While working on soul coaching today it once again made me think about a topic no one really talks about, death. When I think of how death is looked at in this society it is something to be feared. No one really talks about it and when we are faced with it, it’s always associated with sadness and despair. I know that some cultures celebrate life and have a party of it but that is rarely my experience with death.
When I was 14 years old, my grandmother passed away. This was my first experience with death. I was so upset at the loss of her; I remember that being one of the few times I hugged my grandfather so tightly. Their house wasn’t the same without her, it felt empty in a way. She had a beautiful spirit, so alive you couldn’t help but smile when you were around her. I am certain she had a negative side but I never saw it. I was unsure how to handle the death of someone I loved so deeply. All I could do is sit and think of all the wonderful memories we shared together. There is still a part of me that is sad she had to leave but the other part of me knows that she is know my guardian angel. She guides me and tells me when I’m on the right path and when I’m not.
My grandfather has since passed away, and his passing was much easier on me with this new way of thinking. I knew that he was ready to return home to all the ones he had lost. And that he and my grandmother would finally reunited after so much time apart. I had actually known my grandfather passed away before my mother told me. He had visited me after he passed; it was early in the morning hours. I was sound asleep, then suddenly for no reason I woke up. My grandfather’s energy was in the room, I could feel it. There was nothing said, I just knew he was at peace. My husband woke up and asked if I was okay. I told him “Poppy visited me, he has passed away.” I began to cry and said “Do you know what today is?” He looked at the clock and back at me and said “It’s your birthday” I smiled and said “Yes, but no that isn’t it. Today is grandma and poppy’s wedding anniversary.” When we returned home and my mother told me the news I was not shocked, I simply smiled.
So today I ask, are you ready for death? For me the answer is a simple yes. I have made peace with my past; I have let go of the baggage I carried around for so long. I have forgiven past situations, so that I can be free. I love with all I am and all I will be. I have spread love and happiness to all of those who have known me. If my life’s work is to come to an end today, I would be ready. The human experience is so challenging that returning home in my natural state of spirit seems like a dream. I have nothing to fear in death because I have lived a life of truth, love and happiness. I have died before and I will die again. Just as I as lived before and will live again. The only thing to fear, is fear itself.