Love yourself

This is the first of many videos I hope to bring to you. I want to spread light and love to all of you and understand how powerful YouTube can be to achieve this. My goal is to bring you videos weekly, to keep you inspired and growing. I love all of you, without your support none of this could be possible. xoxo


Messages from above

Over the past few days, something has been recurring that I only began to notice yesterday.  When I was driving home from the store yesterday, I saw a red tail hawk fly seemingly out of the nowhere and fly right in front of my car.  I saw him clearly, and was taken aback by the beauty he offered me. I then got the urge to look at the clock and it read 12:12. I smiled as I understood that there was a message that I was being told.

I then looked back, and noticed that for the past week I have seen red tail hawks everywhere, always followed by seeing 12:12 or a number pattern of some sort. I knew that this did not happen by coincidence; as I do not believe in coincidences. Everything that has happened was meant to happen; the universe is simply working itself out. I told myself when I got home I had to look up the meaning of a hawk spirit animal, as well as the meaning of 1212. I had looked up the meaning of it before but I couldn’t remember what the meaning was.

As soon as I got in the door, I looked up the meaning of 1212 which is, symbolizes your spiritual growth and awakening, manifestation of your dreams, and awareness of your infinite being. You should continue to remain positive frame of mind and steer your thoughts in the direction of your dominant ambition. As soon as I read this, I remembered reading it before. It all became clear with a sentence or two; I am on my way to my life mission. Helping everyone see how beautiful they are, for them to feel it, to radiate it and embrace it. Embracing themselves for everything they are, and everything they are not. Inspire others to let go, to be free and find their own truth.

I then looked up the meaning of the hawk, once again I was understanding the message I was being sent. Hawk is often a messenger from Angels, Devas and the Divine. He signals a time in your life when you need to focus on what’s ahead and prepare for a leadership role. Your global vision is a potent helpmate in this. Just as the Hawk, you are ready to fly higher than ever before.

It is not unusual for Hawk to inspire a time when you begin working heavily with new divination methods. Effectively you’re learning to trust your own inner guidance and Higher Self. Do not simply brush off gut instincts as being happenstance. After reading this, I had a huge smile of my face and started to laugh. I just love how we are sent messages, if we pay attention they tell us everything we need to know.

Lately, I have been hooping out of the control. I has been on my mind constantly, so much so that I even dream about it. It is something that I love and cherish. It makes my goddess energy come alive, and surrounds my being with the feminine. I haven’t been so committed or passionate about something new in a long time. I know that hopping has found me for a reason not yet known to me but that it will aid me in the future somehow.

We all ask for signs at some point in our lives, we ask for them but are seemingly blind when they are given to us. In order to receive the signs you ask for, you must stay open you must see everything for how it is and not how you wish it to be. Pay attention, be present.


World Water Day


Today is world water day! Lets do our part today (& everyday) to spread awareness! There is over 700 million people that do not have access to clean water. There are hospitals filled with people that have water related illness; due to drinking bacteria infected water. With all of the advances that we have in the world today clean water is something that should be available to everyone. There are many places that you can donate to the wonderful cause. and, just to name a few. Third eye gems, is another that every time you purchase a bracelet they donate 30 days of clean water to someone in need. I have gotten a few bracelets from them, I love the fact that my purchase gives back to someone in need. Not to mention how beautiful the bracelets are.

If you cannot donate, then please spread the word! Lets put a end to this, lets provide clean water to each and everyone one of us!

Step out of fear

For most of my life I have been afraid. I have been afraid of what people would think of me, and my truths. I’ve been afraid that I wouldn’t fit in; that my strengths make others feel weak. I have lived in fear so long, afraid of this and that.  Today is the day I step out of the shadows, I step into my own. Today is the day I throw caution to the wind, and live my life fearlessly.

It’s all or nothing, if someone doesn’t see me as I am than it is their eyes that cannot see clearly, not mine. I am a fairy goddess nurturing the things I care for. I am a free spirit flowing with the wind and wherever it takes me. Fear is no longer an option, it is only a restraint. I have stepped into my being and into my strength for the first time in my life.

I am here, I am present, and I am unafraid.

Never give up & Never quit fighting

Today is the first day of spring, or the spring equinox. The energy leading up to today has been exhausting to say the least. I have felt myself releasing; to which I wonder how much can really be left…..apparently a lot. I’ve felt my body, mind and soul upgrading to a new state of being and seeing. Sluggish and tried have been a way of life over the past few days, due to this upgrade. I see so many things changing and evolving within myself and within others. This is such an important time on this beautiful planet. Once we change ourselves inside, is when we can change the outside world.

What we have done to the planet, to our great mother is a disturbing reflection of how we all feel about ourselves. It’s all a reflection of how the majority feels on the inside, refusing to see the beauty that lives within us. Refusing to take care and nurture those innocent, sweet parts of ourselves. Never really satisfied or content with anyone or anything; only wanting things to make us happy and then when we have them no longer wanting them. What I don’t understand is why we think this is okay, why don’t people spend time outside anymore? How is destroying the beauty forests progress? (The world doesn’t need more houses, or more shopping malls.) Are we that ego driven to think that anything we create is more beautiful than anything mother could create? These are the kinds of things I think about. Anyways, more to the point….

Once we began to love the person within us, once we began to nurture, and take care of this beauty is when we will began to take care of our environment. If we take care of ourselves, than we will take care of nature. Everything we do is a reflection ourselves, whether we like to acknowledge that or not.  When the majority steps out of the shadows and into their own light and their own power is when we will see major things changing. (Let me tell you its coming….I can feel it. So many things have changed and been released it’s so clear we are about to step into a whole new period of being and existing) The simple truth is we need a revolution of love. A call to action for each and every one of us to love the beauty and light that is within us. We need to step into our own power and strength. Yes, there are parts of ourselves that we all don’t like to see or face but those are the parts that we need to face the most. It is the key that unlocks a whole new world, a world that has been waiting for you for your entire life. It’s the world of freedom. Free from fear, shame, pride, ego and everything you have wanted to cleanse yourself of.

You can do your part to spread love every day. Walk around with a smile on your face, if you aren’t having the best day think of something that makes you happy and watch a smile appear. It is the simplest of things but can make all the difference to someone. Say “Thank You”, show your gratitude to others. Be kind. When a negative thought comes into your mind, quickly change it to something positive. Slow down and take time to feel the warmth on the sun on your skin, to feel how unimportant all that stress, worry and drama is. Remember what is really important, put things in perspective. These are all things that help make the world a little better each day, positivity spreads like wild fire once started. You never know how many lives you can touch or change by doing these simple things; you may even end up changing your life.


Have a spectacular Monday everyone!! It’s a new week; there is no better time to change than the present. Never give up and never quit fighting!

Need feedback form you

Hi Everyone!

I need some feedback from all of you. I have had the idea of starting a YouTube channel to spend more positivity and love.

What are you guys thoughts on this? What type of things would you love to see/watch?

All ideas and feedback welcome, I want to hear from all of you!

Thank you, I couldn’t of gotten this far without all of your support.





Brake Free from fear

Over the weekend I was talking to my husband about not making back up plans for your back up plans. How you should put everything you have into one thing, funnel everything you have into it. Water it with love and energy and watch it grow. It’s so easy to get scattered, and be all over the place with a million ideas. You must stay focused on one thing at a time, learn the craft, practice, and get better. No one is perfect straight out of the gate; it takes time and a commitment.

Life is all about committing to things; be it a person or something you love. It’s all about getting better, growing and learning. Sometimes having no safety net is the best thing for you; it forces you to put everything you have into making whatever it is. All in, all or nothing, if this doesn’t work then I will figure it out but for now this is all I have. That is how greatness is achieved, that is how you become all that you can be. Pushing yourself beyond what you believe you’re capable of. There was a time I didn’t think I could run for one minute and then over time I ran for ten minutes! I never thought I would be able to do that but I took my time, pushing myself a little each day and I made it there.

Those are the kinds of things we are all capable of, if we only pushed ourselves harder and believed in ourselves 1000%. No doubts, No fear only faith and believing in how capable you truly are. We can do anything we set our minds to; it is only ourselves that hold us back from creating the life we want.


Brake FREE, be the CHANGE you wish to see

Dreams that change you

Last night I had the worst and realest dreams of my life. It started with me and my dad doing family research and finding out my great grandmothers old home was up for sale. So we found out where it was and went for a visit, that’s when I realized the house next door was so haunted; I could feel it across the street where we had parked. I don’t believe in good or evil (I believe that “good: and “evil” are terms humans invented to create fear in ourselves, I believe in light and dark) but this was evil, it was the darkest energy I have ever felt in my entire life. I just stood there staring at it, wondering how anyone could ever live there. (This house was too for sale). We return home, and a few days later we find out that there was a mix up and they listed my great grandmothers home wrong. It was listed as a 3 bedroom but it was only a two bedroom. So the couple that bought it ended up buying land but were staying in the house next door until there house was completed.

Somehow my dad found the number to the people who now lived in this haunted home. He dialed the number and talked to the woman who answered my dad said “I cannot help you but maybe my daughter can” and handed me the phone. The lady on the other end was so desperate for help; you could hear it in her voice. She went on to tell me that she would go to the thrift store and buy picture frames and when she’d hang them, pieces of glass would go missing from them; As if someone cut a portion out but left the rest. I asked her if she had a witch shop near her, or a rock shop, normally people there have connections to help you. She said she didn’t, I told her I didn’t know how to help but I may know some people that can. I told her to call this number back in two days and I should have some help for her. I talked to Iris and her friend Pamela for help, they said they could help this woman but she never called back. So I drove them to the house to see if everything was okay. When we got there both cars were in the driveway, when we knocked on the door it opened slightly. We said “hello” a bunch of times and no one answered. So we cautiously walked in, we found a woman in the fetal position crying on the floor. She was in the living room, there was a glass and broken pieces of stuff all over the floor, as if someone was angry and just started throwing stuff. We got her out of the house, we asked where her husband was and she told us he was away on business.

I then asked Iris if she saw something following behind her, she said that she did. It was as if the house was now attached to her and would follow her wherever she went but was also still very much in the home. We took her to a motel, we sage the crap out of her. As soon as we’d light a sage stick it would go up in flames, we ended up using quite a few. I forget what happens next but I see darkness and hear someone scream and wake up crying me eyes out.

The entire time this happened I was conscious of what was going on so I kept saying to myself, white light surrounds me, I am the light because I choose the light. I radiate light; I keep white light around me. As I did this it swirled around me, protecting me. I then said you are not welcome here, return from which you came. I said it over and over again. Each time stronger and with more power until the entire room was filled with light. I woke up crying like I have never cried from a dream before; I woke up my husband to tell him about this dream. I can still see the house as if I had truly been there, I just have no idea where it is. I can still hear this woman’s voice so desperate for help. I haven’t remembered my dreams in weeks and now this, there is a reason.

When I got myself together I saged the room and my husband, dog and myself; I was afraid to go back to sleep because I didn’t want to dream of it again. After I saged and got settled I fell asleep and slept better than I have in weeks. I have pleasant dreams after returning to sleep. So once I woke up I did a quick mediation, which my grandma quickly came to visit me. It was nice to see her; it has been quite some time since I needed her wisdom.  She told me that I cannot save everyone, and that’s okay. It isn’t my job to save the world, I can only save those who you want to be saved and it is up to them to do the work; I can only guide them in the right direction. She also told me that I am on my life path; writing is my gift to help anyone who seeks it. By sharing my stories and experience’s it shows others that they are not alone, and with a positive mind they can get through anything. That the strength and power they seek is within them waiting to be unleashed.

I have been crying on and off all morning with the power of this dream and of the mediation. I am not crying out of fear because I am not afraid, they are tears of gratefulness. I did not expect to feel this way about it but everything happens for a reason. I believed this happened to prepare me for future events that have yet to take place. I also get the feeling that someone close to me may pass away and that no matter what I do I cannot save them because they do not want to be saved. In a way this dream was healing for me, as crazy as that may sound, I am so grateful for this dream and where it has taken me.

In the words of my grandma “Leave the world a little better than how you found it; touch every person that crosses your path, that’s how you change lives.”


Dog Life

Yesterday I took my dog, Norman to the vet for his yearly checkup. In the previous times he has gone to the vet he has been a hand full, so I asked my mom to come along with me for back up. As soon as we walked into the vet’s office, he began to panic.  I check him in, got his weight and they put us in a room. He was clearly stressed, he started to shake and shiver; shedding hair like it’s going out of style. I sat on the floor with him, which helped. My mom and I were talking to him, petting him in hopes of claiming his nerves.

The vet tech came in and he tried to hide behind me; I told the tech that he didn’t like the table and it would only lead to further stress on his part. So she examined him on the floor as best as she could. He didn’t allow her to get his temperature, or for her to even touch him. I tried to show her his teeth and inside his ears as best as I could. She left and we waited for the doctor to come in. During this time we got him to calm down, he actually sat calmly on the floor while we waited. He looked relaxed and at peace that we were there with him.

Then the doctor came in, she was unable to get on the floor due to her back problems, so he had no choice but to go up on the table. Which lead to him being instantly panicked and stressed again; the vet tech had to hold him down because he tried multiple times to jump off the table. Which would have resulted in him probably breaking his legs; he wiggled trying to get away but he couldn’t. I tried petting him to help calm him but that did not seem to help. He allowed the vet to examine him, as if he had a choice. She finished the exam and it was time for his shots; this visit he had to get 4. He took them like a champ, and got a treat at the end; which he would only take from my mom since she did not part take in the shots of the exam. Norman was mad at me all day, but he got over it when he wanted mama cuddles.

This morning his shoulder seems to be sore, and he hasn’t eaten anything. I am going to keep a close eye on him today; I may end up calling the vet just to be sure that he doesn’t need to go back. He is resting now, so we’ll see how the day goes.

He can be very dramatic when he wants to be, but he can also be just as loving. He doesn’t understand that mama takes him to the vet because I love him and not to torture him.

Where do you come from?

A few years ago I got interested in my family history; I wanted to know where I came from. At that time my grandfather was still alive so I asked him everything; I knew he was my link to all the history that would be lost when he was gone. He was happy that someone was taking an interest in our family history since no one had before. My father and I took months, and months digging up every ounce of information we could find. We took trips to graveyards, to libraries, and the archives. It got to a point where we became stuck, we hit a dead end and that is where we stopped. Soon after that my grandfather passed away and completing the family history seemed like something that I could put off.

Well yesterday I went with my parents to visit my great-grandparents resting place; my mom had never been there. Visiting the graveyard has re-sparked my interest in finishing what I had started years ago. So here I am again, looking through census records and death records trying to piece the puzzle together. I’m learning a few things I never noticed before, which is always exciting. I still am at that dead end I was at before but I’m hoping that looking at everything with fresh eyes and a new perspective will help me find the information I have been searching for.

Family is an important part of our lives; they imprint so much on us at such young ages. They are a part of us, all of them, how can we know ourselves if we do not know where we come from.