that ones that empower us instead of judging us.

I whole heartedly believe that anything a man can do a woman can do. It is time for woman to step into their power. To see and feel all the power they hold within themselves; to stand up for what they believe in (even if it isn’t the popular option). All the patriarchal bs needs to end. Woman are goddesses, each and everyone one of us. It is time for us to harness the powers we yield and heal a world in such despite need of love. We need to stop lashing out at one another and come together.

We can do this, we are doing this. Woman are beautiful gifts to this world, and it is time they are treated as such. As a woman who has stepped into her power, I would love nothing more than for all my sisters to stand side by side and support, empower, and inspire one other.

 

Namaste.

Xo Faye

Honor The Call

I haven’t written in a while because I really (If Im being honest) haven’t felt the need to; but today is different. Today I feel I have the call, so I must answer.

Over the past few months my emotions have been a roller coaster ride, as so much of the collective is rising to be transmuted. Last month was the month of grieving for me, did you feel it too? It’s not that I was depressed, and no one had passed away but it was something that I just needed to do. I have lost so much in my life, even though I have gained so much from those losses, it seemed I have never grieved them. Understanding this came as a surprise to me, I always celebrated the lessons I had learned from each experience but how could I of been so blind to not fully feel what got me there.

It’s quite incredible when you take time to reflect on how far you’ve come. Taking some time for myself, I felt everything fully & completely; I allowed my tears to flow freely. I felt grief from things I thought I had let go of, years ago. It is always such a beautiful experience when you simple are, and this was no exception.

Currently, I have been feeling heavy sadness in the collective, and in my soul family. We all have a little piece that is ours, though some take on a little more to lighten the load for another. We are all working together to transmute this sadness, so that more light and love can make it way to all of us. By doing your work, you not only helping yourself but you help those connected to you. This is currently where I’m at, doing my work so that more love makes its way in (that is what life is all about after all). We all have a place to fill, and work to do & by listening when spirit calls you’re doing so much for the world, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Any act of healing and letting go, no matter how small makes an impact.

We are the children of our great mother. As we heal ourselves, we heal her. As we connect to her, we connect to ourselves. As we feel her love, we know we can never be without. As we honor her, we honor ourselves. Mother gives us all that we need, but what do we give her in return?

That is what I was leave you with, a thought provoking question.

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

 

Whats the difference? Selfless, Selfish & Putting yourself first.

Most people believe that putting yourself first is being selfish but is it? We all know that being selfless can be just as unhealthy as being selfish, but where is the line? What does it all mean, and where does each end and begin? This is what spirit has told me, and what I have come to understand….

Most of us are so busy taking care of others, our homes, running errands, and working crazy hours that we are often left forgotten. Then there are some who put their desires above all else, with no regard for anyone else. They are only happy, or act when it serves them. Do you see the problem with both of these things? Everyone you encounter leaves being unfulfilled. The energy exchange doesn’t benefit either party.

When you give, give, give without first giving to yourself, your left empty and depleted. How can you give to another if you first do not give to yourself? How can you give anything, when you have nothing left to give? A similar thing can be said for someone who always takes and never gives. Only looking out for yourself, can lead to sadness and unhappiness…even depression. As most of the time you end up alone.

The world is filled with people who give, receive, and those that do both. Those that are selfless give too much, and receive nothing. Those who are selfish, take too much, and do not give. Then there are those who put themselves first, and both give and receive. Do you see the difference?

Someone who has put themselves first, knows that it is important to both give and receive. They know that by taking a few minutes each day for time for themselves, they refill themselves and in return can give more to others. They know that it is important to make yourself happy and put your needs first but still respect the feelings of others. They have found a balance of taking only what they can give back.

I believe that being self-aware is a huge part of putting yourself first. Knowing your boundaries, and sticking to them. Knowing what you will and will not tolerate. Self-care is the best gift we can give ourselves, nobody else is going to take care of you the way you can.

You are your greatest love. Be your own soulmate. Know who you are, and what you want. Step into your power. Find balance & harmony. Heal. Let go & move forward.

Learn to both give and receive, and watch things begin to transform. You are a choice away from a new way of being & living.

Is it time to change, the choice is yours….

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye

Disconnect to Connect

The theme I keep seeing arising within myself, and the ones close to me is disconnect to connect. Wanting to be more detached from social media, television, and not be so dependent on a cell phone. To reconnect with the things that makes life worth living. Building real face to face relationships with people we care about, making plans and sticking to them, taking the time to visit a loved one for no reason expect to see how they are. To connect to the things we have lost sight of, the things are parents and grandparents were raised on. Principles, morals and values.

Personally my usage of social media has declines dramatically over the past several months. I started to see what it was, and had done to me. I would be in this amazing space, surrounded by all this light and love from the universe and our beautiful mother; I’d get on Facebook and I could feel it all get sucked away almost instantly. Leaving me feeling icky, and just not in the same way I had come in. Facebook can be a great platform for many beings coming together to share, and spread light and love but most of the time (at least by what I see) it is just another way for hatred and negativity to grow stronger. It is draining, and exhausting so I decided to take it out of my life. If it isn’t serving my highest potential, than I don’t need it.

I do still have a Facebook account, (I kept it for the spiritual group that I am apart of) but now I only check it once a month to see whats in my notifications and move on quickly. It has been quite freeing actually, which isn’t what I expected to get out of this. I no longer feel the need to post or share every aspect of my life with the world. My options are mine, and if I believe that sharing them will help make a difference than I will, otherwise I will keep them to myself. The moments I share on vacations and the photos I take should be kept private, they are beautiful moments that should only be shared with those you love; not posting them to see how many “likes” you get. Remember the days when friends or family would have to come over to see the photos of your wedding, vacation or of your new born child. You’d have coffee or a cup of tea and share stories, making it this whole experience; yes, that is what I want to get back too. That is what we should all get back to, actually enjoying the human experience. Step away from idolizing “famous” people and discussing how you think someone’s new look is this or that, it really makes no difference what you think about them; what matters is how you feel about yourself.

There is many things wrong with the way we live, and the way we have become but we cannot focus solely on that. We must focus on the love that is around us and within us. We must focus on the light that radiates throughout the planet; in all the animals, and in all the plants. We must come together for a common cause if we want change. It brings tears to my eyes to watch so many stand up for what they believe is right, such beauty and power in that.

Take the time to evaluate what excels your growth and your light, and what dims it. Don’t be afraid to let go, or to love from a far, you have to do what is best for yourself before you can help anyone else.

 

Bless it be.

Faye

Freedom

Today is all about Freedom. It’s a theme that keeps coming up for me, as I’m sure many of you are experiencing the same theme in your life. With all the shifts and events happening in the universe that affect us here on earth, it is hard to stay the same. More and more we are being pushed to emerge from our shells, and step out of our comfort zone. Many of us are very resistant to the process of the universe; thus making it so much harder on ourselves. The time has come, things….we are changing. As we wake up from our sleep state, as we begin to feel energy, to look for deeper meanings, and the answers to who we are within; we can find freedom. A sense of liberation, that makes us feel alive and free; but with this comes responsibility.

The responsibility to take ownership of everything we bring (manifest) into our life and everything we say and do. There is no more victim state, there is only you….there is new ways of thinking and being. Taking yourself out of the moment to reflect before you act, to think to yourself “Okay, now why did this happen? What am I being shown or taught?” With being awakened, you become a beacon of light and of love. You begin the journey you were meant to take; the journey you choose for yourself before you came here. The journey of unlearning everything you were taught that doesn’t resonate with you, of becoming everything you were meant to be. To become a beautiful masterpiece.

It’s along this journey that freedom finds you. Freedom from a job that doesn’t fulfill you, from friends (and maybe even family) that are toxic to your wellbeing, from everything that does not fill you with beautiful light and love. And over time you will find freedom to step outside of your comfort zone, and try something you never thought you would. That is where I am at in my journey, taking my next steps (or leveling up) in my faith and belief in the universe, and myself. I must say, being outside of my comfort zone has been very nerve wreaking and scary for me but I keep reminding myself to be fearless. There is nothing here to fear, it is only because it is unknown that I am fearful and that will surely pass as I learn how to navigate this new terrain.

We all have to start somewhere, and work our way through it. Learning and growing as we go. Experiencing the world with different eyes from one day to the next. So much can happen in a day, that we never leave it the same way we entered it. Even if the changes are so small we don’t notice them, each day affects us and in some way changes us; but what most don’t see is that we have the freedom to make our day the best day or the worst day. We can choose if the actions of others will affect us or not, we choose every part of our life. That is why freedom, is so powerful gift; a gift that is mostly taken for granted.

Free yourself from yourself, get out of your way and see what happens. Think before you act off of muscle memory. Not everything needs to be defended, and not everything is worth getting upset over. Save your energy for things that matter, save your energy to spread love. It’s what we all crave, but rarely receive.

 

Blessings.

Xo Faye

Reconnect

Before the full moon I have been feeling a shift beginning to take place. I believe I am not alone in this feeling; everything is starting to change for the better. We are entering into a time of great beauty and instant manifestation. Now that the full moon has passed, and I am still feeling the effects of her energy; I know that everything I have been feeling and even experiencing first hand is spot on.

It is time to manifest our dreams and make our deepest desires come true. There has never been a more perfect time to fulfill and enrich our lives. I know that I have been called back to my two longest love affairs; photography and writing. I had taken a break from both for many reason but mostly for the fact that I had so much going on within myself that I did not feel inspired or creative in anyway.

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There are times in each of our lives where we just need time. Time to sort through our feelings, our hearts desires, and all the chaos in between. Had I not allowed myself this time, everything I wrote and every picture I took would be empty of passion, have dark undertones, and be lack luster to say the least. Now that I have taken my time to heal and let go of so much, I am back better and more alive than ever.

I know that I have said before that you should spend time in your darkness, and learn from what you find there. For me, that has never been more true. It isn’t that I was in a “bad” place, it’s more of I was in between who I used to be, and who I am now. I talked to a beloved friend who gave me an entirely new perspective on everything, which really made me dive deep within. There I unlocked the door to my past, viewing it now in a way that I hadn’t before. Writing has always been therapeutic for me, and this time was no different. I wrote many letters, too many people, then when I was finished I burned them. Fire has always been transformative too me, and the best way to release into the universe.

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Once again I see the world with open eyes; taking in all the beauty and wonder that is daily life. I live my life in awe, amazed by what love can build and by what love can do. Even the simplest things can move me to tears with its raw beauty. Take nothing for granted & love every minute of this wild ride called life.

All I can think of is the flower. It doesn’t not bloom for you, or for me. And it cannot be rushed to bloom. It will wait until the time is right. And when it does bloom, it blooms for itself. It has spent its time in the darkness, so that it may now become everything it was meant to be. A beautiful work of art.

Many Blessings,

Xo Faye

 

P.S. – The photos shown are a few that I took a few nights ago around sunset. It truly filled my heart with love to look through that camera lens again.

 

New Year, Improved Me

2018 has already brought so many walls crumbling down, I know this will be a beautiful year of manifestation and making dreams come to life.

To celebrate the New Year I took a much needed trip with my sister to Las Vegas. It was my first time visiting there, and I was amazed by the beauty of the city. The dancing fountains were so beautiful that I may have cried a little, but what really got me was the architecture of the buildings. If only people built more things that they loved, putting their heart and soul into them, think of all the beauty we could create. I kept thinking how amazing humans are; building a city in the middle of the desert is incredible.

Even though I was amazed by the city and what man had created, I felt drawn to the mountains. Toward the end of our trip our room had a mountain view, and it was the best view if you ask me. I would wake up in the morning and soak in the beauty. Listening for the wisdom they had to share. Watching the sun come up and highlight the mountains was absolutely breath taking. Even though humans create some really beautiful things, nature’s beauty is next level. The next time I visit Las Vegas, I will be doing some hiking trials and getting in touch with the mountains.

While away on my trip my sister and I shared lots of laughter, made many memories and got to know each other a little better. While away I also was able to gain some perspective that I needed. Often times I need to take myself away from the daily routine of life in order to see what I want, where I am, and what I am doing. I now know what it is what I want out of life, what my goals are, and am going to work hard to make them a reality.

I also had the opportunity to face some fears while I was there. Both my sister & I are afraid of heights, so we decided to do the high roller. It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. It was hard to stand up at first, but once I worked past the fear it was beautiful to see the city all lite up at night. You could even see one of the dancing fountains shows, which only looked more beautiful from that height. I wouldn’t say I conquered my fear of heights but I definitely got more comfortable. I wanted to zip line but I wasn’t able to do that this trip. When I return to Las Vegas I am hoping they have the zip line over the strip done, because I will be doing that.

The other fear I conquered was my fear of birds (this is a fear I carry from a past life, and have carried with me for a long time.) Facing this fear happened organically actually, my sister and I had went to The Flamingo for breakfast and decided to walk around the garden there. I got rather excited over all the duckies, fish, and flamingos. As we were walking around I saw people taking pictures with parrots. I looked at my sister, and told her I was going to do it. I gave her my stuff, and told her to record me because no one would believe me. The lady started to put these birds on me, and I was super nervous but once I worked passed my nervousness, I started to relax a little. I actually liked the white parrot the most, he kept looking at me so I would talk to him. haha. I actually enjoyed this experience more than I thought I would. It really made me see how foolish fears are, and how one bad experience can cause a lifetime of fear, holding you back from your full potential.

I am so proud of myself, and all that I have shown myself that I can do. I overcame so much this trip, all of which seem small and meaningless now but held me back for so long. This is the year of quick manifestation, expansion, growth, self-love and making dreams come true. I am recharged, refreshed and ready to get to work.

When working toward creating a life you want, remember….there is no “if” it happens, there is only “when” it happens. I am working my ass off now, so when my dreams becomes reality I will be ready. Life is about your frame of mind, if you tell yourself you will, believe it & work hard to achieve it, then it will come to you.  The universe will give to you what you put out, everything come full circle so be kind, spread love & work hard.

Never give up on your dreams, they are within your reach.

 

Blessings,

Xo Faye