Higher Purpose

I am so amazed by the time we are currently in; there is so many wonderful transformations happening in so many people. We are all (most of us at least) are beginning to open like a beautiful flower catching the rays of the sun. Finally ready to show and share our beauty with the world; to stand out from a field of weeds.

Yesterday, I had a light bed session; for those that do not know what a light bed is, it is a 7 different colored lights that coordinate to each charka. Attached to the light is crystals, so when the light comes through the crystals it aligns your charkas. It’s is basically a faster version of reiki, without having someone in the room with you (at least not in the physical).

I asked for a 20 minute as I thought that was all I needed, well Pamela ended up keeping in there for an hour; I guess spirit had other plans for me.  Needless to say, that is why I had all the vision and experiences that I did. Upon first laying down, and getting the light bed situated, I was relaxed and expected nothing.

That is one thing I have learned about energy work, and really life in general. Expect nothing and you can never be disappointed. Expect nothing and you will gain so much more. That was a tough lesson for me to learn, but here we are; and I finally get it! Haha.

Anyways back to the light bed, once everything was in place, and I was alone I instantly left my body. I saw vision of my grandmother, she had so many things to tell me and to show me. For the first few minutes I cried my eyes out, I was pouring my heart out to someone and everything just came out like a tidal wave of emotions. It was a very beautiful, touching moment for me (& I am sure it was just as touching for the other person).

After that was done, I started to focus on the blue flashing light (which is one of the light colors), when I saw a black, human shaped figure walk out of it. Spirit told me that it was chosen. That my purpose here is to help others see the depth in life, that we are connected and that love is the most powerful tool we have. That through my books, my blog and any other endeavors I do this will be successful because people will always be drawn to my light, and to my love. Spirit also told me that it is my time to spread love, in the times of darkness. Humans forget how easily they fall into the trap of darkness, it is so easy to hate someone who has wronged you, or hurt you but love is hard. It is hard to understand why someone has sent you mistreatment. Which is mostly them projecting how they feel about themselves onto you, in my experience acts of hatred, violence and anything negative is a silent cry for help or for love.

Spirit also told me “Money is meaningless, it is the root to our destruction” Which to be honest, I totally agree with. Money is one of the most meaningless things we have in this world. People hold so much value to it which is such nonsense. Judging someone by how much money they make, or how much is in their bank account is a wonderful way to miss out on the beautiful, meaningful parts of life.

Grandma reminded me to be easy on myself, to continue listening to myself and finding the power that comes with it. Love who I am, and do what makes my soul shine. It was a beautiful reminder that actually brought me to tears. Let’s be honest, every time I see or feel grandma I cry. The love I have for her is deeper than words can even express.

While I was out of my body, I felt energy go into my body, it was tingling and cold but so wonderful. This happened twice, as I assume my body needed some sort of healing done to it. Spirit often likes to get us out of the way whenever they can, since we often get in our own way and block what needs healed.

Spirit also showed me a glimpse of my future, which made me cry…again. I am easily moved to tears, especially when something is so beautiful and surrounded by love. I am not going to go into detail with this as it is personal but it was everything I could ever ask for, and everything I have ever wanted. Truly a divine love sent from the universe.

After seeing that spirit told me that everything is working out in divine timing, to hold space for this person as they are going through the same things as I am. (Only they don’t understand it and feel super crazy and confused by it all. Which to be fair, I am too but at least I kinda get it. Haha). To keep working on mending the broken pieces of myself, keep loving myself, keep listening and always be thankful. Everything will come to you sooner than you know, just be patient.

So all in all I was actually given answers, instead of more question. Thanks universe, it isn’t often that this happens, so I will take it. Haha.

I have known that turning 30 will be a huge turning point for me, where I used to hate turning 30, I now embrace it. My 20’s have been a decade of heart break, love, letting go, moving on, finding myself and re finding myself. Everything we go through has a higher purpose, it may not seem like it while we are going through situations but everything we go through is in our best interest.

Life is about finding the good in the bad, seeing the positive side of things makes life a little easier.  Let things flow, fighting them only makes them more difficult. Smile, laugh as often as you can, and never take yourself seriously.

 

xoxo

Transformation has begun

The past few weeks have been pretty crazy for me. The effects of the attunement are starting to settle down; and I am starting to understand the newness that I so strongly feel. It is hard for things to stay the same when so much has changed within you.

I have been slowly but surely getting rid of more and more stuff; getting rid of all the things I don’t love and bring no joy to my life. It only makes sense since I have been purging so much within myself; getting rid of all those things that no longer serve me. I am finally ready to reach my highest potential and all that comes along with it.

This attunement has shown me that I NEED to start trusting myself, every answer to every question is within me. Along with trusting myself, I need to trust in my abilities, whatever they are. They have been starting to show themselves more and more, I often feel as if I am going crazy but I know that it is all just an adjustment period.

I have entered a part of my life where I am finally the most important thing to me. It’s time to give myself all the love, I give so freely to others. This started almost a year ago when I stopped eating meat, something I had always wanted to go but never had the courage to do. And when I started going by Faye, everything began to change, I just didn’t notice it. Going by a name that actually fit me and was fitting to all the spiritual growth I have undergone. Now comes the time where I start taking care of my body even more, and start working out again. After I take a walk, hit the punching bag, or hula hoop it makes me feel so wonderful about myself; and I need more of that. I owe it to myself.

I am weeks away from my book being published and starting an entirely new chapter of my life; one I have waiting years for. I have re-written, added, and taken out parts of my book but it’s finally ready. It is perfect. A wonderful friend of mine completed my cover so I am just waiting for it to arrive in the mail. I am so excited to see where this part of my life takes me, it is quite literally a part of my soul written on paper for the world to read.

What is the point of having experiences if you cannot share them. I am a firm believer of using your experiences to inspire and empower others. Let your vulnerability shine through, people can pick up on the realness you have to offer; they can see the beauty that shines in a heart of truth.

I don’t know where this road where lead me but I do know it will somewhere more beautiful than I could ever imagine.

 

xo

Everything is connected

I was talking to a friend the other day about all the things that are going on. She a connection that I never thought of; one that I find insanely fascinating. The flooding, hurricanes, wildfires, and earthquakes; they are the elemental’s. Earth, Air, Fire, and Water….isn’t that a crazy connection!? So it makes me think, where does spirit come into play? What is mother earth trying to tell us?

There is a message to all that is going on, its just hard to say what it is. All that we can do for now is give love to our great mother and to send love out into the world. We need love most of all now, more than ever.

It is time for humanity to step into love, and into the age of understanding. We are better than we’ve been acting, we are better than all this. We are beings of love, it is the only truth, it is the only answer.

Hold love within yourself, for yourself, so that you can bring that into the world.

 

xoxo

Times of transformation…

On Wednesday I got one of my attunements for my reiki master class. The last time I got a reiki attunement was four years ago, when I finished level two. It took me months to feel anything from it; but this time it totally different.

This time it took a matter of hours to start feel myself being cleansed. It started with my sinuses acting up but that has now subsided. The main issues I have felt today besides being tired is my throat hurting. It hurts to the point that I have all but lost my voice, when it was fine yesterday. Thinking about this actually makes me smile in gratitude. I know that I am adjusting to the new state of being and existing and that this is a needed part of my beautiful transformation. I believe my throat is being cleansed for one of two reasons; either I need this time to be still, to be quiet with my thoughts or  it is to rid myself of the blocks in my communication so that I may easily and accurately express the ways I am feeling.

I have always had a hell of a time saying how I feel, which I have always found rather funny, since writing comes so easily to me. Everything I don’t know how to say just seamlessly pours out of my fingers with ease without thinking twice. Speaking doesn’t do most emotions justice, if something leaves me in complete awe and wonder no words can make you feel that; only energy can make you feel that. When you write you put your energy into it. You leave a little piece of yourself behind in every sentence you write.

Speaking has always been difficult for me as I often trip over my tongue, so to speak, thinking far too fast for my mouth to say how I feel. Often times I am unable to bring myself to say things out loud because than it’s real, and being real can come to a punch in the face at times. I feel everything so passionately and so deeply that every moment touches my soul in a deeply profound way.

The relationships that I have with others are all cherished, my emotions simply run so deeply. That is why this time of reflection is so important for me, this is also why I have felt the need to unplug from the world lately. To get lost in a new experience and see where it takes me; too see what I find.

Life can become so mundane and dull if we allow it to be, often looking beyond the beauty that surrounds us every day. When you see the same things everyday it becomes easy to take them for granted, to lose your appreciation for them. It can become easy to forget why you fell in love in the first place, but only if you allow yourself too.

I often move things around, removing things that no longer make my heart overflow with love. If the things in my home do not add to my happiness or to the love that resides within me, than it has no place in my home or in my heart. This is really true for life in general, if the things and people we surround ourselves with do not aid in our light, and make our hearts overflow with love than they have no purpose in our lives.

It is so simple.

Life is a beautiful work of art, at times it may be abstract and other times it may be realism, either way it is a masterpiece and moves you in some way.

 

xoxo