We are all connected

I know it isn’t often that I share from my journal but this, this is just too perfect not to share…..

“….There are so many times I see my spirit wolf, Sheba. In my dreams she shows me the freedom I once had, when I too was a wolf. It is in her that I learned the power of the dark. How, if you let it, it can totally transform every ounce of your being. It is in the darkness where you find your strength, courage, wisdom, growth and truth. This is nothing to fear, but to be embraced. We cannot have darkness without light, for the darkness is where we find our light; it’s where we find ourselves.

This reminds me of the shadow self because the shadow is too associated with darkness. We put all the bits of ourselves that we deem unacceptable, and push them down and ignore them until they ultimately take on a life of their own. We must align with our darkness and use it is a source of power rather than a source of weakness.

I have found the realist, truest parts of myself that where hidden in the dark. It wasn’t until I found these buried treasures that I began to love myself; to reach a state of love that I didn’t even know existed. I cannot be half of anything, it is all or nothing. I am no longer willing to be half of myself to make someone else comfortable, I am who I am for better or worse. Take me as I am or leave me as I am, either way I am still me and I am still happy.

I know that everyone is not going to like me, or like the things I say. I know that I will always be “too much” for some people, and that is okay, but for those that I do connect with, they only enrich my life, and surround me with more love. I know that I am a deep woman, and that most men and even some woman are intimidated by this, and that is okay too. I live my life for myself, and no one else. I have always put my needs above everything else, to some this may seem selfish, but I call it self-care. If I am not happy, I cannot make another happy.  There are even days when I am more wolf than woman. Times when I want to howl at the moon, and run free in the woods. Other times, I am perfectly happy being the strong, beautiful, powerful, sexy woman that I am.

My point is we are all connected, we are all one. The love, kindness and compassion you give to another will spread and grow. Find yourself, all of yourself. Love that person, because you deserve the love you so freely give to others. Once you become a beacon of light and love, you will want nothing more but to help another. We all have times where we stray too far from our path, we all need picked up from time to time.

 

Be someone’s beacon of hope, of love, and of compassion.

Spread love and kindness everywhere you go,

& it will ALWAYS find it way back to you.

Put love into everything you do,

& you will never be unhappy.

 

Because love can move mountains

Love can heal even the deepest of wounds.

 

Love makes everything possible

And without it we have nothing.”

 

xo

 

Let Love In

We can blame others for our actions and mistakes but at the end of the day, they are choices that we made. We are only responsible for ourselves, we are the only ones to place “blame” on.

I, myself, have never understood the whole regret thing, either regretting things you have done or haven’t done. It is such a big part of our society to regret that choices you have made, and to this I say why regret it? In that moment it is exactly what you wanted, you felt that was the best choice so you went for it. Most regrets come from nights of drinking too much alcohol, and waking up in a haze. This too seems to be a rite of passage in our society, which I have never understood. Alcohol does more harm than good, and is so easy to become addicted too. Using it as a crutch to not deal with your emotions or as a way to cope with life. We all go through darkness in our lives and it is all in the choices we make in where that darkness takes us. It can either makes us stronger, or it can destroy us; it is simply up to us.

The regrets of people on their death bed breaks my heart, wishing they had been more open to love, telling those they love how much they mean to them. Living a life of happiness for themselves, instead living a life for others. Why are we so afraid of what others will think of us that we can life our entire lives miserable with the grand illusion of happiness? I don’t get it, I never have. Be happy, live the life you want for yourself and no one else. Let the world inspire you, be kind to one another and let love lead the way. Be open to love and new experiences.  Don’t allow yourself to be molded by the guidelines of life set by society. Those guidelines lead to misery and unfulfillment.

Most of us can fake it, but for how long? There will come a day when you see your life has been a lie, and then what? It is never too late to change your life, and find love and happiness within yourself. The world needs more rule brakes, more kindness and more love. Take the time to look within yourself, mend the broken pieces and find love. It will take you so many wonderful places in this life; places you never knew exist. Love transforms, love enriches and love is infectious.

It all beginnings and ends with us, do the self-work first and it will show itself in every aspect of your life.

 

xo

 

Shifting

I can see the shift happening all around me; even in those that who are not “spiritual” or are diligent in self-reflection. I am sure I have had this before, it is such a powerful time right now. The full moon brought massive release and new beginnings; it also opened the lion’s gate portal which has only amplified things for us.

When I did my full moon ritual several days ago, I made my husband part take, which I often leave optional for him. This moon, however, I didn’t give him the option; he wrote down everything he wanted to get rid of and we started the ritual. The full moon ritual is always a cleansing time for me but this moon was much more intense than times before, stripping every unwanted, unneeded part of me away so that only the raw truth could shine through. I must say, it was a bit overwhelming; it lead me to look into the deepest, darkest parts of myself. Which has been rather cleansing and has given me a sense of renewal. What the full moon, the lion’s gate, and the universe has given me is a blank slate; something I was told months ago in a tarot card reading. I had felt the blank slate in small bits, here and there, seeing it in my mediations and dreams but now, I feel all of it. I can sense it, feel it and practically touch it. Along with it I see a huge transformation on the horizon for all of us; we will not leave this month the same as we entered it. That I know for sure.

As for my husband, I see him evolving and growing in ways that I always knew he could but never took the time too. The full moon has helped him on a level I don’t think he anticipated. I see all his anger and worry being washed away but with it a sensitive state has settled in its place. I have told him to look deeper into that, as there is a reason why that has come to surface. I know that I am not the most sensitive person when it comes to feelings of others. I tell people how I feel, spew it all out and I feel better and am done with it. It is the true nature of a Sagittarius. I do not take the feelings of others into account, it is really only about me. So his sensitivity has been a deal of work for both of us, and perhaps that is why it has settled in. We both need to work on it together.

A lot of old stuff is being trudged up from our past so that it can be removed, I have noticed most people struggling with this, fighting it every bit of the way. Either not understanding what is happening, brushing it off, or most commonly pushing it down hoping that it will go away somehow. This is the time of self-reflection, the time of releasing old traumas, and moving away from patterns of being that no longer serve us. The time is now, the time is here for growth, expansion, and evolving. We cannot stay the same any longer, the universe and our great mother demands more of us; and they always get their way.

Perspective

As I was writing in my journal this morning, I was guided to pick a single card from my fairy deck. This card would represent where I, and the world are currently at in this process of spiritual ascension….

6 of Autumn

The autumn season replaces coins in traditional tarot, and is the element of earth.

Meaning:
The good you do come back to you
Replaying debts
Balance in giving and receiving
Providing what is truly needed
Unexpected inflow of money

I must say this truly is the perfect card for the current time, at least for me.

I have always said life is about perspective. But perspective means nothing if it doesn’t change, grow and evolve.

As this time has been impactful for all us, for me, it has been a time a deep gratitude and kindness. Kindness to others, but mostly to myself. In this time of transformation alot of my darkness has surrounded me; to make me stronger and grow more than I thought I could. This darkness pushes me, driving me to the best soul I can be. This is where i found my gratitude; having these out of body experiences have allowed me to see beyond my eyes. It allows me too see just how truly incredible the human body is; by simply thinking of moving your hand…it moves. Incredible.

I have gained a entirely new, beautiful, grateful perspective of life; body, mind, and soul. And just how beautiful it is when they all align in a state of peace, comfort and love.

xo

Find your identity

I see on social media everywhere how people act  when they are in relationship with someone, that person becomes their world. They seem to lose their identity in the other person, when I see this I often wonder why people let this happen. This is why it becomes so difficult to leave negative relationships; you start to think “Who am I without them?” and we are often left with the answer being “Nothing.” But why!? It doesn’t have to be this way, and what does it accomplish for us? Putting everything in another person’s hands, more often than not, nothing good can come from it.

Relationships are supposed to enhance our lives, not become them. We are meant to have our own lives with our own goals and accomplishments; to be independent in the things we do. So then when we come together we can enrich each other’s lives. To be happy with yourself and in your life, can only bring more happiness into the relationship you share with another. We are meant to have our hobbies, passions, and jobs. We are meant to spend time apart so that we can appreciate the time spend together. We’re meant to expand our partner’s view of the world by allowing them to step into our world; by doing things that we wouldn’t ordinarily do.

I love my husband, he is one of the most important people in my life, but if I had to spend every moment with him I would go crazy! I need time away from him, to do the things that I love. I need time for myself, by myself. I feel that, that is one of the most important parts of a healthy relationship. I could be all wrong but this is what has worked so well for me. My whole point is don’t lose yourself when you’re in a relationship, all you truly have is yourself, own t and love it.

Another way out…

I think I may have went over this topic before but I feel the need to speak out about it once again…..

Depression is a cruel, ugly monster. It starts out small, and seemingly meaningless ways but eventually grows bigger and digs its roots deeper over time. Leaving is feeling that we are alone, that there is no way out, and we will feel like that forever. I am here to tell you that depression is a liar!!

You are NOT alone, I know that it may seem this way but I can guarantee you that someone you know is dealing with the same things that you are, they just don’t talk about it. We see all the filters on Instagram and Social media as a whole, we are so good at adding a “happy” filter that it only leave us more drained and more depressed. We are not robots, we have emotions for a reason. We need truth, realness and authenticity; we need to feel that we are not alone. Talk to someone you trust about the ways your feeling, you may be surprised to know they are going through the same or similar things that you are.

There is always a way out, you have to find it. Fight those negative voices in your head; they have never served you well in the first place. Replace them with positive thoughts, ones that make you smile or laugh. Laughter is the best medicine, it can make you feel happy even when you’re not. Forever is a long time, don’t let a passing storm of depression take up space in your beautiful blue sky. Don’t give into it, fight it!

Look within yourself, see what is missing. Love yourself, give yourself the love and kindness you easily give to others, you are just as deserving as they are of love and happiness. Forgive yourself for the past, and stop worrying about the future. Be in the present, this is the only time you will ever be this old. This is the only time you can make memories, the only time you can feel alive!

Please know that suicide is not the answer, I know that it may feel like it but it isn’t. You have so many lives left to touch, and to touch yours. Talk to someone about the ways your feeling, reach out. We all live in a world were social media rules all, we wait for nothing and judge everything and everyone; and have no patience.  This is a society of lies and falsities.  It may seem like the end of the world when your peers do not accept you, or when you don’t fit in.

There were many times I didn’t have any friends at all, I would go to school and come home. It was a bummer that I wasn’t experiencing the same things as all the other kids in school but I also didn’t want to fit in if it meant I had to fake everything about myself. High school is not the best time of your life, it is only the beginning of it. I will be 30 this year, and the best times of my life have only begun. So please, don’t feel that life won’t get better because it will! Remember when someone calls you names or whatever, it says more about them than you.

You are beautiful, you are strong, and you are light. Love who you are, the good and the bad. Love all of you, that is where your power lies and once you’ve found that you will be a unstoppable force to reckoned with.

 

Xoxo

 

p.s.- Sorry to my absence I have wonderful news I want to share with all of you! Due to all the love we have spread through my blog and Instagram I have decided to open a boutique filled with things that bring me joy and love. Spreading of love, and positive vibes for everyone. The shop will be opening soon, if anyone would like to join I will leave a link below. ❤

https://www.facebook.com/groups/1085232378279355/