I have been so unlike myself in so many ways. Becoming everything I am, and discarding everything I am not. With that comes a huge transition, one of which I wasn’t prepared for.
I cry so often now, not because I’m sad but because everything is so beautiful. I am easily moved to tears by even the simplest of things. Gentle, and soft is who I’ve been lately. I am still rough around the edges but, for now at least, they seem to be unimportant.
There have been moments, often just as I wake up, where I think of how lucky all of us are to be alive. All the wonderful things we are capable of; all the beauty that lives within us. This human experience is something so different from any other. As I see through my eyes, I wonder how others see the world and what filters they still have attached to their eyes. I see the world differently than most, I know. Seeing all the beauty that is surrounds us, the butterfly sitting in the sun warming his wings, the caterpillar crossing the road, the birds singing, the baby deer prancing across the field but how do others see? Do they focus on the negative side of life, or the positive? What moves them to tears? What sadness do they carry with them? These are all things I think about in my time alone. It is just absolutely incredible to me how we even exist in the first place, what a magical experience indeed.
I find myself wondering how I got here, to this beautiful place and how lucky I am to be surrounded with love. Love that I’ve carved into my life and into my soul. The closer I become my true self, the stronger I feel the connected I am to all things. I have never had so much confidence or self-love; now wondering why I ever treated myself so harshly to begin with.
A lot of things have changed, myself included. I am never the same person from day to day; my transformation is proof of that. I have learned so much in life but what I see more clearly than ever is love is the true magic of the universe. It can brake all barriers, it can defeat hate and it fills us with more bliss then we knew existed. Love multiples, it is contagious once ignited and what a beautiful sight to see indeed.