Tides of change…

For the past few weeks, I have felt changed. I have felt it so much that it has been all I have written about. So many things are not as they used to be, and I have learned so much from this. With the 11:11 gateway that was just a few days ago, and the new moon coming this Saturday the energies of newness are in full force.

Among all the lessons I have learned through this time of transformation one stands out among the rest. So often we get caught up in the destination that we do not enjoy the journey. We ask so many questions of where we will be, that we forget to simply allow things to play out. The outcome isn’t all that important, the whole point of the journey is to learn, grow and evolve. Which we cannot do if we are forcing knowing and understanding. Some things, especially in the spiritual sense, do not make sense. They are not meant to, it is our minds that need this understanding, this logical proof. Spirit is not interested in that of the mind, only in the evolution of the soul. The soul knows exactly what it needs, and if you listen you’ll know what that is.

It’s so funny, even though I am aware of this I still ask questions. I still remain curious about what beautiful things are waiting for me. I am only human but I suppose the difference is I am simply curious where things stand in the present moment; as things always change. When we stop asking questions, and listen to ourselves this is when we will find all the answers we seek. Trusting in our intuition, and following what it tells us. It is often the hardest things to trust, because the mind, the ego, says otherwise.

As for me personally, I am not the same person I was and for that I am grateful; but with this change comes many other emotions. This is not where I thought I’d end up, I did not think that I would be starting my life over. All the grand illusions I once had, have washed away with the tide. What remains are the simple desires of life; being happy, fulfilled, love, and living life. I have never been one to want a huge house on the hills, with all these material things. I have always wanted simplicity, but now I want even less. I have let go of so much of the past and old patterns of being that I see now what I truly need; and it is not much.

I see fully what is holding me back, and what I need to do but damn, if that isn’t a big leap. I will undoubtedly do what needs to be done, even if it may be the hardest things I have had to do. I have been in this place before and I will always put myself first. I am the only one who can create the life I wish to have so I have no problems chasing after all that I desire.

I love all of you, I wish all of you the best in this journey. Remember to make your new moon intentions Saturday. This will be the best time to bring anything new into your life. ❤

 

xoxo

Faye

Excerpt from my journal….

The full moon was last night and it was raining, so I did my full moon ritual in the garage facing east. Releasing with the moon was a highly energetic and beautiful experience.

This morning when I awoke I found myself refreshed, renewed and still. I know that I have a decision to make, I have many actually. I need time to be still, to reflect and to simply be. I have asked for all of this. So it is time to be honest and truth with myself; to listen to my heart and to my soul.

The time of change and re-birth are upon us, and it has been for quite some time. With this season of transformation it brings with it a certain beauty. For myself, I felt the breeze dancing across my face, calling me to invite it in, and I’ve don’t just that. I needed to be cleansed, and in many ways I needed to die; for without death I could have never emerged this beautiful human; whose reflection is looking back at me.

Most fear death because they do not see the beauty that lies within it. That is the way of ego; blinded by fear rather than being liberated by it. I know my transformation has begun, and I have embrace it. I have seen first-hand the beauty that lies within my darkness. This full moon I have asked for many things to be released but the most important is that I have ask to release from subconscious blockages. The things we aren’t even aware of, this is what hinders me the most. Acting in old patterns and ways of being that no longer serve me.

This is my time to love myself, to give myself the love and light that I shine to others. This journey is still in its infancy but it has transformed my views, and my life in such a beautiful way. I understand now that you must be kind and gentle with yourself; forgive yourself when things go wrong (which they will) and celebrate when they go right (which they will). Life is hard enough, we don’t need to make it more difficult by being hard on ourselves.

Social media has lost my interest over the past few days. I work rather hard on staying in this place of stillness and peacefulness and every time I get on social media it is ripped away from me (and rather quickly I might add). So I may be taking a well-earned break from all the non-sense of social media for a while. It may be just another step in my evolution.

Seeing my future, feeling it, living it in my dreams has made this process even more the learning experience. Connecting with other souls that reside in the same light as I, has changed my life. These souls (of which most I have not met in the physical) have taught me and shown me so much about myself and my life; all the things I desire to have all that which I chose not to have. Life is such a precious gift that should be lived, experienced and enjoyed (without mindless distractions).

I have learned so much this year, and there is more to go. I have been awoken to this new sense of awareness and gratitude.  My mind is clear, and my heart is open. I no longer need love from another (but remain open and ready when it does find its way to me), because I have found it for myself. I have been listening and trusting myself more and now watch miracles manifest right in front of my eyes.

This life is too beautiful of a gift to waste even a second of it. Be happy, shine your light. Care about yourself more and others less This is your life take the wheel.

 

The winds of change are blowing, can you feel them!?

xoxo

-Faye

Society tells us how to feel…..

The world we live in tells us how we are supposed to act, and how we are supposed to be; and when we don’t act that way we are harshly judge and criticized.  But why do we put standards and rules on the way we feel? Everyone is different and not everything that happens to us is the worst day or the best day of our lives and that’s okay. We are not perfect, we are human. We are meant to learn, grow and evolve from the emotions that we feel. I know that television and magazines show us how we are supposed to be flawless but that too is a lie.

When we find what others perceive has happiness (even though we don’t feel it/ or even if we do) we are supposed to be happy. I have seen in my own life, as well as the lives of countless others that “the show” / or the projection that we show the world is all that matters. We are told to “fake it” and how unfair is that to ourselves. Think of the growth and learning we are disabling within ourselves when we ignore those beautiful feelings. Yes, even the more undesirable feelings are beautiful. Those are the ones that teach us the most; even if their lessons are often painful and cruel.

When we do find happiness but then it fades away; we are told that we must stick around. That we won’t find anyone that loves you as much as they do. Well that is a complete lie, if you rid your life of those relationships that are no longer serving you then you are only making room for bigger, better things. We are told when someone passes away you should be sad; sometimes a person transitioning isn’t an awful, sad thing.

We’re told that getting divorced is the something that should make us fall into this deep sadness and loneliness; and if you are happy and feel a sense of release and freedom you clearly “never loved them at all”. People are quick to judge rather than take the time to understand; but I have found that some would rather stay in the comfortability of misery than spread their wings and fly. That’s okay that is their choice. We just do not have to project that onto others.

That if you get married more than once you’re told “you don’t understand what marriage is” like you have defiled it in some way; but I prefer to think those that marry more than once are a lover of love. They fall quickly, and deeply in love believing without a doubt that this is right; just because it doesn’t work out doesn’t make them awful people, it makes them human. Things happens, soul contracts end and begin all the time. It is okay. We have to be gentle with ourselves, be kind to ourselves, forgive ourselves but most importantly we have to love ourselves. Since everything begins and ends with us; we cultivate our own reality. We are the captain, and the key holder to whatever torture we put ourselves through. Value others options less, and yours more. Follow your heart, let it guide you and learn from what you experaince.

We all do things for ourselves all time, often without even noticing. We make our own choices, choose to make them out of love and not fear. Stay in a positive mind set as best as you can, it will do more for you than you even know. Life is hard, it’s cruel and sometimes it’s downright lonely but that’s all okay. Remember the only thing permeate in this world, is that nothing is. So enjoy the time in the darkness, it’s where you grow. Enjoy your time in the light, it’s where you shine. Enjoy the love in your life, and all the beauty that surrounds you. Life is meant to be enjoyed, and lived. Be present and don’t care what others say, the only person you have to live with is yourself.

 

Xo

-Faye