We are only two days into the new month and already there is much beauty to be found. The birds are singing their songs, the flowers are blooming, there is a cool breeze blowing and the sun is shining. I feel light and free, expect for one thing…..
Today as I awaken from the night of rest I find myself feeling as if I have come to the end of the road. I have not lost my faith in the universe, or the positive energies that surround me; I simply feel I am at the end of the road I’ve created for myself. When I look down at my feet I see a blacktop road with grass and flowers growing all around it. When I look behind me I see the forest from which I came, and all that I have fought through to get here. I see all the lessons, and growth that I have done while in the forest, and my time there is complete (at least for now.) When I look in front of me I see a wide open filed, with tall grass and wild flowers blowing in a gentle breeze. I am not at a cross roads, I am at a standstill.
I am at a new beginning, this chapter has come to a close and this is where a new starts. When I look out into the open field of opportunity, I see so many paths I could take, but which is right for me, I am undecided. For now, I just rest, I feel the breeze touch my face so gentle, I smell the lovely scents of the flowers, I take a moment to see how far I have come, and what still needs to be done.
It is at the moment, when I feel lost. That my since of purpose has been lost to me and I know must regain what I once saw and felt so clearly. I must reinvent myself, or shed the skin that binds me. I have out grown so much in this life but what I have really changed in the physical world, I hang out with the same people, I do the same things, and I see the same things in my home every day. So with all the growth I have done, I have not changed my surroundings, maybe this is what the new chapter will bring.
For now, I am amazed at how far I have come and who I have become. There is always work to be done, but for now I am grateful for all the lessons the forest has taught me. Without which I wouldn’t be the woman I am today. Tomorrow is another day, and another step forward. I am excited to see what this next chapter holds for me.