The past few days have been a whorl wind of activity for me. Over the past weekend my husband and I had east coast rally x nationals; which my father and mother-in law joined us for. Sunday was the full moon, and yesterday was my husband’s 30th birthday. So needless to say, I have been catching up on everything from sleep to laundry.
Rally X was fun as always, I enjoy taking the photos for the event. As it is a way for me to share the experience with my husband and I just have a blast. I love watching each driver’s different approach to the course, and how different each car is. Everyone, for the most part, is nice and pleasant to talk to. I do love meeting new people, especially those different from who I’d normally meet. Every time my husband goes up to race I send him all the positive energy, and reiki I can, I like to think it helps even if it doesn’t. haha.
People were getting to me so much over the course of this trip and instead of running my mouth, like I normally would, I decided to take a different approach. I got quite, and went inside my head. Taking some deep breathes, thinking “This is happening for a reason, there is a lesson to learn here. What is the lesson?” Most of the time the answer I came up with was Patience. Not to take the negative energy given to me, and make it my own, only to spew more negativity. Instead, I did not accept the negativity given to me, and took the high road. Releasing what is not mine, so that I could be at peace.
On the way home Sunday, I noticed all that this trip has shown and taught me. I noticed how far I have come in my own growth and expansion. The old me would have complained about everything, being muddy, dirty, hot, and tired. Basically everything and anything that could be complained about, I would have complained about it. This time that was the role of my mother-in law. She showed me just how annoying I used to be, how needy I was and how I had the insistent need to control every aspect of everything. Rather than complain, I said “I need to eat soon” or “I could use a break from the sun.” It sends the message of what I need without annoying and draining everyone.
I noticed that complaining over every little thing is so draining, and kills the overall vibe. Sometimes we try so hard to be part of something, that we over try and overdo it. Which makes everyone not want to around you, and creates more distance. This is how it was for most of us; we all have our own routines and go our own ways that we do not need to told what to do. Even though she made things difficult, we still managed to have a lot of fun and meet new people. It just makes me so thankful and grateful that I am no longer that way. I am now able to relax, and go with the flow.
The full moon was much needed for me, we got home just in time for me to do my full moon ritual. Since I had missed the past two, I was in desperate need of this moon. When I dumped sage into my pot, I must have dumped a lot in, as it didn’t take long for the garage to completely fill with smoke. As I cleansed myself, I felt everything lift off of me. You never know the weight you carry until it’s gone, that’s for sure. As the sage engulfed my entire being I felt a tingling on my back, right above my heart charka. I asked some friends about this and was told it was the Higher Heart Charka. Since then I have been reading as much as I can about this charka, as it is a new charka to humanity. It is completely fascinating to me.
Since the full moon, and everything that has happened over the weekend, I am more thankful than ever for how far I have come, and all the changes I have made along the way.
We always have the potential to be better, it is up to use to choose to be.