Often times when we have questions we look to the external world for answers, forgetting that we hold the answer to every question we may have within us. It’s when we go internally that we find the clarity we desire and are able to unlock situations in an entirely new way. Instead of fighting ourselves, if we allow ourselves to detach from the story and simply feel what our emotions are telling us, then we are able to let go to release and to find peace within.
The question I have been asking myself lately is, what is challenging me right now? When you ask yourself a question there is always an easy answer, this is the answer that pops into your head first. It’s the shallow answer, the one that requires little to no thought. Allow yourself to peel back the layers and go deeper within yourself. What lies just below the surface? Is it truth or a projection? What emotions do you begin to feel as you go deeper within? Explore them, they have a lot to say. Continue to go deeper and deeper into yourself, peeling back layer after layer until you find the core; the reason for why you’re acting this way or what you are truly feeling. This is the answer to the question, it takes work and effort but you’ll always find an answer; and it may not be one you’re ready for.
As for me what has been a challenge or even a struggle is finding a way to create my own prosperity abundantly in a way that feeds my soul. I have asked for help and guidance in this power struggle I continue to have with myself. I know that the answer is somewhere within, and that I just need to remember. I have worked diligently to surrender to the divine so that I can move beyond the power of fear. I feel with each step I take, each time I make an active choice to align my thoughts with what I wish to manifest I only bring it closer to me. I can see where I have gone wrong in the past; I’m making active choices to find something I love and to see it through to the end. I know that by doing this I am getting closer and closer to finding what I have been seeking for so long. When I align with myself, the universe aligns with me.
I recently came across an article that talked about having three loves in a lifetime. I had never thought of love in that way, we all love but I never thought of how different each love is for us. I know that I loved many times in my life but looking at it now, I’ve loved in very different ways. There haven’t been many times in my life that I can say I was truly and completely in love. Often times the lines of love and lust got blurred. In my experience I have found that lust can never last the test of time, the foundation it is built upon is fragile and weak. It is only meant to be a short story in our lives, however I will admit that there have times when I knew it wasn’t right but stayed in it anyways, mistaking it for love, only seeing what I wanted to see was always my greatest weakness. So many of us want to be loved so badly by another, to receive what we have always desired yet we look for it in the wrong people. We are told that love is all about fireworks and butterflies but is it? I have had these feelings before and they haven’t stood the test of time.
This is how my first love began and ended. The story of my first love was one of unfulfillment, pain and struggle. He was my knight in shining armor, the one who scooped me up and rescued me from a life that I hated. It was the whole fairy tale image, it looked good on the outside but being in it was nothing like the fairy tales I had read as a child. It’s the love I stayed in because it mattered more to me that we looked happy than actually being happy. I didn’t love myself enough to say this is not what love is because I didn’t know what love was, I only had an idea of what it should be. I was young and naive, I thought that time was something that mattered in love and that with time would only bring more love. Even if had never existed in the first place.
Then there was my second love, the one I wanted to be right. The one I wanted it to work with so badly that I forced it for as long as I could. It’s the one that had exceptional highs and the lowest of lows. I fought so hard for this love, it’s the one I didn’t want to let go of. It’s the love I felt deeper than the one before it, the one I felt a connection with, the one I thought would last a lifetime. At first this love felt perfect, I was all in from the beginning but somewhere along the way our paths begin to separate. This love allowed me the time to find myself, who I was and what I wanted. This love had given me the soul growth I needed, and it’s because of this I could see how love would change me. Perhaps that is why I held on for so long even though this love had fallen short of my expectations.
This is the love that I believe most of us stay in because we think it couldn’t be any better than this, or maybe we get hooked on the excitement of the high and attached to the pain of the low, knowing the roller-coaster ride will continue on a never ending loop. We become comfortable on this ride, knowing what is ahead. There is no unknown in this love, and for some of us that is okay. I am not one of them. I crave the unknown, I long for excitement in love, and I desire a love so strong that nothing can break it. A love so profound that it grows deeper with each breath I take, with every kiss and with each look into my lovers eyes. This is what I have found in my third love.
It’s a love that has broken every preconceived notion I had about love. It came in unexpectedly, seemingly out of nowhere, with a man I never saw coming. This love has captured my soul in such a deep and profound way that I find myself amazed everyday by it. I am forever changed by the love I feel and the love I am given. It has allowed me to see myself in such a way of raw truth and honesty that I desire to be the highest, best version of myself. There is no stormy weather, it’s a place of peacefulness, calmness and authenticity that I never thought love could be. I am accepted exactly as I am in all of my imperfections and with all of my broken pieces. I know see that I had to find out what I thought was love in order to find what love is.
This is the love I wish all of us find in our lifetime. We all deserve this kind of love and it is possible for each of us to attain it. When we make the hard choices for the right reasons, we are always rewarded. Even if the path looks dark, is unknown and you are completely lost, keep moving forward that is how life changing events are created. When we lean on our faith, when we use it as a tool of hope and inspiration we will always be shown the way, we just have to listen. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been with someone, love doesn’t care about time. There is no achievement award for love, especially for those that have stayed in a partnership that died long ago. Love shows up when it’s ready for you, it comes in when you least expect it and in a person you think it could never work with. Allow love, allow your faith to lead the way; when we do this anything is possible.
Beaver energy is a hard worker, loyal, family first.
When the beaver starts a project it will work for weeks, months or even years until it is completed. This shows that whatever new projects you are starting it will be one a long term project. Beaver energy is all about being dependable, good-natured and putting family first. They are provider’s; providing a home and finical stability for their family.
The direction of the west is all about transformation. It is also the direction of autumn, showing us that we need to let go of the dead energy in our lives and within our bodies so that we can make room for new, better things. The time has come for us to face outlives, to go deep within the darkest parts of ourselves and do the work. It’s time to find your shadow self and find balance. Release old programming, fears and work through the emotional patterns that need to be addressed.
This is a powerful time for our growth as individuals, as well as a collective. When we do our own work we add more light to the world, even if it doesn’t seem that way. Turn off your phone, the computer and the TV, don’t allow yourself to be distracted. Take the time you need in your sacred space. You owe it to yourself.
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Remember that nursey rhythm we used to sing as children “Mary had a little lamb, its fleece was white as snow. Everywhere that Mary went, that lamb was sure to go.” Thats probably because the lamb has a message for her.
Lamb energy is that of patience, peacefullness, and prophecy.
Lamb energy can speak to us in honest guidance from a friend or any person. If it speaks to you, then its a message from lamb. The same messages will be given to you over and over again, until you get the message…. and listen.
The truth the lamb gives us is a gift. To hear her messages you must be quiet and patient.
The energy of the north is expansive, wanting us to experience life with enthusiasm. North urges us to follow our inner guidance. Once we surrender to our inner guide we can drink in the sweetness of life, and learn how to go throughout life light as a feather.
The north is the direction of initiation, things are changing. Listen to what your intuition and heart is telling you. It will never guide you somewhere you dont belong.
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There has been such intense energy lately, along with solar flares and the Schuman literally going off the charts. It has left me feeling out of sorts, along with many physical symptoms. So many things has sifted since the new moon, on the 9th. I am seeing so many endings all around me, not only in my life but everywhere. There are so many old timelines collapsing, so much of the past is dissolving away or at least coming up so that it can be dissolved.
In my own life I have reached the ending of chapter, and the beginning of a new one. A lot of old childhood traumas have been coming to the surface for me recently. I have just had this out pouring of emotions, some of which come from a deep rooted place. I am happy to let go of the past and embrace the promises of a new tomorrow. I know many of us, like myself, are fed up with everything that has been going on. We are ready and willing to change so that we can find the happiness we desire.
I feel that we are nearing the end of this cycle in our journey, we are in a way dying. Our old selves in its entirety is dying, it’s all being burned away. We don’t need the past anymore, that’s why it’s coming up so strongly to be let go of. We need to die so that we can be reborn, just as the phoenix does. We can be reborn from the ashes of the past, as a better version of ourselves. A version that aligns with our soul’s mission, and our highest, greatest good.
I know that things are confusing right now, and you may even feel lost (I know I do) but remember why your here. Remember that you have to go through this so that you can receive everything you’ve asked for. There is no easy way to change, and it is never comfortable but it is necessary. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Stay focused, find happiness in your day to day, be grateful and keep moving forward. It’s all about to open up for you.
How often do you share your truth? I mean really soak in it; basking in the depth of emotions that you feel. When was the last time you spoke your truth? When was the last time you felt heard and understood?
It is my understanding that most women, and men, go completely unheard; unseen by those that mean the most to them. Coasting through life, completely numb to the things they feel, and how deeply those feelings affect them. When you do speak your truth, you feel judged, misunderstood, and ridiculed for feeling the way you do. Why have we allowed this type of emotion numbing behavior to go on, and for so long?
I know, for myself, there have been many times I needed to talk about something just to get it off my chest; to ease the weight that I feel and I have felt completely misunderstood, and like somehow I was looked at different because I felt this way. I understand how important it is that we share how we feel; speak our deepest truths and feeling comfortable doing it. Speaking from your heart, and standing in your truth is such a raw, venerable moment that can yield so many benefits; and yet most of us don’t serve ourselves in this way. Either we don’t allow ourselves to be raw and unfiltered or we don’t think anyone understands. While some people do not understand, there is someone who does because they have gone through the same thing.
I have decided to create a sacred, safe place for this exact purpose. I really believe that it is everyone’s right to speak their truths, and not feel judge by them. I want to create a safe, judgement free, supportive group, set to empower and inspire each and every one of us. I don’t want this to be just for woman either; I would love to have men that are allies to empowered woman a part of this too. I believe that it is important for men to help empower woman, and vice versa. We are all here to help, support and love one another. After all, we are all the same. It is time that we express ourselves freely and without a second thought. Let’s empower one another, support one another and make the world a better place.
I love all of you, and want you to know you always have a place to share and be supported. You are never alone, and never give up.
P.s.- I have created a sacred space via Facebook. If anyone is interested I will leave a link below…..
Walking in the battlefield today, I felt so much love. Then I noticed something I never have before, I am always wearing rose colored glasses. I am always so deeply in love. Not with a person, but with life. I am so deeply in love with our great mother, all of her creations, great spirit, father sky, the sun, the moon and the stars.
Simply put, I am in love with this human experience. Isnt that the meaning to life after all? To love deeply, unconditionally, and truly. Without selfish reasons, without attachments and without needing in it return.
As I contiune to grow, learn and release, I only become more and more grateful. Appreciating the process more each day. Everything takes time, especially healing that which binds us. Take the time to heal. Sit alone, and feel what comes up. Then when you’re ready, let it pour out of you.
Love comes to those who find gratitude in the worst of circumstances. Love comes to those who keep moving forward. Love comes to those who take the time they need. Love comes to those who love themselves.
The feelings I feel anyone is capable of feeling but not withouy the work that goes into it. You get what you give, so love deeply, wildly and so freely.
The new moon is quickly approaching once again, so I like to take this time to reflect on the previous moon cycle.
The past moon cycle brought intense energies, and huge transformations. Since the past full moon I have felt like a snake in mid shed; eyes milky white, completely vulnerable and unable to see. Feeling the pull from many different directions at once, and my head filled with confusion and utter chaos. I had done my full moon ritual, and had felt with full intensity the power of the moon in her full power. Her power was so transformative that it left me reeling for several days; I had even lost my voice for three days.
I knew that everything I had asked for was being manifested, I just needed to clear myself of out dated clutter and obstacles within. I truly believe that losing my voice was exactly what I needed. It allowed me to go inward, to quiet the noise that was beginning to get so loud. Even though it was only three days, it was all I needed. It’s amazing how quickly we can manifest now. It’s so beautiful. Typically, it would take me a few weeks or months to clear but now it’s almost as quick as a snap of a finger.
Now I am left feeling renewed, and recharged. Head clear, and I know what it is I am meant to do. I am simply awaiting signs from the universe to know when to start; a spiritual green light. I am at ease, gentle, and more awake than ever. I understand the power of being in the present, and I am thankful for the moments that are given. I have complete faith in the universe, and great spirit. The universe has heard what I wish to manifest. The universe has seen the work I’ve put into them and is working behind the scenes to make them a reality. The universe wants you to have what you want, after all. That’s why it’s so important to keep your thoughts positive.
Looking back at the past moon cycle and all that I have finally let go of, makes me look forward to the new moon that is upon us and all that the universe, great spirit and our great mother has in store for me…and all of us!! So much beauty lies ahead….just wait and see.
How did the past moon cycle help you on your journey!?
Last night I had a beautiful conversation with some woman. Let me first give you a little back story; I am a part of a motor sport club. Last night we had our meeting, and the woman (the few of us that are a part of it) all met outside and began to talk after the meeting was over.
We were talking about ways to get more woman involved in motor sports; often when people think of racing it is a predominantly male sport. We want to change that. We were talking about how woman should empower other woman; and by how teaching and empowering one other we could go into a race that is mostly males, and feel comfortable and confident. We also need the men’s support, the ones that are our allies, that ones that empower us instead of judging us.
I whole heartedly believe that anything a man can do a woman can do. It is time for woman to step into their power. To see and feel all the power they hold within themselves; to stand up for what they believe in (even if it isn’t the popular option). All the patriarchal bs needs to end. Woman are goddesses, each and everyone one of us. It is time for us to harness the powers we yield and heal a world in such despite need of love. We need to stop lashing out at one another and come together.
We can do this, we are doing this. Woman are beautiful gifts to this world, and it is time they are treated as such. As a woman who has stepped into her power, I would love nothing more than for all my sisters to stand side by side and support, empower, and inspire one other.