Automatic Writing

Today I feel so light and just free. I feel as if everything is falling into place for the new year. That everything I have ever wanted is right in front of me, I simply must continue to work hard and stay focused. Everything I have ever needed is inside of me.  I feel so light; it is almost as if I am floating above it all. Yet at the same time, I am grounded to the great mother. I feel her love within me, and I am grateful for her. I know with each passing storm, or wildfire there is a purpose, a cleansing that is taking place. It is the way it must be, the only way to build a new is to through destruction and devastation. For it is in times such as these that we remember what is truly important, we reconnect with our true selves and leave behind any illusions of who we should be. There is a great shift on the way, into the next phase of humanity. I can feel it, the phase were we live among ourselves the way we were always meant to; through peace, love, and compassion. It is the only way we were ever meant to live, with our great mother and all her creatures.  Love will overcome everything, it is everything we are, and it is all we are. Without love we are nothing, incomplete and empty. The time of transformation is upon us, it can be seen all around us. The animals speak to us, we must listen. They will show us the way, we must follow.

I don’t normally share my automatic writings but I feel as if this is too important not to share, that I was actually meant to share this. Stay positive everyone, i know things are crazy right now. Just hang in there, it will pass. Stay  in a positive space, stay close to things and people that make you feel alive. Everything is about to change for the better.

Radiate Truth & Love

Over the past few days I have had this feelings of sadness. I didn’t know if it was the moon playing with me, if there was a release on the way, or if it wasn’t mine at all. I have mediated on this, with little result. That is until last night.

As most of you that read my blog know I’ve recently found my twin flame. This has not been an easy thing for me, but it was meant to be this way. I am starting to understand this, as I am starting to see everything clearly now. Last night before I went to bed I asked my guides, higher self and the universe to help me remember my dreams, since lately I haven’t been. Which did not work but something better happened, I found clarity.

Before I had went to bed I was writing in a forum asking about twin flames. I was telling everyone how I was feeling about mine. How I have begun to miss him, which is silly because we are always connected. That I wish to see his smile, yearn for his touch, and crave his energy. That I wish we were more of friends, that he wasn’t so afraid. How I know that he is protecting me, and himself. Using others as safety nets so nothing happens; using alcohol as a safety net for words that he truly means but can easily blame on the booze. I know that I have to be patient with him and with deep connections like these.

I then got settled and went to bed. I woke up at 3 am and was wide awake. I then got this message of why I was sad, my higher-self had not allowed me to remember my dream but instead allowed me to see what I was feeling and why I was feeling it. All of this sadness I had been feeling was because I feel as if I am cheating on my husband emotionally.

Even thought my twin and I are only friends our connection is so deep and profound that I feel guilty. I know that this is nothing to feel guilty about. My husband is the last person I ever want to hurt, or feel like he isn’t enough for me. I know that a twin connection is hard for everyone to understand, including the twins themselves. I don’t love my husband any less, if anything my twin has opened my heart to a deeper truer sense of love. Which in return has made me only grow deeper in love with my husband. There is no other man I would want to spend my life with. Even with the twin connection in front of me, I only see my husband. He is my soulmate after all, and that is a connection special and profound in its own right.

He shows me more love than I have ever been given. He has helped me grow into the beautiful being that I am. The love I that radiates from me, is not only the love I have for myself, but the love that he gives me. I have never doubted our love, I know that it is everything divine and true. So looking back at me feeling guilty for my twin connection seems meaningless and unimportant. There is no reason to be sad, or filled with negativity of any kind. The love that we share is special, it’s all-encompassing and shines so brightly. My husband is better than the man of my dreams, better than any fairy tale. He has shown me one of the most important lessons of my life; love is the key to life. Once you find it, hold on to it and never let go.

Twin Flame

Twin flames, two souls cut seamlessly from the same energy. Some believe them to be real, others say they aren’t and most have never heard of them. Soulmates on the other hand, everyone has heard of. They both bring divine love into our lives but they are so different from each other.

A soulmate is someone who we have loved before, in many lifetimes. Often people think of finding their soulmate to be like something off a romantic movie. That when they find their soulmate they will live happily ever after in a fairy tale love; the thing that most people seem to ignore is a soulmate will break away everything comfortable. That’s their purpose; they will strip away your walls, and teach you how to live without them. They will show you more love then you have felt in your entire life.

My husband is my soulmate, I knew from the moment I met him that he was different than all the others that came before him. It wasn’t until our first kiss that I knew we would get married. In one moment my life changed forever, that is how soulmate love is. You simply know.  He has changed my life in so ways, just like I have changed his. Its connections like these that show us just how important love is and how it can transform us.

What most people don’t know is that soulmate’s aren’t just romantic in nature. Soulmates are all around us. My dog is one of my soulmates. Our connection is deep and goes back into many lifetimes. I love him on such a deep level; there aren’t even words to express it.  Another of my soulmates is my best friend. She is like a sister to me, when I see her which isn’t often it’s like no time has passed at all. She is a free spirit in every sense of the word, and I love her so much for it.

Then there is the twin flame, the only other being that has the same energy as you.  I believe that I have met my twin, simply because of the way I am drawn to him and how he makes me feel.  I am drawn to him like a magnet. Now before I get to ahead of myself let me explain what I know about twins. Twins are cut from the same energy, everyone has a twin flame. They are divine love in the purest, truest sense of the word. When you begin to see 11:11 your twin flame is about to come into your life, or already has.  From the moment I met him, I was fascinated by his energy; which is something that happens so rarely I couldn’t tell you the last time it happened. After talking to him for a short period of time I knew that he was unlike any other person I had ever met. The more and more we talked I began to see so much of myself in him, it’s almost like we are the same person. The connection I feel to him is so easy for me to get lost it, so there are times when I have to pull myself away.  Even though I have only known my twin for a few months, it feels like I’ve known him my entire life.

The other thing with twins is that when they reconnect, this brings up a lot of old stuff that needs to be resolved and released. This aids in them becoming one again.  It’s this part of the twin connection that most people run away from. The good news is if one twin works on themselves then it helps both twins. The connection between twins is something that will always be there; and in most cases it’s so clear others see it too.

This is a topic I can’t really talk to others about, either they don’t understand, or they judge me. I am married and to most that means I am only supposed to hold love in my heart for my husband.  That simply is not how life works but just because I love my twin doesn’t mean I do not love my husband. If anything I love my husband more because of my twin. Since my twin came into my life my eyes and heart have been opened to a whole new level of love that I never knew existed until now. It’s a connection I will cherish for the rest of my life. I am different now because of my twin and for that I will forever be grateful.

The universe works in mysterious ways but she always has a way of working out for the best.

❤ Namaste


As my birthday and thanksgiving approach this week I find myself looking back at life. All the things I am thankful for, and just how much everything has changed.

It’s funny to me, little things change each day. They don’t seem to be too significant, just little changes here and there. But when you look back at everything, it’s totally different. Maybe you thought you’re somewhere you’d never thought you be, or you’re the person you never thought you could be. Things little happen to us each day that affect us. Life has a way of molding us into what it wants us to be. It is only us that define if it’s positive or negative. We decide the outcome of each moment; the outcome of our lives. With each passing event we choose how it will affect us; we choose what we cling to and what we let go of. It is simply all up to us.  This way of thinking is so refreshing to me, that I control the outcome of my life. Knowing that everything happens for a reason puts me at ease; that there are no mistakes, only lessons. You never really loose in the game of life, you only grow wiser and stronger.

There are positive things that happen every day, yet we put so much time and effort into the negative. Playing the pity game of poor me, and complaining about how awful life is. Negative is easy, it requires little to no thought, it’s comfortable, and it’s easy to get sucked into. It is easier to judge everyone else, than to judge yourself. I get it, it just isn’t okay with me. It doesn’t settle well with in me, I cannot be so lazy that I am controlled by mindlessness.

Seeing the brighter side of things will always be the way I choose, looking on the positive side makes me feel whole and complete; knowing that there is good to be found in everything. Just think of how beautiful the world would be if everyone gave into the light as easily as they give into the negative. If we all had empathy, kindness and endless love for one another; think of all that we would accomplish as a species. It would be incredibly beautiful, the true essence of humanity shining so blighting.


Birthday Love

Over the past few days I haven’t been feeling well so I have had no inspiration or any creativity to pull from. Hence, why I haven’t posted in a few days; I prefer quality over quantity. Anyways, my birthday is coming up next week so I have been doing everything I know to do so I feel better for my birthday and the upcoming holiday.

My husband surprised me and told me we were going out to dinner as an early birthday gift. So I took all my medicine, and got dressed to go out. Thank goodness by this point I was feeling better. We started to drive and as we got closer to the restaurant, I guessed where we were going.  This is something that happens pretty often, but I swear that his mind tells me. I truly believe we are linked telepathically. This is how I have ruined a lot of date nights and surprises because I just know what is going to happen. So we got to the restaurant and to my surprise all my friends started to walk in. The little stinker had set up this whole thing for me, which made me feel incredibly special. On top of that seeing all the people that came out to celebrate with me, just makes me feel so loved and special; it was truly heartwarming.

There are often times when I feel alone in the craziness of life but then to see all these faces around me to celebrate with me, just makes me see just how many people love and care about me too. This leads me to always remember that you are never truly alone; there is always someone out there that loves you. I had a wonderful time with everyone, I felt so light and free. These people are my soul tribe, the ones bring positivity to my life and nourish my soul. I will be forever grateful for these beautiful souls but then again they already know that.

Super Moon

The super moon was last night, how is everyone feeling today!?

Last night it was cloudy here so I was unfortunately unable to see the beautiful moon. I did my full moon ritual  so that I could release and bring more abundance into my life. I sat my favorite crystals out in the garden overnight. After doing my ritual, I instantly felt light and free; almost high. I thanked the universe, angels and spirit guide and went to bed.

I slept like a baby, I know that I went somewhere in my dream but don’t remember more than that. As I woke up, I felt a sense of peace and euphoria. I went to get the crystals I had left out, and they more amazing than ever. I can’t stop holding them, the energy is so magical. I am lighter than ever. I’ll be working keeping my vibration higher, and to be more open minded to others. Seeing lessons in everything that’s brought to me.

I hope each and every one of you are doing amazing, have a beautiful day! ❤

Brake free

The things I hide, the pain that I feel will go away. I no longer need pain to feel alive, or human. When pain comes my way I will feel it, find the lesson and then move on from it. Pain is not meant to define us; it only meant to teach us. Love is what defines us, how freely we love, even if we do not get it in return.  We all have something to teach one another. Love and laughter are the purest parts of the human experience.

I want to break away from the same traps that have always gotten the best of me. I will break away, I will be free.


Last night I had a dream of a woman, she spoke to me. I believe her to be one of my spirit guides but I am unsure. She told me that I am a light worker that I always have been. I am close to finding my life’s work/or density. She told me that I need to listen to the whole sentence. Then I woke up. This is the first dream I have remembered in weeks, so I know that this is impactful in some way; or has a meaning to it. So I am looking deeper within to find the true meaning.

The first thought that comes to my mind is the when someone is talking to me and I am over the topic I stop listening. I know they are still talking but I have no interest in engaging in this conversation so I shut it out. This happens often with my husband, I asked to move to the next topic and he doesn’t. So I just stop listening, and stop talking. Another way I take this is that I need to stay open to the words and thoughts of others that are unlike my own. That just because they do not see the world as I do doesn’t mean there options are less meaningful or truthful. To not discount another because I could learn something; or see something from an entirely different perspective. Most often truths are found from talking to another that are unlike us. If both parties stay open to the possibility of growth then there is knowledge to be gained. It is only when we stop listening that we block ourselves off and everything is lost.

I asked the spiritual group that I am in about this dream that I had, and one person said that it could mean to hear not only with our ears but with our hearts as well. In this time of great difference we must show others the way of the heart. Take time to listen fully; don’t put your own spin onto what others are saying. If you have questions, ask. If you don’t understand what someone says or why they think this way, ask. Slow down; take everything in before coming to your conclusion. Don’t be so quick to judge, and you may be surprised what you find. What is important is how I allow it to affect me, how it opens my eyes to the world around me; to new outlooks and perspectives of life. To slow down, to see things from the eyes of another; love and understanding are what we need now. I see that now.

There is much turmoil in the states right now, so much that’s affecting the collective. We all must slow down and take the time to hear what people are telling us. See things from a different point of view. Put yourself in the shoes of another. We all must come from a place of love and not fear. Fear is what has gotten us to where we are; only love can break through. Find positivity in your space, slow down and find happiness in your own life. By doing something as simple as that, you will spread that to everyone around you. Love is the only way, It is clearer to me than ever.

We still need awakened

What this American election has taught me is that there is still many people that need to be awakened. They still live in a fear state, and by choosing “the lesser of two evils” they don’t realize that they are still evil. Evil is a term that doesn’t even resonate with me, I feel like that is a man-made term to describe negativity; to install fear into each of us.

The election has shown me just how badly this country needs a positive change. How divided we truly are; it’s shown me how alive sexism, homophobia, sexual assault, and racism are. It weights heavy on my heart. I am not sure how the rest of you feel about this but that fact Americans thought the best choice for us was someone who embodies these things, it’s very disappointing and saddening. I am not a political person; I am not here to debate or argue. None of that gets you anywhere anyway; people only talk to be heard. I simply follow my morals and what feels true in my heart. That is how I have always lived my life and will always continue to. I wear my heart on my sleeve so that I stay connected to it.

Though I am sad at the moment, I have faith in the universe and in the divine. In order to find paradise we must first go through destruction. I feel like this was a huge turning point for us, and we decide the outcome.